My straight man has a longer reflex arc

Chapter 21 Let's Try

It is already late autumn at the end of October, and the temperature has dropped sharply in the past few days.

It was raining heavily in the middle of the night, and it was hard for Cheng Yang to get a taxi.

The car stopped at the gate of the park, and when Cheng Yang went in with an umbrella and found Xiao Yue, he was sitting in the pavilion and dozing off with arms folded.

Cheng Yang came out wrapped in a scarf anyway, but now that the wind blew, he shivered from the cold.

"Can you still sleep?" Cheng Yang went over and said.

Xiao Yue quickly opened his eyes when he heard the voice, and said with a smile, "Yang Yang?"

"Go back." Cheng Yang urged without saying anything, holding an umbrella.

Xiao Yue got under the umbrella, and as soon as he put his hand on Cheng Yang's waist, Cheng Yang opened it abruptly, warning: "Do you still want to go home?"

"The umbrella is too small, I'm afraid I won't be able to hit it." Xiao Yue pretended to explain, and then complained: "Besides, it's okay for normal men to get closer."

"Are you normal?"

"Look, I said you're biased against me and you still don't admit it?"

Cheng Yang glared at him: "Do you just want to stay outside overnight?"

"No, no!" Xiao Yue quickly withdrew his hand obediently.

The two of them took an umbrella to a nearby stop sign to hide from the rain and take a taxi. There was no headstop at this stop, just a sign for a bus shift.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the two hid under the umbrella, and their clothes were mostly wet.

Xiao Yue was very cool, and he was only wearing a thin long-sleeved T-shirt. He clung to Cheng Yang's side to hide from the rain, and Cheng Yang obviously felt that he was shivering.

"How old are you, how come you can't even take care of your clothes and food?" Cheng Yang said.

"I didn't notice that it was raining outside...it was too late to turn around, because I...found that I didn't have the key in my pocket." Xiao Yue said tremblingly, still with a half-joking tone.

"Then don't you know how to knock?"

"I'm not...afraid of offending you again."

Cheng Yang took a deep breath, feeling that he had really lost to him, and said, "Umbrella."

After speaking, he stuffed the umbrella into Xiao Yue's hand, took off the scarf by himself, folded it in half, and put it on Xiao Yue as a shawl.

Xiao Yue laughed, Cheng Yang ignored him, took the umbrella back and put it on.

Xiao Yue opened the scarf a little more, put Cheng Yang in his arms, wrapped them together in the scarf, and hugged him tightly.

"What are you doing?" Cheng Yang hit his forehead with the handle of an umbrella.

Xiao Yue curled his lips: "I think we both will be warmer this way."

"Don't play hooligans on me, let me go."

"Don't let it go."

"open!"

"I am cold."

"You'll freeze to death."

Xiao Yue sneezed immediately, Cheng Yang wanted to say something, Xiao Yue quickly pointed to the road and said: "Look! The car is coming! The car is coming!"

When Cheng Yang heard this, he immediately reached out to hail a car.

The car came with dazzling headlights, and when it approached, it didn't slow down. It roared past, and the water splashed half a meter high under the wheels. Xiao Yue quickly turned his back to block Cheng Yang's chest, and the spray hit him. a back.

Only then did I realize that it was only a private car driving on the rainy day.

Xiao Yue was completely wet by the cold water, and when the wind blew, he shivered one after another.

Cheng Yang hurriedly wanted to take off his coat for him, Xiao Yue pressed his hand, and said with a smile: "I know you love others, don't take it off, I'm not cold."

Cheng Yang brushed his hand away and said, "What are you doing so far at night? You can't even catch a car after waiting for a long time."

"I was bored, so I asked the driver to walk around casually. Who knew that it took me more than an hour to drive so far... If you know that you will come out to pick me up sooner or later, I will just find a place to hide in the downstairs community and just pretend gone."

"Are you still in the mood to joke? We're going to stand here all night tonight."

Xiao Yue glanced at the road, the night was dark and the rain was too heavy, he could only see red neon lights in the distance, could it be a hotel or a store?

The two never waited for an empty car, and the taxis that passed by on rainy nights were all full.

I had no choice but to look for a place to hide from the rain along the road. After walking for a long time, I saw a hotel.

But the only simple small hotel in this mile has no vacancies.

"Shall we look elsewhere?" Cheng Yang said.

Xiao Yue nodded, and asked the boss how far away is the nearby hotel?

"There aren't many cars at night, so I have to walk another two miles to stay at the hotel."

When Xiao Yue heard it, he sneezed suddenly, pointed to the water dispenser in the corner and said to Cheng Yang: "I'm freezing to death, why don't you help me get a cup of hot water to drink before leaving."

Cheng Yang went to fetch the water without thinking too much.

As soon as he left the counter, Xiao Yue turned his head and whispered to the boss: "Create me a vacant room."

The boss shook his head firmly: "There are really no vacancies, and there is no way to move."

"Look, your standard room is 128 per night, and the big room is 338. As long as you make a vacant room for us now, I will give you [-]."

The boss smacked his lips after hearing this, opened his eyes and thought for a few seconds, then nodded immediately: "It's easy, I'll free up the big room where my nephew lives."

