The whole world prevents me from jumping into the river

Chapter 30 hapter 30 Kiss

"Oh, then why don't you go to bed? Why don't you go to bed in the middle of the night?" Su Ruanruan felt that it was not good for her to show weakness, and it didn't match her personality, so she immediately changed her face and scolded Tao Anan fiercely for why she didn't sleep .

"..."

"Sleep, I order you to sleep!" Su Ruanruan sullenly looked fierce.

"..."

Seeing that Tao An'an didn't seem to take her seriously, Su Ruanruan stretched out her arms and wrapped her in her arms, curled her head into Tao An'an's neck, buried her, and could hear Tao An'an's breathing, the waves One after another, constantly changing, the tide rises and falls, breaking the moonlight on the beach.The moonlight is Tao An'an's heartbeat, which powerfully and steadily proves that she really exists and lives in the world. Because her heart is beating so hard, she has to live even harder.

As the tides change, the moonlight shatters into petals, the heartbeat becomes very fragmented and quickens, the tide rises, one wave beats another wave, even the reefs on the shore are smashed, Her chest was heaving violently, Su Ruanruan didn't raise her face, it was obviously very hot, but it seemed that the frightening thunder sound could not be heard much.

Passing his fingers through her hair, Tao Anan hugged Su Ruanruan's head and slowly rubbed her temples. When did Su Ruanruan stick his head into her arms?She was a little dazed, she remembered that on April [-]st, that birthday that changed everything, that night was the exact opposite of today's night.

The only thing that is the same is that she and Su Ruanruan slept together, and Su Ruanruan buried her head in her arms, so weak that she was so weak that she couldn't be human.

What happened that day?She herself felt a little ridiculous when she recalled it, but she was the only one who witnessed this incident and remembered it as an oath.

Su Ruanruan's ears were very red, Su Ruanruan said Tao An'an, you are very important.

and then?

I kind of can't live without you.

and then?

Then Su Ruanruan fell asleep.

Tao An'an was so angry that she couldn't sleep well all night.

Is it so difficult for her to get an answer?But can the words of a drunk person be trusted?These two sentences have tortured her for so long, today Su Ruanruan plunged into her arms like this again.Let's make it clear, can't we?As the saying goes, women chase men with a layer of gauze, why do women chase women separated by thousands of miles, and everyone has an indestructible face that is as thick as a city wall.

Since she decided to bear the price of dying in ashes and live through the hundred days well, what else would she have to worry about?The only thing to worry about is that there is no future, right?She can tell Su Ruanruan selfishly, I will make fireworks for this hundred days, will you always remember me?She can't say that, she has to worry about things after death, people who commit suicide leave the mess of life to the living, and everyone suffers because of this.

She can't be like this, she wants to explain the things after death before she is alive, and then accept death calmly and without any worries on the last day.

Including the feelings that haven't started yet, if you want to cut it off, it will have no result.

But with the loud thunder outside, she was a little afraid of Su Ruanruan being alone.My heart softened, so I thought about starting tomorrow. I will start to settle the funeral affairs tomorrow, and maybe I can design my own funeral.

She secretly decided on some things in her mind, let her match Xu Zhihuan and Su Ruanruan, Xu Zhihuan is a very suitable candidate, excellent and calm, a local, good-looking, although he can't compare with Su Ruanruan The relationship with Su Ruanruan is also very good, and he also likes Su Ruanruan with the innocent liking of a teenager——

Um.She thought of Xu Zhihuan's face, which surfaced in the darkness, she was a little happy, and felt that it was not good for her to make her own way, but compared to the unspoken regret left by Su Ruanruan when she died so irresponsibly As for the regrets that I like, it is much better.

Let's give this last hug, a rare thing, one less hug, she hugged the rare and soft Ruan Ruan, closed her eyes, her mind was filled with her thoughts about the aftermath, instead she became excited, so excited that she woke up .

The body is still motionless.

Su Ruanruan in her arms suddenly moved and came out of her arms.

She didn't know what happened after that. She closed her eyes and couldn't see anything. She pretended to sleep, and a cool breeze blew past her ears. What happened next?It seems like willow leaves brushing the corners of the lips, like water droplets splashing on the cheeks, like the moment when you wake up in the morning and the sun warms your cheeks——

The bed was softly sunken, Su Ruanruan raised her arms and looked down at the sleeping girl.

She carefully kissed the girl's frowning eyebrows, drew a gentle arc, and landed on her lips.

Kiss is such a tender word.

Tao Anan broke out in a cold sweat.Was she going to pretend she didn't know?Still open your eyes, aha, idiot!Shout like that?Many things that had been planned had changed, she couldn't cruelly push Su Ruanruan to Xu Zhihuan.

How could she push Su Ruanruan to Xu Zhihuan?It's too cruel, it's too cruel to myself and Su Ruanruan.

She opened her eyes in a jerk, and happened to meet Su Ruanruan's eyes.

"...I just woke up, are you...going to the toilet?" She made up a lie that she didn't believe, "Walk and go to the toilet."