Yingying

Chapter 50 I love you very much

Hearing Ye Zhihe's answer, Ye Shu nodded, then closed his eyes and stopped talking.

Ye Zhihe suddenly softened his heart. Is it better not to ask? Ye Shu doesn’t want to mention it. He looks so tired. The past will not be more important than the present...

"Cheng Zi said you noticed it." Ye Shu opened his eyes, "It's no wonder, you look alike."

Ye Zhihe didn't know what expression to make for a moment, but he didn't mention Ye Shu but took the initiative to say it.

"She persuaded me to tell you clearly, but there is nothing to talk about." Ye Shu let out a sigh of relief, "It's all over."

Ye Zhihe's heart was empty for no reason, and Ye Shu said that everything was over, as if he had let go of it, and the past stained with alcohol was not important.

But is it really not important?

"You are mother, so who is father?" Ye Zhihe asked.

A moment of clarity appeared in Ye Shu's eyes, he sat up straight and looked at Ye Zhihe carefully, then nodded, "I know everything, so let's talk about it, just let it go."

Ye Zhihe pursed his lips, dissatisfied with Ye Shu's perfunctory attitude.He felt a little uncomfortable, his throat was stuffed up, he had never been so wronged by concealment or neglect, he wondered if he guessed wrong, Ye Shu really didn't seem to care, is there a need to tell this story.

Ye Shu looked at him calmly, "Your other father is Cheng Zi's elder brother."

Ye Zhihe thought, sure enough.

Ye Shu lowered his eyes, his face flushed with drunkenness, not only his face but also the corners of his eyes were red.

"I fell in love with him when I was 16 years old. I secretly liked him for six years. I chose a science subject that I was not good at because of him. I went to the same place. I didn't know that he liked me after I graduated from university. His parents did not agree that we should be together. At the same time, he is an Alpha, so it is suitable for him to find an Omega to marry, my parents also disagree, thinking that I, a male Beta, should marry a female Beta, and they want us to separate, so that we can get married and have children separately.” Ye Shu turned his head and looked at Ye Zhihe as if he was recalling something, "His parents are much more ruthless than mine, and they withheld all his documents, so we didn't really get married. It was planned that his parents' attitude would be loose in a few years. Let’s talk about it, but we’ve only been together for two years.”

Just as Ye Zhihe was about to ask something, Ye Shu quickly answered: "I saw Cheng Zi for the first time. She is the same age as you now, 16 years old, and a little girl. Everyone objects to us being together. , but she said, 'My brother likes you, he likes you so much, you have to be nice to him'."

Ye Shu smiled at this point, and said softly, "I agree."

"Neither of us thought about having a child, nor did we ever think about having a child." Ye Shu lowered his eyelids again as he spoke, "You are an accident."

Ye Zhihe didn't understand.

Ye Shu suddenly said, "Your eyes are like him, and your nose and mouth are like mine."

Ye Zhihe felt something, "Dad..."

"In the beginning, the pregnancy was found to be aborted. It is too difficult for Beta to give birth. Even if the child is born, there may be congenital deformities or mental retardation." Ye Shu said, "We all want to abort you."

Ye Zhihe calmed down, and his emotions turned into a very ethereal thing. He understood what Ye Shu said bluntly, but he still couldn't accept it.

"so he……"

"He died in a car accident."

Ye Shu said it very easily. He had repeated this sentence many times. Whenever someone asked him, he would answer numbly.Every night when it was difficult to fall asleep, life became meaningless. The Wu family was worried that he would be alone, so they moved in to take care of him during that time.They are in the same situation as Ye Shu, Uncle Wu is Alpha and Aunt Wu is Beta.

"It was a large-scale traffic accident. Many people died and many people lived." Ye Shu leaned on the cushion and looked at him sideways. At the age of 24, he broke down and cried when he heard the news. At the age of 40, only a calm narrative remained. "He's just not that lucky."

Ye Zhihe felt a lump in his throat, "Then that iron box..."

"It's all your father's things inside, the letters he wrote to me, the photos we took together, and the watch that he said he gave me and ended up wearing it himself. When you were young, I couldn't think of how to say that you were born by me. Yes, I just wanted to show you what he left behind."

