Yufeng

Chapter 33 Suffering

Li Muyu should always feel that life is quite happy. When she reaches middle age, her career is stable, her wife and children are harmonious, there is no wind, no waves, no disease, no disaster, everything is extremely balanced.

If you tell him at this time: Your fake son has always wanted to have you as a lover... Will this balance be broken?

Jiang Gu is not sure, but he knows that no matter what, Li Muyu's happiness should not be destroyed by someone who loves him.

This kind of thinking made Jiang Ku feel that he was probably considered mature, but this kind of maturity made his feelings unable to find an outlet, and he could not see the dawn.

It's so uncomfortable... He clenched his fists and tried his best to resist the mania in his heart.

How much I want to go back to elementary school, the pampered and spoiled kid Jiang never pays attention to what it means to ask for nothing.

He once said so bravely to Li Muyu repeatedly: Don't get married, you are mine.While the high school student Jiang Kui would only hold the phone and cry bitterly, and the college student Jiang Kui even had to hide his eyes.

How did this growth that blew away all the courage go so far as to put the relationship in a dilemma?

Jiang Ku didn't know, he just felt that growing up was really tiring!

"Hey, why are you staring blankly? Come and eat, there are red grapes you like."

Li Muyu turned around, and finally saw the big boy who had been silent for a long while with the club behind him.

Jiang Ku tried to relax, and slowly approached the man he had been crazily missing for a semester.

He twirled a grape from the fruit plate and stuffed it into his mouth.

"Aunt Zhang, why are you doing this?"

"She has to be on duty at night and has gone to the hospital."

Li Muyu handed over the peeled apple.

"Ah Cheng, why don't you come out?"

"He's tired, he's going to sleep first."

Jiang Ku knew that Ah Cheng was probably still angry.He took the apple and gnawed it, completely ignorant of the taste.

Li Muyu nodded slightly, leaning against the edge of the balcony, quietly staring at the handsome young man he had raised for so many years.

As a result, Jiang Ku soon couldn't eat any more.In the blank gaze, his fingers holding the apple began to tremble, and his heartbeat was about to lose control.

"Muyu, why are you looking at me so strangely?"

Seeing that Tranquility was about to collapse, he quickly clenched his fist and lightly beat Li Muyu.Apart from constantly covering up her panic, she was unable to force herself to stand calmly in front of this man.

"Jiang Gu, I'm so happy," Li Muyu sighed, holding his hand, "You are really a grown-up."

"Nonsense, I'm already a college student!"

Jiang Ku hurriedly withdrew his hand again, otherwise his heartbeat and face would betray him together.

Li Muyu smiled, narrowed the corners of her eyes, and folded her arms across her chest.

"I haven't seen you in months, do you miss me?" He asked so softly, his voice was so deep that it seemed electrified and magnetized.

"Slippery" slid across Jiang Ku's heart, almost stopping his heartbeat.

Jiang Gu opened his mouth but couldn't speak, so he nodded desperately.

"What do you think?"

Li Muyu asked again, soft like warm water, calmly and calmly tolerant of his cramps and nervousness.

But... What kind of nonsense is the stinky wooden fish asking? !Asked so much that Jiang Ku didn't even dare to raise his eyes.

He stared at the ground, stuffed the apple into his mouth in embarrassment, and muttered inarticulately.

"Didn't I say it... I really want it, I'm thinking about it like crazy... the kind of thinking."

The heartbeat was completely out of control while being stared at, the pulp in his mouth was squeezed into his throat, he forgot to chew and couldn't swallow, and retched.

Jiang Ku coughed so much that he almost splashed tears.

"Eat slowly, and no one will grab you, so why worry?"

Fortunately, Li Muyu didn't press the question any more, raised his hand and patted him on the back, and the gentle reprimand was the same as before.

Jiang Gu regained his breath a little, but he heard another sentence that made him even more frightened.

"You... That classmate, very good." Li Muyu praised flatly.

Jiang Gen was completely stunned, completely unable to understand why Li Muyu mentioned Acheng at this time.

"A nice lad."

After Li Muyu finished speaking, he picked up the plate full of fruit peels and prepared to leave.

Jiang Ku suddenly panicked, and had to wonder if Li Muyu had seen the relationship between him and Ah Cheng...

"Muyu, you, you... what exactly do you want to say?"

His trembling question made the shambling figure stagnate.

Li Muyu smiled flatly as always and shook her head slightly.

"It's nothing. Jiang Kui, I'm so happy that you have grown up."

Jiang Ku took a deep breath, desperately trying to get himself back to normal.

"I... really don't want to grow up, Li Muyu, it would be great if people don't grow up..."

As soon as he opened his mouth, there was strong sadness mixed in, and his voice trembled uncontrollably.

"Don't talk childishly."

He gets a soft reproach.

"I've long...not a child, you know!"

Jiang Kuang couldn't help resisting.

Li Muyu nodded: "I know, you are no longer a child, so don't talk about children."

This sentence blocked Jiang Ku with nothing to say and no way to escape.

He walked up to Li Muyu, got as close as he could, resting his head on his shoulder, still acting like a child.

It's just that this time Li Muyu didn't respond, neither hugged nor touched him, let him rely on him, and didn't even ask the reason.

"Li Muyu, have you ever liked someone? That kind of... uncontrollable liking?"

Jiang Ku asked cautiously, burying his head as far as possible on the back of Li Muyu's neck.

Li Muyu remained silent.

"If you like someone, will you let him know?" Jiang Kuo asked again.

"I'm married to Aunt Zhang."

He got an ambiguous answer.

"Then you love Aunt Zhang?"

Jiang Com raised his head and turned his face away, staring at those warm eyes with piercing eyes.Everyone says eyes don't lie.

