absurd life

Chapter 44: Coward

The feeling of being at home is much better than being in the hospital. You don’t have to worry about a nurse opening the door suddenly every day, and you don’t have to worry about someone coming to make rounds every night, and you don’t have to feel disgusted by Ouyang Ze coming to pull the quilt for me in the middle of the night. …

However, there is always one thing that I can't let go of...Wu Yao, the last man I saw before I was pushed into the operating room was his, but he disappeared after waking up, and he returned the little white pigeon me.What on earth does this mean, and what is his purpose in doing it?I don't know.

"Xu Shaohui, do me a favor."

Although I have been discharged from the hospital, I am still a patient, so they will take everything I say to heart, and they will rush to complete the things that are ordered to them.

During the day, Ouyang Ze was driven to work by Xu Shaohui, and only at night did he have time to visit me.Therefore, during the day, only he and Krista were with me at home.

"Say, what's the matter?"

Xu Shaohui, like me, is the kind of person who can't take time off. In the first two days after he came back, he stayed with me from morning till night, doing nothing but talking with me, but now...

Both of his eyes were fixed on the computer screen, and although his ears were erect, all the sound he received came from the computer's loudspeaker.At this time, he is like an underage child who is addicted to online games, and he has no intention to listen to what I have to say.

"Go to a place for me, give this to Wu Yao, and ask him why he left without saying goodbye."

I kept that little white pigeon close to my body, for fear of being seen by Ouyang Ze.Now that we are in the cold war stage, he is extremely sensitive to everything about me. I thought I was contacting Wu Yao when I called.If he saw this little white dove, he would probably go crazy again.

"okay."

Probably the magic power of the game is so great that Xu Shaohui agreed without even thinking about it, as if telling me in a crisp tone: Don't disturb me playing the game.

But then, his brain seemed to turn around suddenly, the frequency of the two hands typing on the keyboard gradually decreased, and the color of his face gradually changed from red to green.It seems that he has already noticed that something is abnormal.

"Stop, stop, tell me again, where do you want me to go? Who do you bring this thing to?"

Xu Shaohui put down the laptop on his lap, even though the games on the computer were still running, and the sounds of characters fighting were still coming out of the computer speakers, but his rational brain could resist these temptations and made him firm. to my bed.

Looking at his face full of question marks, I should tell him some things, let him know the reason why Ouyang Ze and I are like this, so that he can understand me and my cold attitude towards Ouyang Ze reason…

"Crack! Ah! Hey!"

The sound of the computer game was still playing, and the sound of characters fighting in the computer game echoed throughout the room.It is really not appropriate to use such background music to tell the tragic story with Ouyang Ze.

In order for Xu Shaohui to hear clearly and understand clearly, I explained every detail in detail, even told Xu Shaohui the sound I made when I lay on the door, but his face was numb, except for the slightly tight With a frown, the expression on his face didn't change much.

"Did Ouyang Ze regard you as Qing's substitute?"

"I don't know, but I guess so."

In an instant, Xu Shaohui seemed to understand everything, and his whole body seemed to be pointed out by Jesus, and the fog completely dissipated after that slight touch.

"I see, I see what he means."

Xu Shaohui nodded thoughtfully, and murmured something, but it seemed that he was just talking to himself, not trying to tell me.

"What do you unserstand?"

He ignored me and kept nodding his head.The wrinkles on his pursed lips seemed to be planning some elaborate plan.

Afterwards, he took the little white pigeon in my hand, got up and was about to go out.

"Okay, I'll go find him, you wait for me."

After speaking, he turned and left.Looking at his thick shoulders, his vigorous figure and firm footsteps, I suddenly felt that I believe he must be right, he must be the one who is willing to help me, the one who is willing to give everything for me...

Even if you are at home, you can't avoid waiting, waiting for Xu Shaohui's return, waiting for the good news from his mouth, waiting for the sun to rise and set in the east, waiting for Ouyang Ze's return...

Xu Shaohui left in the morning, but it has been a whole day, but he still hasn't come back, and the phone is always turned off when making calls.I always have a bad premonition, there is always a restless deer jumping in my heart.He, can't something happen.

"Oh!"

The moment the door was opened, I thought it was Xu Shaohui who had returned and brought the news I was waiting for.However, when he saw the man's face clearly, his originally excited mood plummeted to a trough.

"What about Xu Shaohui and others?"

"... "

I didn't answer him, just silently looking at the already dark sky outside the window, at the stars on the black curtain and the brilliant lights of the city in the distance.

"You still refuse to talk to me...why? I have already explained why you still refuse to talk to me?"

I didn't look at his face, but I heard his hurried footsteps approaching my bed little by little, when he tightly held my left hand to transmit the hot temperature of his body, when his tone trembled slightly , you can also guess his collapsed state of mind at this time.

"Although the broken mirror can be reunited, there is still a fissure. Do you think the love between two people must be perfect and will not leave scars? Let alone our kind of love that is not considered love..."

I still didn't look at him, because I was afraid, my heart would tremble after seeing him, I was afraid that my heart would soften because of his tears, and I was even more afraid that I would see his favorite Qing from his eyes, Seeing the Qing who lives in his heart...

In the bright night sky, a bright moon hangs high above, and the bright moonlight pours into every corner of the room. The cold temperature also changes his body temperature and the strength of his hands...

His hands relaxed little by little until I couldn't feel the warmth from his palms, his excited tone, and his rapid breathing.

When I turned my head to look at him, he was crying, crying helplessly...

I hate seeing men cry because that's spineless and cowardly in my opinion...