Ye Shu was still young when Ye Zhihe was born. He was just 24 years old. He didn’t grow up under the careful care of a man before, but now he has a child. The child is so small and wrinkled. Fear.Cheng Zi came all the way to see the child for the first time, but he drove him back indifferently.

"I decided to give birth to you after he died." Ye Shu raised his hand and rubbed the corners of Ye Zhihe's red eyes. Ye Zhihe didn't cry at first, but Ye Shu's behavior made him unable to control it anymore. tears. "I really need to grab something, otherwise I don't know what is left in my life from now on."

Ye Zhihe blinked, his eyelashes were wet with tears.

"You were not born under the expectation of the two of us, but more like my sustenance."

Ye Zhihe shook his head, wanting to deny it.

"Before you were born, I didn't love you that much. After you were born, I felt more at a loss." Ye Shu dug away the bloody reality, and Ye Zhihe suddenly knew why he kept refusing to talk about it. To whom? Sad to say.

"Blame me." Ye Shu said, "I'm not a good father."

Ye Zhihe still shook his head, Ye Shu touched his head, he suddenly felt a great grievance, his crying became an uncontrollable sob.

Ye Shu said: "If you are so soft-tempered, you will suffer in the future."

Ye Zhihe raised his head in a daze, and Ye Shu said again: "Don't cry, it's all over."

Ye Zhihe went to bed very late that night, and would rest on Saturdays during the monthly holiday every month, so he didn't get up until ten o'clock the next day with a pair of red and swollen eyes. There was a bun bought by Ye Shu on the table, but he was already go out.

Ye Zhihe couldn't help crying while holding the still warm buns, eating while crying until a phone call came in.

On the other end of the phone, Cheng Zi said: "Hey, Miao Miao, are you free? Let's come out and meet."

Ye Zhihe sobbed: "Yes, but I'm done eating."

Cheng Zi was a little panicked: "Are you crying? Hey, don't cry, just wait... Oh, what did your father tell you when he went back? Let me tell you, you don't even believe what he said, wait until I tell you .”

The meeting place was set at an ice cream shop near Ye Zhihe's home. In winter, there were very few people in the shop, and Ye Zhihe wore little clothes. Eye sockets, looking funny.

Cheng Zi ordered hot cocoa for him, and the two sat down in a corner.

Ye Zhihe said, "Auntie..."

Cheng Zi's heart softened and his eyes turned red, and he replied softly, "It's okay, I'm not wronged, your father is talking nonsense."

Ye Zhihe took a sip of hot chocolate, calmed down, briefly explained what happened last night, and finally said: "But he still cares about me, right?" He was not sure, and stared at Cheng Zi , for fear that she would lie to herself too.

Cheng Zi raised his hand and patted his head, "Yes, he loves you so much."

Ye Zhihe did not reject her touch, Cheng Zi and him were related by blood, and from the first time they met Ye Zhihe, he had a good impression of this "stranger".

"After so many years, your father's indiscretions have not changed at all." Cheng Zi criticized, "You don't need to learn from him, really, otherwise he and my brother would have been together earlier."

"They went to a high school and a university, and my brother always mentioned him to me. For six years, both of them couldn't open their mouths. They were exhausted and in love. The time we were together was not as long as the time we had been secretly in love with each other... I You can't lie, before my brother's accident, they really didn't think about wanting you. My brother didn't want your father to have an accident. The risk of Beta's birth was too great. They kept it well hidden. Neither my family nor your father's family Know.

"It wasn't until half a year after my brother's accident that your father was found pregnant and had to admit that your father's parents didn't want him to be born. My parents meant that the child would be raised by them...then he ran away."

Ye Zhihe was stunned.

"He came to the city where they went to college together, this is here." Cheng Zi looked at him, "He was very sensitive at that time, he didn't see anyone except Sister Wu, he was too afraid of you being robbed, you were his only thought I came here secretly when you were just born, and he didn't let me see you. I only saw you because I swore repeatedly that I didn't contact my parents. In less than ten seconds, he said that I can leave .”

"His original purpose of giving birth to you may not be so pure, but since he gave birth to you, he has started to live a good life... I don't know if I said it clearly enough, he cares about you very much, he loves you, after my brother died, he It’s too painful, your birth brought him back to life.” Cheng Zi almost shed tears when he said this, “For the next few years, he didn’t see any acquaintances, didn’t keep in touch with others, and stayed by your side all the time, you go to kindergarten He would send me some fragmentary messages at school, but he never sent me photos of you. He was still very vigilant, and this situation gradually improved. The second time I saw you, you were only four or five years old. He just forced me to look at you when we were about to go abroad. He was cruel, right? He was even crueler to himself.

