Sick beauty always wants to bend me

Chapter 28

Enlightenment: My heart is also dirty

Seeing Lu Ye's face full of abandonment, Shen Mo was stunned for a moment, and then realized that Lu Ye's reaction was normal, it was like another person suddenly inserted between two good friends. It is uncomfortable and jealous, this is not like.

He looked at Lu Ye soothingly, and explained in a soft voice: "Lu Ye, we are friends."

Lu Ye's voice was hoarse: "So?"

Shen Mo took a step closer, and the eyes of the two of them showed each other's appearance, one was slightly agitated, and the other was calm, but with a touch of sickness.

Shen Mo sighed softly: "Among friends, there is no need or not, we will always be friends."

Lu Ye looked at the direction where Chu Qi was leaving, with an unrelieved expression on his face, he muttered in a low voice: "But, you seem to have a good chat, Momo, you haven't smiled at me like this all this time. "

Shen Mo's comforting words were hoarse in his throat. He really couldn't get along with Lu Ye during this time, and he didn't even know how to face Lu Ye next.

Having said this, Shen Mo had no choice but to speak out.

"It's normal for me to smile at others. We're just friends. Even if one day I fall in love with others, it's normal. Do you understand Lu Ye?"

Lu Ye froze in place with a battered look, listening to Shen Mo's words, he repeated it in disbelief.

"You said you were going to date someone else?"

Shen Mo nodded slightly, he is not a person who likes to procrastinate: "Yes."

He took a deep look at Lu Ye, who looked so sad that it made people feel distressed, but he still couldn't hold back, and stepped forward to smooth his wrinkled eyebrows, but his faint words went straight to Lu Ye's heart.

"Don't worry, I won't be bullied, I will find my lover who likes him, and he also likes me."

Lu Ye is not worried at this time, he just can't accept the fact that Shen Mo told him that he wants to fall in love and have a boyfriend.

His lips trembled, and he asked hoarsely, "Can't I not look for it?"

Shen Mo looked at Lu Ye, he could understand Lu Ye's mood at this time, they were so good, suddenly there was an extra person in the middle.

Even if he doesn't like himself, he will feel uncomfortable. It's the kind of discomfort when a good friend is taken away. Lu Ye's family background is very good. He can get what he wants since he was a child. He has never suffered any grievances or setbacks, but Now, he has no way to agree to this proud Lu Ye.

Shen Mo pursed her lips: "No."

At this point in the topic, it was already impossible to continue, Shen Mo raised her legs first, and walked into the bedroom, not forgetting to greet Lu Ye behind her.

"Let's go, Luye."

"Oh," Lu Ye replied uneasy, and followed Shen Mo's footsteps.

He looked at Shen Mo's back, his mind was full of thoughts, it's over, Momo said that he would fall in love with other men in the future! !

Lu Ye was shocked and returned to the dormitory, sitting blankly by his computer desk, looking lost. The atmosphere in the dormitory these days is very bad, and the two people who are usually the most tired always keep a distance, causing Neither roommate dared to ask what happened.

Shen Mo went back to the dormitory and went to the bathroom to take a shower, leaving Lu Ye alone.

Lu Ye covered his cheeks with his hands, feeling depressed and uneasy, and kept repeating in his mind the topic of Shen Mo wanting to fall in love with another man.

His heart was flustered, and he began to think about it divergently, he had read those dating posts before, would another man do something to Shen Mo in the future?

They would go on a trip together, walking all over the mountains and rivers together, with beautiful lakes and beautiful scenery, Shen Mo's side was not him, but another man was holding her hand.

What he once did to Shen Mo will be replaced by another person, feed him, cover him with a quilt, send him to school, help him when he is uncomfortable, coax him when he is angry, take him to the hospital when he is sick, and he can only Be a bystander.

Suddenly, Lu Ye's pupils shrank, and he stroked his thin lips with trembling hands, his heart was shocked. Wouldn't it be that those soft lips, so fragrant and fragrant, would be touched by another man, and they would still be him The most intimate thing that I have never done with Momo! !

Lu Ye put his hands on the table fiercely, his eyes widened. Can he accept that he sees Shen Mo liking others and falling in love with others?

He can't accept it, and he won't accept it! !

For a moment, Lu Ye relaxed, and fell down on the chair in frustration, and hammered the table in frustration.

"Damn it!" he growled.

If you can't accept it, then what is he doing like this! !

There was an answer in his heart that was faintly ready to come out, Lu Ye clenched his fists, but still refused to accept this fact.

