I don't want to like you, can I?

Chapter 1 Troubled

It was already two o'clock in the afternoon on the first day of summer vacation, the sun was scorching outside, but the thick black curtains blocked all the light, the whole room was immersed in darkness, and the sound insulation effect was good, making it extremely quiet.

Ye Qiyang was breathing steadily and showed no signs of waking up.

thump, thump, thump...

There was a tentative knock on the door, and after receiving no response, the door was gently pushed open, and a beam of flashlight beams cautiously entered the room.Ye Qiyang didn't open his eyes, and frowned, when he heard footsteps approaching slowly, and then a soft call.

"Master?"

"Aunt Qin, what time is it?"

"Master, it's already two o'clock in the afternoon. I didn't want to disturb you, but Master Jian has been waiting downstairs for a long time, saying that he has something to look for you." Aunt Qin opened the curtains, and the light quickly occupied the entire room.

Ye Qiyang squinted his eyes and looked out the window. After getting used to it, he stared at the curtains for a while, and said lightly, "Aunt Qin, help me change the curtains."

"Okay, what color do you want to change?"

"……White."

When she went down, Jian Yue was playing with the flowers and plants in the yard.Ye Qiyang was not interested in these things, he glanced casually, and said to Jian Yue's back: "Yue."

"Hey, are you awake?" Jian Yue turned around excitedly, smiling brightly.

"Well. How long have you been here?"

"It didn't take long." Jian Yue followed Ye Qiyang back to the living room, "Aunt Qin said you came back very late yesterday, and I didn't have anything important to do, so I didn't wake you up."

"Master, what do you want to eat?" Aunt Qin finished cleaning the room, put on her apron and prepared to cook for Ye Qiyang.

"Aunt Qin, don't be busy, I'll go out later."

"How can I do that? You drank so much wine last night, and you haven't eaten anything today. Also, young master, Mr. and Mrs. are coming back this afternoon, so you should not go out."

It was because they came back that I wanted to go out.

Ye Qiyang didn't say this.

As long as he can remember, his parents have been busy with business, and only Aunt Qin took care of his daily life.

Luxurious material life did not enrich his spiritual world. He used to long for the few time spent with his parents, but he was always disappointed.

He couldn't feel the love he wanted, and over time, he got used to being alone, no longer had hope for this long-lost reunion, and began to reject this kind of unpleasant meeting, and often even forgot that he actually had parents of.

Leaning on the sofa, she closed her eyes for a while to hide the tiredness in her eyes, and then looked at Aunt Qin who was waiting for the answer again: "Aunt Qin, I'm coming back anyway, so I'm not in a hurry to meet you at this moment."

"Okay, okay, young master, you come back early tonight, okay?"

"Ah."

Jian Yue has been listening quietly, watching Aunt Qin walk away, before asking: "Qi Yang, did you drink alcohol last night?"

"Drink some."

"Aunt Qin said you drank a lot."

"I don't drink well. I get drunk after drinking a little, and Aunt Qin will misunderstand."

"Then why are you drinking and coming back so late?"

"There's something wrong, I can't figure it out."

"What needs to be solved by drinking?" Jian Yue asked habitually.

The stimulation of alcohol has not yet dissipated, Ye Qiyang rubbed the center of his brows to relieve his lethargy: "Stop talking about this, don't you have something to ask me?"

"That's right, I almost forgot. That's how it is. I have discussed it with my parents. I plan to go abroad for vacation in two days. You can come with me."

"Your family, I won't go."

"Go, Qiyang, my parents specially asked me to invite you."

"Thank you uncle and aunt for me, I really won't go."

Ye Qiyang understood Jian Yue's parents' intentions, and also knew that they really cared about him.However, compared to these, he is very afraid of seeing Jian Yue getting along with his family, that is the warmth that he will never be able to match, and it is the pain in his heart.

"But..." Jian Yue was a little unwilling.

"If you're okay, go out for a cup of coffee with me." Ye Qiyang didn't want to continue this topic.

"No, you drank wine last night and didn't eat anything now. How can you drink coffee? Let Aunt Qin cook a bowl of porridge for you." Jian Yue pretended to call Aunt Qin again.

"Don't bother her, you can go out to eat with me."

Ye Qiyang got up to go out, Jian Yue had no choice but to follow.

In the cafe in the afternoon, there are only a few people scattered, very quiet.

Ye Qiyang and Jian Yue chose a seat by the window, each ordered a cup of coffee, chatted casually, and passed the rest of the time.

"Qi Yang, how do you think about what I just told you?" Jian Yue still remembers the main task of today.

"What happened just now has come to an end." Ye Qiyang stirred the coffee and added, "Besides, I'm not thinking about it either."

"Ah?" Jian Yue was full of doubts, "But you haven't agreed yet."

"Not all the results will be satisfactory." Ye Qiyang took a sip of coffee, his face was flat, no emotion could be seen.

"Qiyang, think about it again, how boring it is to be alone at home."

Jian Yue's eyes were filled with anticipation, and she hoped that he would change his mind, but obviously, Ye Qiyang couldn't be persuaded.

Ye Qiyang can naturally see Jian Yue's sincerity. They grew up together in completely opposite environments.

For Jian Yue, Ye Qiyang is neither envious nor jealous.

In order to live a good life, he made calmness and quietness an instinct of his own, but he also imperceptibly drained away the enthusiasm belonging to this age.

"Yue, thank you for your invitation. I really want to go, but I do have some things to deal with."

"what's up?"

Ye Qiyang picked up his coffee and took a sip: "Some things I can't figure out."

"what?"

A quarrel came, interrupting Jian Yue's question, he followed the prestige to look.

Not far from each other, sat two sixteen or seventeen-year-old teenagers, one of whom had already stood up, feeling agitated.

