White Swan

Chapter 41

The New Year's time always flies by quickly, and it will be the end of January in a blink of an eye.

He Haoyun was very busy with the company's affairs, and he either came back at midnight every day or stayed in the company's lounge for the night.

He Chijie came to the house two days ago and quarreled with him.They roared and circled the living room like lions vying for territory.Qiao Fei couldn't understand what they were arguing about. He hid at the corner upstairs, dangling his legs through the gap between the railings, and watched the farce downstairs with no expression on his face.

It seemed that there was no winner in the ending. After He Chijie left, Qiao Fei went downstairs and took a look. Two blue and white porcelain vases and two bottles of wine in glass cabinets were broken on the ground. The broken pieces were scattered on the edge of the living room carpet, and the air There is a choking brandy smell in it.

In the past few days, Qiao Fei often locked herself in the dance practice room downstairs, dancing with earphones day and night, and didn't stop until her legs could barely stand.

He often forgets about day and night, and goes downstairs to practice dancing in the morning, and it is already evening when he goes upstairs.His part in the dance drama is so familiar that he doesn't have to think about it at all, he can jump out as soon as the music is played.

There are many messages sent to him by Shi Xubai in the phone, but Qiao Fei has not opened any of them to read.He was afraid of Shi Xubai apologizing to him, afraid of facing him, most afraid of Shi Xubai telling him the truth, telling him that what he heard that night was true.

Qiao Fei could only force herself to forget Shi Xubai, locked the orange candy hidden on the top of the cupboard, and pushed it to the innermost corner where the dust fell.

He just had a sweet dream, and now that the dream is about to wake up, it's time for him to return to reality.

Even if he said that in the dressing room of the dance troupe that day, Qiao Fei actually didn't hate Shi Xubai for lying to him. He couldn't really hate a person who gave him light in his darkest time, even if that person lied to him. over him.He just felt infinitely disappointed and wronged.

It's just that he knew that he didn't like Shi Xubai, and he was the one who was sad in the end.

He thought he might just be substituting one wound for another, using a charred chest for fleeting warmth, craving pleasure while refusing to heal.

Qiao Fei sat on the floor of the dance room, laughing at herself.

Even if Shi Xubai did not leave and did not deceive him, there would be nothing between them.Now it's just being forced to face reality ahead of time.

What are you thinking, he's just a canary in a cage, he has no wings and can't fly.

The radiant sun in the sky still does not belong to him after all.

There are a lot of things at the end of the year. He Haoyun is either on a business trip or socializing every Chinese New Year, and this year is no exception.He left the day before yesterday, saying that he was going to a nearby city to attend a banquet and would not be back until after the Chinese New Year.

The owner of the villa is not there, and the nanny and housekeeper will also be on holiday during the Chinese New Year. There is no one in the deserted villa, only Qiao Fei is alone wrapped in a blanket and sitting on the sofa in a daze.

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve, a day for family reunion.But Qiao Fei has no family, and has been alone since the beginning.But it doesn't matter, for Qiao Fei, it doesn't matter if the New Year is not over.

In the past two years, Qiao Fei came here alone for the New Year, but he didn't feel lonely.When he was a child, his mother didn't accompany him, and he often went out on New Year's Eve to get drunk with some man, and Qiao Fei was actually used to it.

Last year, the nanny made dumplings for him before the holiday, so that he could cook and eat by himself. Qiao Fei was happy for a long time because of this. He spent the New Year in the villa by himself, turned on all the lights, and brightened the living room.

It was snowing outside, and as far as the eye could see, it was a vast expanse of whiteness, and the sky was a little gray.The roundabout at the entrance of the villa has no one to sweep the snow, and a thick layer of white blanket has already accumulated.The fish in the koi pond were all moved indoors, and the water in the circular pool froze to ice.

Qiao Fei has loved snow days since she was a child.He remembers reading in textbooks that snow can absorb surrounding sounds when he was a child, so when it snows, he becomes very quiet, so quiet that he can hear his own heartbeat when he is sitting alone.

Qiao Fei looks forward to it every year when it snows. He can sit on the balcony alone and watch the snow for several hours.Because this He Haoyun even laughed at him, saying that he lived like a 80-[-]-year-old little old man.

Qiao Fei didn't want to be disturbed by anyone, so she put her phone on the coffee table in front of the sofa and muted it.After finishing it, I felt that it was superfluous, and probably no one would look for him at all.

Thinking about it carefully, this may be the only time Qiao Fei hopes to spend the New Year with another person, make dumplings together, watch fireworks, and make a New Year's wish at twelve o'clock.

It's just that that person is a bubble, and it shattered before Qiao Fei could touch him.

The mobile phone screen on the coffee table suddenly turned on, and only a dim small desk lamp was turned on in the living room. The brightness of the mobile phone screen was very conspicuous, and Qiao Fei's attention was subconsciously attracted.

It was Shi Xubai who sent it to him, only a few short words.

[Qiao Fei, happy new year. 】

Something started to ache in her heart, Qiao Fei hesitated to pick up the phone, and opened WeChat carefully, as if she was dealing with a flammable product.He didn't reply, but Xu Bai's head was in a daze when he opened it by accident.

Shi Xubai's profile picture has always been a profile photo of him, that photo is very familiar, but also a little strange.It seemed that Joffe didn't even know him after that night at the ski resort.

Qiao Fei suddenly felt that he didn't know Shi Xubai at all. Apart from knowing that he was injured and was once called the prince of the ballet world by critics, he didn't know what Shi Xubai liked, what kind of people he had around him when he was young, or what Shi Xubai was like. What do you like to do in your free time.

He really doesn't know enough about Shi Xubai, but now even if he wants to, he has no chance.

Such a gentle person would lie to him and throw away the sincerity that he carefully gave him.

After a while, the phone received another message.

[If you are free, I want to meet you, okay? 】

Qiao Fei stared at the message in a daze, and then, as if she had made up her mind, she turned the phone upside down on the coffee table.It seemed that he couldn't see it, but he couldn't help wondering if Shi Xubai had anything else to say later.

The living room was quiet except for the ticking of the clock on the wall.

The snow outside is getting bigger and bigger, it seems to be foggy, it's only after four o'clock in the afternoon, but I can't see clearly from the window.The maple tree in the front yard had long since lost its leaves, and now its bare branches were almost bent by the snow.Qiao Fei stared out of the window dully, unable to bear his wild thoughts.

What is Shi Xubai doing?Does he make dumplings for Chinese New Year?What stuffing does he like to eat?

Maybe it wouldn't be a bad thing to meet him.

Qiao Fei is unwilling to regard the day of rehearsal as the last memory between them.Perhaps one day Shi Xubai will quietly leave, leaving only a memory.But even if Shi Xubai will never belong to him, he still would rather meet him, because at least this memory belongs to him.

Qiao Fei suddenly wanted to meet Shi Xubai, even if it was to say goodbye and thank him for the orange he gave that day.

He also wanted the sodalite and the magazine back.

Just say goodbye and nothing else.

After making the decision, Qiao Fei didn't even know that she breathed a sigh of relief.

He picked up the phone from the coffee table again, thought for a long time, and after deleting and deleting, he only sent one word.

【it is good. 】

Shi Xubai replied quickly, and received Qiao Fei's message before he put down his phone.

[See you at the gate of the theater in half an hour, I'll wait for you. 】