follow the light, fly

Chapter 62 Chapter 62

"Foreshadowing?" Lu Mingsu asked blankly.

"It is precisely because of this that after more than ten years, he has a great lack of emotion in his mind," Bai Lin held the cigarette between his fingertips, "as long as someone treats him a little better, he will sink his whole heart into it. No matter what kind of thoughts the other party has, he will devote himself to that person."

Lu Mingsu suddenly remembered that in the third year of junior high school, he had only accompanied him to climb the mountain a few times and watch the sunrise a few times. After that, no matter what request he made, Ni Yan would always agree, helping him with homework, copying the exam for him, and being caught by the teacher. And even topped the bag for him.

"The sophomore year in high school was a hurdle in his life." Bai Lin put the cigarette butt out in the ashtray, "Here's another one... One day when he participated in a concert at school, he sang on stage. At that time, he still didn't have to sing." Wearing a mask, he likes the stage, and likes to sing for others, but... because of that song, he met someone..."

"Who?" Lu Mingsu was startled, with a vague premonition.

"A man in his 30s," Bai Lin said. "After Ni Yan stepped down, that man approached him and said that he was a music teacher and wanted to teach Ni Yan. Ni Yan bluntly said that his family had no money, so he refused, but that The man kept pestering him, saying that he cherishes his talent and doesn't charge any fees. Ni Yan was dubious at first and was very vigilant, but later he found out that this man was indeed a famous music teacher and treated him very well, just like his father. Teach him to play the piano, guitar, flute, and drums, as long as he knows how to play, he taught Ni Yan without reservation."

"His musical instruments... aren't he born with it?" Lu Mingsu finally understood why Ni Yan could play Sorrow so passionately.

"Boss Lu, you have to filter his words first before you can decide whether to believe it or not," Bai Lin glanced at him contemptuously, "but he wasn't like this before, at least not when he met me... That teacher didn't just bother Taught Ni Yan to be meticulous in life. At that time, Ni Yan’s parents had divorced, his mother came to Yunshan, and Ni Yan followed his father. You can imagine what kind of life he lived, sleeping next to the pigsty at night, Rising early every day and riding a car for an hour to and from school every day. It was the teacher who made him feel that his life was bright..."

"Pigsty?" Lu Mingsu opened his mouth wide in surprise.

"But who knows that God just can't understand him living a good life. Maybe it's because of getting along with him for a long time. Ni Yan's vigilance has gradually faded, and he has become closer and closer to that teacher. As a result...that person has something else. Thoughts." Bai Lin extinguished the second cigarette in the ashtray, then shook his finger at Lu Mingsu, "Ni Yan did not refuse, he has never seen that teacher with a family, let alone a wife and child A scumbag. He complied with all the demands, believed all the lies, and was even stupid enough to really look forward to having a bright future with the other party."

While Bai Lin was talking, he suddenly stopped and just smoked silently. Lu Mingsu looked at it but was extremely anxious: "And then?"

"It's been like this for nearly a year. After the final exam of the second year of high school, the school held a small music festival again. Ni Yan went up to sing as usual, but in the middle of singing, a few middle-aged women suddenly rushed up and grabbed him. The clothes dragged him down, and several people pushed him to the ground and kicked him half to death." Bai Lin took a sharp puff of the cigarette that Lu Mingsu handed over, "While kicking, he held the microphone and scolded, what's so bad, what's the sound? It reverberated throughout the playground, and it was only then that Ni Yan realized that the middle-aged woman who took the lead was the teacher's wife."

"Wife?" Lu Mingsu also lit a cigarette and took a calm look.

"From then on, when Ni Yan went to school every day, someone pointed at his back. Everyone forgot that he was the pride of the school, and turned around and called him shameless, perverted, and a slut, but he endured it," Bai Lin said. , and sneered again, "The most amazing thing is that the teacher is still entangled. He coaxed Ni Yan, saying that he wants to divorce and be with Ni Yan. Ni Yan is the person he loves the most. This fool...... Already!"

Lu Mingsu was taken aback for a moment, it was the first time he heard Bai Lin speak foul language, he looked at Bai Lin in surprise, such a gentle and elegant person suddenly became a little discordant.

