Morbid domestication

Chapter 70

In the dark room, I couldn't see Feng Jue's face clearly, but I could clearly feel his hot body temperature, as well as the kisses that kept falling on my earlobe and neck.

The pajamas on my body were ripped off in the chaos, and I unconsciously wanted to retreat, but Feng Jue pressed my wrist with one hand and pressed me down on the bed, making me unable to move at all.

Other senses are infinitely magnified in the darkness, I can hear Feng Jue's gradually heavy breathing in my ear, as if sparks are about to be ignited in the cool air, I can feel his fiery palms floating on my body tactile, and I felt a pleasurable shudder wherever he passed...

I know what's going to happen next, and I know that if I don't stop it, everything will change after tomorrow.

The peace of life I've longed for will no longer exist just because I've allowed another person in, not knowing if I'm doing the right thing, or if I'll regret it tomorrow.

Compared with these, I want to possess this person in front of me more at this moment.

Yes, possession.

The moment the word popped into my head, I almost immediately became excited.

I no longer just passively bear it, I put my wrist around his shoulders, tightly clasping the seal, I raised my head, and kissed randomly on the other's broad chest according to my instinct.

And this kind of behavior of mine seemed to turn into an aphrodisiac, which greatly stimulated Feng Jue, his hand around my waist was even stronger, and a hoarse hoarse sound full of lust came out of his throat.

"Yu Nian." Feng Jue called my name in my ear.

I understood what he meant, he was giving me a chance to repent, but what responded to him was me kissing back harder...

The air was hot and sticky, and I seemed to be brought to an endless ocean by Feng Jue, rising and falling with the continuous waves.

Eros mixed with sweat, slowly slid down the skin, landed on the bed, and bred more straightforward desires.

I leaned on his shoulder, my mind sank into chaos, I could only hear Feng Jue calling hoarsely in my ear.

"Near..."

I curled up in shame, trying to pretend I couldn't hear.

"Niannian." Feng Jue was still whispering: "Don't leave me, okay?"

...

The moment my mind exploded, I almost instinctively bit his sweaty shoulder.

The moment the teeth sank deeply into the skin, I heard Feng Jue's barely audible muffled hum, which gave me great satisfaction.

The rusty smell of blood soon overflowed between the teeth, I backed away a little, and gently stroked the bleeding wound with the tip of my tongue.

Feng Jue gasped and let out a chuckle, he raised his hand and rubbed my head, pampering me to deepen the wound again.

I wonder if this will leave a scar on his body, and it is best not to go away for a long time, so that I can be engraved into his bone marrow.

I opened my eyes in the twilight of morning light.

My head was still resting on Feng Jue's arm, while his other arm was around my waist, holding me tightly from behind.

I can hear his slightly heavy breathing, just like the countless mornings we have been together in the past, I am leaning against Feng Jue like this, being held tightly in his arms by him in this posture, letting him breathe on my neck.

The electronic watch next to the bed showed that it was seven o'clock in the morning.

I hesitated for a while, but cautiously moved Feng Jue's arm, and sat up on the bed with my body that was about to collapse.

In the dim light of the morning, I carefully looked at the man in front of me.

I seem to have never looked at him carefully. I didn't dare to do it before, but I didn't want to do it later. I suddenly became interested.

My gaze has been down along his forehead where the broken hair is scattered, across his straight nose bridge, then to the corner of his thin lips, and finally landed on his neck with a well-defined Adam's apple, where scattered Mottled hickey.

My cheeks started to heat up, I quickly looked away, but inadvertently landed on his exposed arm.

I couldn't help being stunned. At the junction of Feng Jue's forearm and forearm, it was covered with dense pinholes. Roughly speaking, there were dozens of them. Some of the pinholes were surrounded by some deep or Light bruising.

It's a picture that makes my scalp tingle and my teeth feel sour just by looking at it.

I have some guesses in my mind, but I don't want to continue guessing.

"woke up?"

When I came back to my senses, I saw that Feng Jue on the bed had opened his eyes. I don't know when he woke up, and he was squinting his eyes and showing me a nice smile at the moment.

I turned my head back somewhat uncomfortably, "I still have to go to work."

Feng Jue stretched out his long arms, took my hand and pressed me back on the bed again. He rested his chin against my head, his voice was hoarse and hoarse, "Can you not go?"

I buried my face in his chest, hesitated.

Feng Jue's hand began to press on my waist lightly, and I heard him continue to say in a low voice: "I want you to accompany me."

"No, the company still has something to do." I refused.

