lack of love

Chapter 26

After Yan Hao heard this sentence, his hostility towards him became more serious.

Lian Siqiao looked at Yan Hao without fear, calmly, "Don't look at me like that, I won't be an obstacle between you and Zhong Qiran."

"what is the problem?"

"It's true that your mother asked me to help her separate you." Lian Siqiao looked directly into Yan Hao's eyes, exposing Yan's mother's ugly evil deeds, "but I refused."

This answer was unexpected.Yan Hao asked: "Then why did you agree?"

"Please make it clear that I agreed to Mr. Zhong's invitation, not your mother's. As for what she wants to misunderstand, I don't care about it." Even in front of Yan Hao, Lian Siqiao still had no problem Criticize Yan's mother mercilessly, "Forgive me for not agreeing with your mother's thoughts. I am also gay, so I naturally know how hurtful this approach is."

Yan Hao understood what the other party meant, Lian Siqiao wanted to pretend to agree to this matter, so as to teach his mother a lesson, "But I can't agree with your approach."

"You want to say, why didn't I explain it to your mother face to face?" Lian Siqiao suddenly laughed, and said, "Yan Hao, have you ever thought that you will become like this, and it's completely self-inflicted."

Yan Hao stared at the person in front of him, obviously expressionless, but it made people feel stressed.

Lian Siqiao was not afraid.If he wanted to deal with Yan Hao's illness, he naturally had to get to know his family and his closest people first. "Ask yourself, how many times have you and your father allowed your mother to do this? Even if it didn't make a big mistake, every time Did it just pass by in an understatement afterwards? Do you think she will restrain herself with a little dissuasion? I think the reality has already told you the answer. "

Lian Siqiao stretched out her first finger, "For the first time, your mother tricked you into getting a divorce."

Lian Siqiao stretched out her second finger, "The second time, after you separated, your mother still tried to prevent you from interacting. She found the wrong psychiatrist out of selfishness, and almost caused you to lose your life."

Lian Siqiao stretched out his third finger, "The third time, this time. If you didn't meet me, how do you plan to end it? If there is another misunderstanding between you, what do you think you can recover? How high is it? Can you meet the second Zhong Qiran?"

Yan Hao didn't speak.

"In a sense, love is great, yes, but it's not created for tempering. You're caught between your family and your lover, so you think neutrality is the best way? Everything matters It usually starts from keeping silent." Lian Siqiao reprimanded Yan Hao unceremoniously, completely disregarding that the other party was his employer, "I'm not interested in taking care of your family's affairs, but I really want to see I can't pass. If I were Zhong Qiran..."

Lian Siqiao stopped in a timely manner when she said this, shook her head and smiled, and did not continue.

And Yan Hao didn't ask.Lian Siqiao's criticism was too harsh, but it did hit the point, "What are you going to do?"

"I don't plan to do anything. As I said, I'm just accepting the entrustment to work, unless you want to fire me." Lian Siqiao returned the question to Yan Hao, "You want to continue to hide Zhong Qiran Whether it’s okay, confessing it, or telling your mother the truth, the decision rests with you.”

After observing Yan Hao's reaction, Lian Siqiao said, "Of course, if you don't want a showdown for the time being, I can also cooperate with you in acting."

This is a bait and a test for Yan Hao.

For Yan Hao, this should be a difficult choice, with his mother on the one hand and his lover on the other.Telling either party the truth will cause harm to the other party.But he said without hesitation: "I won't do anything that would wrong him, even if it's just pretending."

Lian Siqiao was a little surprised that Yan Hao made a decision so quickly, as if he didn't need to think at all.And he finally understood, this is why Zhong Qiran has never given up until now.

He didn't think he could do it to their level.So if he was Zhong Qiran, he would probably have given up a long time ago.

Lian Siqiao stood up with a smile, and said to Yan Hao: "Since you have already made your decision, then I won't disturb you. To be honest, this encounter was also arranged by your mother. Maybe she is waiting outside, or maybe she has already let you Someone took a picture of us eating together, I don't know if it will add fuel and jealousy. One last thing to remind you, explain as soon as possible, any wrong start is hesitant. If you don't intend to fire me If so, I will still pass at the fixed time this week."

Yan Hao nodded, and saw Lian Siqiao walking out of the restaurant with firm and decisive steps.

