Offensive change: superficial love

Chapter 68

"Xiao Ju, I..." Bo Lu has never heard Yan Ju say so many words at once, nor has he experienced such violent mood swings.

For a moment, he didn't know how to respond to the other party, obviously he has always been good at sophistry, and he is also used to finding loopholes in the redundant emotions of "preys" to cause fatal injuries.

But Bai Lu seems to have lost this ability at this time, he has never been so at a loss.

He was almost raped by his father's women several times when he was a child. He didn't panic, but calmly used these sufferings to help himself and his mother win a lot of things.

A little older, he has used this ability that can be called a talent very proficiently. Although he is still an illegitimate child in name, he is appreciated by his father and treated even better than the children of his original spouse. a lot of.

His life is progressing smoothly through careful calculations, and Yan Ju can be regarded as the first setback he encounters.

From the moment Bo Lu stood on the podium as a teaching assistant and made eye contact with Yan Ji in the classroom, Bo Lu realized that the other party was special.

He can't help but go to talk to the other party, he likes to see the slightly frowning brows of the other party when he encounters difficulties, and even in his dreams are Yan Jie's beautiful eyes that sparkle when he is happy.

It's a pity that Yan Ju seems to be a bit slow in distinguishing faces. After a semester, Yan Ju still can't recognize him when we meet him outside the classroom.

Only in the tutoring class, the other party would occasionally smile and wave to him, but he would just call him "senior" distantly, as if he never planned to remember his name.

It was the first time that Bai Lu felt that a person was special, and it was also the first time that he involuntarily wanted to get close to a person, but the other person didn't seem to take him seriously.

This really made him unhappy.

But probably it was Yan Ji who made his emotional management ability a little out of control. At the end of the semester, Professor Guo, who was in charge of him, returned his application form for re-employment, and said, "I feel that he is very capable, and the students in this class are basically Very good, so I hope he can help other classes", reminded him euphemistically.

It was only at that moment that Bo Lu realized that this freshman named Yan Ju had seriously affected his life plan to avoid any accidents.

He thanked Professor Guo for not being explicit, and resolutely and simply avoided all possible encounters with Yan Ji.

It was not easy, after all, it was the same college, freshman, freshman and sophomore had many overlapping classrooms, but Bai Lu was rigorous enough in everything he did, so he didn't see Yan Ji again for three months, until the end of autumn that year , near the mid-term.

Bo Lu just finished meeting with the marriage partner selected by his father for him. The Bai family is more open to things like sexuality. The other party is a gentle and timid little boy. He just kept an embarrassed smile throughout the whole process and couldn't understand what they were talking about. Business matters, and he couldn't understand the jokes thrown by Bai Lu.

Very boring.

Bo Lu couldn't think of anything else about such a person, but his father seemed very satisfied.

He told Bo Lu in an almost indifferent tone that the boy had been raped in middle school, which left him with a serious psychological shadow, so the family did not have any extra hopes for the only son, and hoped that after marriage, Bo Lu would marry him and help him fight. management industry.

Bo Lu didn't think he was against it, after all, these things in the name were irrelevant, he could slowly devour everything from the other party's family, and he could still find a way to get the foundation of the Bai family.

His father valued him, although he didn't say it explicitly, but that's probably what he meant.

Marriage partners who have experienced that kind of experience are easy to choose, which is really a very good thing for the Bai family.

Bo Lu is intellectually satisfied, but he is inexplicably irritable in his heart, as if clamoring for him to win over someone else.

Bo Lu, who couldn't calm down in the dormitory, finally chose to go to the computer room on the top floor of the library of the School of Economics and Management. The equipment here is relatively old, so fewer students are willing to come here to catch up with homework.

But that day was surprisingly rare, so that as soon as Bai Lu entered the door, he saw the person he had avoided for the past few months.

Yan Ju was sleeping with two exercise books on his pillow, sleeping peacefully in the dim light, the small red mole at the inner corner of his eye was hidden under the trembling eyelashes, and the floor lamp scattered hazy light spots on his side face, Probably because the temperature of the indoor air conditioner was turned on relatively high, which made his fair skin a little pink.

By the time Bo Lu realized it, he had already involuntarily walked to Yan Ji's side, and Yan Ji, who was awakened by the sound of footsteps, also leisurely opened his eyes.