"You were weak when you were young. He stayed up all night and stayed with you, afraid that you would not notice if you were sick at night. When you went to kindergarten, he would sometimes send me thunderstorm emojis to others, and even let me People go to ask for Ping Anfu to put it under your pillow, but he doesn't say anything, he thinks it's too naive, not like what a father should do..."

Cheng Zi was still talking, Ye Zhihe thought of that iron box, cold and rusty, full of traces of another person's existence.

Does Ye Shu really not care? Doesn't he feel pain? On the contrary, he cares too much. The pain is so painful that he can't live alone. He risked his life to give birth to Ye Zhihe, and then gave him all his love.

"Thunderstorm means... sad." Ye Zhihe couldn't hold back the tears that flowed down his face. It was the code Ye Shu taught him when he was a child—the mood can be described by the weather, and it was a fairy tale Ye Shu built for him.

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Ye Zhihe was not at home when Ye Shu came home, so he hesitated to call Ye Zhihe.

"You went out?"

"I'll be back soon." Ye Zhihe replied on the phone.

"……Um."

Ye Shu entered the bedroom, and after ten minutes, Ye Zhihe came home and knocked on Ye Shu's door quickly.

Ye Zhihe said, "I still have questions to ask."

Ye Shu said, "Didn't you say it clearly enough yesterday?"

Ye Zhihe didn't back down, stood firmly at the door and said, "I haven't seen that iron box since I went to junior high school, and I didn't find it until I moved..."

There was no answer in the bedroom, Ye Shu opened the door directly.

Ye Zhihe looked directly at him.

Ye Shu said, "How much did you wear when you went out?"

"Well...not too much, but I'm not cold." Ye Zhihe raised his head, "It's okay, I won't get sick again."

Ye Shu frowned disapprovingly.

"Did you hide it?" Ye Zhihe asked.

Ye Shu's expression was a little unnatural.

Ye Zhihe said: "I still feel distressed, right? I didn't know it was my father's stuff so I didn't cherish them so much, so you put them away. After moving here, it's still in your room now? "

Ye Shu looked at him and said hesitantly, "If you put it outside, dust will fall."

Ye Zhihe rolled his eyes and smiled, and then said: "Actually, I'm very sad that your reaction was so cold when I asked you about pheromones."

He cried several times today, and it seems that he will cry again.

Ye Shu was stunned for a moment, "I'm not..."

"You didn't mean that." Ye Zhihe blinked away his tears and let them fall, "Because I'm always sick, and every time it's very serious, it's not easy just to grow up healthy, and I can't expect too much. many……"

"I'm sorry." Ye Shu lowered his head this time and was finally willing to explain. When he lowered his head, his expression was gentle, just like in the past, "You asked me so expectantly. I can't tell you that you may never have pheromones. Let me tell you." You are different from ordinary people."

Ye Zhihe just shook his head.

Ye Shu said, "Don't cry."

"I won't cry." Ye Zhihe suddenly reached out to hug Ye Shu, "If you can't say it, then I will."

Ye Shu froze.

"I love you very much, thank you for giving birth to me."

Ye Shu thought, Ye Zhihe's character was not like him.

Ye Zhihe's eyes are like that person's, and his personality is also similar, reckless and frank, his occasional timidity belongs to him, but his bravery follows another person.

Life has smoothed all his edges and corners, turning him into an ordinary middle-aged man.After Ye Zhihe went to elementary school, he started to run around for work, and he was exhausted all day long. When he recovered, Ye Zhihe stopped sharing his daily life with him.While Ye Shu was melancholy, he also heard from his colleagues that children would grow up and would become impatient with parental control.

Ye Shu didn't want to be an annoying parent, he gave Ye Zhihe enough freedom but forgot to ask him if he would be lonely.

Ye Shu slowly hugged the boy back, and said after a while, "If you're in love, just fall in love, don't be sneaky when you go out to play, and don't make your phone calls so loudly, I won't be able to help listening."

Ye Zhihe: "..."

Ye Zhihe stubbornly wiped away tears, "Good dad."