Looking at the figure of the man leaving, he suddenly seemed to understand why Zhong Qiran envied him.

And sure enough, just as Lian Siqiao thought, Yan's mother had already asked someone to take a photo and send it to Zhong Qiran anonymously.

Zhong Qiran was working, when he heard the phone ring, he just glanced at it, then threw it aside and continued working.

When Yan Hao returned to the company in the afternoon, Zhong Qiran looked as usual and was not affected at all.

When the two went home for dinner in the evening, Yan's mother was in a good mood, and even cooked a few dishes herself, and even mentioned Lian Siqiao's name intentionally or unintentionally, and praised him vigorously.

Zhong Qiran didn't react at all, he just concentrated on eating and what to do, and when he heard bad words, he just ignored them.

But what Lian Siqiao said at noon was somewhat effective, Yan Hao would always inadvertently pay attention to Zhong Qiran.He may have really been too careless before, so now he realizes that Zhong Qiran's situation in his own home is really difficult and embarrassing, but this person has never shown it, and even wants to overcome it alone .

He somehow thought that during the four years of their marriage, did he always acquiesce in this situation?This led to the deterioration of the relationship between the two parties, which has continued until now.

When Yan Hao thought of this, he suddenly lost his appetite, and his mother's happy appearance now seemed extremely ironic.

Zhong Qiran wanted to go to the study after dinner, but was pulled into the room by Yan Hao, "I have something to tell you."

Yan Hao rarely speaks in such a serious tone, which inevitably makes Zhong Qiran have some guesses.Although this is indeed a good opportunity, he didn't attack those photos, "What are you going to tell me?"

Yan Hao looked at him for a while before saying, "Don't you have anything to ask me?"

"No."

"Then let me tell you, I had dinner with Lian Siqiao at noon today." Yan Hao waited for a while, but did not see any strange reaction from Zhong Qiran.

Zhong Qiran said calmly: "I know."

"How did you know?"

Zhong Qiran slid open his phone and showed Yan Hao those anonymous photos, which showed the two of them walking side by side into the restaurant for lunch at noon.There's nothing wrong with the photo itself, but it looks like the angle was chosen to make them intimate on purpose.

Yan Hao suddenly said: "This is not the first time, right."

Zhong Qi didn't know why Yan Hao was suddenly curious about this matter, but he still answered honestly: "Yes."

Not long after they separated, Yan Hao's gossip news appeared on the page, and earlier, when they first lived together, Zhong Qiran would occasionally receive these news.His indifference is not like this from the beginning, but the result of accumulating over time.

Yan Hao stared at him and asked: "So you already know who is doing these things behind the scenes?"

Zhong Qiran looked at Yan Hao for a while, but still said: "I know."

This is the first time they have confronted this problem head-on.In the past, it was fine if the two of them didn't mention it, but once they talked about it, there was bound to be a result.

Yan Hao took a step closer to him, "Why didn't you say anything?"

"I don't want you to be embarrassed."

"You will make me feel better if you don't tell me anything?" Yan Hao has already pushed Zhong Qiran to the window, and the hot air from his nose blows the ends of his hair, and a bunch of them curl up.He stretched out his hand to grab the upturned hair, pinched it with his fingertips, and the atmosphere suddenly became ambiguous, "At least you should be jealous. Do you trust me like that?"

Zhong Qiran didn't know how Yan Hao's questioning tone seemed to be flirting.But the original tense atmosphere was indeed gone. This man seemed to be flattering him, but he also seemed to be showing weakness.His coldness has always been only for outsiders. In front of him, he is still the Yan Hao he knows well, but now he is a little different, more honest and cute, and better at talking about love. Occasionally, he will show fragility side.

This is what Yan Hao said, only when he is by his side, he will feel that he is more like a human being.

"Yan Hao, my vision is not that bad."

"But this time it's different."

"What's different?"

"Lian Siqiao has a good education, is assertive, young, good-looking, and gay, which fits my aesthetics. Most importantly, he is very similar to you."

"But we're not the same person after all."

"Yes, so I hope you understand that you are the only one who can touch my feelings." Yan Hao lowered his head and whispered in his ear: "Zhong Qiran, I don't want you to wrong yourself."

Only now did he understand the long-lost, strange feeling he felt when eating...

It's an emotion called distress.