Diurnal

Chapter 34 "It's All My Fault"

Fang Ji did not expect Ji Shizhou to be so angry.

He couldn't figure out the benefits of mixing with him, and he had nothing to give Ji Shizhou.

Chen Xiang's group would often call him because he was really good at playing, and he could hold up the field with multiple people.

The two broke up that day, and the next day Ji Shizhou went to the stadium to find Fang Ji after school, but this time he was not on the same team as Fang Ji, and focused on him, intercepting the ball several times, the personal grievances were too obvious.

During the break, Fang Ji handed Ji Shizhou a bottle of water, but Ji Shizhou didn't want it.

Fang Ji asked: "Then do you want a drink?"

Ji Shizhou said he wanted apple juice, so Fang Ji went to buy it.

After buying it, another group of players were already playing on the court, and Ji Shizhou was surrounded by three female college students.His pace slowed down, but he still heard the faint voice of conversation. They asked him for his contact information. Ji Shizhou said that the school does not allow mobile phones, and he couldn't remember the phone number. After he saw Fang Ji, he raised his hand and called him over.

The gesture and tone of voice seemed to be greeting some pet.

Fang Ji was not angry either, children are always moody, and so is his sister.

After the girls left, he handed over the apple juice. Ji Shizhou took it in his hand and found that the lid was unscrewed. He glanced sideways at Fang Ji, "Did you drink it secretly?"

"No."

It was a habit of buying drinks for Xu Cheng, he would twist it beforehand, he was hesitating how to tell Ji Shizhou, the boy had already drank it with his mouth.

"Xia Ziqi and I have made it clear," Ji Shizhou said.

Fang Ji: "Who?"

"You don't remember her?" Ji Shizhou turned his head to look at Fang Ji in a tone of disbelief, "Don't you like her?"

Fang Ji was stunned by the question, but because of this, he knew who the other party was talking about.

"I don't like it, Liu Hang and the others spread it nonsense. What did you say to her?"

He sweated a lot during the game, and he pushed up his forehead hair, revealing clear eyebrows and eyes, speaking lightly and sincerely, only his voice was slightly lowered.

"I told her to stay out of my business." Ji Shizhou looked him in the eyes, then stood up and took his schoolbag, "Fang Ji, you too."

It was half-light and half-dark, and following the sound of the basketball hitting the hoop fiercely, Ji Shizhou lowered his head and looked into his eyes again, "Whatever I want is my business, you have no right to influence me."

There is some truth in this statement and it is clearly unreasonable.

But Fang Ji knew that the other party's anger had disappeared.

He really has no right to influence Ji Shizhou, Ji Shizhou has more opinions than him, if he wants to refuse, he can refuse, no matter how cruel he says, he won't feel that he is wrong.

Fang Ji can't do it, he only knows how to fight, he has a bad reputation, in fact he can't even talk to a little girl, he can do whatever he says.

But he found that Ji Shizhou was quite easy to coax, and his anger was only temporary.

After that, he often bought apple juice for Ji Shizhou, while others drank water, and Ji Shizhou had to wait for Fang Ji to buy drinks for himself.

Fang Ji didn't think there was anything wrong, even though the other party was taller and stronger than him, but two years younger was his younger brother, not to mention that Ji Shizhou was still underage, so many things could not be investigated in detail.

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Xu Cheng's accident happened in December.

At that time, it was already very cold, and at night Fang Ji suddenly received a call from Fang's mother saying that his sister was gone.

He thought it was a dream.

Sitting on the bed for a long time, and listening to his mother's crying for a long time, he didn't even have time to hold the railing, so he jumped off the upper bunk and woke up his roommate.

Later, roommates and classmates described how red Fang Ji's eyes were and how upside-down his sentences were, like a beast that couldn't break free from the chain, forgetting all human instincts.

This is hyperbole.

No one knew why he went crazy that day, and he ran out without his coat on. It was a day of minus [-] degrees, and he disappeared for another week.

Fang Ji often does this kind of thing, often appearing on campus covered in injuries, no one cares what he really did, everyone just wants to hide from him.

On the fifth day before Fang Ji went to school, Ji Shizhou stopped Jiang Xinrou at the door of the class.

The two of them hardly spoke at ordinary times, and all their conversations were related to Fang Ji.

Jiang Xinrou knew very well why Ji Shizhou found her, and before he could speak, she lowered her head and said hastily, "Fang Ji's younger sister is dead."

She fled there quickly, but her legs weakened a little bit, and finally she could only stop slowly in the corridor.

Fang Ji's younger sister died.

is suicide.

How come the lake in December hasn't frozen yet, and has melted into a girl's body.

I heard from the old man in the family that after the girl was salvaged, she was found to have multiple scars on her body, the most serious one being on the wrist, which was cut so deep that the bones could be seen.

She made all preparations before she jumped down. She wanted her to die in the lake, and it was best to sink to the bottom of the lake.

No one knows how long Xu Cheng has been preparing for this jump. Everyone's impression of her is that face that is always heavily made up, that exaggerated dress and aggressive personality.

"The two children of Xu's family are not good at learning, I hope the younger son will not grow crooked."

