reborn stepfather

Chapter 38 Pulling

After being blown by the night wind for three hours, I finally calmed down.

Squatting on the side of the road, I rested my cheeks and looked at the busy market with some blank eyes.

After suddenly pushing him away, I rushed out the door, only seeing Chi Qian's hurt expression out of the corner of my eye, but at that time I only had the idea of ​​running away.

Sure enough, the first choice of my body's default emergency response is to flinch and escape.

I ran and ran with all my strength, ran two streets, and now I am wandering in unfamiliar streets and dare not go back.

Rather than being afraid of facing Chi Qian, it was better to say that he was afraid of himself.

Fear of being kissed intimately by a same-sex person who has so far been unable to generate anger and disgust.

Ah, my grandma...

Pedestrians on the road watched in amazement as I beat my head desperately.

What to look at, haven't you seen the guy whose head was crushed by the window?

What to do, the only thing I'm worried about now is whether Chi Qian will be hungry now?Does your hand hurt?I was even worried that I would break his heart if I pushed him away so desperately...

It's really hopeless, is it really my head that produces this crazy idea... It's better to replace this unreliable head...

Wait, why do I always despise myself, it's obviously his fault!How could he do this to his father?That's not how children play around, how can they play with their father... Even if they are not related by blood...it's so strange...

Do I want to go back now?Wouldn't it be nice to leave him alone at home?His hand is still injured, so it will be inconvenient to do anything, right?What about taking a shower?What if it gets inflamed when it comes into contact with water?I ran out and left him at home at a time like this... Really?

Why don't you go back...

But after thinking about it for a while, I feel very embarrassed, so don't go back...

I struggled in my heart.

In the end, he struggled all the way back to the apartment downstairs, with a piece of Chiqian's favorite chicken curry rice in his hand.

He looked up at the window on the fifth floor, it was lit.

Alas, go up.

Step by step up the stairs, the faster the heart beats, hey, hey, a certain organ that lives in my left chest, you are almost done, don't be so worthless, okay!What's there to be nervous about? Will I, an adult who has lived two lifetimes and passed the [-]th year, still lose in momentum to the kid who is in the third year of junior high school?

And I'm the victim.

When I walked to the door of the house, I was stunned. The door of the house was opened, and it still maintained the same appearance as when I rushed out, but there was an extra pair of sneakers in the entrance.

Someone was talking inside, so I took off my shoes and walked lightly inside.

...Why do I go back to my own house like a thief?

"Juan, if you called me here today just to stare at me, I would be too sorry for my friend who climbed out of the wall in the middle of the night just because of your phone call." The coke can was snatched away, and he raised his head and gulped down a few mouthfuls, puffing out his mouth and mumbled, "What's the matter, you can't tell?"

The moment I saw Lin Ziliang's back, I dodged to hide behind the shoe cabinet, but this still didn't prevent me from seeing the pizza box guarded between them.

Really... I was worried that he would be hungry, but I had already summoned my friends to come over to eat and drink...

I touched the curry rice that was still warm because it was hidden in my arms, and suddenly felt like a fool for running back for this reason.

"I just kissed my dad."

"puff--"

Lin Ziliang sprayed all the Coke in his mouth on Chi Qian.

Hey kid, I just bought that white coat not long ago, so it's hard to wash it like this.

Wait, now is not the time to worry about this—smelly son, can such things be said casually?Even if the other party is your best friend, you should keep your mouth shut. Son, is your No.1 mind in the exam squeezed by the door?

"What? Who did you kiss?"

"My Father."

Hey, stop emphasizing it, Dad's innocence has been ruined in your hands!

Lin Zihao stared at Chi Qian who was eating pizza calmly as if seeing a ghost, opened his mouth stupidly and didn't say a word.

"How... how can you..." Lin Ziliang pointed at him with trembling fingers, "That's your father!"

Yes, I am your father!

"It's not that you don't know, I'm not relative." Chi Qian said calmly, "Why can't I?"

Although I'm not your real father, I'm a man, a man. Could it be that I've been so nice to you, being both a father and a mother, that you've forgotten my gender?

Of course the two of them couldn't hear the roar in my heart. Lin Ziliang was unexpectedly silent for a long time, and his whole body sat there like a sculpture. He waited until my legs were numb before he opened his mouth in a low voice: " When did you know I was too?"

"After discovering my own situation." Chi Qian lowered his head and turned the Coke can in his hand, "Ah Liang, I have eyes."

What charades are they playing?What me too you and me have eyes?

Lin Ziliang suddenly gave a wry smile: "Aren't you going to be in pain? Did you accept it so easily? Didn't you think about...change?"

"I know what I want." Chi Qian hooked the corners of his mouth, showing a slightly mocking smile, "I have always understood what I want, and I can have such a beast-like intuition thanks to the one who gave birth to me. Man, so I don't back down or run away, I know how to fight."

Lin Ziliang asked, "Does your father know?"

"Before he ran away, I was about to tell him that I liked him, not the way a son likes his father..." He paused before continuing, "But when I saw his eyes, that sentence was so It's stuck in the throat."

It was the first time I saw such a bitter expression on Chi Qian's face.

Lin Ziliang smiled faintly: "You shouldn't have pierced the window paper so suddenly."