"What do you say?"

Li Muyu asked him back, and he didn't flinch in the slightest from the staring eyes, but Jiang Comb was in a dilemma and couldn't answer.

He unconsciously clenched his arm, venting his full of resentment.

Li Muyu didn't resist, just let her rely on her, let her vent.

Soon, the pain was so painful that cold sweat broke out on his forehead.

"Yes, sorry..."

Jiang Ku suddenly came to his senses, hurriedly let go, and took a step back awkwardly.

"It's okay." Li Muyu rubbed his arms and smiled faintly, "Jiang Zhu, you must be tired, go to bed early."

He stroked his head, still the usual loving action.

Jiang Gu had no choice but to nod desperately: "Yes, yes, I'm very tired, I'm going to rest..."

He didn't dare to stay in front of this man for another moment, and there was nothing he could do except to run away in a hurry.

"He loves you, I'm sure."

Ah Cheng was standing against the wall, still smoking, making the room full of smoke.

He said to Jiang Kui who fell on the bed as soon as he entered the room.

"nonsense."

Jiang Ku looked up at the ceiling, his heart was still beating wildly for the scene that almost got out of control just now.

"I mean the feeling of, uh, 'love'?"

Ah Cheng hesitated for a while, but still used this extremely hypocritical word in his opinion.Ever since he was an adult, he has not believed in the emotional model represented by this word. He has always felt that it is too contrary to the real human nature of selfishness, and it is often used in the scam of straight men coaxing women to help reproduce.And in the same circle he has experienced, sex basically always precedes love.

But looking at the relationship between Jiang Gu and Li Muyu, it is even more difficult to have sex without sex.

He couldn't think of any more precise words to express it.

"Impossible." Jiang Gu denied without thinking.

"I can prove it to you." Ah Cheng snorted and smiled.

Jiang Ku immediately turned his head and warned him with a stern expression.

"Don't mind your own business, I told you that if you dare to test Li Muyu again, we don't even have to be friends."

"Are you afraid he is, or isn't?"

Ah Cheng extinguished the cigarette butt, suppressed all the rage in his heart, sat down on the edge of the bed, and stretched out his hand to hook Gou Jiang Kuan's shoulder.

Jiang Ku turned around and leaned against the wall.Li Muyu's "what do you think?" seemed to be under a spell, and he was rampaging in his mind and refused to stop.

"Or do you want to be immersed in your obsession with him forever, and don't even want an answer?" Ah Cheng is still stabbing every sentence.

"Enough!" Jiang Ku finally became irritable, and quickly covered his mouth after roaring out.

"If you continue like this, don't blame me for driving you away during the Chinese New Year!"

He straightened his head and neck to look at Ah Cheng, threateningly without showing any affection.

Ah Cheng was not angry, his eyes were full of pity.

"Jiang Gu, I'm just afraid that you will be hurt more seriously, you don't even understand your own knot."

Jiang Gu shook his head indifferently: "It doesn't matter if I don't understand. If you understand how important Li Muyu is to me, then stay away from him."

Ah Cheng smiled wryly and had no choice but to shut up.

Can he say that he came here to "meddling his own business"?

Of course not.

§fourteen§

The winter vacation is short, less than a month.But for two big boys who had nothing to do and had to face each other awkwardly, it was ridiculously long.

Before the Chinese New Year, Jiang Kuan's house was bustling with people coming and going for a while.

Chen Yan, her high school girlfriend, dressed up beautifully and came to pay New Year's greetings, but was pissed off by Jiang Kuang's various indifferences and ran away.When she returned home, she blocked her "boyfriend" who didn't know what to do. She still scolded scumbags in her circle of friends, and said to everyone that long-distance relationships didn't work out, and it only took a hundred days for a man to change his mind.

Looking at the screenshot that A Liang sent him, Jiang Ku thought that Chen Yan's nature is really hard to change, and even such a trivial matter has to be reported everywhere.

Ah Cheng thinks that Jiang Ku is going too far, after all, he has been together for three years, and he treats a girl like this.

Jiang Gu said calmly, "It's for her own good."

Ah Cheng fell silent.He understood that Jiang Gu's ability to say this meant that the closet brother had finally begun to accept his own attributes, and understood that he could no longer harm other girls.But if you accept it, you accept it, Jiang Gu is still a deep closet with a strange personality, let alone registering a same-sex social account, gay clubs are still out of the question, and usually don't even want to watch a GV together.

What's even more frightening is that there is still a "white lotus grass" hidden deep in my heart, and it is so fucking difficult to pull it back!

If it was something else, Ah Cheng felt that he would have flung his arms away.

Before the Chinese New Year, Jiang Kui's best buddy from high school, A Liang, also came to drop by in a hurry.As soon as they met, they hugged and hugged Jiang Ku, so affectionate that they almost gnawed mouth to mouth, which made Ah Cheng alert for a long time.It turned out that he already had a girlfriend, and he chatted with Jiang Ku about his girlfriend for a long time, and actively asked for advice. He said that Jiang Ku had been a girl killer since junior high school. Rolled to the ground on the sofa.For some reason, Ah Liang felt that he was right, while Jiang Kuang let it go with a blank face, hahaha.

Ah Cheng thinks that Jiang Ku is indeed a very interesting guy, his world is both open and closed, contradictory yet harmonious.

But the terrible thing is that since returning to this home, sleeping in the same bed at night is a real dream of the same bed, and the rules are no different from good buddies.

Just because there is another Li Muyu sleeping in this room, Jiang Kuang can give up the sweetness of sex at the same time, which makes Ah Cheng feel unbelievable.Moreover, since the first day when he got home, he had a quarrel over this matter, and Jiang Kuo's vague estrangement made him feel even more tormented.