Kuai Chuan Zhi Won't Love You Again

Chapter 76

Su Nianjue put the razor in his hand on the table.There was a soft sound, one end was silent and the other end was crisp and moving.

She pushed open the closed door and saw the tidy and tidy room.Zheng Anyuan doesn't like sunlight, he is used to putting himself in the dark, like a person in a bag.But now, the curtains have been pulled back, warm light passes through the glass, and a scattered shadow is cast on the ground.She found a cabinet, opened a drawer, took out a sheet, dusted it, and spread it on the bed.When I was packing the pillow, I saw a trace of short hair.Black, thin and tough, it is a unique trace of a young man.

She pinched the hair and squinted it in the sun.He raised his head and blew gently, and his hair fell to the ground.Su Nianjue pulled out the tucked corner, moved the slippers, and stepped on the ground where the hair fell.

In the first few days when Zheng Anyuan came here, although the two of them lived in peace, they were always cautious.The bathroom is shared, and the time is often deliberately staggered to prevent embarrassment, and sometimes you have to knock on the door in advance; the kitchen is shared, because you are afraid that the other party will not like to make do, so you ask actively, and sometimes it takes a long time just to cook a meal.But as time goes by, the smell of fireworks in the house becomes alive.Sometimes he is in the bathroom, the door is locked tightly, she sits on the sofa smoking a cigarette, watching the latest news that keeps scrolling at the bottom of the morning news, Zheng Anyuan pushes the door and comes out, shy at her while shaking his wet hands Smiling, while she pinches out the cigarette, puts the butt in the ashtray and goes to the toilet in it.In a few days, Zheng Anyuan, Mr. Conch, would always go to the vegetable market to buy vegetables by himself, and then clean the house before she went home.Once he forgot his way home, and he called her with a big bag of fruits and vegetables to ask her how to get home.Su Nianjue was on the other end of the phone in a daze for a long time, only to realize after a while that Zheng Anyuan is someone who can be trusted and entrusted to her.

When I was young, I often felt that home was a warm and strange place, so I chose a school far away from home in high school.In the second year of high school, I went home for three days, and went to the supermarket outside with my brother to buy things for the family. She carried a plastic bag filled with the seasonings my mother asked for and various foods for my brother. Stuffed some of your favorite snacks.He walked behind her when she came home, and as she walked slowly, he followed without saying a word.When he met some classmates on the road, he pointed to himself in front of him and told them, this is my sister.She turned around and tried to free one hand to greet them, the sudden weightlessness made her heart drop to the bottom.Those people were very kind, and he waved his hand to say goodbye to them. She withdrew one arm and changed the other, turned around and walked in the afterglow.She knows that he studies well, and also knows that he likes to play games. Unlike herself, he has to struggle with a small problem for a long time before making a decision. The more cautious he is, the easier it is to fail.After walking that path for about 20 minutes, the two did not speak.When he was about to go home, Su Nianchen asked her, "Sister, when will you take the college entrance examination?" She told him a date at random.After several years, when I think about it now, I can still see his obsidian eyes.

But when she was a child, her feelings for her brother were not curiosity and love, but strangeness and awe.She knew that she was unwelcome. Although her existence gave the family hope to some extent, the parents had always insisted that only the son could die in retirement, and the daughter belonged to someone else after all.Su Nianchen came to this world under the attention of the whole family. His birth seemed to be born with a halo of showing off his might, but she had to be behind her son no matter what.She is silent and patient, rarely loses her temper with him, but she also rarely smiles, so they are not close.Not only can she not laugh, but she is also not very good at crying later.Su Nianjue often feels that she has lost the ability to sense temperature. Even when she returns home exhausted, she still feels a heavy burden on her shoulders.So she kept running and running, until now she began to doubt herself.She didn't know what she was running away from. Maybe life itself was a chase, and in this process, opportunities to lose were equal to those gained.That's fair.But she's tired of it -- she'd rather be captured by life.

No one likes to live alone. People are social animals after all, but because they are afraid of disappointment, they can only put themselves in a closed environment.At first I couldn't get used to being alone, I felt sad and empty, sometimes I even got sick, and it often made people go crazy at night.So a person sat on the bed with the quilt in his arms, recalling childhood memories over and over again.What was she like when she was a child, what was her parents like, what was her younger brother like, what kind of warmth they gave her, and how disappointed they gave her. When she couldn't figure it out, she could only hug her head and cry.She didn't know what she was sad about, so she could only sit in the room and cry like a psychopath.

Later, I took over more and more jobs and met more and more people. I will not easily reveal my sincerity, and I have learned not to change my face.Xie Ling told her that she couldn't figure her out at first, and she said she was too.On the one hand, Xie Ling is also changing, on the other hand, Nian Jue feels that she can't see herself clearly.In other words, she habitually ignored her own heart.

Zheng Anyuan didn't take the initiative to contact her, and Su Nianjue didn't contact him either.It's just that sometimes when chatting with Zheng Wan, they would chat about the lives of their younger brothers.Su Nianjue learned about Zheng Anyuan's life in her few words, but it was only fragmentary.