"He spent the whole summer vacation at that teacher's house. Of course, he thought it was the teacher's house. I don't know what happened between them. He didn't tell me, but...you shouldn't be able to guess, right?" Bai Lin dusted off the cigarette ash, "It's only been a few days since the third year of high school started, maybe even God can't stand it, finally a person came and hit Ni Yan on the head with a stick from behind on his way home from school, knocking him down. Knocked out and dragged into an abandoned house."

"Ah?" Lu Mingsu was startled, "Who did it?"

"I don't know. Ni Yan was woken up by being splashed with a basin of water. After waking up, there was darkness in front of his eyes. He guessed that it might be a warehouse, which was impenetrable. The second feeling was that he was tied hands and feet, tied in the Something on it, and then..." Bai Lin's brows trembled slightly, and he couldn't continue.

"Then what happened?" Lu Mingsu suddenly panicked, and his eyes widened.

"Then there was... a burst of inhuman violence. Ni Yan was so tormented that he passed out again. When he woke up again, he found himself huddled next to a trash can, in an alley, without even a piece of cloth on his body... ..." Bai Lin said, and couldn't help laughing, "There are a lot of people who get up early to buy vegetables standing around, all looking at him and pointing. When he was about to slam his head against the wall behind him, Lin Zhen appeared."

"Lin Zhen?" Lu Mingsu was taken aback, what about Lin Zhen? !

"Lin Zhen was about to go to school. It turned out that the alley was the back alley of his house. He saw a lot of people gathered around and just wanted to watch the fun. He suddenly saw Ni Yan huddled behind the trash can, and he was dumbfounded on the spot," Bai Lin said. I don't know how many cigarette butts I pressed out, "He ran over and took off his clothes and wrapped them around Ni Yan's body, carried Ni Yan on his shoulders and brought him home."

"So, he forgot everything except Lin Zhen?!" Lu Mingsu's heart ached faintly, he had never dared to imagine what Ni Yan's past was like, and after listening to these words, his mind was already on the verge of breaking out. won't turn anymore.

"He used to have very good grades, but after that time, he had no intention of going to school at all. Everyone in the school laughed at him behind his back. However, the most ironic thing is that he went to find the teacher... but it was empty , can’t be contacted anymore,” Bai Lin drank his saliva and continued, “He has a second uncle, do you know?”

"I know, I was tied up, and Ni Yan... to save me..." Lu Mingsu suddenly thought of that day, and the more he thought about it, the more he felt that what he did tonight was really not human.

"Later Ni Yan started to hang out with his second uncle. He used a baseball bat, a fishing rod, and copied whatever he could. He was good at fighting and was not afraid of death. He always rushed to the front in fights. Thanks to his second uncle. Because of him, he has the status in Jiangling today," Bai Lin said helplessly, "He also thought that he might spend his whole life in such a daze, he no longer had any expectations for the future, until one month before the college entrance examination, Lin Zhen fought him."

"Lin Zhen... fighting?" Lu Mingsu was taken aback again.

"Lin Zhen said that he shouldn't have saved him when he saw him lying by the trash can. If he had known he was trash, he should have been stuffed in the trash." Bai Lin smiled, "At that time even the teacher gave up on him, A top student in the school turned into a gangster at the bottom of society in a blink of an eye. Some teachers even used him as a negative teaching material to scold students in class. If it weren't for Lin Zhen, would you still see him now? I don't know how many years ago He was hacked to death in a fight before. Then he suddenly realized that he didn’t want to be like a waste anymore, so he picked up the book again, reviewed for a month, and was admitted to University A. Then, he met me. Later, when I watched him, he slowly got better, but it turned out that I thought he was getting better. He smiled happily in front of people, and when he returned to his own space, he became a different person again. I came back from abroad two years ago , trying to use hypnosis to make him forget the past and be truly happy. Both of us unexpectedly found that it was really useful. The result...it was like a drug, and I couldn’t quit. I regret it, I should have started it as soon as I came back Give him treatment instead of trying to suppress it, and the result is getting worse now."

After Bai Lin's story was finished, he was silent with a cigarette in his mouth, letting Lu Mingsu digest it by himself, but Lu Mingsu just stood there dumbfounded... This is the past that Ni Yan chose to forget. All childhood is discarded without reservation.Perhaps in his opinion, childhood...is the cause of this pain.

