Good day and beautiful scenery

Chapter 62, in vain

After a while, the pain started again.I was afraid that I would scare William with my scary appearance, so I made an excuse, saying that I wanted to eat raw pan fried from the snack bar in the street next door, preferably the steaming one just out of the oven.

William, like Allen, was so desperate for something to eat that I took it and ran out.

I slowly moved back to the bedroom, and swallowed a large amount of medicine with the cold boiled water on the bedside table.But the effect of the medicine was slow, and it felt like every bone in my body had been torn apart, and I could only bear it silently under the quilt.It's just that the struggle is futile, and the roaring darkness caught me off guard.

It was already night when I woke up, and it was no surprise that I was trapped in the hospital again, with a drip on the back of my hand, and there was no one else beside Alan.There was a momentary disappointment in my heart, but it was replaced by a stronger anxiety afterwards.

Alan was probably called back by William. He was in such a hurry that he didn't even have time to send his suitcase home. The appearance of being randomly placed in the corner looked just like his figure sitting by the bed with his head in his arms, embarrassed and lonely.

"Alan." I pulled off the oxygen mask and tried to call him, but with all my strength, the voice was still inaudible.

But Allen still felt it keenly. He let go of his hands and sat up, staring at me blankly, his lips moved, but finally his eyes were red.

"...Zhou Jingchen, do you know...do you know you..."

I smiled at him, maybe because the expression was too ferocious, Alan turned his face away as if he couldn't stand it, then got up from the chair awkwardly, opened the door and strode out.

I don’t know how many days later we met again. Allen was not there, and my mother was sitting on the edge of the bed holding a towel to help me wipe my hands.She wiped it very carefully, one finger at a time, one by one, and sometimes she stopped suddenly, rubbing her fingers against the back of my hand, shedding tears.

"Mom." I called her, feeling sore and sore like her nose and chest.

My mother was taken aback, she wiped her eyes with the back of her hand in a panic, and when she looked up at me, she already had a doting smile on her face.She reached out to help me stroke the hair on my forehead, and asked me: "Finally woke up, where does it hurt?"

"Mom, where's Shen Yan?"

"Shen Yan?" My mother's expression froze, and she turned to look at me worriedly, "Do you want to see him? I'll ask your father to ask someone to look for it again. Maybe he will be found in two days."

"He didn't come?" I gasped in pain.

When my mother saw that I was in pain, she started crying again. While panicking and not knowing how to relieve my pain, she tried to find words to comfort me incoherently: "Don't worry, you will come, you will definitely come. Your father asked me I have been looking for a relationship, and Mr. Chen is also very helpful, there may be news in the next two days."

I was in pain for a while, and lay groggy but couldn't sleep.My mother wanted to change my sweaty clothes. It didn’t matter if I fell asleep, but she refused to do anything when I was awake. My mother had no choice but to ask the doctor on duty to help me with tears.

My mom was a good person, from start to finish.It's a pity that God likes to joke, and good people don't always get good rewards. Her only child was killed by me. I didn't expect that in the end, she would have to suffer from me even when she was old.

"Mom, can you tell me about the person who gave birth to me?" I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night, "I want to know who she is and what she looks like."

Under the dim light, my mother looked at me sadly: "Xiaojing, why are you..."

I smiled and begged her: "Mom, I never asked you, but I really want to know if she is a good person."

"Yes." My mother nodded without looking at me, "She is a good person."

I laughed silently, the corners of my eyes twitching: "She's not."

My mother looked at me hesitantly: "Xiaojing?"

"I went back to my dad's hometown when I was in college...no one knew me, and they didn't tell me her name. But I know that people there don't like her..."

"Your father's hometown knows very little." My mother stopped her mouth as if she was afraid of saying the wrong thing, looked at my face, sighed, and said, "She is your junior sister when your father was studying. It is said that she likes me. Your dad, the two talked for a while, and then your dad graduated and went back to his hometown to teach, and she proposed to break up not long after."

"Your dad had a bad temper when he was young. Not long after we broke up, someone introduced us to him. He didn't object, and he wasn't too enthusiastic. But on the fourth date, he suddenly proposed marriage."

"About half a year later, I was pregnant with Wenwen, and my family found a relationship to move your dad to a school in the town to teach. After another six or seven months, your dad came home one day before get out of class was over. I hold you wrapped in a cloth bag."

When my mother said this, she smiled and gestured: "It's only a little bit big, thin and weak, and it doesn't cry. Your father said that it was the child of an acquaintance, and there was something wrong at home, so he had to entrust it to you temporarily." dad."

"You fell ill in the first few days after you were picked up. The high fever persisted repeatedly, and you didn't drink milk. The doctor said that you were born prematurely, with a weak constitution and a little trouble. You must be the first to be recruited. As expected, I gave birth to Wen In the few months Wen Qian took you, you really had to go to the hospital every now and then."

My mother smiled while wiping her eyes, and said: "This situation lasted until you went to kindergarten. I have never seen that person before. I went to pick you up with Wenwen that day, and I saw her from a distance. I don't know, tall and thin, with long hair, and well-dressed. I heard from the teacher that she has asked a lot about you."