"I know." Chi Qian cast his gaze out of the window, "but if I don't make some gestures, my dull dad will probably never pay attention. I didn't expect him to give me any good reaction, I just... ...don't want him to treat me like a child anymore..."

Chi Qian turned his head and smiled at Lin Ziliang: "Ah Liang, sometimes it doesn't matter if you take more detours, I have that patience."

"Aren't you afraid that you won't be able to maintain a normal father-son relationship in the future?"

Chi Qian lowered his eyelids and said nothing, but shrank himself into the sofa, as if he hid himself in the corner of the bridge hole to protect himself when he went to pick him up that year.Lin Ziliang looked at him and asked again: "Are you really not afraid? Are you so sure?"

After a long time, I heard Chi Qian's hoarse voice: "I'm afraid, I'm more afraid than anyone else..."

"I thought you had nothing to fear."

Chi Qian didn't speak, just smiled wryly.

I know that he actually has a lot of fears. When he was a child, he was afraid of being abandoned, afraid of starvation, later afraid of losing his only mother, afraid of his hard-won peaceful life being smashed into nothingness by **, afraid of me... .don't want him...

Lin Ziliang leaned back on the sofa and said lazily, "What will you do in the future?"

"I don't know." Chi Qian replied honestly.

"Oh, tell me, why did you..." Lin Ziliang looked at him incomprehensibly, "Why did you suddenly have such feelings?"

Good question!I quietly pricked up my ears, yes, yes, why?I'd love to know too.

"It wasn't all of a sudden." Chi Qian showed a look of reminiscence, "At first I just relied on him as my father, but before I knew it, my feeling changed. It was troublesome to even move my tongue when I saw other people, and I felt uncomfortable when I saw him." Will be so happy, as if the weather has been gloomy for him all the time, and when he appears, the sky suddenly clears up."

I stared down at the shoe rack, my cheeks starting to burn.

"I don't know how to describe this feeling. Anyway, what he does and what he says will become very beautiful in my eyes. I still remember that the sun was so sunny that day, my dad fell asleep in bed, and the sun leaked through the window When he came in, I watched quietly by his side, his ears were a little transparent under the sunlight, and even the tiny fluff could be seen clearly, the moment I got close to him, my heart beat suddenly so fast."

"When you can see him, you won't be bored walking around him like a fool. If you don't see him, you will be distracted like a curse. You don't want to talk to anyone, and your face will become cold unconsciously. of."

Lin Ziliang was dumbfounded when he heard this: "You really are hopeless."

...I'm almost hopeless, my heart is about to jump out of my throat, and my face is so hot that I can spread eggs.

It's still, it's the first time I've been confessed...

Although it is a very happy thing, why is the person who confessed his confession to be my son... This is too tragic...

It's even more tragic that some hidden place deep inside of me is... a little bit, really just a little bit... ecstatic.

Ah bah bah bah... In fact, it's just a little bit of fun!

No, no, being happy is also caused by vanity. Even if it's not about vanity, it must be because my head is intermittently convulsed by the doors and windows... I can't take it seriously!

In short, I can't stay at home anymore, if I have to face such a situation, I might as well sleep on the street!

I'd better go to Wei Heng's house to make do for one night!

Their family is so big, and our friendship is so deep, he will definitely take me in.

So I stood up secretly, seeing that they didn't notice, and gently placed the packed chicken curry rice on the shoe cabinet.

Even if Chi Qian doesn't look like he's going to be hungry at all, let's leave this to him, because he bought it for him anyway.

I stooped, tiptoed, and slowly moved outside the door.

"Bangdang-"

"Who?"

I froze in place with a suspicious posture of tiptoeing.

Why is there a soy sauce bottle by the door!Isn't this God's death?

Hearing the sound, Chi Qian came over and was taken aback when he saw me: "Dad..."

I can't take care of so much, 36 is the best plan!

I closed my eyes and ran away.

"Dad!" Chi Qian grabbed my wrist with quick eyes and hands. The skin touched by his fingers seemed to be burning suddenly.

Maybe it was because I used it too much, and the force of clasping my wrist gradually loosened. I jumped out and managed to break free from Chi Qian's restraint.

"dad......"

After running two steps, I heard a begging cry from behind.

"Dad, don't you want me..."

My heart trembled, and the soles of my feet seemed to be stuck by something, and I couldn't move anymore.

The sound of footsteps gradually approaching from behind, I raised my foot hesitantly, but was suddenly hugged from behind.

"Dad, I won't do anything that disgusts you anymore, don't go..." His arms tightened on my chest little by little, his voice was difficult, "I won't do it again, I'll be good, if you don't like it, I won't touch you with a finger, I swear."

I heard his trembling voice and saw his arms crossed over my chest, bleeding from the exertion.

The bright red blood spread rapidly on the white bandage, and he was still saying, "Dad, I won't..."

"Let go!" I yelled out.

His hand trembled, but he tightened it stubbornly, blood dripped down his wrist and from his fingers: "...I don't."

I took a deep breath and my voice was trembling: "Let go!"

He doesn't care.

"Let go..."

I pressed my hands tremblingly to his wound.

"Fool, don't you feel pain?"

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