I am arresting the patient in Lianzong

Chapter 57

Back home, Shu Qiu accompanied Zhong Jinnan to finish the business, and then began to reply to the contents of the diary.

"Can I watch?" Shu Qiu hugged a box of ice cream, sitting cross-legged on the sofa, leaning on Zhong Jinnan's shoulder, "If I can't watch, I'll go back to my room first."

As he said that, he was about to stand up. For something like a diary, if someone is watching it while writing, it should be quite embarrassing.

One leg was about to fall to the ground, when Zhong Jinnan held down his shoulder: "No, you are here, I want you to accompany me."

Jinnan's expression was very light when he spoke. If it wasn't for the intimate movements of his hands, he would even feel like he was talking to a stranger.

Like distressed, like overwhelmed.

The current Jinnan seems to have lost the ability to express emotions and has become numb, but he still tries to cover up in front of him, trying to let him see a normal self.

"Yeah." Lowering his eyes, Shu Qiu sat back in his original position, scooped up a scoop of ice cream and fed it to Zhong Jinnan.

Jinnan hesitated for a moment, but still opened his mouth to eat. The taste of childhood permeated the tip of his tongue. The last time he ate it seemed to be more than ten years ago.

At that time, he secretly bought one with his pocket money, and he ate badly. Mrs. Zhong stood beside his bed, looked at him condescendingly, and said in a calm tone: "Jin Nan, as my son, your self-control makes me think Disappointed and humiliating, what can a man achieve if he can't even resist his appetite."

As the young master of the family, every step is carefully arranged, even if it is just a breakfast, or even the brand of a bottle of water and the daily intake.

The sofa is very spacious, with a low coffee table, Jinnan Jin opened the diary, thought for a moment, and wrote down the answer Zhong Xiaonan wanted on a new page.

He wrote with downcast eyes, the profile of his face was smooth, thick eyelashes fluttered with his eyes from time to time, his jaw was slightly tightened, and there was no emotion on his face.

He writes very fast, and his past life was so boring that he doesn't need to recall it, because every day has the same content, which can be summed up in a few simple sentences.

When it came to the couple who claimed to be his parents, the tip of his pen paused slightly.

A hand rested lightly on the back of his hand. The joints were distinct, the skin was thin, and blue blood vessels could be seen. The wrist bones were slender, fragile, but warm.

This temperature goes along the back of his hand, enters into his skin, bones and blood, along the blood vessels extending in all directions, and finally gathers and stays in his heart, so that the heart that has not seen the sun all year round can also feel the warmth of the sun.

Holding that hand behind his back, Zhong Jinnan bowed his head and kissed him lightly, like a devout believer, praying for the Lord to stay.

"Don't be afraid, I'm by your side." The man's voice sounded in his ear, saying words that were enough to make him dream back at midnight.

Finally, Jinnan picked up the pen again and wrote a paragraph below, a paragraph he knew, but he still couldn't face it, and he didn't want to admit it.

[In that year, you will choose to follow them back to that house and live the life they arranged for you. You will become rich and confident, but no one cares what you think. There are only what to do and what not to do, no one loves you, and you also learn not to love anyone in this day-to-day repetition. ]

[To this day, you have to admit that they did nothing wrong, they just don't love you. ]

After writing this sentence, Jinnan paused for a while, and then put down the pen, which was placed on the coffee table, making a crisp knocking sound.

Sitting silently beside Zhong Jinnan, Shu Qiu knew that they were referring to Zhong Jinnan's parents.

Eight-year-old Zhong Xiaonan is lively and lovely. Although he lives in poverty, he loves others and will love others. However, 28-year-old Zhong Jinnan has lost the person who once loved him. His hometown has no old friends and has become a strange village. He is demanding, and he has lost the ability to love.

It was like the first time they met, no matter who he faced, he would always be expressionless, like a programmed robot. In his life, there were no surprises or expectations.

Shu Qiu felt a little distressed, he didn't know what Jin Nan was feeling when he wrote this text.

He felt so sad just by substituting it into himself, and he was so unwilling to write down the words that his parents were not wrong, they just didn't love him.

Pulling him into his arms, Jinnan didn't resist, and the two hugged quietly.

In the middle of the night, the sky above the city is very quiet. Dim starlight stares at this bustling city. When the sky is about to dawn, it leaves quietly, just like when it arrived, undiscovered.

Finally Xiaonan did not reply the next day as they expected.

Neither on the third day, nor on the fourth day...

Shu Qiu was a little impatient, and asked Zhong Jinnan if he felt anything, and if Zhong Xiaonan had appeared.

"It has appeared." Finally Jinnan was very sure, because behind that paragraph of text, he saw a dot of ink, as if he wanted to write something, but he didn't know what to write. He hesitated for a moment, and finally only left A dot of ink.

The new reply appeared on the sixth day, and the reply was also very unexpected.

[I want to talk to Qiu. ]

Everyone was surprised to receive this reply, including Shu Qiu. For Shu Qiu, he felt that he had failed Zhong Xiaonan's love and trust, so he was actually terrified at the thought of talking to Zhong Xiaonan.

The night before the hypnosis, Zhong Jinnan took Shu Qiu to his room.

Shu Qiu didn't know why, but when he saw Zhong Jinnan's bed, his cheeks blushed, and inexplicably filled his mind with many indescribable details.

However, none of the things he imagined happened, and finally Jinnan looked a little solemn, which made Shu Qiu also serious.

