Offensive change: superficial love

Chapter 77

"Qianqian." Yan Ju, who finally came back to his senses, patted Chu Qianqiu on the back, his heart beating violently. He seemed to have guessed something, and asked softly, "The birthday party you mentioned, is it?" How old was Ruxu?"

Chu Qianqiu slowly let go of Yan Ju's hand, recalled briefly, and gave the answer with a smile: "Five years ago, that should be 14 years old."

really.

it is as expected.

Yan Ji seemed to straighten everything out suddenly at this moment.

Why Chu Ruxu was caught off guard by his feelings and was inexplicable, why he sometimes showed such a strong sense of anxiety, why he would use such a sad expression when the two had sex for the first time, saying that they knew each other a long time ago , but Yan Ji forgot...

Yes, he forgot.

But why would he forget?

Yan Yu was a little confused.

He just vaguely remembered that he was not in a good mood that day, and he was very rude to leave the venue early without even waiting for the speech. Because of this incident, Bo Lu and him had some troubles.

Why on earth are you here?

Suddenly, Yan Ju inexplicably remembered Chu Ruxu's dodge when he asked him the date of his birthday last time.

And when the two first met, Chu Ruxu accidentally mentioned that he had just celebrated his birthday...

An answer came to Yan Ji's mind.

"Is it June [-]nd?" His voice was hoarse.

Although Yan Jue didn't answer the whole question, Chu Qianqiu still understood. Seeing Yan Jue's sad expression, he nodded anxiously, and asked cautiously, "Brother Yanyan, what's the matter?" ?”

Yan Jie frowned slightly, and his clenched fists were even trembling indistinctly, obviously trying to suppress his emotions.

He finally knew why Chu Ruxu didn't dare to tell him the date of his birthday, and finally remembered why he was not in a good mood and left the birthday party early.

Yan Jue's emotions at this time are too complicated, there are surprises and frustrations, and even a little bit dumbfounded about his lover.

How can there be such a fool in the world...

He took a deep breath, trying to make his tone sound calm and gentle, so as not to frighten Chu Qianqiu who was already nervous because he thought he had done something wrong: "Qianqian, can you give me the address of Ruxu's house?" Brother?"

"Brother didn't mean to be unhappy, but, um..."

"Want to confirm something."

……

Qianqian is a qualified little traitor.

Obedient, easy to coax, and easy to deceive.

It didn't take much effort for Yan Ju to get the address and password of Chu Ruxu's house on the outskirts of the city.

As a reward, Yan Jue also gave Chu Qianqiu his secondary card, allowing him to eat whatever he wants at night, buy whatever he wants, with no limit, and spend whatever he wants.

The kid who had his pocket money stopped by Chu Ruxu recently because he secretly returned home was overjoyed, and immediately turned his back on him more sincerely, as if he was "abandoning the dark and turning to the bright", ready to say whatever he wants.

The car stopped outside a somewhat old neighborhood, Yan Ju looked around and recognized where it was.

Most of this old community are resettlement houses built more than [-] years ago. Most of the current residents are tenants who are migrant workers, and some even don’t sign any formal contracts. Ningcheng is famous for its security. unstable.

Yan Yu couldn't help frowning.

Although this living condition is still far from that kind of crumbling dilapidated house, for Chu Jing's background, letting his son live alone in such an environment with mixed fish and dragons and frequent population movements is considered harsh treatment.

Especially after seeing the rusty unit door and the door lock that had been vandalized many times, the uncomfortable feeling in Yan Ju's heart became louder.

Why would you do this to a child?

What's wrong with Chu Ruxu...

I heard from Chu Qianqiu that Chu Jing had immigrated him and his mother as soon as he turned one year old. After that, Chu Ruxu, who was only five or six years old, was "evicted" from the old house, which is nearly three kilometers away from the city center. An hour's drive away, I live alone, and only when I have three meals a day, can I see the nanny who comes to cook.

Does he feel lonely?It must be scary at night...

Yan Ju went to the top floor with a serious expression, and stood outside the dark green security door, he even began to hate Chu Jing instead of his lover.

He entered his birthday as the password, and the door lock opened.

Yan Ju blinked his dry eyes, even at this point, he still couldn't believe it.

All of this is too dramatic, too wonderful and beautiful to be real.

The inside of the house is very tidy, but a thin layer of dust has fallen on the furniture. Obviously, the owner of the house is probably "lost to leave" recently, and never thought of coming back to clean it.

Thinking of this, the corners of Yan Ju's lips curved unconsciously.