He didn't seem to recognize who Bo Lu was, but he felt that there were so many vacant seats, and this person who insisted on coming over was a bit offensive. Yan Jue narrowed his eyes, frowned slightly, and went on He picked up his things and left.

After returning to the dormitory that night, Bai Lu couldn't close his eyes almost all night, and fell asleep until dawn, but in his hazy dream, Yan Ji's indifferent appearance was still there.

He wanted the other party to show some different emotions in front of him.

Bai Lu vaguely made a decision.

He refused the marriage, and suffered from his father's sap. This was the first time he followed his own wish, instead of trying his best to do things that would satisfy his father.

Bo Lu felt that he was abnormal, but he didn't want to admit what caused the birth of this abnormality.

He deceived himself and attributed this impulsiveness and madness to "the desire to win", "unreconciled", "the pursuit of perfect things", and "he deserves the most special person".

The only thing I dare not admit is that I like it.

The emotion of "like" is really beyond the control of Bai Lu. He refuses to have changes in his planned life, so he can only avoid such things that are easy to make people irrational.

Bo Lu felt that as long as he didn't admit it, Yan Ju's specialness would always remain at the level that he could let go of at any time.

I just want to have him.

Not trying to love him.

At least that's how Bai Lu convinced himself.

So Bo Lu began to observe and approach for a long time, but the more he knew about the other party, the more he couldn't help being curious.

Yan Ju has always been a calm person, he is close to everyone, and he is not intimate with anyone.

He seems to have accepted his fate early and rejected any drama in his life, but also seems to be dissociated from the world, just floating there quietly, never overly resisting, but no one can drag him down.

He doesn't seem to need anything, and nothing superficial can move him in the slightest.

Bo Lu asked someone to check Yan Ji's background carefully, and learned a lot, but he was not very useful. Yan Ji seemed to have adjusted himself very well. If he rashly showed that he knew about the affairs of the other party's family, it would make the other party disgust.

So in the end, he can only choose to create some coincidences, to create some coincidences that can make him look different.

Countless chance encounters, illegally helping Yan Ji to sabotage during business competitions, being seen by him again, caring day after day, and some actions that would make the other party feel sudden.

Although he was often beaten, Bai Lu's goal was achieved.

He just wants to confuse Yan Ji's calm emotions, because only in this way will the other party make choices that do not conform to past laws.

Until that day, a strange man came to the student union to look for Yan Yu, seeing how the other party looked like Yan Yuba, Bai Lu's heart beat several times faster.

He realized that the opportunity he had been waiting for had come.

Bai Lu hid some of the things the man gave him, and changed some of them.

For example, the other party never proposed to meet Yan Ju from the beginning to the end, but just wanted to give Yan Ju his contact information abroad in the future, so as not to break the father-son relationship like this.

In the letter he wrote, he only mentioned that he had difficulties, and hoped that Yan Ju would not call the police, at least until he left the country tomorrow, and the only ticket to the musical was just to better prove his identity , rather than a convention.

Bo Lu felt that the contact information would come in handy in the future, so he stayed and bought two new tickets, which were handed over to Yan Ji after several hours.

In the evening, he met the distraught Yan Yan at the entrance of the theater on time. When he hugged the other's shoulder and was not rejected, Bo Lu knew that he had finally succeeded...

But he didn't get the love he expected, and Yan Jue was with him, but he still looked like he couldn't grasp it.

Bo Lu knew that the other party was dissatisfied with some of his ways of handling things, but Yan Jue never mentioned it to him. He could feel the slight liking from the other party's tolerance, but those sporadic likings could never be chased. Shangyan is grateful to him.

Yan Jue never made demands on him, and would satisfy all his expectations as if he had completed a task. He never resisted, but never took the initiative to kiss and hug him. Even on the bed, he never showed an expression of indulgence. In that instant, a crack appeared in Yan Ju's indifferent look.

In Yan Ju's amber pupils, there seemed to be a gentle affection forever, and it seemed to be a black hole that could never be filled.

Bai Lu is tortured by the fear of not being able to keep the other party every day, and he can't tell whether Yan Ju likes him or is grateful based on falsehood.

He also couldn't tell whether his feelings were caused by the desire to conquer and possess, or whether he allowed those unexplained likings to grow into admiration after being exiled again and again.

But it is too late to do self-reflection now, Bai Lu can only ignore it as much as possible, and still does not have the courage to admit it.