"These things... how do you know?" Lu Mingsu looked at Bai Lin with a puzzled smile, "How can you still laugh?!"

"How do I know?" Bai Lin smiled, "Of course he told me, you think I shouldn't smile when I said it, I should have a bitter face, but you didn't see that when he said it, he smiled more happily , as if these things have nothing to do with him, just some people's joke."

Lu Mingsu looked at Bai Lin stupidly, was the Ni Yan that Bai Lin was talking about, the boy who ran to his door before dawn and shouted for him to climb the mountain to watch the sunrise together, or the one who saw him in a daze among the crowd? Looking around, the child who stretched out his hand with a smile and said that he would take him home...

"You know he has the habit of keeping a diary, right?" Bai Lin extinguished the last cigarette, and stopped shaking his finger at Lu Mingsu.

"Diary?" Lu Mingsu was stunned for a moment, he had never heard Ni Yan mention it.

"He has a diary in a cabinet, which records all his experiences from childhood to adulthood, including what I just said." Bai Lin smiled coldly, "Tell me, what kind of person is he, and how cruel is his heart?" , so that you can write down these strokes in the notebook as if nothing happened, and then tell others as a joke."

Lu Mingsu suddenly remembered the cabinet in the study, which was full of identical notebooks, he asked Ni Yan several times what was in there, but Ni Yan never answered him.

"If he was really cruel, he wouldn't let you and Lin Zhen save him three times!" Lu Mingsu looked at Bai Lin with a serious face, "I made the decision for him, stop the hypnosis, cure!"

Bai Lin sneered again, leaned back, tilted his head and looked at Lu Mingsu: "What you say doesn't count, I only listen to him."

"But he listened to me!" Lu Mingsu looked at Bai Lin coldly.

"That was before today, wait until he wakes up and see if he will listen to you in the future." Bai Lin smiled, "You know I like him, that's because he has a magical power that makes people around him think I have to work hard to become stronger, if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't be the Bai Lin I am today."

Lu Mingsu agreed with Bai Lin's words very much. If it wasn't for Ni Yan, he wouldn't be Mr. Lu today. He probably wouldn't even pass the university entrance exams, and he's pushing a cart at his father's construction site.

"You mean, after he wakes up... he will forget about me?" Lu Mingsu suddenly panicked.

"Boss Lu," Bai Lin said with a smile, "Did you watch too many dog-blooded TV series at eight o'clock, amnesia is so casual, which part do you want to forget? I want to tell you, what you did today Everything will completely break his trust in you. Maybe he will feel that what he owes you...has been paid off, and he has nothing to do with you..."

Lu Mingsu collapsed on the sofa in an instant, his eyes staring blankly.

"Of course I'm just guessing." Seeing Lu Mingsu's distraught, Bai Lin couldn't bear it again, "Maybe he really loves you... Maybe it's just Ni Yan's thoughts, no one can guess for sure, it's up to your fate !"

Lu Mingsu never imagined that one day he would chat with Bai Lin, a quasi-rival in love, like friends, but Bai Lin's last sentence, "It depends on your fate", revived some hope in his heart that had just been turned into ashes. ...His life has always been good, and I hope that this case of Ni Yan will be no exception.

"Teacher Bai," Lu Mingsu suddenly raised his head and looked at Bai Lin firmly, "You can't listen to him, he won't make his own decisions at all, you ignore him, we'll just treat him like a drug rehabilitation center, what do you say, I will It's all up to you!"

"Listen to me?" Bai Lin smiled wickedly.

"Well, listen to you." Lu Mingsu's eyes were firm.

"Then what if I say...give him back to me?" Bai Lin suddenly sullen.

"Also?" Lu Mingsu sneered, "Don't make a mistake, he is mine."

"Mr. Lu has been a professional food nurse for 20 years." Bai Lin recovered his smile instantly, "Just kidding, I already have a boyfriend, you don't need to treat me as an enemy anymore. And...if I really have that kind of thought , is it your turn?!"

"Then he is here now..." Lu Mingsu was a little worried about Ni Yan's situation.

"Let's talk about it when he wakes up." Bai Lin got up and walked to the room. "It seems that the situation is much more serious than before. Let's resign ourselves to fate. By the way, you are not allowed to come in until I call you." After finishing speaking, Bai Lin He entered the room and closed the door gently.

