Seemingly bright but not dark

38 Confession

It was after six o'clock in the afternoon, almost seven o'clock, when Gu Sheng got off the bus, and then took a taxi back home.Winter nights always come very early, and now it was completely dark.But it's not that you can't see your fingers. In addition to the street lights, the white snow also illuminates the night clearly.

Not far from the car home, Gu Sheng saw Zhao Miao squatting outside.Zhao Miao propped his chin, as if he was watching the snow, but also seemed to be in a daze.

The car stopped in front of Zhao Miao, Gu Sheng got out of the car and asked, "Why are you here?"

Zhao Miao immediately got up and walked up to Gu Sheng, "I... came to apologize to you. I'm sorry, I was too self-willed last semester."

Zhao Miao bowed his head and apologized. It was really stupid to vent that self-righteous sense of betrayal on Gu Sheng. Gu Sheng didn't feel sorry for him. Zhao Miao was afraid that Gu Sheng would never talk to him again.

"Oh, I forgive you. It's so late, go back early, don't catch a cold." Gu Sheng replied perfunctorily, dragged his suitcase and walked inside, and then closed the door.

Zhao Miao hadn't finished speaking yet, he had more important things to tell Gu Sheng, but Gu Sheng didn't seem to have the patience to talk to him tonight.Zhao Miao also understood how much he had gone too far. Last semester, he was not the only one who worked hard. Gu Sheng also taught him with all his might, and he devoted more energy to him than any other student in the class.But because of jealousy, he ruined everything.

Zhao Miao continued to sit in front of Gu Sheng's door. The snow this year was particularly heavy. If the sanitation workers hadn't sprinkled salt and shoveled the snow outside every day, the depth of the snow would have been deeper than the knees. In the past, at most, the feet would have been submerged.

Gu Sheng smoked several cigarettes in a row, and the living room was filled with clouds and mist. After putting out the cigarette, he got up and went upstairs, intending to take a shower and go to bed.

Gu Sheng opened the window of the room, trying to get some air before closing it, and found Zhao Miao who was still sitting at the door.Gu Sheng frowned. It didn't matter to him whether the student's attitude towards him was good or not. He did what he had to do. If the other party's mud couldn't support the wall, it didn't matter to him.Therefore, at the end of the term, Zhao Miao choked on him, Gu Sheng was indeed a little angry at first, but later it didn't matter.Whether the grades of the students are good or not has nothing to do with him, at most the bonus will be less, and Gu Sheng doesn't care about the bonus.

Not knowing why Zhao Miao was still sitting there, Gu Sheng went downstairs again, "Why don't you go back?"

Zhao Miao did not expect that Gu Sheng would open the door, he had planned to sit here all night, "Because I have something to tell you."

"Oh, come in then, and close the door by the way." After Gu Sheng finished speaking, he turned and went into the room, and Zhao Miao hurriedly followed.

Gu Sheng sat on the sofa, lit another cigarette, and exhaled the smoke, "What do you want to say?"

"At noon on the day of the English test, I saw you sitting with a man in the coffee shop opposite the school." Zhao Miao lowered his head, "I'm sorry, I handed in a blank paper on purpose because of jealousy."

Gu Sheng stopped the cigarette he was about to put in his mouth, feeling confused, "Jealous?"

Gu Sheng remembered that he was not interested in married men, not to mention that Chen Wensi was not his type at all.But now what makes Gu Sheng puzzled is the word "jealousy" that Zhao Miao said, is it what he thought?

Zhao Miao looked into Gu Sheng's eyes, "Yes, it was because of jealousy that I deliberately handed in a blank paper."

Gu Sheng smiled, "What's there to be jealous of, it's worth your blank paper, I..."

"Because I like you," I'm sorry, because I selfishly thought that you could only be mine, so when I saw you laughing so happily with other people, I was so jealous that I went crazy, and then lost my temper in the afternoon and deliberately handed in a blank paper.I know you just regard taking care of me as a teacher's responsibility, but I'm still hopelessly in love with you. "Zhao Miao said what he had been holding back for several days, and his heart felt much more comfortable.

Zhao Miao stayed at the door of Gu Sheng's house for three days, because Gu Sheng made countless phone calls, but Gu Sheng didn't answer, so Zhao Miao had to sit back and wait.

Gu Sheng's eyes widened, and the unfinished cigarette in his hand fell to the ground. A person who can watch porn is gay, and Gu Sheng didn't believe it at all.Although he himself is gay, Gu Sheng has never thought of breaking up a straight man, because if he breaks up, there is a possibility of going straight back.Instead of doing that, it is a principle not to find someone who is the same as yourself from the beginning.

"Teacher, I really like you." Zhao Miao still lowered his head, he didn't dare to look up at Gu Sheng, for fear of seeing something he didn't want to see.

There was a sudden silence in the room, only the ticking of the wall clock on the wall was heard.Gu Sheng sat on the sofa, while Zhao Miao stood at the side helplessly, waiting to be executed.

After a long time, Gu Sheng finally said, "I'm sorry and thank you for liking me, but I can't accept your confession."

Gu Sheng refused without hesitation, the teacher-student relationship was his taboo, Gu Sheng suppressed his emotions in his heart, and such a teacher-student relationship could not happen to him.

Hearing Gu Sheng's refusal, although Zhao Miao was disappointed, he also breathed a sigh of relief, I know...thank you for not refusing too cruelly, even though the result is the same.I'm going first, teacher, good night. "

Zhao Miao ran out the door, and the wind outside the door blew in. Tonight seemed to be colder than ever before.

Gu Sheng wanted to smoke another cigarette, but the lighter never ignited, so he gave up struggling, threw the cigarette and lighter on the coffee table, and went upstairs to take a shower.

Gu Sheng, who was already tired all day, couldn't fall asleep, his mind was always thinking about Zhao Miao's confession just now.It's obviously just an irrelevant confession, and it's not like I haven't encountered it before, but I just can't sleep today.

Gu Sheng looked at the ceiling, he suddenly realized that he was too kind to Zhao Miao, which exceeded his responsibility as a teacher.Because Zhao Miao was in the same situation as him, he couldn't help but want to help more, but he helped too much, which didn't meet Gu Sheng's standards.

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Zhao Miao ran home and fell down halfway. Fortunately, it was only on the snow and it didn't hurt at all, because compared to the pain in his heart, falling down is nothing at all.It's just that Zhao Miao's pants were wet, and Han Shu didn't want to say a serious word when he saw it.Zhao Miao didn't know where he went these few days, he went out in the morning and came back at night.Ask Zhao Miao, and he refuses to say anything. Han Shu originally thought that the youngest daughter's family would hide so many thoughts, but Zhao Miao did not expect that.

Zhao Miao didn't go to bed after changing his clothes, but sat at the desk and opened the book that he hadn't read for several days.

"Gu Sheng must not like people who are inferior to him, he must be excellent." Whether it's Gu Sheng's ex-boyfriend or the man that day, they all seem to be very good.Zhao Miao felt that as long as he was strong, Gu Sheng would definitely accept him.

Zhao Miao's phone lock screen was a note that the two of them happened to be next to each other that day. If they weren't with Gu Sheng, they wouldn't be happy at all.But if you want to be with Gu Sheng, you must be excellent, and you must be admitted to C University.

Zhao Miao opened the pen cap and fought for his dream.

The author has something to say:

How can anyone escape the law of true fragrance?

Teacher-student love is certain, and Miaomiao will definitely catch up with Lao Gong.

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