expired brother

Chapter 114 is Alpha

It was already three o'clock in the morning when Zhang Nanxing was brought back from the beach. After the overwhelming emotions subsided, he curled up on the sofa wrapped in a blanket and stared casually at the edge of the coffee table.

Ruan Fangyu sat beside him, the night outside the window was dark, the windows were closed, not even the sound of insects could come in.Tan Yaozhou and Zhang Xinghang's clinking voices in the open kitchen further accentuated the silence.

After a while, a scent wafted from the kitchen, and Tan Yaozhou came out with a bowl of ginger soup.

"Soak in water for so long, drink it."

Zhang Nanxing didn't seem to hear it, and didn't raise his eyes, still staring blankly at the corner of the coffee table.

Zhang Xinghang came over and gave Ruan Fangyu a bowl.

"Do more."

Due to physical reasons, Ruan Fangyu can eat a little of whatever is delivered to her hand.Hot air rose from the bowl, so he picked it up, stirred it with a spoon and drank it along the edge of the bowl.

"Look how good my brother is." Tan Yaozhou picked up the bowl on the coffee table and blew it to Zhang Nanxing's mouth.

"Kid Nan Xing, show me some face and open your mouth."

Zhang Nanxing finally raised his head and looked at him.

"I have something to tell you."

It will be dawn in a few hours, and Zhang Xinghang and Ruan Fangyu followed for a whole night. Tan Yaozhou watched Zhang Nan, and they slept in the guest room.

The sky gradually turned from deep black to navy blue, Tan Yaozhou and Zhang Nanxing sat on the sofa together, time ticked by, and no one spoke first.

Tonight they talked all the words out of the box, and Tan Yaozhou's half-true and false pretense in the past was completely exposed. He felt that Zhang Nanxing looked at him now, and he probably felt very petty.

I don't know how long it was silent, Zhang Nanxing said: "I will not seek death again in the future."

Tan Yaozhou propped his legs in front of him, with his forearms resting on top, and his wrists hanging down, revealing clear blood vessels.

"Ah."

"You make a condition." Zhang Nanxing lowered his eyes and said calmly: "I will give you whatever you want, anything."

Tan Yaozhou smiled shortly, "You still want to drive me away?"

Zhang Nanxing didn't speak.

"Because I'm serious, you don't think it's fun anymore."

"It's not the same kind of people." Zhang Nanxing said, "Yaozhou, turn around before it's too late."

He knew from an early age that he was living in muddy water.He can have fun and socialize like a normal person, but he doesn't want to have intimacy, neither friends nor lovers.

He has nothing to do with anything irrational or sacrificial, and he doesn't want to drag anyone into his own quagmire.

Or, he was afraid that others would not be able to bear this weak and tired body, and would not be able to withstand the disappointment of collapse after being let down.

"I know you don't like people who are stubborn and shameless, but I can't help it." Tan Yaozhou said, "If you like someone, you just don't want to shame them."

"I've liked you since the third year of high school." He didn't want Zhang Nanxing to answer, he just wanted to tell everything.

"One night when you and my brother came home, I was upstairs watching you. You stood smoking a cigarette under the tree in the courtyard, squinting your eyes, the fire flickered on your fingertips, very beautiful."

"I admit that I am very superficial. I liked your beauty at first sight. I inquired about your preferences and deliberately approached you. Zhang Nanxing, I am really stupid. Your name is written on the cover of the exercise book for the third year of high school. I told you You go to the same university and want to conquer you."

"But then I discovered that you are not an indestructible person at all. As long as you pinch your weakness, a word, a look, you can be defeated in an instant."

The misfortune of Zhang Nanxing's native family and his kind heart are all weaknesses that can be pinpointed.

Tan Yaozhou let out a deep breath, and relaxed on the back of the sofa with all his body and mind, "I know you have a lot of burdens on your body, so I want to help you share as much as possible, and then share as much as possible. Even if your heart weighs ten thousand catties, I will I can also carry nine thousand and ninety-nine for you."

"Would you please leave me here?"

Zhang Nanxing pursed her lips, and looked at the brightly lit coffee table in front of her, casting the shadow of a quiet lamp.

"People won't maintain a good-looking skin forever." He said: "When I get old, or if the current situation continues, I will become unrecognizable and no longer beautiful. You will regret it."

Tan Yaozhou couldn't hold back his sneer, he could hear a slight looseness in the words, at least this time Nanxing didn't refuse directly.

"We've been together for ten years, and I've seen everything you look like. Do you think I just like your face now?"

In the day-to-day relationship, people who are interested in sex have long ignored his appearance, only seeing him pretending to be strong and duplicity, only caring about his happiness.

"Zhang Nanxing, I love you. Even if you become ugly, old, stupid, or even crazy, I will still love you."

The fingers wrapped in the blanket twitched, and Zhang Nanxing said in a flat tone: "In this case, I can hear dozens of sentences a month."

"Then you just listen to me from now on." Tan Yaozhou pressed his shoulders and forced him to look at him.

Zhang Nanxing watched him stare directly into her eyes, thinking she was about to say something aggressive again, but Tan Yaozhou's eyes softened.

"Nan Xing." He said softly, "Don't be alone anymore, can you leave me?"

Ruan Fangyu and Zhang Xinghang didn't wake up until noon the next day. When they went downstairs, they found that Zhang Nanxing was sleeping on the sofa.He should have taken a bath before going to bed. He was wearing clean cotton short sleeves, his hair was dry, and there were new pink marks on his neck. He was curled up like a cat returning to its nest.

Tan Yaozhou was cooking in the kitchen, his voice was very soft, and he could only hear the gurgling sound of the boiling pot. The living room was filled with the aroma mixed with traditional Chinese medicine. From time to time, he looked behind the bar to make sure he was awake.

When I came back last night, the house was tidy and rigid, but for some reason this morning, it had the warmth of Si's house.

Ruan Fangyu looked at Zhang Xinghang, Zhang Xinghang was staring intently at the hickey on Zhang Nanxing's neck, Ruan Fangyu kicked his side with his elbow.

After being reminded, Zhang Xinghang pursed his lower lip and looked away.

"Your brother doesn't want to go back to the bedroom." Tan Yaozhou came over, pulled out the blanket that Zhang Nanxing was pressing under his arm, and covered him lightly, "Let him sleep for a while."

"I made soup, you guys eat first."

"No."

No matter what the current situation is, it is not suitable for him and Zhang Xinghang to stay here. Ruan Fangyu said: "We haven't finished our homework, so we won't stay here. We have a dog at home, so we have to go back and feed it."

Tan Yaozhou didn't insist on staying, so he sent the two of them to the door and hailed a car.

When he was about to board the car, Zhang Xinghang looked back at Tan Yaozhou, who was standing in the sun, dressed in home clothes, relaxed and tall.

Tan Yaozhou parted the corners of his lips to reveal a smile, and pulled out his hands from his trouser pockets, beckoning at him.

The taxi drove out of the entrance of the community, and the dense trees and mottled shadows on both sides passed the roof of the car.

Zhang Xinghang and Ruan Fangyu sat side by side in the back seat, and spoke abruptly.

"Brother, Brother Tan is an Alpha."

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Therefore, Nan Xing was afraid of being marked, so he refused to accept Alpha, and finally fell. "Fate, my mother arranged the best."