Kuai Chuan Zhi Won't Love You Again

Chapter 25 Revenge Past Light and Darkness

Will you be sad when you leave me?

No, it won't.

Su Nianchu took Gu Xuan to visit the bar very carefully.From the white ceiling to the brown floor, from all kinds of chandeliers to the steps up and down the stairs, from the sweeping girl to the old things from the bartender, she said it clearly.This bar is like her child, every organ and every secret, to her, it couldn't be simpler and more transparent.

What Gu Xuan still remembers is a step in the bar, which Su Nianchu called "Passion".The steps are very high, grey, and the color is dull and depressing. Gu Xuan has never seen such a steep step. What's even more ridiculous is that it can only go down but not up.

"This step was designed by me. It's called "Rebirth", but no one knows about it." Su Nianchu stood on the second floor, watching couples helping each other on the dark and dangerous steps. A woman screamed in the dark, and then died. An ambiguous gasp.

"If you love the person next to you, just pull him, step by step, step by step, go on. You can hug, kiss, promise, or..." Su Nianchu smiled and made a push-down movement , "Push that person down, such a high step, if you fall down, the chance of surviving is actually very small."

She pointed at the steps and made an inclined angle, "This angle is the most harmful to the human body, and no one can rescue in time."

"Unless he stops on the last step?" Gu Xuan asked standing behind her.

"Yes, unless he stops by himself." Su Nianchu turned around and responded with a smile, "My bar was a place for people to heal from the beginning."

"...You have changed a lot."

"You too." Su Nianchu stepped up the steps to the third floor, his voice was indistinct from the noise on the second floor, "Or maybe I don't really know you. You are the same as before, but I just don't know."

The second floor is a decadent haven.You can smoke, drink, sing, and flirt with men and women you know and don't know, but the Blues don't offer drugs and special services.There are many oil paintings hanging in the corridor, newborns, single mothers, resident singers in bars, gays kissing, promiscuous farmers, and endless sky and sea. This is a new world.People who are extremely empty in their hearts will go directly to the second floor to look at these oil paintings silently, from west to east, and then go to the third floor to rest.

"301,303, [-], I have committed suicide twice, and the police asked me if I was planning to be anti-social." Su Nianchu pushed open the door of a room and reached for the switch. The Winnie the Pooh-style switch was a little abrupt on the white wall.

"If it goes on like this it will go out of business."

"From an economic point of view?" Su Nianchu asked, "It will be a miracle. Because you never know how barren the human heart will be once it becomes a desert."

"You never said that before."

"Yes. But you also said that it was my past."

"drink wine?"

"Don't drink."

"Why? No alcohol in the bar?"

"I never drink with acquaintances."

"May I know why?"

"Because of drinking, it's easy to have sex."

Su Nianchu leaned against the wall, smiling happily.She rejected many people with this reason, so for many years, she only drank with herself.There is no need to talk or listen, just like smoking and drinking is a person's business.Simple, direct, pure, full of warmth and security.

"Do you know how long we've been apart?"

The lights went out suddenly, and the light outside the window was dim. Even if the sound insulation is good, you can still feel the slight vibration of the floor, just like an American butterfly fanning its lonely wings, so the center of the earth can also produce a big explosion.

Su Nianchu didn't know what she answered, or she didn't say anything.She just remembered that Gu Xuan touched her face in the dark, and then bit her lips with a slow and gentle gesture like many years ago, licking, licking, and grinding bit by bit. Grinding, the whole world stops its hurried steps, so time becomes long and innocent.

She once asked Song Ziyu, have you ever loved someone.

If love is just a romantic passion, if love can only be the tide after the impulse, if, when you love someone, you have never kissed her forehead, lips, never loved so deeply and deeply as if you wanted to kill her Alone, then all the days and nights you use to breathe and exert yourself, how lonely it must be.If your love can never be distinguished from sex, you will never understand how happy it is to do this happy thing with the person you love.

Su Nianchu felt herself crying.The makeup on the face became blurred and chaotic as the tears rolled down, just like the memories from many years ago, they became rich and vivid, but fell off from my mind at that moment.Time can make the past long, but it can also make it decay quickly.

Those are my brother's eyes.Bright, warm, compassionate and firm.

You are leaving her.He said.Xiao Chu, Xiao Chu, you have to leave her.

Su Nianchu pushed her away, reached for the wall with the other hand, swiped down, and the light reappeared.

"You will make me feel that Song Ziyu is kissing me too." Su Nianchu let go of the hand that was holding Gu Xuan's wrist, and pulled her into the back room.

Gu Xuan just looked at her quietly.I don't know how long there was silence, she asked her, "Is your brother okay?"

"...It's okay. All of us are okay." Su Nianchu closed the curtains without looking back.

"Sleep here tonight, and you can go to work as usual tomorrow."

"Got to go?"

"Ah."

Su Nianchu went into the bathroom, washed off the makeup on her face, and rinsed her face with cold water. The water dripped down and got into her collar.

"You don't want to know, the truth back then?"

When Su Nianchu was about to leave, Gu Xuan suddenly made a sound.