This anxiety reached its peak after the other party returned to his hometown.

Bai Lu couldn't understand why Yan Jie wanted to break up with him just because he couldn't accompany him because of an important matter at the moment.

Combining with the past experience of the other party, Bo Lu can only attribute this decisive abandonment to Yan Jue who is only grateful to him and has little affection for him.

Although Yan Ji's heart softened in the end and the two did not really separate, Bai Lu gradually began to avoid Yan Ji's eyes.

He was afraid that he would not find love in it, and he was even more afraid that the love he found in it was just his own illusion.

The relationship between the two gradually became estranged. Yan Ju used to be a little special to Bo Lu, but after that, Bo Lu even felt that the other party treated those friends who were slightly better than when he was with him.

How could he be willing to be ignored like this, so Bai Lu also suppressed his desire to be intimate with the other party, put on a look of indifference and alienation, and retaliated by performing his ease in this relationship to show that he is still Have the initiative.

But what Bai Lu waited for was Yan Ji's second proposal to break up after a small quarrel.

However, he finally found a solution. A friend recommended a customized teacher. On the surface, in the name of emotional and marriage counseling, he could provide a highly targeted "relationship repair plan" in private.

Of course Bo Lu knew what was wrapped under the beautified decoration, but he paid the money anyway and started practicing it step by step.

Yan Ji is a person with simple social relationships and a strong sense of morality. Unless his bottom line is touched, he will generally not have a temper.

Therefore, Bai Lu procrastinated the other party, did not really agree to Yan Jue's breakup, and began to awaken the shadows of Yan Jue's past layer by layer through the inseparable relationship and contact in their careers.

The effect is still obvious.

It seems that Yan Ji really relied on him more, and in the next three years, their relationship became more and more stable, Yan Ji became more and more controllable, and his behavior patterns and living conditions gradually approached the ones drawn up in the plan. Good stability, rigid.

He was still floating in the air, but Bai Lu finally found the thread that could hold him.

Bai Lu's anxiety dissipated, and he was no longer tormented by those feelings that he dared not admit.

Because it doesn't matter to them anymore.

Bo Lu has a way to keep Yan Jie, no matter how much he likes the other party, anyway, he can only, only willing to stay by his side.

that's enough.

Bo Lu felt that he was easy to be satisfied.

He just wants to have Yan Ji, not necessarily his wholehearted love.

But people always stumble, and the Bai family has been in chaos for more than a year, and Bai Lu really doesn't have the energy to bet too much on Yan Ji.

The plan to tie Yan Jie is progressing smoothly, and it seems that there will be no surprises. He has more important things to do now.

But the accident still happened.

There was no sign, or there may have been a sign, but it was ignored by the busy Bai Lu.

Yan Yu completely lost control.

Bo Lu still didn't want to admit that it was his fault, but he couldn't bear to blame Yan Ju, so he could only transfer all his anger to the boy who seduced Yan Ju, but what the assistant found out made him feel deeply powerless.

The only heir of the Chu family.

It's not like he can vent his anger if he wants to.

But the appearance of Yan Ju and Chu Ruxu when they were together was too dazzling.

Bo Lu never knew that Yan Ju could show such an expression, let alone that he was willing to try that kind of rough and radical sex.

Yan Ju has always been indifferent in front of him, he has no desires, he can only follow the other party carefully, never dare to make too many demands, not even a word of excessive love.

He really can't figure out Yan Ji's likes and dislikes, Bo Lu can only get along with the other party cautiously, strictly follow the plan that helped him keep Yan Ji, and can't easily reveal any of his wishes, for fear that if he mishandles, Yan Ju in the chaos will suddenly be awakened.

They haven't seen each other for more than a month, but this Chu Ruxu can get such sincere admiration from Yan Ju.

Why?

Bai Lu couldn't accept it.

Why did he have to rely on precise calculations to obtain all the things he wanted to have, why did he try so cautiously to keep his lover, Yan Ji still wanted to leave.

And why, this Chu Ruxu, who obviously has a similar background to him, can get everything easily.

Listening to "I don't care", "I like him", "He is my lover, I have an obligation to protect him" in Yan Ju's mouth...

Bai Lu just thought it was absurd.

Why did Chu Ruxu get firm favoritism, all he got was accusations.

But the issues Yan Jie accused were all facts, and he didn't even know where to quibble.

Bai Lu was both angry and painful.