"I don't want a big room, I just want a small room with a single bed."

The boss didn't understand: "Don't you two live in a small room?"

"Why do you care so much?" Xiao Yue turned sideways to see Yang Duanshui coming towards this side, and asked in a low voice, "Is there any small room?"

"Yes, yes, my eldest nephew has come to play these days. I am afraid that I will lose the big room to my relatives. If you want to live in a small room, I will give you my son's room. My son and children will have one , I just stayed here for two days on weekends, and the room is not big, so I will let him sleep with my nephew tonight..."

"What about my nephew and son, what are you talking about so much - don't have a password, don't let my friend know." Xiao Yue hurriedly stuffed a card into the boss's hand, and the boss saw that it was a gold card, and his eyes lit up.

Just as he turned around after losing the card, Cheng Yang happened to bring the water over.

Xiao Yue took it and took a sip, the boss was also very quick, and when Xiao Yue finished drinking the water, he had already swiped his card at the counter.

Cheng Yang thanked the boss and turned to leave. The boss quickly stopped him and said with a smile, "Well, young man! I checked, and there is still a small room, why don't you live in it?"

"Another room?"

"Yes, there is only one room, and this is the last one! Hurry up and stay here!"

Cheng Yang was a little hesitant. In this situation, he didn't really want to sleep with Xiao Yue.

Xiao Yue winked at the boss, the boss understood, and hurried to keep guests: "The next hotel is far away, and it's raining heavily outside! Maybe you rush to the next one and there's no room, it's good to have one now, it's better to deal with it like this Got it for one night."

Xiao Yue quickly sneezed again, looking at Cheng Yang tremblingly: "Yang Yang, I'm almost dying of cold."

Cheng Yang saw that his body was covered with the cool, shady dirty water in the puddle, so he couldn't insist anymore, so he agreed.

He looked up at the price tag on the wall, walked to the counter, took out his wallet and took 128 yuan.

The boss glanced at Xiao Yue and asked what he meant.

Xiao Yue secretly nodded at him, and the boss charged the rent for the second time.

The boss's son's room is indeed small enough. There is a bathroom on the right side of the door. You can see the pitifully small bed when you stand at the door. The whole room is less than ten steps away.

Cheng Yang urged Xiao Yue: "Hurry up and wash, your body is full of water."

Xiao Yue smiled, turned around and went into the bathroom.

After washing, Cheng Yang saw that he was wrapped in a bath towel again, and said, "Why are you..."

Now there is really no clothes to change.

Xiao Yue knew what he was interested in, so he smiled, sat down beside him, put his face closer and smiled and said, "Look at you, are you guilty? I'm shy when I don't wear clothes!"

Cheng Yang stood up: "What nonsense?"

Xiao Yue pulled him back again: "Then you try to look at me, carefully look at the whole body."

"Neuropathy."

Cheng Yang didn't look at him, just said this, and wanted to get up to leave again, but Xiao Yue dragged him back to the bed, and pushed him down easily.

Cheng Yang was in a hurry: "Get out of the way!"

"Aren't you guilty? I think it's possible for us. I'm confident."

"If you mess around again, I'll turn against you!"

Cheng Yang bent his knees to hit him, Xiao Yue stretched out his legs to hold him down, grabbed his chin and wanted to kiss him.

Difficulty was imminent, Cheng Yang said he was in a hurry, he was in a hurry, his head had not yet made up his mind, his hand had already gone up, and he just slapped him.

That slap was so loud that Xiao Yue froze immediately.

Cheng Yang's hands were also stiff, looking at Xiao Yue's seriously injured expression, he felt a little regretful.

"I..." Cheng Yang pushed the person away and said, "Xiao Yue, stop messing around..."

Xiao Yue smiled wryly and nodded: "Okay, I won't make trouble anymore. I know that I can do nothing but play tricks on you. I will only take advantage of your soft-heartedness and accommodating you to do whatever you want."

Cheng Yang didn't speak, and he didn't know what to say.

Xiao Yue watched his expression and said: "Cheng Yang, I won't play tricks this time, I just want to tell you the truth... I have known you since the third grade, and I remember you. I just followed behind, and I didn’t think much about it then. But when I came back from high school and saw you again, I had to think about it, I just wanted you. For the past five years, I’ve opened my eyes and watched you dangle in front of me Go, I just don’t dare to disturb you. I’m afraid of shocking you, hurting you, afraid that you’d rather break up with me than give up, I’m afraid of this, I’m afraid of that, I’ll live like a coward in front of you! I’m not afraid of your scolding My bastard, you, Cheng Yang, are like a celadon vase to me, I just want to keep you, even if I just don't use it for the rest of my life, I never want you to be placed in someone else's cupboard!"

Hearing his heartfelt, half-resentful utterance, Cheng Yang was stunned for a moment. Although he couldn't be moved and impulsive, he also felt guilty in the embarrassment.

"I didn't expect you to be so uncomfortable all these years. Just now, my hands were heavy..."

"I know you're scared now, I don't blame you, Yangyang...can you give me a chance?