"You are always like this, never giving others a chance to explain!"

"..."

I don't know if the volume was too low, or there was no response at all, Jian Yue didn't hear the second voice.

With tears in his eyes, the young man turned his head and stared out of the window for a while, then looked at the person opposite again: "If you decide that I am unforgivable, then I have nothing to say, I just ask you one thing...don't hurt yourself."

The boy left after speaking.

Because of the position, Jian Yue can only see half of another person's silhouette.After watching for a while, seeing that the man didn't seem to want to get up, he turned his head and asked Ye Qiyang, "Tell me, why didn't he go after him?"

"I don't know." Ye Qiyang replied lightly.

"The boy must have been devastated not knowing if they were friends or brothers."

Ye Qiyang's hand stirring the coffee paused, and a strange look flashed in his eyes: "I'm going to the bathroom."

Ye Qiyang stared at himself in the mirror, wanting to smash the image in front of him with his fist.

He saw through the unusual relationship at a glance, although it was nothing, but facing Jian Yue's simplicity, he hated his heart that could no longer be purified.

After stabilizing her mood, when she returned to her seat, Jian Yue had already ordered two pieces of cake and was eating them with gusto.

"Qi Yang, try it quickly, it tastes good." Jian Yue raised her head with a bright smile.

Ye Qiyang twitched the corners of her lips, smiled faintly, took out a tissue, and gently wiped the cream from the corners of Jian Yue's mouth.

Jian Yue, I am getting farther and farther away from you, I am really afraid that one day, I will not find myself.

Ye Qiyang didn't want to listen to his parents' complaints, and he didn't want Aunt Qin to be implicated, so it wasn't too late to go home.

There was no one in the living room, Ye Qiyang felt lost for a moment, but soon returned to normal.

It is a luxury to be able to talk to your parents for a few words. Parents' nagging is a rarity. How can you think that someone will worry about you coming home late.

Laughing at himself, he went upstairs.

"Back?" Ye Zheng came out of the study, and the two bumped into each other.

"Yeah." Ye Qiyang let out a sound from his throat and stopped talking. He stood there awkwardly, neither leaving nor staying. He didn't feel like facing his father at all.

"Aunt Qin left some food for you, eat and go to bed early." After Ye Zheng finished speaking, he glanced at Ye Qiyang again, turned around and prepared to go back to his room.

"That... did you come back alone?" Ye Qiyang asked hesitantly.

Ye Zheng turned to Ye Qiyang again: "No. Your mother didn't have a good rest last night, she was a little airsick, so she went to bed after taking the medicine."

"Oh."

The two fell silent again.

Ye Qiyang really wanted to go up and hug his father, and tell him that he really missed him, but he wasn't sure if such a move would look childish and boring in Ye Zheng's eyes.

Trying hard to suppress the turbulent emotions, he just said blandly, "You should also go to bed earlier", and went back to the room.

Ye Zheng watched his son's figure disappear before his eyes, opened his mouth but did not make a sound.

It's not that we don't pay enough attention to each other, it's just that reality has taught us to hide our hearts, and after a long time, we forget the way of expression.

Ye Qiyang lay on the bed, feeling the protest in his stomach, and felt that he was actually a very hypocritical person.Obviously caring, but pretending to be indifferent, obviously unable to let go, but pretending to be chic.

In the end, he attributed these to the fact that he just didn't want to live in too much pain, so he was trying to find a way to escape.

Ye Qiyang didn't know when he fell asleep, but when he woke up, it was already dawn.Light seeped into the room through the white curtains, and he realized after a momentary trance that the curtains had been changed.

After a slightly hasty knock on the door, Aunt Qin poked her head in: "Master, are you awake?"

Most of Ye Qiyang's body was in the air, he turned his head to look at Aunt Qin, and then turned his gaze back to the curtain.

Aunt Qin came in, turned around and closed the door, walked quickly to the window, quickly opened the curtains, took the clothes and handed them to him: "Master, Mr and Mrs are already downstairs, breakfast is ready, you hurry to wash up."

Ye Qiyang blinked slowly, and slowly spit out a few words: "The curtains are very clean."

"Master, don't worry about the curtains, sir and madam will go out later, you have to hurry up."

Aunt Qin couldn't figure out why Ye Qiyang was still in the mood to comment on the curtains at this time, she just wanted to let him spend more time with his parents.

Ye Qiyang lifted the quilt and went straight into the bathroom wearing only a pair of shorts.After dawdling for a full 10 minutes, I slowly went downstairs.

Ye Zheng and Zhao Man had finished their breakfast and were about to leave.

Zhao Man watched his son walk down indifferently, without even looking at himself, and couldn't help but say, "Qiyang, Mom felt a little uncomfortable last night, she went to bed early, and didn't take care of you... "

"It's okay, I'm used to it." Ye Qiyang interrupted her lightly, and glanced at Zhao Man who kept glancing at his watch, "Time is precious, so don't waste it on me."

"You child, what are you talking about?" Zhao Man was a little anxious.

"Okay, Qi Yang, your mother and I really have something very important to do now, we can talk about it when we come back tonight."

After that, the two left in a hurry.

Ye Qiyang was stunned for a while, then sat down at the dining table, with a stiff back facing the door, ignoring the disturbing footsteps, and started eating by himself.

After a while, Jian Yue came over.

Jian Yue still didn't give up, hoping that Ye Qiyang could travel abroad with him, but after being rejected with the same sentence, she had to say goodbye with disappointment.

The whole day, Ye Qiyang stayed in the study, and he closed the book only when he saw the darkening sky outside the window.

When Aunt Qin came in with a fruit plate, a page of the book on the table was blown up by the wind, and she was opening and closing uneasily. There was still warmth on the pages, but the person had disappeared.