Impossible, he is obviously a straight man, a straight man of steel!How could he fall in love with boys and Momo?

Then why is he like this now?

Is it the possessive desire to play tricks on Momo? After all, since childhood, Momo has belonged to him alone.

But suddenly a man appeared and wanted to distract Momo from him. It's normal for him not to accept it, right?

Yes, it must be so.

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Shen Mo hadn't made up his mind about the exchange students, so he specially sent a message to his parents, telling them that he would go back tonight to discuss things with them.

The parents naturally agreed.

Shen Mo went to the counselor and said that there was something at home, and approved the leave. Lu Ye, Yang Xu and Xu Zhiyan were running on the playground. They had a lot of exercise in the flying department, and they needed to exercise persistently every day.

If it was different from usual, Shen Mo would definitely rely on Lu Ye very much, and would take Lu Ye home with her.

However, at this time, he didn't tell Lu Ye that after leaving the school gate and taking a taxi, he sent a message to Lu Ye, saying that he would go home.

Lu Ye set a special concern for him, and almost after Shen Mo sent the message, Lu Ye's message popped up: "Okay, I'll come up right away."

Shen Mo typed: "I've already asked the counselor to approve it, and I'm on my way now, Lu Ye, you can exercise at ease."

Lu Ye: [The dog is wronged jpg];

Lu Ye: [Momo..];

Shen Mo knew that if he didn't stop it, the other party was about to throw a tantrum, so in order to prevent the bombardment of text messages, he took the initiative to end the topic: "I won't talk anymore, I was a little dizzy in the car, and I'll be in touch later."

With that said, he turned off the phone.

Half an hour later, Shen Mo returned home.

Shen's mother was stewing chicken in the kitchen, and it was Shen's father who came out to pick up Shen Mo. He looked at Shen Mo with some distress, and said with emotion: "Why don't you call Dad and ask Dad to pick you up?"

With a slight smile on the corner of Shen Mo's mouth, he explained: "It's very close, I don't bother you, it's the same if I come back by myself."

Father Shen sighed helplessly: "You don't need Dad now."

Shen Zeze at the side watched Shen Mo come back, rushed over and hugged Shen Mo: "Brother, you are back!"

Shen Mo said softly "En," and rubbed his little brother's hairy head. He looked up at Shen's father, and said softly, "Now that I'm older, Zeze needs Mom and Dad more."

Father Shen twitched his lips and smiled: "You are all father's sons, and you all need them."

Shen Zeze was led by Shen Mo, and said enthusiastically as he walked: "Brother, can you play games with me later, I want to play hide-and-seek."

Shen Mo bent down to change her slippers, just about to agree.

Father Shen waved to his youngest son: "Zeze, go play with toys, don't pester brother to play with you, do you hear me? Brother is in poor health and doesn't have much energy."

Shen Zeze's expression was slightly disappointed: "Okay."

Father Shen touched his younger son's face comfortingly: "Do you need to be more sensible?"

Shen Mo's mood relaxed for a moment, and finally couldn't help but said: "Dad, he is just a child, how do you want him to be sensible?"

Father Shen withdrew his hand embarrassingly: "Father is also trying to persuade my younger brother, you are not in good health, don't exercise too much, he is a child with great energy, and I am sweating profusely when I play with him."

A ray of disappointment hung from Shen Mo's eyes, and he couldn't tell for a while, who should be the sensible person in this family.

Wearing an apron, Shen's mother came out of the kitchen with a spoon, looked at Shen Mo, and immediately said lovingly: "Momo is back, go and sit for a while, dinner will be ready soon."

Shen Mo nodded obediently: "Yes, I see."

After a while, a large pot of sumptuous dinner was brought to the table. After Shen Mo took his younger brother to wash his hands, he carried him to a chair. Father Shen also put down the newspaper in his hand and sat down.

Shen's mother at the side took off her apron and put it aside, brushed her broken hair behind her ears, and followed, and the whole family sat together.

Shen's mother picked up a piece of pork ribs from Shen Mo, put it in his bowl, and said kindly: "Come on, try it, you haven't eaten the meal made by mom for a long time."

Shen Mo silently took a bite of the ribs, and bent her eyes: "Mom, your cooking is still so delicious."

Mother Shen smiled, and gave Shen Mo another piece of fish: "Eat more if you like it." She looked at Shen Mo carefully, looked at the other's cheek, and couldn't help but feel distressed: "Look at you, you don't know what to eat." Thin."

The mother is always worried that the child will not be able to eat well or wear well. Shen's mother looked at the clothes on Shen Mo's body, and said: "Winter is coming soon, we will have dinner later, mother will take you to buy two clothes?"