This sentence flashed in her mind, Jiang Xinrou stopped, the heating in the school was sufficient, but she felt cold all over.

It was also from that time that she swore that she must escape, that she would not live in other people's tongues, and not become the after-dinner talk of this group of people.

Then she turned her head and saw Ji Shizhou still standing at the door.

His sister is dead, will you go to him?

She swallowed the question in her stomach, no one knew what to do in this situation.

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Fang Ji's leg was already broken, but it got worse after the cold wind that night. He limped when he returned to school, his expression became more gloomy and more difficult to approach.

No one knew what happened, only Liu Hang, who lived nearby, heard from his family.He knew that everyone like Chen Xiang knew that on the day Fang Ji went back, Chen Xiang insisted on inviting him to dinner, but Ji didn't say a word at the dinner table. Kind of like it."

Fang Ji had a fight with Liu Hang.

Three or four people didn't move, Liu Hang had a tooth knocked out, and he didn't dare to make the matter worse, so he asked Fang Ji for some money in private to have his tooth filled.

Fang Ji had no choice but to not give the money, no one wanted to go to the school, let Fang's mother know that she would be very sad, and a few days after his sister left, he caused trouble again.

When Ji Shizhou found him, he was nestled in the last row of the lecture theater, listening to music with his old headphones, and there was a wound on the corner of his mouth from a fight.

Ji Shizhou sat down and took off one of his earphones. Fang Ji stepped back subconsciously, his eyes swept over fiercely, and when he saw that it was Ji Shizhou, he froze for a moment.

I don't know how he got here. Although their school is open to anyone, but this is the third floor, and no one knows where he is. Ji Shizhou probably hit his luck floor by floor.

The English songs came out through inferior headphones, and Ji Shizhou naturally put them on his ears.

"I haven't seen you play these days."

Fang Ji was in a daze for a moment, then lowered his head, "...not in the mood."

Moreover, his right leg relapsed, and he had a fight with Xu Hao before returning to school. Fang's mother yelled for Fang Ji to leave in the bedroom.

Ji Shizhou looked at him for a while, then glanced away, "Without you, you always lose."

Fang Ji tugged on the earphone cable, and took off his own earphone, "Then wait a while, I can't play now."

Ji Shizhou didn't answer the call. After a long time, Fang Ji thought he was gone.

Ji Shizhou said, "Fang Ji, I already know everything. Is there anything you want to tell me?"

He can't hold back, he really looks like a child.

Just like Xu Cheng, just like her own sister.

Fang Ji thought, tears welled up in his eyes.

Shake his head.

No.

He didn't want to say anything.

"Then what should I do?" Ji Shizhou had already passed the period of changing his voice, his voice was very deep and pleasant to hear, especially when he spoke with patience.

Fang Ji raised his head, suddenly a little confused.

He couldn't be treated like this, no one ever asked him.

He doesn't even have a mother, and his mother told him to take good care of his younger sister and younger brother, because he is the oldest and the most sensible.

Then he screwed up.

The last conversation between the siblings was two months ago. Xu Cheng said that he valued his younger brother more than her.

"...I didn't answer what she said, and I didn't tell my sister that she is very important to me." His expression was dazed and fragile. He didn't want to cry at first, but he couldn't control it.

His eyes were red, and tears fell from his eyes.

A child who never cries for pain is the most miserable when it hurts, and a puppy who never sheds tears is even more sad when it cries.

"It's all my fault." Fang Ji said.

"It's not your fault." Ji Shizhou replied immediately.He didn't understand this, he didn't understand family love, maybe he knew it before, but Ji Guohua left him without an explanation, so he didn't understand.

He lived with Shi Qiong and lived a life of mental weakness every day, even at the last moment the woman would not let him go.

All he knew was to hold Fang Ji's face in his hands, wipe those tears away, and new tears came out again.It was the first time he was so patient, Fang Ji said over and over that he was wrong, and he denied it over and over again, until Fang Ji said he was tired, and his voice choked hoarsely.

He took off the old earphones and put them in his pocket. After going out for a while, he came back with an extra pack of tissues in his hand.

Fang Ji was lying on the table as if he had fallen asleep. When Ji Shizhou approached, he raised his head, his eyes were red and his nose was red, as if he had been drenched by a heavy rain, so wet, so pitiful.

Ji Shizhou couldn't help but put his hand on top of his head, he looked like he was waiting to be stroked.Passed the tissue up, "Do you want to go out, I see someone has come up."

Fang Ji followed Ji Shizhou, and it was rare for him to realize the benefit of the other party being taller than him.

No one had ever protected him behind, Fang Ji felt novelty, seeing the young man's shoulders and neck, so clean, black and white, suddenly felt like shrinking back, stopped but was firmly grabbed by the young man's wrist.

It is unclear when it was buckled, but it already existed when it was discovered.

Fang Ji felt relieved, because it was Ji Shizhou who took the initiative to lead him, so it didn't matter, he just had to accept it obediently.

But he can't take the initiative to engage Ji Shizhou.

That is not allowed.

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The puppy is obedient and does not need Xiao Zhou to worry about it (,,.,,)