The Disaster of Shyness

Chapter 18

While Hua Yu was washing and chopping vegetables and seasoning the stuffing in the kitchen, he was still a little worried about Lin Fan.

I always feel that Xiaofan is hiding something in his heart.

Just as he was pursing his lips and thinking, Hua Xiancheng's call came.

"Hey, son, what's missing for the new year's goods at home, I'll stop by and buy them later."

"No, I've bought everything." Hua Yu replied, "I'm making stuffed buns at home right now."

"Where's your dad?"

"It seems that there is something in the store, and he went to deal with it."

"When did you go out? Why didn't you tell me?"

"An hour and a half ago."

Hearing Hua Xiancheng's mumbling, Hua Yu knew that Liang Xi must be afraid of disturbing Hua Xiancheng, so he didn't call to inform him.

"I see, I'll call your dad, and you can keep busy," Hua Xiancheng said and then instructed, "Don't let Xiaofan do too many things, he is a guest after all."

"Well, I see, you and Dad go home early." Hua Yu responded, and then hung up the phone.

In two hours, he prepared three kinds of stuffing for steamed stuffed buns, including dried radish and meat, tofu, and red bean paste, as well as stuffing for dumpling with cabbage and pork.

After washing his fingers, Hua Yu planned to visit Lin Fan.

Walking to the door, Hua Yu heard a bunch of English words coming out of it, and the speaker was Lin Fan, with a bad tone.

The speed of the speech was too fast, Hua Yu couldn't hear clearly, and could only feel that Lin Fan was very unhappy.

After waiting for a while, Hua Yu knocked on the door, "Does your head still hurt?"

Lin Fan leaned against the bed, did not answer this question, only said: "I want to listen to music, the room is too quiet."

Hua Yu asked: "What do you want to hear?"

Lin Fan said, "As you wish."

Hua Yu stood and thought for a while, then quickly searched in the drawer of the desk, and then in the box on the bookshelf.

"What are you looking for?"

"Song." Hua Yu didn't raise his head. After finding the small MP3, he took out the noodle earphones from the wall and handed them to Lin Fan, smiling shyly.

"Would you like to listen to the songs I recorded a few years ago?"

Lin Fan put his hands behind his head and said, "Don't let me listen to bad words, I don't want my ears to be polluted."

"Ah?" Hua Yu's smile froze, a little at a loss and a little bit of expectation, "It should be okay, otherwise, I'd better play Clayderman's music for you."

Lin Fan quietly stared at Hua Yu's face, making him feel guilty.

"I'll play the music for you." Hua Yu got up and turned on the small stereo as if frustrated.

"Which one?" Lin Fan grabbed the earphone in Hua Yu's hand and put it on his ear.

Hua Yu immediately laughed happily, "There is only one song in it."

Lin Fan nodded, and after Hua Yu adjusted the MP3, he lowered his eyes slightly, the light cast a slight shadow under his eyes, appearing a little gentle.

In fact, even Huayu himself can't fully remember the lyrics in it, but he remembers the mood when he wrote the song.

At that time in high school, I had just transferred to another school, and it was a bit difficult to get along with the new classmates from the noble school. When I wrote a letter to An An at night, I was inspired and wrote this song.

Later, when he met Lin Fan, he was deeply attracted by his dancing posture and the emptiness in his eyes. Perfect sculpture.

Like An An, it made him feel distressed, but it seemed to be different later.

Hua Yu looked into Lin Fan's eyes expectantly. Lin Fan was listening to music with earphones on, and didn't look up at him until he took off the earphones after listening.

"How is it?" Hua Yu's expression was like a child eager to be praised.

"It's okay." Lin Fan nodded.

Hua Yu immediately blushed and smiled, showing clean teeth.His face was too close to Lin Fan, so that within a few seconds of meeting Hua Yu's gentle and shy gaze, Lin Fan slapped him on the forehead.

"It's just that the lyrics are too vulgar, what about sunshine after the rain, gentle wings, you think you live in the 80s?"

"Oh." Hua Yu lowered his head and put away the earphones, rubbed his fingers on the MP3, but didn't speak.

Lin Fan couldn't bear Hua Yu's aggrieved expression the most. He turned over and got out of bed, and asked, "Have you finished the task your father gave you? Do you want me to help?"

"No, I'm done." Hua Yu put the earphones on the desk, and followed Lin Fan to the living room.

"You move very fast."

"Yes, I have been used to it since I was a child." Hua Yu chuckled.

"They haven't come back yet?" Lin Fan checked the time, it was already 09:30 in the evening.

"Well, why don't we make dumplings, tonight there is NBA, Grizzlies vs. Warriors." Hua Yu suggested.

"Okay." Lin Fan went to wash his hands first, and then waited for Hua Yu to bring the dumpling wrappers and stuffing to the coffee table.

The NBA game on TV was very exciting, Hua Yu originally watched it with great interest, but after a while he was distracted by the quiet Lin Fan.

"What are you doing?" Lin Fan felt Hua Yu's gaze without raising his head.

"Xiaofan, you are unhappy." Hua Yu said calmly.

"I've always been like this, don't always think too much." Lin Fan pursed his lower lip tightly.

