expired brother

Chapter 105 You're Unworthy

"I don't have a mother." Ruan Fangyu couldn't hold back anymore, and took a staggering step forward. Zhang Xinghang rushed to hug his waist, and leaned half of his body on his body for support.

"I don't have a mother!"

He heard the low-pitched quarrel between Zhang Xinghang and Ruan Qingfang through a door just now, and it was all like a dream. Ever since Zhang Xinghang told him about Grandma's death, he had been in a trance feeling that he was in a trance. dream.

How could he be this woman's son?

What has he been vaguely looking forward to all these years?

Ruan Fangyu fell under the support of Zhang Xinghang, her rapid breathing passed her throat, and finally she couldn't help sobbing, her chest was sore due to the long-term violent pulling.

He knew Ruan Qingfang, the face before the car accident flashed past behind the glass, he was not blind, although the environment was dark at the time, but he recognized the woman who scolded him in the stairwell during the basketball game...

"I'm the uneducated child you said, and you broke my arm..." He covered his face, feeling wronged and powerless, and he felt like a fool after so many years of waiting.

In the past 18 years, he has fantasized about his mother countless times in his mind.Kind, gentle, cheerful, strict...

She would frown when he was naughty, and would laugh because of him, her temper was calm and introverted.Or not restrained, like most women in the market, they will argue and care about every detail, but they show their teeth when they smile.

Ruan Fangyu had fantasized about thousands of kinds, thinking that as long as she was her biological mother, every kind would be sweet.

But now...

"Since I was a child, I have been waiting for my biological mother to appear." Ruan Fangyu cried and said: "I kept lying to myself, and she had a reason for throwing me away. She still misses me in an unknown corner. One day, she will come to me. I don't hate at all, I really don't hate at all, I just want a reason, or there is no reason, even if there is only one sentence "Ruan Ruan I'm sorry", I can forgive her willingly, Call her mom!"

Ruan Fangyu yelled at her hoarsely, "But Ruan Qingfang, you are not worthy at all!"

"Fang Yu..." Ruan Qingfang looked at Ruan Fangyu going crazy, her eyes were wet.

"sorry."

"The past was my fault. I shouldn't have given up on your father, let alone you. I regret it, and I'm sorry." During the few days she was wandering outside, she had only one thought in her mind, to start over.

She wanted to choose Xiao Chengyu, no longer involved in power and struggle, no longer jealous, and the family of three lived a peaceful and beautiful life.

Under Zhang Nanxing's obstruction, Ruan Qingfang squatted down as close as possible to him, trying to pull Ruan Fangyu, but was coldly thrown away by Zhang Nanxing.

"Don't touch him!"

"Fang Yu." Ruan Qingfang cried, all the remorse and resentment in her heart tormented her for many years.

"I understand now, I regret it. Give me a chance to make it up to you. Let's get out of here. I'll take you. Let's go find your father, shall we?"

"Our family of three starts from scratch. Forgive me for the mistakes I made before. I will make up for you."

When the life in front of her is a mess of hell, she uses escape as her salvation.Since time can't go back to the past, she will create a new one.

"I don't want anything here. I just want you and your father. Let's leave here."

Zhang Nanxing drooped his eyelids in a state of desperation, and glanced sideways in a trance when he heard this sentence.His own mother wanted to abandon her husband and son in front of him and run away with her lover's son.

"You're dreaming—!"

This woman now has a husband, a family and a child, and she has to selfishly leave all this behind and take him away.

"How shameless are you to say such a thing?" Ruan Fangyu looked at her with tears in her eyes, and pressed her fists to the ground.

"You don't deserve to be a human being, let alone someone's mother."

From the beginning to the end, whether she abandoned him or took him away, Ruan Qingfang's first thought was only herself.

His life experience cannot be seen in the light, so he was discarded.Now to escape from everything, selfishness has to take him away.Did Ruan Qingfang think about Zhang Nanxing's position for a second when she spoke.