Time and space seemed to be distorted at this moment. When the little Chu Ruxu was overcoming his fear alone here, the 12-year-old Yan Ju was also curled up at his home thousands of miles away, enduring his own loneliness. .

Yan Yu couldn't help but feel a little regretful.

Because even if they were given another chance to live again, he couldn't help Chu Ruxu, and Chu Ruxu couldn't save him.

Suffering happens too soon.

I didn't even have the patience to wait until the moment when the two were able to deal with it calmly.

According to Chu Qianqiu's prompt, Yan Ju found the room in the other party's description exactly.

He was actually a little nervous. This kind of behavior of spying on other people's secrets was something he had never done before.

But Yan Ju really wanted to figure it out.

Chu Ruxu wouldn't have told him. If Qianqian hadn't slipped his mouth, Yan Ju felt that the other party might never bring it up.

He even felt that Chu Ruxu could do something like empty the room and change the date on the ID card by the way.

The kid is really sensitive to the bad parts of the past, and he seems determined, and he doesn't intend to let himself feel anything less than perfect in him.

But Yan Yu didn't want to do that.

He slowly turned the doorknob, his heart beating faster, and the moment the latch was fully retracted, the thin barrier automatically bounced open.

Yan Ji's breathing even became short due to the scene he saw, a brand new world appeared in front of him——

Chu Ruxu's small bedroom is cramped but orderly, but on the wall beside the bed and the desk, there are scattered photos of Yan Ji.

Those photos seemed to be quite old. They were probably taken secretly from the tall buildings of the Ningda Forum, or they were collected from some school newspapers.

Yan Ju approached and observed carefully, only to find that some interviews from his own business magazines were mixed in.

This was at least three or four years ago. Since the company's business has stabilized completely, he has never accepted such an invitation with a marketing nature.

Yan Ju lightly touched his unfamiliar face with his fingertips, and there was a bit of strange satisfaction in his bewildered mood.

He even began to wonder if he was really abnormal.

When seeing these things, maybe panic is the proper expression, so Chu Ruxu felt that it was necessary to hide it from herself.

It can be said that Ju did not feel any fear.

He only had a touch of surprise and deep curiosity.

What did I do back then to leave such a deep impression on the 14-year-old Chu Ruxu?

Yan Ju wanted to reflect on himself a little bit. To a certain extent, he couldn't help worrying about whether he was suspected of spoiling adolescent children.

Chu Ruxu's desk was a bit empty, probably after moving back to the old house, most of the useful materials were taken away, and these things about the other party's secret thoughts were not convenient for anyone to find out, so Chu Ruxu stayed here .

Judging from the dust on the coffee table in the living room, Chu Ruxu would come back at least once in a few weeks.

Yan Yu couldn't help laughing.

The children are still cautious.

This room arrangement, which looks similar to a stalker, is indeed not suitable for hiring other people to help clean it.

There are two thick scrapbooks on the table, which also collect a lot of things about Yan Ji.

The projects contracted by their company in the newspaper were cut down, the investment trends printed out on the Internet, all kinds of things about Yan Ji when he was an outstanding student in college, his post mentioned in the school forum a few years ago, and even the building The high-rise where he and Bai Lu's love affair were discussed...

It was only then that Yan Ju realized belatedly that these were actually information on public platforms.

Chu Ruxu carefully and carefully, in a way that is as non-offensive as possible, pays attention to the words that he can come into contact with.

This doesn't look like the behavior of a suitor at all, but more like a well-measured fan.

Chu Ruxu just quietly followed those public traces, even though in his capacity, there were countless opportunities to get close to him and truly know himself.

But he chose not to get close, never to disturb Yan Ji's private life, and never intended to let Yan Ji be troubled by his hidden feelings.

Chu Ruxu just fell in love with Yan Ju silently, without any action, and never intending to show his heart.

He piously and firmly maintains the bottom line of morality, hopelessly abides by the rules he made for himself——

"You can't chase, you can only wait."

Until the day he learned that Yan Ju and Bai Lu had broken up...

The tip of Yan Yan's nose was inexplicably sour. He put the scrapbook back to its original position, sat down gently on the chair in front of the table, calmed down briefly, and finally opened the diary-like notebook.

Rather than saying it is a diary, it is better to say that this is a "safe house" for Chu Churu to vent his emotions.

The paper inside was yellowed and wrinkled, evident from age.

But the content is not rich, less than half of the inner pages are written, and it seems that they are all related to Yan Ji.

[After hesitating for a long time, I decided to start recording things about him in this way. My memory is not very good. I am afraid that these memories may fade and disappear one day.

