honey

Chapter 43

Lu Zhan had a high fever again at night.

This is the sixth sudden high fever after the operation.

Gu Xichuan slept lightly, and woke up as soon as he noticed that the temperature on his hands was not right-this was a conditioned reflex from being frightened by Lu Zhan in the past half month.

He got up and turned on the light.

Although Lu Zhan was asleep, his brows were tightly frowned. Gu Qichuan was afraid that he was in pain, so he patted him on the shoulder lightly and called out a few times, but Xiaodeng seemed to be trapped in a dream and couldn't wake up at all.

This is not the first time to deal with this situation. Mr. Gu was not as flustered as before. He rang the bell, and then took out a thermometer to measure Lu Zhan's temperature. Everything was in order.

Five minutes later, the doctor came to the ward, and the thermometer jumped to 5.

Gu Xichuan made room for them, while he retreated to a corner by the wall.

The doctor stepped forward to rescue him, but the snow outside the window was still falling.

It's the end of winter, and the snow is still so dense. This winter seems to be impossible.

When the medicine was pierced into Luzhan's blood vessel through the long and thin needle, he woke up in pain.

Seeing that he was awake, Dr. Li called Mr. Gu back to the bedside. He discovered early in the morning that it was Gu Xichuan, not the special drug that could make the patient feel at ease.

Sometimes, people are just the most irreplaceable heart medicine.

Lu Zhan woke up from a nightmare. In the dream, he was strangled by thousands of people. Tens of thousands of hands grabbed his hair and forced him to look up. His eyes were forced to fall on the center of the stage. Looking at a man seems to be radiant, but to Lu Zhan, those lights are only dazzling.

"you love him."

Someone whispered in his ear.

"Do not…"

He tried to deny it.

"you love him."

"You must love him!"

"You have no right not to love him!!"

The "curse" that was yelled crazily turned into a huge wave and knocked down Lu Chan on the shore. He was submerged in the tide, unable to struggle. If he wanted to be rescued, he had to obey. That cowardly soul succumbed first. With pride and stubbornness, he obeyed for five years, but finally got the worst ending.

On the verge of death, his self-awareness recovered urgently, and he caught the dazzling light——Gu Xichuan's hand was grabbed by Lu Zhan again.

He saw Xiaozhan opened his eyes, looking at him almost affectionately like he woke up for the first time.

Immediately afterwards, there was that slight teasing feeling in the palm of my hand.

Gu Xichuan later found out that this action was like a small animal abandoned on the side of the road. Because he was afraid of being abandoned again, he could only carefully curry favor with the strange owner who was about to pick him up.

This is a flattering action, and it is a subconscious call for help.

The surrounding environment made him afraid, and he was extremely cautious even when asking for help.

The little lamp was burned out again.

Gu Xichuan turned to hold his hand, palm to palm, comforting softly: "Don't be afraid, I'm here."

His words were a hundred times better than tranquilizers. Lu Zhan visibly relaxed, but didn't speak, and quickly closed his eyes and fell asleep again.

Gu Xichuan could feel that his grip on him was gradually weakening, and his brows were no longer furrowed. This is when he really fell asleep.

Professor Li waited patiently until Lu Zhan stabilized, and then he asked Mr. Gu to come to his office softly.

It's 2:[-] am.

For the past half month, Gu Qichuan hadn't had a good night's sleep.

Lu Zhan was fine when he was awake during the day, but he always had various problems at night.

Dr. Li adhered to the attitude of being responsible for the patients, and even when he got older, Lu Zhan's illness relapsed at night, so he could always come as soon as possible.

"Is it dangerous for him to have a high fever repeatedly like this?" Gu Qichuan asked anxiously as soon as he sat down, "I originally thought that if the congestion was removed, people would get better."

Professor Li handed him a glass of warm water, pointed to Mr. Gu's dark circles, and answered the question: "You should pay more attention to rest."

Gu Qichuan obviously couldn't listen to these words.

It has been half a month since the operation, and Lu Zhan can stay awake longer and longer. Although it is only two hours at most, during those two hours, his little lamp is sticky and lively, which is not at all like As a patient, Gu Xichuan could see his exhaustion and weakness from Lu Zhan's face only when he was sleeping.

Although the doctor always said that his condition was stable, Mr. Gu couldn't make himself optimistic at all.

Professor Li could understand his mood. He opened Lu Zhan's medical records and said: "Two hours ago, I just discussed Lu Zhan's condition with a psychologist in the United States, and his thoughts were basically consistent with my initial judgment. .”

"Mr. Lu's amnesia had nothing to do with mental health problems at the beginning, but he was delayed for five years. During these five years, a certain amount of antidepressant psychotropic drugs had accumulated in his body, which must have negative effects on his mental health. Influence, this is the key point that cannot be ignored in postoperative treatment, do you still remember the dream that Mr. Lu once dictated?"

"..."

Gu Xichuan nodded. Lu Zhan told him that he always had the same nightmare, in which someone pinched his neck and forced him to project all his emotions onto a strange man.

This dream haunted Lu Zhan for half a month.

