Even so, I still like you

Chapter 32 It's my first time too!

Shen Tongguang spoke very hard, lying on the bed with dizziness and tinnitus for a long time, and Zhang Yuhang asked, "Did he use that room?"

"...I used to live there," Shen Tongguang lowered his head, like a doll whose battery was gradually glowing. "Now it's filled with presents from my teacher."

To be honest, there is no way to deal with those things. After all these years, he still doesn't know how to deal with them.

Countless expensive brushes and papers, paintings with high shipping costs, and limited-edition watches and shoes that have never been reproduced. Everything that is bright and beautiful is like the flesh, bones, and life left by the teacher, so heavy that he can't touch it.

Zhang Yuhang nodded without showing any expression: "Is it all finished?"

Shen Tongguang looked at him blankly.Zhang Yuhang suddenly leaned over and pulled his nail-picking hand away, and his finger pads seemed to rub against his wrist.

At that second, like an electric shock, Shen Tongguang suddenly rolled up like a hedgehog, and both hands were stuffed under the quilt.

It's been a long time, and even the scars have faded into fine lines, but he never told anyone.

"Auntie, she... sold the house at that time, but it was just a drop in the bucket. I worked a lot, and I didn't earn much. I didn't even have enough monthly interest. Every day, the door of the house was covered with red paint with vicious words, but I I don't want to move away, the teacher still seems to be staying in that house.

"One day I was too tired. I got off the night shift of KTV in the early morning. I couldn't walk a step on the street. I just sat in the middle of the intersection and watched the traffic lights turn on. I was very happy to think, if there is a car in the next second It would have been nice if the car had run over me, but unfortunately no, there wasn’t even a car. Later on, I always wanted to die, and I kept thinking about it, and I kept thinking about it. If I die, I can go over there to see the teacher..."

Chi-

The chair was pushed back violently by Zhang Yuhang, Shen Tongguang looked up and saw his eyes, and stopped talking in panic.

"Shen Tongguang, I don't blame you, you are so pitiful, don't blame yourself," Zhang Yuhang looked at him, his jaw tensed, "Do you think I would say that?"

Ruined.

Shen Tongguang thought desperately, why would he say such a stupid thing?What Zhang Yuhang is interested in is the relaxed and happy Shen Tongguang. No one will like him in real life, forever and ever.

Zhang Yuhang endured and endured, gritted his teeth, and finally broke out: "You are so fucking bad at picking men!"

Shen Tongguang: "...Huh?"

Zhang Yuhang was so angry that his veins burst out.

What a desperate situation, if it was really just to solve the urgent need, how could it be possible to poke such a big basket later?Xu Zhixing has no bottom line at all, and he can't even be responsible for his own choices. If it can't be realized, it's better not to mention it from the beginning.In the end, I couldn't bear it anymore and simply died, let my mother in her 50s and Shen Tongguang face those debts, cowardly and greedy, scum!

He didn't realize the secret at all, but was angry, jealous and distressed. He wondered why this kind of person made Shen Tongguang's first love like this, so that he couldn't even treat himself kindly for so many years?

"That, Zhang Yuhang?" Shen Tongguang looked at him cautiously, "Aren't you...jealous?"

"I'm jealous? Why am I jealous? I'm the pillar of the future, the sun at eight o'clock, your present future tense," Zhang Yuhang walked around the room like a headless fly, "It's just the smell of that kind of person. Old mature vinegar, I'm afraid it will be spoiled!"

After finishing speaking, he looked at Shen Tongguang with hatred: "Tens of thousands of dollars bought you for so many years, and your future, and took away your soul. Are you so worthless?"

"You can't say that..." Shen Tongguang felt sad and snapped his fingers dumbly.

"What has he done to you, you still protect him." Zhang Yuhang suddenly laughed at himself, "Forget it, I'm just like you, I'm always trying to catch up."

Shen Tongguang tried his best to reach his hand: "Then I will chase you this time!"

Zhang Yuhang backed away, and said indifferently: "You forget him first."

Shen Tongguang's eyes turned red, and he went to grab him again without giving up, gritted his teeth and said fiercely, "You help me forget about him."

Zhang Yuhang laughed back in anger: "Why should I..."

"I really can't do it alone." Shen Tongguang almost begged, "Whether it's something you did or didn't do with the teacher, can you come with me and cover up all those memories?"

This time Zhang Yuhang didn't tear him away. It took a long time until Shen Tongguang's arms were sore that he finally sighed, turned around and hugged him: "The last time."

"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!" Shen Tongguang buried his face in his strong abdomen, "I can't breathe, I'm so dizzy...!"

Although this feeling is very happy, but he just got back his little boyfriend, and he still doesn't want to die!

Zhang Yuhang wished he could suffocate him to death, but he was still reluctant to cover it for a while, so he let go and sat beside the bed, seeing Shen Tongguang's face flushed, feeling love and hate, his emotions were very complicated.

He always thought that he was a very rational person, but he couldn't say which was right and which was wrong, or that no one was at fault, it just happened like this, and everyone was hurt.

After all, there is not so much fairness in the emotional world. It cannot be balanced by adding a little to the left and subtracting a little from the right like a chemical formula.

Shen Tongguang took a breath for a while before confirming to him eagerly: "Are we getting back together?"

"if not."

Do you want him to chase him again?

"Can I raise A, B, B, Ding together with you?"

"nonsense."

Is there still a cat custody lawsuit?

"Then do you still like me?"

"..." Zhang Yuhang was tired, "What does being in love mean to you?"

"I can't socialize with people, and I'm not very promising, so I can only draw manga for others," Shen Tongguang said no matter where he thought of, "I just like to eat junk food and drink carbonated drinks, and I'm afraid of busy places. There is no way to get out of that, and I have even failed to commit suicide several times... Even so, you still like me?"

Zhang Yuhang asked him back: "Do you really like me?"

After chasing here, at least it can be tacitly accepted that he is a little reluctant to part with him.

"Of course," Shen Tongguang nodded heavily, "I like it very much!"

The syllable of 'very' was a little longer, with a kind of stickiness that made one's heart soften.

"That's fine," Zhang Yuhang suddenly bit his neck hard, "I like you too."

Shen Tongguang shrank his shoulders in pain: "Even if I am such a person?"

"Even so, I like it." Zhang Yuhang said slowly, "You are the bravest person I've ever met, and I'm serious."

Shen Tongguang sniffed, and suddenly whispered nonchalantly, "It was also my first time that night."

Zhang Yuhang was confused at first: "When?" Then suddenly realized, he pulled the man over to kiss him by the ear, until Shen Tongguang's whole body was limply stuck to him, and then he asked, "Have you ever done that?" ?”

"At that time, we only met on weekends, and the teacher didn't seem to be very interested in this aspect." Shen Tongguang said frankly, "We only use our legs to do it, haven't you tried it? I just lay on my stomach, and then he from..."

"Okay, stop!" Zhang Yuhang pinched his cheeks hard, with a strong sense of threat, "If you continue talking, it's really shocking baby."

The author says:

I'm so tired of moving these two days, the manuscript box is completely exhausted, I'll fix it tomorrow (>^ω^<)