Cheng Yang shook his head: "Xiao Yue, I know what you want, but I really can't fulfill you."

"We can try, you just need to give me a year."

Cheng Yang turned his head and went to the bathroom, evading: "It's getting late, I want to take a bath and go to bed."

"Then give me half a year! No, three months!"

Seeing that Cheng Yang didn't stop, Xiao Yue rushed up: "One month! In one month, we have a possibility, give me a chance..."

Cheng Yang raised his eyes and looked at the serious man in front of him. His wet hair was not wiped, and the water droplets on his hair made his eyes look full.

I have known Xiao Yue for so long, and I have never seen him with such a sincere and serious expression, and there is still a vague sense of panic in fear of being rejected in that expression.

Cheng Yang felt a little sour when he saw it, but he just shook his head after all: "Xiao Yue, I'm sorry for you, when you need my help the most, I dare not promise you..."

After finishing speaking, he went into the bathroom as if hiding.

At night, no one can sleep.

In the room with the lights off, the dark light from the rainy night outside the window diffused in and cast on the white wall.

The bed was narrow, listening to the dull thunder outside, Xiao Yue put his body close to Cheng Yang, he was not reconciled after all.

"Chengyang, can we just try?"

In the dark, Cheng Yang didn't respond.

"Yang Yang."

After another long time, Cheng Yang sighed: "Xiao Yue, this is not something you can try lightly."

"Ask your heart, in fact, you don't dislike me, do you?"

"Stop making trouble anymore, I'm tired and I want to sleep."

Cheng Yang turned his back to Xiao Yue, but his eyes did not close. He looked at the dark wall, which flickered with the lightning outside the window.His heart was stirred like a paste.

"I'm not messing around. I've liked you for six years. If I'm messing around, it's enough."

Cheng Yang simply closed his eyes and didn't make a sound.

Xiao Yue behind him sighed in the darkness.

Cheng Yang felt the bed surface move slightly, and then there was the sound of a lighter.

The smell of cigarettes permeated the room, he knew that Xiao Yue got up to smoke, but he didn't stop this time, he knew that he was feeling bored.

"Chengyang, does it mean that after tonight is over, we can't even be friends? I just love you, is it a heinous crime with you?"

Cheng Yang moved on the bed, hesitant to speak.

Xiao Yue said again: "You said you don't favor homosexuality, but since the day you knew I was, your attitude towards me has actually changed, hasn't it?"

"……I do not have."

"You have, you thought I liked Ono, so you started guarding against me, and then you realized that I actually like you, so you kept avoiding me."

Cheng Yang had nothing to say, yes, he was actually guilty, and he couldn't accept it for a while.From the moment he knew Xiao Yue's thoughts, he was also afraid. The true friendship suddenly made him unable to see clearly, not to mention that if he was really with him, no one would have a good result.

"Do you regard me as a friend?" Xiao Yue asked him with a sad tone.

Cheng Yang turned over to look at him: "After all these years, how could I not consider you a friend."

If you didn't regard him as a friend, why would you be embarrassed?He had already made it clear as he did with Chang Ye.

"But..." Xiao Yue took a deep breath and exhaled a big mouthful of thick smoke.

The cigarette butt flickered between his fingers, and his hands trembled for the first time, a little weak and helpless, as if he couldn't grasp something.

"But...Yangyang, I'm already in hell, have you ever thought about saving me?"

Cheng Yang saw his tall figure standing in front of the window, his previous prestige and self-confidence had all faded away, and that distressing look couldn't be clearly explained for a while.

Seeing him become like this because of himself, Cheng Yang was also sad: "I'm afraid I can't save you..."

Xiao Yue sat back on the bed, put his hand on his ear, and stared at him: "Then give it a try?"

"Try?" Cheng Yang shook his head.

The light couldn't see Xiao Yue's face clearly, only he said: "If you resist, you can push me away, but I hope you feel it with your heart."

Before Cheng Yang saw Xiao Yue's face clearly, Xiao Yue had already bent down and kissed him on the lips.

Cheng Yang opened his eyes, his body froze, he didn't make any movements, and he didn't make any movements from the beginning to the end.

The smell of tobacco leaves passed through Xiao Yue's mouth, rich and soft. As his lips and tongue slide, it seems that this kiss has also become magnanimous and gentle. Even though Cheng Yang held his breath, the feeling of this kiss has not changed. It was so long and terrifying that he even forgot the time. He just felt unable to move his whole body and completely forgot what he was supposed to do?

He was stupid, he didn't resist, he couldn't push away.

It wasn't until Xiao Yue let go that he came back to his senses and stared at the tall black shadow on his body in a daze.

Xiao Yue smiled: "Look, you don't dislike it. Don't lie to your feelings, it is possible for us."

Cheng Yang hurriedly pushed him away, didn't speak, just pulled the quilt to cover himself, turned over and fell asleep.

What's wrong with me?What's wrong!It must have been caught off guard and scared silly.I am straight, always have been.

Cheng Yang frowned, feeling a little flustered.

Xiao Yue behind him also lay down, sleeping with Cheng Yang facing him, and then heaved a long sigh of relief.