absurd life

Chapter 74: Hesitation

A tree without its bark will undoubtedly die, and a person without shame is invincible in the world.You can't fight anyone who is shameless, because his shamelessness will definitely defeat you, leaving you powerless to fight back.

To put it nicely, it means perseverance, and to put it bluntly, it means being shameless, but no matter how you describe it, the essence is the same. They are doing everything they can to drive you to a dead end...

That day Ouyang Ze did not leave as usual, but insisted on kneeling downstairs, staring at the door as if waiting for me to appear.

After all, he is also the boss of a big company. If he doesn't go to the company all day, it will inevitably make the employees in the company, and some people who care about him will even come to him.

Groups of people came to our "Feng Shui Treasure Land" one after another to persuade Ouyang Ze to go back, but without exception, they would all be sent back by Ouyang Ze.When blasting them away, I would go to the window to see if Ouyang Ze was Li Kan, but the results often disappointed me, and sometimes I even saw his begging eyes...

Time passed by little by little, and the morning sun gradually radiated its light and heat, making the places touched by the sun warm.Although the sun in early spring is not like the scorching sun in summer, prolonged exposure can still make people sweat all over.

Kneeling downstairs for a whole morning, Ouyang Ze, who usually loves face, persisted for a whole morning under the strange eyes of everyone, and he, who is usually proud, knelt in front of a small company. What chance can we meet?

Tang Rong, who was chased away by me, didn't speak to me all morning. She sat sullenly by the window and looked at Ouyang Ze downstairs. She also had a contemptuous expression on his face...

Maybe he is really regretting the past, really apologizing to me for what happened to my father and Li Man.But it is hard to undo what has been done, and there is no room for redemption, and it is impossible for me to forgive him.

The ring on my hand was still reflecting light in the sun, I took out my mobile phone and edited the text messages, trying to let him quit and let him leave the place of right and wrong.Tormented by love and hate, I was trembling even when typing with my fingers, and I had to revise the written sentences again and again...

"You go, don't kneel down again, I won't forgive you, if you kneel down, I will make you never see me again."

The text message has been sent, and not long after, Ouyang Ze took out his mobile phone from his pocket.Although I couldn't see his expression clearly when he read the text message, I could see his desperate look when he looked up at the end.

He looked at me for a long time without speaking. Under the sunlight, there was a crystal reflection in his eyes.Then he stood up from the ground with difficulty, and walked step by step in the direction he came from...

Ouyang Ze is almost 30 years old. Although he is in his prime, he cannot stand such torture.The sun exposure, the hard floor, the pungent Tang Rong, and the ruthless me all stimulated him so much that he couldn't straighten his waist.

Looking at his figure that is gradually going away, I feel like I have knocked over a five-flavored bottle, full of ups and downs.It's because I don't know myself enough, and I don't know how to deal with my emotions in the face of this situation. At the same time, it's because I'm not firm enough, so that a decision is so difficult.

I want us to have nothing to do with each other and cut off the relationship from now on, but I also want to get his explanation and know the many mysteries he once buried in my heart... The dilemma makes me unable to judge.The matter seems to be deadlocked like this. He wants to explain, but I don't listen. The matter will never be resolved.

I want to love him, but I can't love him; I want to hate him, but I can't hate him like an enemy. Hesitation is destined to be my weakness, and it is the weakness for him to conquer my inner defense again...