Unspeakable

Chapter 19, Desperate

Running upstairs, Zhang Yang shouted, "Mu Chen, Mu Chen, are you okay?"

To his surprise, Mu Chen was still quietly sitting on the wheelchair and looking out the window, the light coming in from the window turned his hair light brown.

Zhang Yang ran over quickly: "Mu Chen, are you okay...you scared me to death..."

"They felled the tree? You didn't succeed, did you?" Mu Chen was very calm, and pulled Zhang Yang to kiss him on the lips.

Zhang Yang's body softened for a while, and he kissed Mu Chen's lips.

"You're all right. They were cutting trees when I went down. I don't know if they have finished cutting them now."

"I'm also very strange," Mu Chen took Zhang Yang's hand and stroked it carefully, "Mu Shaonong... Did something go wrong at that time, it seems that my other half of the soul is not all in that paulownia tree... ..."

"It scared me to death..." Zhang Yang hugged Mu Chen tightly, recalling the experience just now, he still had lingering fears, like a terrible nightmare.The dream is over, he lost it and found it again.

"Now you know, the reason why the tree is defective is because my legs are also defective. The tree and I are in sync."

"Then where is your other half of the soul?"

"do not know."

"Is it possible to find it?" Zhang Yang's eyes glowed, "Is your poor health because the half of your soul is in a bad place?"

"It's not clear yet."

Zhang Yang's eyes sparkled, as if grasping the only hope: "Then is there a way to find it?"

"You don't need to look for it," Mu Chen stroked Zhang Yang's hair, "It doesn't matter."

"What do you mean it doesn't matter?"

"I want to die before you go, as long as you watch me die."

Zhang Yang felt as if he wanted to cry, but he knelt on the ground and buried his head in Mu Chen's arms.

They're all too selfish... They all want to make the other party suffer.

Zhang Yang raised his head: "I remembered a joke, how two boys who liked each other recruited each other, and then when they crossed the road, a truck hit them, one of them reacted quickly, pushed the other away immediately, and said before dying" Luckily, I'm faster than you'... People are very sad when they see this joke, and they praise the dead boy, I think...it's so unfair to say that. The dead boy was so cruel, he got a cheap sale Be good, don’t let yourself suffer, and win praise from others.”

Mu Chen smiled and held Zhang Yang's face up: "You have such an understanding, it's really...unconventional. Then, if you say that, I'm also cruel?"

Zhang Yang hugged Mu Chen to the sofa: "We are all the same. I won't go anywhere today, just stay at home with you."

Mu Chen gently hooked the collar of Zhang Yang's T-shirt: "Little sheep, let's...do it again."

Zhang Yang's breathing was immediately disrupted, but he was still very worried: "Is your body okay?"

"Don't worry so much." Mu Chen smiled, kissed Zhang Yang's lips, and then went all the way down, biting his neck.Zhang Yang took a deep breath, closed his eyes and raised his head, his arms tightly wrapped around Mu Chen.

Mu Chen took off his shirt, Zhang Yang asked him, "Here? Don't you want to go to bed?"

"Walk."

Zhang Yang immediately hugged Mu Chen horizontally, rubbing his smooth skin lightly, Zhang Yang felt a flame ignited in his body.He put Mu Chen down on the bed, pulled off his pants, while biting his collarbone and shoulder socket lightly, while groping under his body.

Mu Chen bit his lip and stared at Zhang Yang in confusion.He likes this feeling, he can drop everything in the tension, and there are only two people left in the whole world.It would be great if it was like this in reality...

Suddenly, the phone rang, and Zhang Yang paused, hesitating whether to answer it or not.

"Look who it is." Mu Chen said.

Zhang Yang leaned over to look, and it was my aunt's: "It's over, my aunt, I used to look forward to her call, but now I hide."

Mu Chen smiled and motioned for him to pick it up.

"Yang Yang, did you go well in the high school entrance examination?"

"Ah, it's going well." Zhang Yang said in his heart that he was still blood relative, and he didn't remember to ask until now.

"Oh, that's good. I'll visit you at your house at noon. Don't make me lunch. I've already eaten."

Zhang Yang put down the phone and said to Mu Chen, "My aunt is coming at noon."

"Then I'll be home at noon."

"I've prepared a meal for you and you take it back."

"it is good."

Zhang Yang straightened up, Mu Chen's body that was about to move just like him made him very frantic, he put his hand on Mu Chen's lower abdomen, slowly slid down, gently...

It's like being drunk, being able to clearly feel the existence of the other party, and completely forget the existence of this world, this feeling makes people crazy.Mu Chen's hand clasped Zhang Yang's, and his fingers were tightly clasped.He raised his head and whispered, "Ah...Zhang Yang, I love you..."

……

The room was very quiet, Zhang Yang looked at his aunt opposite with some headaches, limited by the photos on the school post bar, Zhang Yang asked Mu Chen to go back first.

When did blood relatives become like this?But... Maybe they have always been outsiders, and they don't talk about everything?

If it doesn't work, just recruit, Zhang Yang thought, it's too uncomfortable to silently bear the pain of impending separation while revealing his opposition tactfully.

Auntie took a sip of tea: "I've inquired with the property owner, the community will be demolished, that's for sure..."

Zhang Yang interrupted: "When exactly?"

"One or two months soon," my aunt always said with certainty, "it won't last half a year."

Zhang Yang's heart sank.

"I discussed it with Felix. It doesn't make sense to keep the house here in China..."

Zhang Yang interjected again: "Why doesn't it make sense?"

Aunt was a little displeased: "Listen to me. We still plan to get the cash and then go abroad. You must follow, Felix has already started contacting the school over there..."