"Did something happen to you at school. Paper? Teacher? Classmate?"

"No."

"That's home."

"Don't ask, annoying!" Lin Fan stared at Hua Yu with dangerous eyes.

"I don't want to see you unhappy." Hua Yu grabbed Lin Fan's arm and wiped the flour on Lin Fan's arm, "Since I'm already at my house, it means I'm worthy of your trust, right?"

After being stunned for a second, Lin Fan pushed him away, "It's okay."

Hua Yu took a breath, and suddenly felt aggrieved, "Don't show such a lonely expression, I will feel sad when I see it."

"How much do you like me?" Lin Fan felt a pain in his heart, he asked coldly, "How could you be swayed by my emotions?"

"Yeah, I like you." Hua Yu was still regretting that he had said something that Lin Fan hated again, but right now he should care more about Lin Fan's uneasiness, so he continued to emphasize, "Better than you or even what I thought like all of them.”

"Don't say such disgusting words, we don't have that kind of relationship." Lin Fan's voice was cold, and different emotions flashed in his eyes. "If you still want to be yourself, stay away from me, lest my emotions offend you."

After saying this sentence, Lin Fan knew that this sentence must have hurt Hua Yu.

Are you an idiot? You are obviously someone who cares about you, but why do you always hurt him!

He regretted so much that he turned his head away, the dough in his hand was deformed by his pinching.But the next second he was hugged in his arms!

The heart beat suddenly a few times, like heart palpitations at the beginning of love.

"Idiot, you pounce on me without saying hello, are you looking for a fight?"

"I just want to hug you." Hua Yu leaned his lips against Lin Fan's ear and asked softly, "Do you feel warmer?"

"I'm not cold in the first place." Lin Fan stared and punched him hard on the back.

The temperature of the air conditioner in the room is already 28 degrees, how can it be cold, and wanting to take advantage should not be an excuse.

"I mean in my heart." Hua Yu responded in a low voice and earnestly, his big hands slowly hugged Lin Fan's back firmly, "Look, we have been classmates and friends for such a long time, and my shoulder can also be used when you need it." I borrow what you rely on."

Lin Fan responded calmly, but his heart was shocked.

"Childish, don't watch dog blood dramas."

Instead, Hua Yu hugged him even harder, "This is my truth, Xiao Fan, no matter what happens, I will be by your side."

"Let go!" Lin Fan struggled to break away from this increasingly suffocating hug.

Hua Yu hadn't intended to restrain him, not to mention that his force value was not at the same level as Lin Fan's, so he could only let go resentfully.

"Don't talk about the future." Lin Fan sighed slightly mockingly.

Promises that cannot be fulfilled by then are lies, so why bother to bind yourself in a cocoon.

Has Huayu forgotten that the last line of his song is: An An, I miss you.

Hua Yu didn't speak, just looked at him quietly.The game on TV is still in full swing, and the commentator's wonderful commentary is heard from time to time.

After a while, the conversation between the two overshadowed the explanation.

"Xiaofan, I really like you and I don't want to see you sad."

"I'm so bad-tempered, you like it too?"

"You're not bad."

"Oh, Hua Yu, your love may be blind, you may like others more than me..."

"No!" Hua Yu was eager to explain, he had always only liked Lin Fan alone.

"Do you understand me?" Lin Fan said softly, forbearance: "Some people's parents are divorced, they can't get the love of a complete family since they were young, and they are always ridiculed and bullied. Such people are often psychologically twisted, do you understand?"

"What?" Hua Yu showed puzzled eyes.He couldn't see where Lin Fan was twisted, he clearly planned his life path in an orderly manner.

"Do you know about Bing. Love?" Lin Fan's mouth curled up in a nasty arc, his eyes were cold, "Maybe this is the ultimate expression of my liking for someone, aren't you afraid?"

"You won't." Hua Yu shook his head firmly, he didn't believe this.

"Idiot." Lin Fan sighed in his heart: It's because you know me so self-righteously that I feel a headache.

"There's nothing wrong with being a fool, at least it's special in your eyes."

"You!" Lin Fan was frustrated, he knew that Hua Yu was just repeating his words, but how could this person take those words seriously, if he was really that stupid, how could they be classmates?

"I just don't want you to always uncover your own scars." Hua Yu stared at Lin Fan's frowning brows, showing distressed eyes, "Even if you do it yourself, it will still hurt."

Lin Fan took a deep breath and said viciously, "It's not a scar, it's just a fleeting reality. You know what kind of character I am."

"I just know, that's why..."

Lin Fan interrupted him, folded the dumpling wrappers in his hands and squeezed them tightly. Hua Yu's words just now seemed to squeeze his heart tightly.

"Huayu, everyone has space and a bottom line. You are not everyone's Virgin Mary, don't take it too seriously."

"But for you, I have to be serious." Hua Yu shouted in his heart, but he couldn't say it.

He knew that Lin Fan was really sad, and he said that he was just adding salt to the scar he had uncovered.

"sorry."

The author has something to say:

I'm sorry, for various reasons, I didn't do the Chinese New Year recovery day I promised before, stretch your face and hit it~~~~(>_<)~~~~