What angered him was that he felt that Yan Ju should not have known about those and that he should not have been lax in his lack of crisis awareness, and what was painful was that he finally realized that things had developed to the present situation and it was irreversible.

"Xiao Jie, I really love you..." Bo Lu confessed in a low voice with some confusion, "I don't know where I made the mistake, but I, I just want you to stay by my side... ..."

Although Yan Ji didn't believe it, he could feel the sincerity in the other party's words, but he only felt that Bo Lu was pathetic.

You know, during the six years they were in love, Bo Lu never said the word "love" to himself.

Of course, he didn't say anything, the two of them seemed to be competing with each other, and neither of them wanted to bow their heads first.

"Forget it, Bai Lu." Yan Ju still frowned, but his tone softened a lot, "I don't want to argue with you about those things before, you should be content."

"Next Monday, I will send a lawyer to the company again." Yan Ju said in a business-like manner, "I hope you can cooperate actively. Let's get together and break up, and don't really get to the point of litigation."

After finishing speaking, Yan Ju hung up the phone as if he didn't want to talk nonsense with him anymore.

He took a deep breath, and just when he was about to take out a cigarette from the cigarette case and light it, he heard soft footsteps coming from the stairs on the second floor.

Yan Ju looked at his own reflection through the mirror in the living room.

His expression was dignified, the ends of his eyes and brows were flushed with anger, and the fingertip that he used to put out the smoke when he was excited just now had a small blister.

Anyway, looking left and right, it doesn't look like someone who can face Chu Ruxu - the little boyfriend will definitely be worried when he sees him.

So Yan Jue immediately picked up the coat on the sofa, walked towards the door, and said "I'm going out to buy breakfast", and didn't care whether Chu Ruxu heard it or not, picked up the umbrella and ran away.

The living room became quiet again, only the sound of Chu Ruxu going down the stairs echoed in the room.

Chu Ruxu flattened the corner of her mouth, looked in the direction where Yan Ju left, frowned, her always docile and smiling eyes in front of Yan Ju returned to their original sharpness, it was hard not to see that she was in a subtly bad mood.

Chu Ruxu walked to the dining table, but when she lowered her head, she found Yan Jie's phone.

Only then did he feel less sullen, and wrinkled his nose slightly.

I didn't bring anything, what kind of breakfast to buy.

The faint scent of citrus from Yan Ju's body still lingered in the air, but it was almost completely covered by the strong smell of cigarettes.

Smoked at least two or three.

Thinking of this, Chu Ruxu's eyes darkened, and the displeasure that had just disappeared returned almost instantly.

He picked up Yan Ji's lost cell phone, unlocked it, clicked on the call history, and called the nearest contact directly.

The effect of the waiting tone is almost nothing, and it only rang twice before being quickly picked up by the other party.

The person on the other side of the receiver was obviously a little unbelievable, and his tone was excited and puzzled: "Xiao Ju? Why do you—"

Before he finished speaking, Chu Ruxu spoke directly, mercilessly interrupting the other party's unrealistic fantasy.

"Boss." His tone was as cold as ice.

Bo Lu was slightly taken aback, but quickly realized that he was not prepared to hide his hostility towards Chu Ruxu: "Chu Ruxu, what are you doing?"

But Chu Ruxu didn't answer his question directly, but paused in silence for a moment, and then laughed softly, as if thinking of something happy, and didn't take Bo Lu seriously.

"I didn't want to do anything at first, but you really don't listen to persuasion." Chu Ruxu sighed lightly, as if she really felt sorry for Bai Lu, "I remember I warned you when we met last time."

"I just want Yan Ju to be happy every day, why do you insist on making him unhappy?" Chu Ruxu's tone became deeper and deeper, the gentle sunshine that was unique to teenagers completely disappeared in her voice, and danger lingered between the lines.

He was really too lazy to wait for Bo Lu to answer, and like a superior superior, he succinctly threatened: "If you haven't secured your position yet, don't worry about other things."

"Next Monday, you'd better not let Yan Ju down." Chu Ruxu sneered, "Otherwise, I don't mind randomly picking one of your brothers and sisters who are waiting to find your fault."

"Bai Lu."

"Do you understand?"

The author says:

Come, come, come -3-

When this chapter was almost finished, the computer crashed, and I was dumbfounded. Fortunately, there is a backup on the phone, otherwise the update tonight will be gone orz