But I don't want to forget him.

Today, I was forced by Chu Jing to participate in a charity fundraiser. I finally saw him again, and I also knew his name was Yan Ju. He was indeed one of the invited guests that day.

There was a man beside him, who seemed to be the one who came to pick him up that day.

I heard from others that they are lovers who accompanied them all the way from their school days.

He smiled happily, the man looked at him with gentle eyes, and they looked happy and well-matched.

But I still can't help but want to pay attention to him, I want to try to be good enough, I want to stand in front of him again, I want to say thank you to him in a fair way. ]

[I actually started collecting news and interviews about him, what a pervert, I want to spit on myself.

But I can't help it.

I'm like crazy.

For the college entrance examination, I want to fill in his university, the same major.

I can't tell the reason, but maybe I just want to get closer to him. Pei Yanqiu calls this "the power of role models". I think he is sick, and he said such hypocritical things.

I'm going to be 17 soon, and I'm a lot taller this year, so Chu Jing can't beat me.

If it was before, I would definitely want to find a chance to kill him before I became an adult, but now I just want to gradually become stronger until the day he can't move, and then tell the doctor to give up the treatment and inherit his company and all his money.

I really want to get to know Yan Ju, but I don't want Chu Jing to find out, who knows if that lunatic will do anything bad to him in order to torture me.

Trouble, can Chu Jing die quickly?

I really want to grow up quickly. ]

[Damn, passed the exam!Three points, as long as the test is less than three points, you will not be able to get in!

Chu Jing found out that he has dementia, haha, his blessing, when he becomes a fool, I will slap him every day.

Double happiness, I'm awesome!Chu Jing is such an idiot.

This year, the company that Qian Ze worked with had some rumors, but I still didn't dare to attend the mid-year meeting.

I'm not good enough to stand in front of him.

And I don't like his boyfriend very much, I feel that he is very similar to Chu Jing.

Alas, I can suddenly understand those star-chasing students in the class.

This feeling that no one in the world is worthy of "brother" is really subtle.

Hey, this year's birthday wish shouldn't be "I want Chu Jing to die quickly".

Can it be changed?

Hope they break up soon.

Forget it, don't think about it, Ning Da, I'm coming! ]

Seeing this, Yan Ju burst out laughing.

Is this notebook Chu Ruxu's second personality?Where did the grumpy kid come from.

How can you scold someone so cutely...

Yan Jue could even imagine that Chu Ruxu in high school was frowning, lying at the table with a disgruntled expression, celebrating Chu Jing's illness arrogantly, while making complaints about Bo Lu, and in the end he didn't forget to praise himself for being awesome.

He bent his eyes and turned another page, but the content of this page changed its style.

[In today's class, Professor Guo mentioned his name, and the pride and appreciation in his tone was not intended to be concealed at all. My heart was about to jump out of my throat, and I was so excited that I almost stood up.

But the more I get to know him, the sadder it becomes.

I didn't understand why at first. Shouldn't I be happy to see the dazzling appearance of the person I admire?

To this day, I've heard from people that they may be getting married next year.

I was so angry that I was about to lose control.

I really wanted to rush up to him and tell him that that person wasn't right for him and that he deserved a better partner.

But after calming down, I kept asking myself, what kind of person is suitable for him?

nobody.

I don't want anyone around him but me.

I suddenly realized that in the past few years, this gratitude has unknowingly turned into admiration, and admiration has turned into obsession. Obsession was nourished in the process of self-indulgence, and gradually grew into I don't know the look.

It caught off guard and spread into likes.

I realized it, but what's the use?

He is so perfect, it is so normal to like him, as if no one would dislike him.

I saw his and Bo Lu's love story in the forum, when they were together, we hadn't even seen each other.

I'm just a 13-year-old kid, not even qualified to be jealous.

He may not remember me anymore.

He'd better not remember me at all.

I was so embarrassed that day.

His clothes were covered in mud spots from a fall, and his face was bloody except for the rain. He was dirty and ugly, like a stray dog ​​who had lost a fight.

That's the description, it's so apt.

He just fed the stray dogs on the side of the road on a whim on that rainy night.

But I have been despicably thinking about him ever since.

He was so gentle, not only kindly helped me celebrate my birthday, cleaned my wound, but also comforted me before leaving.

But how do I repay him?Like a shady thing, only dare to look up at him secretly, not even the courage to take the initiative to thank him, maybe one day he finds out, probably only feel disgusted? ]

[I'm not good enough to stand in front of you openly.Can you not get married? 】

【I really want to be picked up by you...】

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