Lu Mingsu was lying on the sofa, staring at the ceiling with his eyes open. He had already fully woken up from his drink and was in a daze when suddenly Zhang Muchen came out of the toilet and sat beside him in a daze.

"What's wrong?" Lu Mingsu saw that Zhang Muchen's eyes were swollen like peaches.

"Brother Lu!" Zhang Muchen said with a choked voice, still crying, "What Teacher Bai said...is it true? Fourth brother..."

Lu Mingsu gently hugged her in his arms, patted her on the back and comforted her: "It's all over, now we... want to take him to look forward together." Suddenly, he thought of the cabinet, "Have you got hair?" Clamp, the thin black one?"

"Yes..." With a trembling voice, Zhang Muchen pulled a hairpin from his head and handed it over. After Lu Mingsu took it, he rushed straight into the study.

Lu Mingsu didn't know from whom he learned the skill of sliding door locks. He could open almost all the locks in the house. Lu Yue was so angry that he couldn't help it, so he installed magnetic strip locks on all of them. In less than 5 minutes, the cabinet door opened, and he regretted it. He had been looking for the key for so long before, why didn't he think of this trick? !

Looking at the densely packed notebooks, Lu Mingsu picked out a random one, and it said "199805-08" on the cover.He flipped a page casually, and saw that there were only a few simple sentences written on it, recording the process of Ni Yan cooking porridge, doing homework, and watching TV at home that day when his father was not at home. His tone revealed happiness. .Lu Mingsu calculated the time. At that time, Ni Yan should only be ten years old... ten years old, what was he doing when he was ten years old?Participate in piano competitions and compete with classmates whose toy cars are more expensive in noble schools.

Lu Mingsu flipped forward again, he wanted to know when Ni Yan started to develop this habit, and finally let him find the innermost few different books, the last one said on the cover "199001-04 ".

"Damn it!" Lu Mingsu was startled suddenly, "Two years old?!" He flipped through the pages, and sure enough, the writing on it was crooked, and each line only had a few simple words.Suddenly, his heart moved, and he began to find the book of 200301-04. He wanted to know what kind of existence he was in Ni Yan's heart at that time.

Fortunately, Ni Yan's notebooks are arranged in strict chronological order, and Lu Mingsu found them after flipping through them. He found the page on the Lantern Festival, and saw everything Ni Yan recorded that day.A large part of the previous paragraph is about irrelevant matters, only the last few sentences mention Lu Mingsu:

"Sneaked out to go to the Lantern Festival at night, but I didn't expect to pick up a pink doll. He looked so good. Later, I realized that it was a classmate in our class. His name was Lu. He seemed to have lost his way. He stood in the crowd and looked around, looking at him. The panicked look, so cute. I sent him home. It turned out that their family is so rich, the house is so big and beautiful, and his mother is so beautiful. When can I live in such a beautiful house? He let me drink A cup of tea, but came back late and got beaten again, but it doesn't matter, I like to be friends with him."

Lu Mingsu turned two pages back, and suddenly saw his name again: "Lu Mingsu is so kind, no one wants to accompany me to watch the sunrise, only he gets up before dawn to accompany me to climb the mountain, although he They all fell asleep on my shoulder, but he was...happy."

On every subsequent page, Lu Mingsu could see his own name. Although his tone was flat and his writing was simple, Ni Yan's words were full of nostalgia for himself, all the way to the book "200305-08". That day was the last page where his name appeared, and there was only one sentence on that day: "Lu Mingsu was admitted to Xinyang Middle School. I wish him a bright future and look forward to seeing him in the future."

The moment he saw this sentence, Lu Mingsu's tears dripped down on that page. It was the private high school that Ni Yan helped him with tutoring, but he left Ni Yan alone in the attached high school.If it wasn't for his absence, how could Ni Yan have experienced everything after that, and scrolling backwards, his name never appeared again.

Suddenly, it occurred to Lu Mingsu that when school started, he put the notebook in his hand back to its original position and pulled out the second notebook. When school starts in September, there will definitely be one in Ni Yan's diary.

However, Lu Mingsu turned over page by page, and there were only some trivial things every day. Lu Mingsu searched carefully, and in four months, his name did not appear even once...

So this time, Ni Yan... didn't want to keep him in memory at all...