Feng Jue sighed lightly, and patted my back lightly with his hand: "Then you lie down for a while, and I'll make breakfast."

After Feng Jue finished speaking, he lowered his head and kissed my forehead, got up from the bed naked, stood in front of the closet at the side and took out a set of pajamas from inside, and put them on slowly, without avoiding my gaze at all during the process.

I tilted my head and closed my eyes, pretending to be resting.

I didn't open my eyes again until I heard the sound of the bedroom door opening and closing.

In fact, there is nothing I have to do in the company today, but I haven't figured out what attitude I should use to face Feng Jue.

Facts have proved that 90.00% of them will regret it after a hot head, and I am afraid it is no exception.

And this feeling of regret is gradually accumulating over time.

Thinking of going out to face Feng Jue in a while, I just feel dizzy.

...

Feng Jue prepared a hearty breakfast. He is a very smart person. After being in a hurry at the beginning, he can now quickly cook a meal that is complete in color, fragrance and nutrition by himself.

But I ate in silence during this meal, and Feng Jue tried to talk to me during the meal, but only got a brief response from me.

I didn't even dare to give him too many eyes.

He seemed to realize something, and stopped speaking after a few words.

After breakfast, I packed up and went out as usual, Feng Jue seemed to be sending me out, I didn't say anything, just let the other party follow behind me.

"Yu Nian, are you going to avoid me again?"

Before I closed the door, Feng Jue took my hand.

"I..." I didn't go on, in fact I really had this plan.

"Don't avoid me." Feng Jue sighed lightly: "If it's because of yesterday's incident, you can pretend it didn't happen, and we will still get along as before, as long as you don't avoid me."

Pretend it didn't happen?

I raised my eyes to look at Feng Jue, and found that the other party looked serious, as if as long as I nodded, he would really be able to return to the previous state immediately, and deal with me calmly.

I withdrew my hand from his, and said in a muffled voice: "It's up to you, I'm off to work."

I turned my head and closed the door for him, and walked straight down the stairs, even unwilling to wait for the elevator to come up in a hurry.

When I arrived at the company, the awkwardness in my heart hadn't dissipated.

"Brother Nian, what's wrong with you?" The assistant at the side seemed to see my displeasure, and asked cautiously: "Well, I just saw that your face is not very good, so I asked more, or... who made you angry? gone?"

am i mad

I was stunned for a moment, and then I casually replied, "Last night, I had some insomnia."

"Oh, that's it. Manager, if you suffer from insomnia, you can try to buy an aromatherapy diffuser. I recommend which one to buy. I'll look for it. A friend of mine used it for insomnia and it worked really well..."

I can't hear the assistant's words clearly, I'm in an unbelievable emotion, am I angry in the eyes of outsiders?

why should i be angryIs it because of what Feng Jue said in the morning?

But normally, this should be the answer I want. I really want to pretend that what happened yesterday didn't happen, but this decision made me feel annoyed when it came out of Feng Jue's mouth.

Until noon when I sat down to eat with Ren Yan, I was still absent-minded.

"What are you thinking? I didn't even eat two bites of rice." Ren Yan shook his hand in front of me.

I came back to my senses, picked up a dish, and replied: "It's nothing, it's about work."

"Wait—" Ren Yan stopped before finishing speaking.

"Huh?" I looked at him puzzled.

Ren Yan looked at me and asked helplessly, "Is it spicy?"

hot?

I just put the dish in my mouth and chewed it twice, looked at the plate I just picked up the dish, and then realized that the taste was wrong, a strong spicy spread out of my mouth, instantly forced out my mouth Tears, I hastily pulled out a tissue and spit out the chili in my mouth.

"Cough, cough, cough!" I coughed and took the water from Ren Yan.

"Are you okay?" Ren Yan asked again.

I gargle and shake my head.

Ren Yan looked at me for a while, and he sighed when I finally stopped coughing.

"Yu Nian, when we first met, I didn't ask you about some things if you don't want to, but we have known each other for so long, I think you also regard me as a friend, so if you encounter any difficulties, you can talk to me Let me tell you, maybe I can help you, even if I really can't, even if you talk to me to relieve it, it's better than you being bored in your heart."

Ren Yan had a worried face on his face: "I wanted to talk about this question last time, but seeing that you were fine later, I didn't ask any more questions, but what happened to you today."

Ren Yan's words made me a little ashamed. He can be regarded as the first friend I got along with. I have never had any special friends to talk to. Even if I have, I am used to keeping some things in my heart.