"Actually, I want to ask more, are you happy about that revenge?" Su Nianchu involuntarily clenched the golden necklace around his neck.

"I don't mind your revenge." Gu Xuan continued, "Su Nianchu, you are actually very happy, so you don't understand."

"I don't plan to do anything, Gu Xuan." Su Nianchu let go of her hand, and the heart-shaped necklace was exposed in front of Gu Xuan's eyes.

After all, she didn't say anything, and she didn't listen to anything.

Su Nianchu broke open the golden heart shape, and on it was a black and white photo.In the photo, the young man is smiling happily.

If revenge can bring Su Changan's life back, she is willing to take revenge thousands of times, but what's the use?Perhaps Gu Xuan never knew that her revenge made a person lose the chance to live.

Su Nianchu laughed, the smile was very similar to that of Su Changan.No one knew what she was laughing at.

Gu Xuan watched her walk out of the room, stroking her collarbone with her fingers, "Everything is just a play on the spot."

this is a memory

Gu Xuan in Su Nianchu's memory was a proud and gentle girl.She has long black hair and wears a white short-sleeved sky-blue skirt. She was very enthusiastic when recruiting students. She obviously looked as thin as her brother, but she still insisted on moving her luggage to the door of the dormitory.

In the first half year of her senior year, she and this beautiful senior became close friends.She is a good girl, but has many boyfriends.Or rather, an ex-boyfriend.Among those boys, some really just like her appearance and covet her beautiful title, but there are also some who appreciate and love her from the bottom of their hearts.I don't know why, Gu Xuan always has an unexpected contempt and distrust when facing men.She has received many love letters for her and received so many inexplicable flowers that she still can't figure out what the flower language of roses is.But Su Nianchu knew that she couldn't help but like Gu Xuan.

Gu Xuan is beautiful when she smiles, but also very fragile.She knows that Gu Xuan likes to dance. It can be said that dancing is her life.But she chose finance in the end.Gu Xuan said that there was a person who caused her to be involved in a car accident.The car accident did not take her life, but severely damaged her calf and ankle.She can no longer dance.There was no light in her eyes as she said these words.

Su Nianchu always thought that she would like someone like her brother.He is gentle, careful, and although not romantic, he is worth entrusting for life.Or, he and himself agree with each other and have a perfect understanding.Perhaps the most unexpected thing is that one day I will like someone.I like stroking her long hair, drinking the milk tea she brews, and practicing calligraphy stroke by stroke while holding my own hand, occasionally quarreling, occasionally being awkward, and occasionally lying on the same bed together, complaining about life. Unsatisfactory, and then comfort each other, very considerate.She likes to stand on the tree-lined path, stand behind her and hug her, and then laugh unrestrainedly, very happy.

This was supposed to be a hopeless and long secret love, maybe it will become one with the dust under the burial of time.But that day, Gu Xuan covered her eyes and told her that she liked her too.

Su Nianchu walked with Gu Xuan without hesitation.How naive was Su Nianchu at that time?She told Gu Xuan everything about her brother, except that he had a heart attack.Su Changan has a good temper, but the thing he feels most inferior and blames himself is that he was born with heart disease.So Su Nianchu pretended to be clever to cover up for her brother, and then told her without exaggeration how good her brother was to her.But Gu Xuan just smiled, Su Nianchu couldn't understand her smile, and after many years, she figured it out.

On that year's birthday, she kissed her under the cherry tree in front of the house, and the kiss was inseparable.Su Nianchu thought that it was the happiest moment in her life.

Until Su Changan saw it.

How stupid do you have to be to piss your brother off?

Originally, Su Changan, who was sent to the hospital, was out of danger, but Su Nianchu, who was dazzled by love, dragged Gu Xuan to the hospital, and said to his brother who loved him the most, brother, I have someone I like, she It's called Gu Xuan.I want to be with her forever.

Su Nianchu will never forget the look in his eyes.So painful, so self-blaming, he took her hand and said again and again, leave her, leave her.

Gu Xuan is no longer that gentle Gu Xuan.Her eyes were black with hatred and sadness.

If Gu Xuan loves Su Changan, why does Su Nianchu exist?

If Gu Xuan loved Su Changan, why did he have to let him die?

However, if Gu Xuan didn't love Su Chang'an, how could Su Nianchu meet that girl named Gu Xuan.

Do you want to know the truth of the year?

I do not want.Su Nianchu said.

I don't want to know when you met him and how you fell in love with him.

I don't want to know, he's the bad guy who makes you can't dance anymore, and makes you lose even more.

I don't want to know that you hate him because you love him, and you love him and kill him.And I am just a clown who has never been loved by you and failed my brother.

The elder brother who hugged me to watch the cherry blossoms when I was young, the elder brother who could sing to lull me to sleep, the elder brother who told me that he would live a long time and protect me for the rest of my life.

I use my happiness to kill you with my own hands.

And you killed my happiness with your life.

From then on you no longer exist, from now on I will never be happy again.

The author has something to say:

Su Chang'an said, I can only live in memories... Be happy!