Zhang Yang's face was pale, and his aunt was startled, and asked him what's wrong.

Zhang Yang asked tremblingly, "Why doesn't it make sense?"

The aunt poured boiling water on the tea set: "You child... because you don't plan to come back in the future, even if you come back, you will be traveling or something, and you won't stay here for a long time."

"I dont go."

My aunt was concentrating on making tea, and said without thinking, "Where are you going?"

"Not going to America."

My aunt was stunned and said in disbelief, "Why? Why don't you go?"

"Because I don't want to go."

"Of course I know you don't want to go, but why? Where is your reason?"

Zhang Yang couldn't care less about his aunt being assimilated by Felix, he said firmly, "Because there are things here that America doesn't have."

"what?"

Of course it was Mu Chen.Zhang Yang gritted his teeth, feeling that he couldn't say anything yet.

Seeing that he didn't say anything, my aunt clicked her tongue: "It's okay not to go. You can't decide these things. Anyway, I have to go. You are the only one left here, so you have to follow me."

"I can live by myself," Zhang Yang's lips trembled because of tension, "Okay."

Zhang Yang immediately realized that he was thinking too much, because his aunt immediately said excitedly: "Zhang Yang, you are enough! Do you think it is okay for you to leave me? Can you live a good life alone? It is whimsical!"

Zhang Yang hurriedly said: "I didn't mean that, aunt, listen to me..."

"I can't listen to you!" Auntie said hysterically, "Although I'm not your mother, there are only two of us in this world who are connected by blood. Neither of us can leave the other! Do you think it's easy for me to bring you up after work? What am I trying to do? I don’t want my nephew to grow up safely! Your parents are gone, I am your parents, you are my own son, what have you been treating me for all these years? The person who gave you the money? He actually drew the boundary line so clearly with me, can you live without me?"

Zhang Yang was speechless, it was the first time he saw his aunt being so fierce, and she bowed his head when she said it.

After taking a sip of tea, my aunt probably realized that she was a little too excited, and her tone eased a lot: "Zhang Yang, tell aunt, what is there that you can't let go of?"

Zhang Yang clenched his fists, and after a while he said, "Let me think about whether I can say it."

"Can you say it? Is it... exaggerated?" Auntie was taken aback for a moment. At first she thought Zhang Yang was just playing with a child's temper, so she was so angry. Now he realized that Zhang Yang might really have something that he couldn't bear to let go of.

"It's not an exaggeration."

The aunt's tone immediately became cautious: "Zhang Yang, you have grown up more in these few years, tell aunt honestly, did you cause any trouble?"

"It's not causing trouble, no, no..."

"That's fine. Tell your aunt what it is? I might be able to help you."

"You promise not to be angry?"

As soon as the aunt heard that there was a door, she quickly made a promise: "Since you have said everything without exaggeration, why should I be angry?"

"It's just... I have someone I like."

The aunt was stunned for a moment, she was already mentally prepared, she didn't expect it to be such a "broken thing".However, she soon realized that this was normal, so she planned to do some work for Zhang Yang: "This is not an exaggeration, but you are so young, regardless of the conditions of the two parties, even if you are in the same city in the future, you will not be able to do it. It may not be possible to be together. Going to the United States is for your future, and it is also for your aunt's future. I think you should think twice."

Zhang Yang was just silent, and after a while he said softly: "That's not the case, aunt, we are both relatively lonely children, and we have been together since childhood. We are used to each other's existence. In our eyes, each other is That kind of... people who are more important than blood relatives and difficult to part with are not the kind of people you talk about falling in love."

"Oh... who is it?" My aunt finally couldn't help being curious.

Zhang Yang didn't say anything, just shook his head silently.

"That person is...unreliable?"

"No." Zhang Yang smiled wryly.

"Then let's talk about it," my aunt smiled. "Are you afraid that I will seek revenge on him?"

In Zhang Yang's mind, some parents were recalled. Because they had children who liked the same sex, they were in agony, and even thought of death.If he confesses, my aunt will definitely not accept it, and she may be more determined to let him leave this "land of right and wrong"...

Zhang Yang broke out in a cold sweat, and quickly said, "I can't say it!"

"...Okay," my aunt was a little disappointed, "but it doesn't matter to anyone. I suggest you not go anywhere these few days, and calmly think about the stakes. We must go to the United States, and we must adjust our mentality. of."

Zhang Yang leaned back and slammed it on the back of the sofa: "Oh... this is not measured by profit or loss, it will take a lifetime..."

My aunt thinks that Zhang Yang is a little unreasonable, a child who is just beginning to fall in love, why is he so hypocritical?But she understands that this thing can't be forced, it can only be eased.

"Then think about it again, have you packed your luggage..." Auntie said, and she suddenly became agitated, "By the way, Zhang Yang!"

Zhang Yang was tense all the time, and couldn't help shivering: "What's wrong?"

Auntie had an indescribable expression on her face: "Is it that Mu Chen!"

Zhang Yang immediately suffocated for a moment, and broke out in cold sweat.Judging by the aunt's posture, she must be against homosexuality. To be honest, she must be looking for death, so she said, "No, why did you think of him?"

The aunt breathed a sigh of relief: "It's fine if it's not, it can't be a man, right?"

Sure enough, Zhang Yangxin said. "Not a man."

"That's fine," the aunt just put down the stone in her heart, and immediately tensed up again, "Why do I feel that what you said just now is so similar to Mu Chen's situation, and you just... Forget it, it doesn't matter who, I Let's go!"

After the aunt left, four words suddenly popped into Zhang Yang's mind.

Desperate.

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