Like him, Zhang Nanxing, who was born in Ruan Qingfang's womb unfortunately, will be abandoned like he was abandoned back then?

"You really disgust me."

Ruan Fangyu got up from the ground and staggered with Zhang Xinghang's support, burning with anger and sorrow.

"With a mother like you, I'd rather be an orphan."

Tired and exhausted all night, after saying this, Ruan Fangyu finally couldn't bear it any longer and fainted. Before he lost consciousness, he heard Zhang Xinghang screaming.

"He will have me in the future, get out of here and don't touch him!"

Zhang Nanxing transferred Ruan Qingfang to the No. [-] Mental Hospital that night, and because of this, he and Zhang Huai'an got into a heated argument. It is said that he not only deprived him of the right to inherit the estate, but also removed his name from Zhang's family.

These words were said by Lin Xuan when he came to visit.

Zhang Nanxing never came to the hospital after that night, only Tan Yaozhou occasionally came to settle the bills and take care of daily affairs.

It rained on the day of Grandma's funeral, Zhang Xinghang pushed a wheelchair and took Ruan Fangyu to see her off.There were not many people in front of the tomb, only a few people in the alley, holding the black umbrella provided by the cemetery uniformly, the sky was gloomy, the wind blew cold rain on the body, and a small piece of water stained the surface of the clothes.

Ruan Fangyu didn't cry, but just looked at the black and white photo on the cold tombstone.

Their conditions are not good, and they seldom take pictures. They rummaged through boxes and cabinets to find out photos of young people with long hair and braids, and they looked at him quietly and smiled.

Looking at the familiar smile in the unfamiliar photo, Ruan Fangyu's eyes were red again. He thought that his tears had run dry and he couldn't cry anymore, but he thought he was wrong.

It rained harder.

Zhang Xinghang discharged Ruan Fangyu from the hospital not long after his arm cast was removed.The hospital is like a Shura field. So far all the bad memories of the two of them came from here. Ruan Fangyu didn't want to stay, so Zhang Xinghang obediently took him away.

When Ruan Fangyu was first admitted to the hospital, Zhang Xinghang asked Tan Yaozhou to buy a single-family two-story building with a yard. Originally, he wanted grandma to move here first, so that someone could take care of them and rest assured.

But at that time, due to the contract issue, it was delayed. After all the formalities were completed recently, Grandma was no longer there.

Most of the things in this world cannot stand waiting. The sun goes west, and one day is gone in a blink of an eye. What passed away yesterday will never come back.

Zhang Xinghang took Ruan Fangyu to move to a new house, afraid of seeing things and thinking about others, he didn't bring any old things in the old house, everything was new, without the slightest trace of the past.

But many things exist in the heart, the more there is no trace, the more they try to hide it.

The community has just been developed, with complete facilities and good planning, and there is a small park inside.Zhang Xinghang took Ruan Fangyu out for a walk every day to breathe the fresh air in the morning forest. The doctor gave him a rehabilitation plan, one of which was walking.

Since Ruan Fangyu was discharged from the hospital, she seldom spoke. She kept silent all day long, and she couldn't speak three sentences a day.

When Zhang Xinghang had the opportunity, he started a conversation to lead him to say a few more words.

He couldn't empathize with this kind of grief, and he didn't know what it was like to be dependent on each other. He was sad and heartbroken when Grandma passed away, but it was far from the point of death.

"It's closer to the school than before." He followed behind Ruan Fangyu, and when the light spots between the branches and leaves passed over his shoulder, he said, "It still takes an hour to walk. Do you want to walk or ride a bicycle in the future?"

Ruan Fangyu lowered her eyelids and walked forward slowly.

The cobblestone road is paved in the woods, under the trees is the green grass that the gardener takes care of, and the neatly trimmed evergreen belt is surrounded by it.

There was a rustling sound from the green belt, a slight whimper.