Zeze tilted his head and looked at his mother: "Mom, I also want to wear new clothes."

Mother Shen laughed and said, "Your new clothes are not enough? Why are you arguing with your brother?"

Shen Mo paused with chopsticks, uncomfortable emotions surged up, and it came again, this strange feeling came again, why did my parents always have to be like this every time I go home.

His eyes flickered, and the forced smile could no longer be maintained. This family made him feel depressed and suffocated.

After a while, Shen Zeze stretched out his chopsticks to pick up the chicken leg, but Shen's mother took the lead and put it into Shen Mo's bowl, and said to his youngest son, "I'll give this chicken leg to my brother first, and mother will go to the kitchen to pick up another chicken leg later, okay?" ?”

Shen Zeze withdrew his chopsticks aggrievedly: "Okay."

He once had a big fight with his parents because of this matter, but it was useless. After the quarrel, his parents still went their own way. In the past two years, in order not to disturb Zeze's normal growth, Shen Mo tried to avoid going home.

But until now, he really couldn't take it anymore, couldn't control his emotions anymore, put down his chopsticks, and suddenly, his eyes were red.

"Enough," his voice became hoarse: "Don't be like this, he's just a child."

Shen's mother came back to her senses, and quickly explained: "Momo, that's not what mother meant, my brother's mother is also prepared."

Shen Mo looked at her mother helplessly, then at Zeze with distress, and became agitated unconsciously: "Do you really think that you are good to me and Zeze?"

Shen's mother withdrew her hand embarrassingly, she was also a weak little woman, she looked at Shen Mo with red eyes: "Then what do you want mother to do? Is it wrong to care about you?"

Shen Mo frowned, and said coldly: "I don't need such concern." He looked at Shen Zeze distressedly: "Zeze doesn't need this kind of concern either."

He looked at his mother, his voice trembling slightly: "If you are not partial, it is the best concern for me and Zeze."

Father Shen's expression also became serious, looked at Shen Mo and shouted: "Momo, why are you talking to mom?"

Shen's mother became emotional, she looked at Shen Mo: "I know that since the last time we quarreled, you have been blaming me and Dad, Shen Mo, you are so old, don't you understand why we do this? Brother, take it easy Wronged, it is important to have your body? For this matter, how long are you going to fight with us?"

Shen Mo slowly closed her eyes, her voice choked with sobs: "You clearly know that this makes me uncomfortable, and Zeze also feels uncomfortable."

He looked at his parents with tears in his eyes: "He is still young, he needs your fair treatment, and your actions make me feel like a waste who depends on my parents and asks my younger brother to give way."

Shen's mother looked at Shen Mo at a loss: "You are not in good health, how can you be a waste, you have been the pride of mother since childhood."

Shen Mo looked at her parents firmly: "Don't you think that this kind of education is a failure? I don't need your self-righteous love for me."

Shen's mother fell down on the seat, as if being hit by Shen Mo, Shen's father stood up to protect his wife.

"Shen Mo," he pointed at his son tremblingly, "We are self-righteous if you talk like that? Your body was snatched back from the king of Hades by your mother without sleep and rest. You can't touch it. Why do you think we are Doing this? It’s not because your body is weak!”

Shen Mo watched his father slapping the table excitedly: "If you don't get sick, we will be biased? I kept you in my mouth for fear of melting, and held you in my palm for fear of falling. This is how you repay your parents."

Shen Mo half-closed his eyes, the ends of his eyes were moist, he blinked lightly, and finally realized suddenly.

He clutched his chest, heaving in pain: "So, it's all because of this useless body, is it because it makes you think I should be taken care of and treated specially?"

He understands, he finally understands, whether it is his parents or Lu Ye, they are all because of his weak body, they are so caring, but because of this disease.

Shen Mo stood up unsteadily, and he didn't realize it until this moment. He looked at his parents with empty eyes, and tears rolled down from the corners of his eyes: "So it's not your problem."

"Bang!" He got up, accidentally fell to the ground, struggled to get up with a blur in front of his eyes, and muttered to himself: "It's my problem, blame me, I rely too much on you."

This dilapidated body shouldn't cause trouble to anyone. He should have thought it through long ago. There's nothing inexplicable about it. Even his parents, don't they feel pity for him?

Shen's mother sobbed: "Momo, that's not what mom meant."

Shen Mo's eyes were clear and firm, and he finally made this decision: "Dad, Mom, when I come back this time, I want to tell you that I plan to go to the United States as an exchange student for a period of one year."