"After I got home, I told your dad that he had a big fight with me for the first time. Only then did I know that your dad was not... She was already pregnant when she broke up with your dad... Based on your Dad's temper is impossible to forgive, but she threatened your dad to make trouble at school and hometown... I heard that she left the country not long ago..."

I covered my eyes with my hands and smiled at my mother: "Mom, thank you."

"Thank you for what." My mother choked her voice, and said after a while, "You and Wenwen, you are both children of me and your father, but we have treated you a lot. I have been thinking recently that you are sick. In fact, Wenwen told me earlier. After he left, I rarely dreamed of him. That time he suddenly dreamed of me, rubbing his heart and screaming for pain. He knows you are not doing well. Me and your dad But deaf and blind."

Zhou Jingwen is the eternal pain in my parents' hearts, and it is also the memory and sin engraved in my bones and blood.I curled up against the cold and pain from my limbs, and begged my mother in a low voice.

"Wenwen has been very clingy to me since he was a child. In the few years he just left, I was always worried whether he would be afraid or sad by himself...Mom, wait for me...Can you count me and him... Don't bury them together, my dad will go crazy, can you bury me next to him..."

My mother covered her mouth and cried loudly, and my eyes that had been without tears for a long time were finally a little moist.

Naturally, my dad couldn't find Shen Yan. As for Alan, I'm not sure if he was really that willing to help find him, so I lay in the hospital for a few days without seeing Shen Yan.Alan appeared from time to time, sometimes telling me some not-so-funny jokes, sometimes just holding my hand and accompanying me in a daze.

I didn't plan to wait for them any longer, and sneaked out of the hospital while my mother was looking for a doctor in the dark.But I left a letter for my mom, and the keys to the house I live in now, all of my sex.

Only the white car, the one Shen Yan used to drive, I knew my parents didn't need it, so I left it to William in the letter.As for Allen, I can't give him what he needs, and all I can give is the design draft I drew in the past few years.

I took a taxi directly to Shen Ting's villa.The driver kindly reminded me that although this is a wealthy area, it is not easy to take a taxi, especially at night, and asked me if I should wait.I leaned against the car door and looked at the brightly lit villa, smiled and gave him all the money I brought out.

Unexpectedly, I was blocked outside the courtyard door of the villa.Shen Ting is cold, the nanny of their family is quite polite, but polite indifference.

I rang the doorbell for the fifth time, and this time another person came out. It was a burly man with no expression on his face. He looked like Shen Ting's bodyguard, and he spoke with a bit of cold anger: "This gentleman is It’s not that you don’t understand human language, you ring the doorbell like this in the middle of the night to harass you, do you know?”

I held the door and smiled apologetically at him: "My surname is Zhou, please help me tell Mr. Shen that I want to see him."

"Mr. Shen is not at home, your surname is useless." He looked disgusted, waving his hands like chasing a beggar, "Hurry up, hurry up, don't stay here and let me throw you out."

I don't know if Shen Ting is really not at home, but I know that Shen Yan must be there. His brother treats him as a lunatic. If he doesn't need to be guarded, there is no need to keep bodyguards in a villa as safe as Anbao.

I also thought about yelling at Shen Yan, maybe he could hear me.But I gave up after trying it once. I couldn’t make a sound in my throat, and I didn’t have the strength. Trying it once was enough for me to breathe for a long time. My mouth was full of fishy sweetness, so I had to close my mouth and sit on the ground by the door, obediently waiting for someone to come in and out .

I deliberately didn't bring my mobile phone or watch, so I don't know what time it is.But it should be getting late, and the lights of the nearby villas have been turned off one after another.The Shen house was always brightly lit.It is this little light that makes me sit in the cold wind, my body is frozen with cold, but I still have a glimmer of hope in my heart.

I don't know how long I sat there, but the painkiller injections given in the hospital when I came out gradually lost their effect, and every inch of my body hurt, but the pain was so severe that I couldn't pass out.I leaned against the iron gate tightly, and occasionally couldn't help but bump it with my back, but except for the slight sound, the huge iron gate remained motionless.

Hearing the sound of a car approaching, the huge lights hit my face at close range, shaking my eyes to a vast expanse of whiteness.I blocked it with my hands in vain, and slowly stood up holding the door.The door suddenly opened, and I lost the support behind me. I was caught off guard and fell backwards.

The embarrassment is only considered when I am conscious, but now it has nothing to do with me. Anyway, when I can get up, I have already been thrown on the bed of Shen's guest room like a sack.

I propped myself up and sat up, and half of the people in the huge room were gone.There is no bodyguard, no babysitter, not to mention Shen Ting. Since I don't know much about him, it's normal for him to hang out with me for ten or eight days.But I'm afraid I can't last that many days.

Get out of bed to open the door, only to find that the door was locked from the outside.This is indeed Shen Ting's style, but I feel relieved, and I don't plan to struggle in vain.