like the abyss

Chapter 30

Qin Suzheng was sullen all the way.

Lu Yuan has always been like this, he doesn't say anything in his heart, and he doesn't want you to guess, he just digests it silently by himself, and when he faces you, he will return to a soft and cute appearance with no temper.This kind of temperament is usually okay, if there is a quarrel, such as the current situation, there is simply no way to do it.

Qin Suzheng deliberately threw the box and went back to have a fight with Lu Yuan, or a fight would do.He has always been the one pursued by others, when did he suffer from such anger?Lu Yuan made trouble for no reason, he tolerated it generously, and wanted to apologize and explain, but Lu Yuan didn't listen and kicked him out directly. How could this be an attitude to solve the problem?

Qin Suzheng didn't intend to get used to his temper.He was waiting for Lu Yuan to apologize to him - Lu Yuan couldn't fake his feelings for him, he didn't believe that Lu Yuan really wanted to break up.

***

Not long after Qin Suzheng left, Bai Ruan knocked on Lu Yuan's door with packed food.

Lu Yuan just went to take the medicine, and now the pain is not so bad, so he slowly moved over to open the door for him.Bai Ru'an saw that he was inconvenient to move, so he was not polite. He changed his shoes, set up meals, took dishes and chopsticks, and when Lu Yuan sat at the dining table, he even refilled the cat food for Qin Xiaoer.

He came here right after work, and he hasn't had dinner yet.The two sat opposite each other and finished eating. Bai Ruan put the tableware into the dishwasher. Seeing that Lu Yuan's face was still pale and frightening, he frowned and asked him, "It still hurts badly?"

Lu Yuan stood aside and watched him tidy up, and he didn't try to be brave when he asked this question, "It's okay."

Lu Yuan is particularly sensitive to pain, but he is used to enduring it, so it seems that he is not very afraid of pain.Bai Ru'an knew about his problem, so Lu Yuan didn't need to put on a show.

Bai Ru'an quickened the movements of his hands, "Stop standing, sit down first."

Lu Yuan didn't argue with him, and hopped on one foot and sat back on the sofa.

Qin Xiaoer, a cat spirit, saw that the stranger was very well-behaved, so he ate honestly and went back to sleep on the cat climbing frame on the balcony.

Wiping his hands, Bai Ruan sat down next to Lu Yuan, turned on the TV, and lifted Lu Yuan's trouser legs to look at the wound.

Lu Yuan took a shower in the afternoon when he wasn't there, so he was already guilty, but seeing him wanting to lift his trouser legs, he subconsciously seemed to hide.Bai Ru'an didn't expect him to react so violently, fearing that his movements would hurt the wound, she grabbed Lu Yuan's ankle without thinking.

The wound was a bit red and swollen, neither of them were professionals, and they didn't know if this was normal, Bai Ru'an glanced at Lu Yuan, "Why don't you go to the hospital?"

Lu Yuan shook his head, moved his legs to make him let go, did not put down the trouser legs, rolled them up on his knees twice, "No, it doesn't hurt too much."

Bai Ru'an was still living in Lu's house, so he couldn't let him go back to live with him. Seeing that he didn't care about the wound at all, he raked his hair irritably and stared at Lu Yuan, "Did you take a bath?"

Lu Yuan pretended not to hear what he said, and used the remote control to find programs to watch.

Bai Ru'an took a deep breath, grabbed the remote control and patted it on the coffee table, "Did the doctor tell you not to get wet?"

Lu Yuan could only look at him and nod his head.

Bai Ru'an didn't like his pretending to be good, "Then you still dare to take a bath? Scars look good?"

Lu Yuan frowned, "It's not that serious."

Bai Ru'an sneered, folded her hands on her chest and fell back on the sofa back, "Okay, don't cry to me when you have a scar."

The two stared at each other stiffly for a while, Lu Yuan knew that Bai Ruan had good intentions, so he relented, "I promise I won't take a bath for these two days."

Bai Ru'an didn't quite believe it, so she narrowed her eyes and looked at him, "You will do what you say?"

Lu Yuan nodded vigorously.

His expression was sincere, Bai Ruan believed half of it, so he let go of his hands and sat up straight.

Lu Yuan thought this was over, and reached for the remote control, but was suddenly intercepted by Bai Ruan on the way.

Lu Yuan turned his head to look at him, Bai Ruan was throwing the remote control over and over again, his eyes were fixed on the TV, and he asked casually, "What's going on with you and Qin Suzheng?"