Father Shen frowned ugly: "How can this be done, you go to the United States alone, what should you do if you have a health problem?"

Shen Mo supported the door frame, turned her head and smiled sadly: "I have already decided, I will always learn to live independently by myself."

Shen Mo believes that even in difficulties, he can get rid of others and live a good life by himself. It turned out that as long as he is independent and no one else worries about him, all these problems will be solved easily.

He glanced at his family one last time, and said slowly, "Tuition fees are waived for exchange students in the U.S. I won the award last time and I still have some savings. I can earn money myself, and I don't need you to pay for it." Looking deeply at his parents: "Dad, Mom, I hope that next time I come back, you can figure out our true reconciliation."

Said that Shen Mo left the house as if fleeing, and quickly took a taxi.

Seeing Shen Mo's pale face and disapproving tone, the taxi driver couldn't help worrying: "Student, should I take you to the hospital?"

Shen Mo shook her head slowly: "Master, go to Nantah University."

The car drove all the way to Nanjing University. There was medicine in the dormitory. I was a little emotional now and needed to take medicine.

But he could hold on, after Shen Mo got off the car, he stumbled all the way to the dormitory, and pushed open the door.

There was no one in the dormitory, everyone went to participate in club activities, when Shen Mo reached the dormitory, he fell to the ground, because he was emotionally agitated, he lay on the ground, his chest heaving violently.

"Hmm..." He breathed heavily and made a shallow sound.

From the moment he returned to the dormitory, his emotions completely collapsed. Shen Mo didn't know what he was suffering from. The favoritism of his parents and this unrequited secret love seemed to have started because of this illness, and should also end with this illness. .

The air gradually became thinner, and Shen Mo had to take a deep breath to keep himself awake. At the same time, the sequelae of fatigue and headache also hit him, and he trembled and walked towards the place where he put the medicine.

Because of my weakness, I had to crawl to the front of the cabinet, grab the armrest, open the drawer, and took out the mouth spray with great effort.

He tremblingly picked up the mouth spray, his whole body trembled violently, his consciousness gradually became blurred, and when he let go, the mouth spray fell to the ground again and rolled a long way.

Shen Mo forced himself to cheer up, his whole body was twitching, the sound of breathing seemed to rise to his throat, his watery eyes looked at the ground, and he stretched out his hand weakly to grab the medicine that fell on the ground.

Because of Shen Mo's talk about falling in love, Lu Ye was in a restless mood all day long, and he didn't have the energy to go to clubs, so he left early and went back to the dormitory.

Thinking of keeping a distance from Shen Mo these two days, he felt uncomfortable. He didn't want to do this, he wanted to get close to Shen Mo.

Lu Ye didn't know what was wrong with him, he probably had a disease that only Shen Mo could cure.

When he pushed open the door, he saw Shen Mo curled up on the ground, trembling all over, holding his lips and coughing uncomfortably.

Lu Ye was startled immediately, and hurried to the front, picked him up, and said anxiously: "Momo, what's wrong with you?"

Shen Mo coughed until the end of her eyes turned red, she opened her eyes to look at Lu Ye, blinked lightly with the sparkling water, and breathed heavily.

His hand was firmly grasping Lu Ye's arm, his joints were white, tears were streaming down his face, Jiao Pan slightly looked at him with pure and ignorant eyes: "Lu Ye, help me—"

Lu Ye's brain was roaring, and he couldn't even hear Shen Mo's next sentence, which was to help him spit.

He stayed where he was like a dumbass, his heart was beating "thumping", more violently.

He hasn't been in such close contact with Momo for a long time, why can't he bear just the other's eyes?

Seeing that Lu Ye didn't respond, Shen Mo used all her strength to get the medicine.

Lu Ye finally regained his senses, grabbed Shen Mo back into his arms, stretched out his long hand, picked up the mouthpiece, quickly brought it to Shen Mo's mouth, and turned on the switch: "Come on, Momo, take a breath. "

Shen Mo spat without any strength, resisting Lu Ye, he wanted to suck by himself.

Lu Ye reacted, and quickly handed it up. Shen Mo took the mouth spray, his flushed cheeks slightly confused, he opened his soft lips, gently held the straw, and sucked the medicine into his lungs one by one.

Lu Ye stared at Shen Mo's lips, his Adam's apple slid gently, a thought exploded in his mind, and he finally came up with the answer after so long of self-denial.

he thinks.

It's over, and his heart is also dirty.

In a small ball in his arms, Momo with this appearance, he wanted to hide, so that no one could see his cute appearance.

The author says:

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