absurd life

Chapter 49: Black Christmas Chapter

For the first meal of the new year, each of us had a great time eating, and the sumptuous dishes also added a little festive atmosphere to this new year.Everyone here, except for the pregnant Krista who can't drink, the rest of us have drunk our brains with alcohol.

There are fewer and fewer meals on the table, and the original fragrance of the food has also been transferred to our stomachs, but the orange candlelight is still shining.

Time is going backwards little by little, I try my best to keep my mind and wait for William's arrival, but I still can't wait for William's figure. Although Christo's face is always full of happy smiles, there are fewer The smile of the beloved is also extremely stiff.

"I...I...I can't...I can't...sleep...sleep..."

Xu Shaohui drank the most, almost the entire bottle of vodka was drunk by him.He didn't pour wine into Ouyang Ze, but just blew on the bottle himself, as if there were many sad things that needed alcohol to numb.Indeed, he has a lot of troubles, and he hides a lot of troubles from me. How can he not drink more wine?

He walked upstairs tremblingly step by step, and Christa hurried over to help him, but Xu Shaohui deliberately avoided, fearing Christo's kind support.

Although Ouyang Ze didn't drink much, he was still a little drunk. Although he spoke coherently, his eyes were blurred, and his figure was staggering when he stood up.

He leaned on the table and approached me little by little, his complexion became more rosy under the stimulation of alcohol, and the liquid on the corner of his mouth was also very charming under the reflection of the candlelight.When he was only one step away from me, he fell to the ground with a "plop" and knelt down in front of me.

"Rui Rui...I'm sorry..."

He who was still smiling just now immediately became gloomy again, his tone was not as happy as it should be during the festival, and he felt more guilty and owed.

Although his center of gravity was closer to the ground when he was kneeling, his upper body was still swaying from side to side.The two eyes were also moistened with tears little by little, although they didn't gather into beads, but there was something about to flow out.

"What's wrong? Get up and talk."

Under the stimulation of alcohol, my strength also became very weak. Although I wanted to help him up, no matter how hard I tried, his knees were still firmly attached to the ground without moving at all.

"I...I...I figured it out..."

The moment I heard the word "Qing", my whole body was shocked, and the hands holding his shoulders became very cold.His words were like the cold wind outside the house, even colder than that, which made every hair on my body stand on end.

The memories of my illness, the things that happened at that time are pulled out of my mind at once, and resurfaced before my eyes from the deepest part of memory.

Christa also heard Ouyang Ze's words, she was as surprised as I was, and originally wanted to help me lift him up, but her hands were hanging in the air just like mine.

In this matter, in the eyes of Kristao, I am the victim and the loser in this love.Although I was by Ouyang Ze's side and accompanied him for a long time, I was still no match for a dead person, and I still couldn't hold Ouyang Ze's heart completely in my arms.

"I love you, believe me, but I just can't forget Qing, I can't forget him... He seems to be living in this world, as if he is by my side, I seem to feel him every moment breath..."

He was crying as he spoke, and his voice became more and more choked. I couldn't tell whether he was crying because he missed Qing or because he loved me. I don't know if the tears were sacrifices to Qing during the New Year.

Half an hour ago, he still said that he loved me, and that he wanted to live a good life with me.But after just a few glasses of wine, the words have changed, and the person who said it has also changed, it is no longer me, but the "Qing" he has liked for many years.

"Yes... yes... right..."

Before Ouyang Ze finished speaking, he was overwhelmed by alcohol, and fell on my lap.One second before closing his mouth, the sentence of sorry was not finished.

At this second, my heart felt as if I had just been trampled by a wild beast, and my crushed heart was constantly bleeding.Although my eyes were filled with tears, they couldn't drip out, and my whole body was already stimulated by the pain and lost strength, but I still had to be strong in front of Christo, and I still had to try my best to keep calm.

"Come on, help me carry him upstairs..."

I tried my best to stabilize my emotions, and spoke to Krista in a steady tone.

How could Christa fail to see my state of mind at this time, but she didn't explain it clearly, and didn't let me shed tears on the spot...

Tonight is a special night, a good Christmas and a time when so many truths have been heard.I thought I was the only one who was sad tonight, only I would cry secretly at midnight, but I forgot about another woman who was abandoned by her husband...

At this time, there were only Christa and I left in the living room. It had been a long time and William hadn't appeared, so I decided to tell Krista about my plan.

"Originally, I made an appointment with William to come, and I wanted to take this opportunity to let you..."

"I know, so I have called him in advance to prevent him from coming."

Krista smiled at me knowingly, but soon the smile turned into a bitter expression, and her voice became smaller and smaller.

All women should be duplicity, and all women should hope that their loved ones can accompany and take care of themselves during the Chinese New Year, but Christo wants to make a counterexample, and she wants to be special.

"Why? Don't you want to reconcile with him and forget about it earlier? "

Hearing what I said, Christo's originally calm face was now unknowingly covered with tears, and her throat was also sobbing.

"I can't forgive him, really can't forgive him... those things really can't make me forgive, can't make me forget..."

Yeah, some things really can't be forgotten, some things really can't be forgiven.Although it has been a long time, even though the scar has healed, the pain in my heart is still lingering...

Christmas music is gradually sounding, and Christmas is approaching a little bit.It's just that I don't know which house Santa Claus is rushing to at this time, and which families he is spreading happiness to.

Maybe we don't live in the city, so Santa doesn't notice our home, so that our home is covered in sadness and tears.

Tonight is destined to be a dark Christmas...