"Psychologically, this is called mental intrusion*." Dr. Li said: "Normal people may experience dizziness for a short time if they are slightly hit on the head. Not to mention Lu Zhan's level of internal injury."

"I once asked Mr. Lu about the details of his dream."

It is not easy to restore a dream. It took Professor Li a week to put together the dream fragments in Lu Zhan's mouth into a complete and reasonable scene:

"He said it was a noisy square, many people were cheering, colorful lights were shining everywhere, and when the music was playing, those crazy people suddenly grabbed him by the neck, forcing him to order him, and everyone Shouting the same slogan. This kind of scene is rare in normal life. Based on the actual situation of Lu Zhan in the past five years and the special occupation of his ex-husband, I boldly guess that after the car accident, he should have participated in similar For events such as concerts or celebrity meetings, most people at the scene have a passionate love for a certain idol. They waved their flags and shouted the same slogan. Lu Zhan was in this environment with a fragile consciousness , almost tantamount to being brainwashed."

Gu Qichuan heard the doctor's words, that idol could only be Qin Zhuo.

He asked unwillingly: "What if there is someone who has nothing to do with him standing on the stage? Will he also fall in love?"

Professor Li nodded: "Few people can bear such a strong psychological suggestion. Thinking in a positive direction, if it was Mr. Gu who was on the stage, then you two should be very happy now."

Gu Qichuan said sadly: "It would be great if time can go backwards."

Dr. Li said: "His condition is similar to schizophrenia, but not exactly the same. Under the triple effect of brain injury, environmental brainwashing, and long-term medication, he has a deep obsession with Qin Zhuo. Most likely, this obsession has nothing to do with his own subjective emotions, but a forced sense of responsibility, he should love this person, and there is no other way but to love this person.”

"Lu Zhan may have been sober, but without outside help, it is impossible for him to stay awake all the time. After the operation, Lu Zhan's self-consciousness gradually became dominant as the congestion dissipated, but he is still stuck in the In the quicksand of psychotropic drugs, to save a person trapped in the quicksand, apart from patience, the more important thing is to save yourself, which is why I suggest you to instill memory in him bit by bit instead of continuing to conceal it.”

"A person with a blank memory can't find his original self. Only when Mr. Lu remembers everything in the past can he truly recover."

"..." Gu Qichuan said: "I dug out the email records of those 8 years, which contained the epitome of Lu Zhan's youth. I originally only wanted him to remember these happy things, but as you said, he needs In the past few days, I have told him many things, including his father, his career ideals, and even the reason for the misdiagnosis."

Lu Zhan's life was not going well. Gu Qichuan learned the details of these things mainly through the investigation materials handed over by private investigators. When Lu Zhan was really hit by these things, he was thousands of miles away and hadn't come to him at all.

In the past few days, he and Lu Zhan were alone, leading him to think of the past little by little, as if he had experienced these things again, but this time, Gu Xichuan was always by his side.

Even if Lu Zhan knew that these things had happened to him, he could no longer sympathize with the pain at that time. He was like reading a storybook, but it happened that the protagonist of the story had the same name and surname as him. In the past time and space, even himself.

Lu Zhan would be angry and puzzled by those things, but he didn't feel very painful. He knew that Su Meng was an unethical doctor, he knew that he had always wanted to reverse the case for his father, and he also knew that he had been a teacher and an architect who could not be signed , I know that I have to listen to Xi Chuan, hold my breath, and take good care of my body to defeat those villains.

Gu Xichuan believes that the real little lamp will never be willing to forget it, but he does not force Lu Zhan to remember all the details. He only needs Lu Zhan to know what he has encountered, and to know who is good and who is bad. In the future, in court, those who have harmed him can be accurately identified, and they can be sent to prison with their own hands.

"But you still have something to hide."

Professor Li directly cut to the point: "You erased the existence of Qin Zhuo, erased those five years, and erased the marriage relationship between them that just died out."

Gu Xichuan's selfishness was punctured, the water in the glass was steaming, the emotion in his eyes was hazy in the mist, and his tone was as cold as the ice outside: "Is a rapist still eligible to be remembered by Lu Zhan?"

When the private detective was digging up Qin Zhuo's scandal, he inadvertently learned some details from his classmates. Lu Zhan was drunk and unconscious when he was taken away. Gu Qichuan can reasonably suspect that Qin Zhuo was ignoring Lu Zhan at the beginning. She had a relationship with him at her own will.

And that day happened to be the day he went abroad.

If Qin Zhuo hadn't appeared, Lu Zhan might have been able to ask himself for help, and he would not have left so decisively, and everything would not have come to this point.

Even if he doesn't have complete evidence, as long as there is this suspicion, Qin Zhuo's death is not a pity.

Professor Li suddenly heard this statement, and instantly understood Gu Qichuan's concealment.

Gu Xichuan said: "You also said that he can't be stimulated. Lu Zhan may be able to remember the past by himself, but please don't ask me to remind him of these misfortunes. Doing so will not hurt Lu Zhan or me. It's a cruel torture."

Dr. Li said: "...I am sorry for what happened to Mr. Lu, and I respect your wishes."

The author says:

*The theory of mental invasion is purely made up by the author. All the content related to medicine is only for the plot, so there is no need to be true~