This question lingered in Bai Ruan's mind for a day.Lu Yuan made a phone call in the middle of the night and told about the car accident. It was only when he arrived at the hospital that he found out that Lu Yuan and Qin Suzheng were in the same car. News: He and Qin Suzheng are breaking up.

Bai Ru'an thought of one head and two big ones.

A shopping ad is playing on the TV.Lu Yuan pursed his lips, turned his eyes away, "If we are together, if it is not suitable, we will break up."

Bai Ru'an let go of the remote control, turned to look at him, "When did we get together? Why didn't I know?"

Lu Yuan looked down at his fingers, "We already knew each other when you came back last time."

Lu Yuan wouldn't have said that if they hadn't broken up, but it doesn't make sense to hide it from Bai Ruan now.

Bai Ru'an let out an "ah" and was very shocked. When she came back to her senses, she asked again: "Then why did you break up?"

Lu Yuan was silent for a while, "We are not suitable."

This answer is too perfunctory.The voice of the shopping guide on the TV was full of passion, and Bai Ruan was so annoyed to hear it, she simply turned off the TV, "What's not suitable?"

He is not a child who is ignorant of the world, and insists on rubbing salt on Lu Yuan's wounds, but Lu Yuan is not like someone who would break up for no reason.He hurt his leg and refused to tell Qin Suzheng. Qin Suzheng didn't know anything about the breakup, and asked himself when Lu Yuan would go to the hospital to take care of him. If there was no secret in it, Bai Ru'an wouldn't believe it if he killed him.

At this moment the TV was turned off, and the room was completely empty, Bai Ru'an was very patient, waiting for him to speak without saying a word.

Lu Yuan said softly, "It's not me he likes."

This is already the limit of what can be explained.

Qin Suzheng's sweetheart is sitting in front of him now, and Lu Yuan is ashamed to death just saying these words.

Who is wrong?Is it Bai Ru'an?Qin Suzheng?

Did Qin Suzheng ever say that he didn't like Bai Ru'an?No.

Has Qin Suzheng ever said that he likes him?No.

Qin Su's classification is so clear that even the cat is a gift to thank him for cooking.

Qin Suzheng never lied to him, everything was his own sentimentality.

As for Bai Ru'an, he is just too nice, so nice that everyone likes him.

If the "rival in love" is Bai Ru'an, Lu Yuan doesn't think he has a chance of winning.He is boring, nerdy, slow and lazy, not even comparable to Qin Xiaoer who can act like a baby.

Bai Ru'an didn't expect to get such an answer, he was a little confused, "Could it be a mistake?"

Lu Yuan shook his head.

Qin Suzheng is really nice.He likes Bai Ru'an, but he will not let his liking become a problem for the other party. He is decent and restrained. Even if he does not respond, he will not feel resentful. He is mature enough, has a career, a family, and friends. He has a fulfilling life and will not be confined by simple love.

His various qualities are fatally attractive to Lu Yuan.

That was a sense of security that Lu Yuan couldn't resist.

He is too warm, Lu Yuan can no longer approach him.

Like that old story.

Someone didn't believe that a beggar could survive three days in the ice and snow, so he made a bet with him. The beggar won the bet and stayed in someone else's warm house for several nights. When he came out again, he would freeze to death soon.

That warm house does not belong to Lu Yuan, and Lu Yuan dare not live there anymore.

He was afraid that he would freeze to death, and he was afraid that he would be reluctant to leave after living for a long time. Instead, he would develop jealousy and resentment towards the owner of the house, and he was even more afraid that he would end up like his own mother.

Like his own mother, it was pretty much his worst nightmare.

Lu Yuan thought, I have no choice, if Qin Suzheng is a cat, then it doesn't matter if it doesn't like me, as long as I like it is enough, because I can keep it.

But Qin Suzheng is not a cat.

I have to leave Qin Suzheng.

***

Bai Ru'an didn't continue to ask.

Lu Yuan was still injured, he had to have enough time to rest, he couldn't stay too late, so he sent Lu Yuan back to sleep.

After covering the quilt, putting the water glass away, and turning off the light, Bai Ru'an said softly to the darkness, "Good night."

The light in the living room only illuminated the stool at the end of the bed, Bai Ruan stood in the door frame, his shadow was cast on the carpet, Lu Yuan also said softly, "Good night." After thinking about it, he added, "Thank you."

Bai Ru'an closed the door and went out.

Qin Suzheng is not good enough for him, Lu Yuan deserves better.