"Aqiu, don't worry about it. My choice is really because of you. The reason why I decided to communicate is also because of you. Because I want to go on with you, I have to guarantee that I am complete. I can protect you."

"At the same time, I also hope that I can let go of the past that I have always cared about. Finally, Xiaonan and I are the same person. It is not accurate to use the word disappear. I think it should be to let this beautiful past return to my body. Be a part of me again, and I'm just a part of him."

"He has not disappeared, he can see the world through his eyes, see himself, see you, we are a community, he is no longer a product of darkness, don't be alarmed by the world 20 years later, 24 hours a day It's his and it's mine."

In the end, Jinnan's words lingered in Shu Qiu's mind for a whole day, and Shu Qiu was still thinking about these words when he entered the hypnosis room.

Zhong Xiaonan, who exists as a sub-personality, is only eight years old. He doesn't know himself or the world 20 years from now. , now 20 years later it no longer exists.

This is probably the reason why Zhong Xiaonan once wanted to commit suicide.

In this world, there is no one he loves or who loves him, no familiar hometown, no old well in the village, no rhubarb who likes to steal steamed buns, and no friends who grew up together.

Maybe Zhong Jinnan's thinking is right, they become one person, is the best choice for Zhong Xiaonan, why let the eight-year-old him face the cruel world 20 years later.

Seeing Zhong Xiaonan again, Shu Qiu was a little dazed, the broken stars that fell to the ground were still in front of his eyes, and a month had passed in the blink of an eye.

Today, there was no bright smile on Zhong Xiaonan's face. When he opened his eyes, Shu Qiu even thought that the hypnosis had failed, and it was Zhong Jinnan who woke up, until he called himself: "Aqiu."

It's also Ah Qiu, but when Jinnan speaks, the end of his voice will sink, like a voice from the chest cavity, low and magnetic, every time he speaks like this in his ear, it will make him want|enter|non|non .

On the other hand, Zhong Xiaonan has a rising ending, with a childish air, showing a bit of liveliness that does not match Zhong Jinnan's temperament, just like now.

"Xiaonan..."

Zhao Qiyan and Dr. Zhang, who were behind the monitoring, were refreshed, and the sub-personality Zhong Xiaonan appeared. Dr. Zhang immediately opened the notebook, preparing to write down Zhong Xiaonan's behavior and the conversation between the two in detail.

Zhong Xiaonan looked around, fell silent for a while, and asked Shu Qiu softly, "Ah Qiu, where is this?"

"Hospital, the place where Jinnan is treated." Shu Qiu originally wanted to say that it was a place for treatment, but after thinking about it, he changed his rhetoric. During this month, he realized that Xiaonan was not sick, but A beautiful memory is the proof that Zhong Jinnan once loved and was loved.

"I've read it." Zhong Xiaonan stared at the notebook in Shu Qiu's hand, pointed with his finger, and repeated: "I read it all."

"Hmm." Shu Qiu let out a hmm from his nasal cavity, which was a bit heavy. In the past, they had a lot of topics to talk about, but today he didn't know what to say.

"I didn't expect myself to be like this 20 years later." Zhong Xiaonan took the lead to break the silence, a little confused, "When I was in school, the teacher asked us to write a composition, and I grew up."

At that time, he wrote that he would become a doctor, because grandma had rheumatism, her legs always hurt, walking hurt, rain hurt, and she suffered in three seasons of the year, but the hospital was very expensive and they couldn’t afford it .

So he wanted to be a doctor so that he could see grandma for free.

But 20 years later, he didn't become a doctor. His grandma passed away for many years, and he didn't even attend the funeral because he was in a meeting that day. After that day, he became the general manager of Zhongshi Group.

He has a lot of money, so he doesn't have to worry about money anymore, and he doesn't need to save money, but the money has become a series of numbers, meaningless.

"I've seen those two people." Zhong Xiaonan's voice was a little dry, his head tilted slightly, as if he was recalling.

Although he didn't say it clearly, Shu Qiu felt that those two people should be Zhong Jinnan's parents, and also Zhong Xiaonan's parents.

"I woke up that day, and the driver took me to a very luxurious restaurant. We sat at a table far away from each other, and they didn't speak to me."

Shu Qiu asked softly, "What happened next?"

"Then they left, and I heard from the person who claimed to be my brother that this was a family feast." Zhong Xiaonan looked at Shu Qiu, with a little confusion in his clean and bright eyes, "Does a family banquet mean a family eating together?" ?"

Shu Qiu nodded, that brother probably meant Zhong Lingnan.

What Zhong Lingnan said when he met Zhong Xiaonan seemed to make sense. He mocked the matter of Zhong Jinnan's illness. Although this person is not very good, at least he didn't publicize the matter of Zhong Jinnan's illness in the company.

Zhong Xiaonan also nodded, her pale lips pursed slightly, and there was an indescribable emotion in her tone: "Well, they really don't love me."

There is no child who does not want his parents to love him, and no one will dislike that he has received too much love, even if he has grown up, he will feel lost and disappointed because of it.

"Aqiu, can you accompany me to see grandma?"

Grandma was buried in her hometown, which is far away from Kyoto, on the east and west of the map, spanning more than half of the map. The hometown is a small village without high-speed rail or even passenger transportation.

I can only fly to the provincial capital, then take the train to the county seat, and then take a van from the county seat to the village. The van only goes twice a day, and if I miss it, I can only wait for the next day.

The hometown is far away, a place that Zhong Xiaonan cannot reach, and it is also a hometown that Zhong Jinnan cannot return to.

"Okay, let's go now!"