However, I have been depressed for a long time. I glanced at Ren Yan's concerned expression and thought that maybe I could really ask him.

I put the water glass back on the table, hesitated for a while, and then cleared my throat unnaturally.

"It's actually a friend of mine..."

Halfway through the speech, I saw Ren Yan's indescribable expression.

I was speechless for a moment, feeling that my opening was really rotten.

Ren Yan quickly withdrew his expression, and even pretended that nothing happened, and asked solemnly, "Go on, what's wrong with your friend."

I gritted my teeth, and could only bite the bullet and continue: "Well, he may have encountered some emotional problems recently..."

"Well, then what?"

I went all out and told Ren Yan quickly and briefly what happened between me and Feng Jue. Afraid of scaring Ren Yan, I replaced some of the things Feng Jue did with "very bad things".

After Ren Yan finished listening, he was silent for a few minutes before he said thoughtfully, "I have a question."

"You said."

"Since your friend has decided to make a clean break, why do you want to take him in?"

I looked down at the plate on the table, and replied in a low voice: "Maybe it's because he sees that person is pitiful, or maybe he sees the other person's downfall, and he has the psychology of revenge and ridicule. He doesn't know."

Ren Yan asked again: "Then did he take revenge?"

"...No."

Ren Yan asked again: "Then what this person did is really unforgivable?"

"At least in the eyes of others, yes."

I paused and added: "However, my friend is not too disadvantaged, and he caused a lot of trouble for the other party. After all, that person is now down and down, and my friend is half responsible."

Ren Yan frowned as if thinking for a long time, and finally said to me: "I'm just saying my opinion. First of all, I don't know what the person you mentioned has done, but if it is something that violates the law, such as pornographic gambling Drugs and domestic violence, then I advise your friends to stay away as soon as possible, this kind of person is not good; "

"If not, it depends mainly on what your friend means. You also said that this person is also considered excellent, and now this person is trying to do something to make up for it. Of course, this is not the most important thing. The most important thing is What's more, from your friend's attitude, it's obvious that you still love each other."

I was so shocked by Ren Yan's candid words of love that I couldn't recover for a long time.

Do I love Feng Jue?I have no idea.

So do I still hate him?I am not sure.

Until now, whether I said hate or love to Feng Jue, it was too one-sided. There is no word that can accurately describe my current feelings for him.

I have fear and dependence on him, I have habits and greed, I have low self-esteem and I look up to him. Perhaps, I am yearning for him.

"...I think that if your friend still doesn't know what he thinks, he can think about it from another angle."

I looked at Ren Yan in a daze: "What?"

Ren Yan drank his saliva and continued, "If your friend's acquaintance with that person wasn't so bad at the beginning, and there were no follow-up matters, if you only look at this person, would your friend still fall in love?"

I fell silent, and Ren Yan didn't speak any more.

After being quiet for a few minutes, Ren Yan got up from his seat, walked over and patted my shoulder, said "I'll go to pay first", and walked away.

I was still in a daze until he came back.

Ren Yan tapped on my desk lightly and reminded: "It's almost time to go to work, let's go back first."

I stood up with a "huh" and picked up the coat beside me.

"One more thing." Ren Yan put his arm around my shoulder and said with a smile, "I think this person's downfall may be a chance for them to start over?"

A chance to start over?

I thought about these words over and over again, but I didn't have time to think too much, because the work schedule in the afternoon was relatively full, and many items that needed to be checked and accepted required me to check with the product.

When I finally finished the work at hand, it was time to get off work.

As soon as I turned off the computer, I received a call from Xu Tangyi.

I'm a little surprised, since I came to City C, Xu Tangyi and I have often been in touch on Wechat, but we rarely make phone calls unless there is something urgent.

But I picked it up quickly.

"A Nian, where are you?" Xu Tangyi's voice on the phone sounded a little strange, as if he was suppressing endless anger.

"I'm just about to get off work." I packed up my things and asked, "Brother, what's wrong with you?"

"I'm at your house."

One sentence made me stop my hands when I was packing up, and two words immediately echoed in my mind.

Oops.

A small theater:

Xu Tangyi opened the door, just in time to see Feng Jue coming out of Yu Nian's bedroom.

Feng Jue narrowed his eyes slightly: Who are you?

Xu Tangyi: Shit!why are you here!

Xu Tang wanted to grab Feng Jue's neckline, but when he saw the glaring marks on Feng Jue's body, he exploded in anger and swung his fist hard.

The author says:

Yu Nian: Oops!

Ren Yan: Do you think your friend is yourself?