Xie Ling's body recovered quickly, but Su Nianjue caught a cold as soon as he came home, but it seemed more like a minor disturbance, and he almost recovered within a few days.She was too lazy to tell Xie Ling that it was just in time for the company to recruit new employees, so she took the initiative to go to the company to do what she could.

The weather was fine on this day, and the recruitment activities were basically over. She helped the deputy editor pack things in the meeting room.The woman's surname is Song, and Su Nianjue has a good relationship with her. They chatted while moving things.Just as he was talking, a young man in his 20s walked in. He looked very energetic. He was holding two paper cups and stood in front of Song Jia with a smile. Let me do it!"

Young and energetic, it makes people feel good.Song Jia took the water and stood aside to rest. The little boy did the same thing, thanking Su Nianjue and sending him warmth. His thin body was busy in the conference room of Nuoda University.

"Are you new here? I haven't seen you before." Song Jia looked at him and asked.

"Yes, I just applied successfully the day before yesterday."

"What's your name?"

The boy wiped off his sweat and spoke modestly, "My name is Xun Jianxin."

Song Jia nodded, and winked at Su Nianjue, who took a sip of water, "Well, Xiao Xun, let's put the chair over there."

Xun Jianxin naturally readily agreed.

Xun Jianxin said that the first person he met here was Su Nianjue, and he chatted with Su Nianjue based on the plot of a baby bird.The college students who have just graduated are full of sincerity. Every time the news is released, they are elated, but when they come back, they are downcast.Su Nianjue also had nothing to do. After work, he ordered takeaway to waste time, and sat with Xun Jianxin to talk about work.Although she has never seen big wind and waves, she is still very experienced compared to the other party, so she will give him advice on some problems.Slowly, some rumors spread, Su Nianjue and Xun Jianxin's office romance spread so fast, Su Nianjue himself felt very strange.

Probably because they got along well, Xun Jianxin didn't have such a close relationship with her. In addition, he got used to it quickly during that time, Xun Jianxin stood out among the few newcomers, and some important interviews would also include him. share.In this way, the two become strangers.Song Jia took a sick leave before, and met Su Nianjue when she returned home. The two chatted about this issue for a while. Su Nianjue had no intention of knowing that she was pregnant, but Song Jia asked her to keep it a secret for the time being.It was an unintentional move, Su Nianjue agreed without asking why.

"By the way, how are you getting along with that little boy who just arrived?"

"Generally, isn't it like this with everyone..." Su Nianjue shrugged, hesitated and asked, "You don't think we...huh?"

"It's good to be young and energetic, but it's not good to be too open." Song Jia patted her on the shoulder with a gentle tone.The first half of the sentence is about Xun Jianxin, but the second half is about Su Nianjue.

Su Nianjue smiled, "Oh, I don't know, but I feel that he is an aggressive newcomer, and he probably saw himself at the beginning." He looked down at the time, "It's getting late, hurry up and go home ,be careful."

Probably because she was used to nagging Xie Ling, and she unconsciously did the same to Song Jia who is a mother.Song Jia was only a little surprised for a moment, and quickly realized that she waved her hand and drove away from the company.

Su Nianjue went upstairs with a cup of milk tea, and instead of taking the stairs on a whim, he turned a corner and drank milk tea while climbing the stairs.When I was almost on the fourth floor, I heard a familiar voice. Su Nianjue chewed on the straw while trying to figure out who the voice was. Just thinking about that person, he spoke again, "Thank you so much for the recent incident, I still I'm a newcomer, thanks to everyone for your help!"

"Hey, this is nothing. We are all colleagues, and we should help each other!" One person took the initiative to speak, and Su Nianjue heard his voice, which was from another editorial office. The two of them didn't usually know each other very well.

"Pa~" was the sound of a lighter. Su Nianjue stood at the corner and saw smoke drifting away.The third person spoke, his voice was rough, and his tone was full of gossip, "By the way, brother, what is your relationship with that Su Nianjue?"

"Eh, right, you wouldn't be...haha?"

"That's right, that Su Nianjue looks very boring. I heard that there is no date now. You don't have any interest in her, do you?"

"Haha, brother, you think too much!" This is Xun Jianxin's voice, "She and I are just ordinary colleagues, it doesn't matter, what can I think at her age?"

"Oh, that's good. You are so young, and you have a bright future. Such a woman is not suitable for you! Let's be men..." The man started chatting with the other two again.

"Yeah, you don't know, that woman is very strange, let me tell you, there is one thing that is so fucking funny when I think about it now!"

"Really? What's the matter?"

"...My brother told you, but you must not tell others!"

"Yeah, I know, I know..." Su Nianjue walked out with milk tea, and the conversation ended with Xun Jianxin's agreement.She sipped milk tea and changed elevators, watching the numbers change one by one, and the red color kept flashing, and someone beside her was talking in a low voice.

After drinking the milk tea, she walked out of the elevator door and threw the milk tea into the trash can.

Mind you, you can't have your hopes up for everyone.You never know whether it is a person or a dog sitting in front of the computer screen, and of course, the same is true of reality.

Okay, okay, Su Nianjue thought to himself, Xie Ling, what you said is right.