To rely on others is to promise each other

Chapter 51 Freedom

When the two walked out of the teaching building, neither of them spoke. Jiang Yubai tried hard to recall whether he had received such a letter, but his memory told him clearly——no.

Pei Shanqing didn't show anything wrong, just took his hand and put it in the coat pocket, walking slowly, the shadow behind him was drawn very long by the street lamp.

"Actually, you may not believe it. I haven't sent you a letter." Jiang Yubai moved his fingers and said, "I hid those letters, and I sent them out for some reason."

Pei Shanqing said: "If it wasn't sent by you, who else could it be? Uncle and aunt?"

Jiang Yubai was silent for a moment, and replied: "Probably not, they are very busy with work and don't have time to do such boring things."

The fence erected around the playground feels a little cold to the touch, and the painted iron net divides the line of sight into small pieces of prisms. Pei Shanqing checked the weather before leaving, and it was clear that there was no rain, but now it is only in After walking outside for just a few minutes, fine rain fell.

It wasn't raining heavily, but Jiang Yubai didn't wear much, so Pei Shanqing dragged him to walk faster. After getting in the car, he turned on the heater, thought for a while and asked, "Can I go down for a cigarette?"

Pei Shanqing doesn't have much of a cigarette addiction, and Jiang Yubai usually doesn't allow him to smoke, so he's basically quit. Now that he suddenly brought it up, Jiang Yubai doesn't know what his intentions are for a while, let alone stop him.

Jiang Yubai looked over through the car window. He was standing beside the dusty concrete wall with his back straight. The flame of the lighter was beating. After lighting the cigarette, it was blown out by the wind, leaving an orange-red light faintly. Now.

Pei Shanqing seemed to be hesitating. He didn't know whether the next thing to do was correct or not, and whether it would make Jiang Yubai feel uncomfortable. He needed some time to think about it.

After a while, the car window on his side was knocked. Jiang Yubai rolled down the car window and saw Pei Shanqing's short hair was covered with a layer of crystal water droplets. A long stretch of soot that hasn't had time to shake off.

"Do you want to visit them?" Pei Shanqing asked.

Jiang Yubai turned his head to look at the misty dark blue at the end of the sky, and didn't answer this question for a long time.

Since the funeral, Jiang Yubai deliberately avoided places where they existed, as if he buried his past memories in a tombstone, marked the time range, and carved a meaningless mourning sentence.

He loves them, but at the same time, those tears of being left out and neglected are real.

Pei Shanqing stood patiently outside the car door, watching every change of expression on Jiang Yubai's face without blinking. It wasn't until the last bit of cigarette burned out and he fell to the ground that he heard Jiang Yubai answer in a low voice.

"Ah."

Pei Shanqing walked around to the driver's side and got in the car. After raising the window, he helped him fasten his seat belt. He didn't turn on the navigation and went straight on the road.

Jiang Yubai guessed that he should have been there many times, otherwise why he was so familiar with this road, he clearly remembered which street opened a flower shop, which one had the best lilies blooming, and which one had the most colorful tulips.

Jiang Yubai stood at the entrance of the flower shop, watching him greet the proprietress——

"Oh, why does this month come so early? Do you still want white lilies?" asked the proprietress.

"Well, I had work arrangements on the original day, so I just came here a few days earlier." Pei Shanqing said, "It's still the same, wrapped in waterproof paper."

"No lilies."

Both Pei Shanqing and the proprietress were taken aback, Jiang Yubai lowered his head halfway, his eyes fell on the bucket of delicate red roses at his feet, and said.

"Not lilies, but roses."

On the way to the cemetery, Jiang Yubai held the bouquet of red roses in his arms, sniffed the fragrant fragrance, and brushed the sharp thorns on the roots with his fingertips.

"My mother used to like roses the most." Jiang Yubai said suddenly.

"It is said that when my dad was chasing her, he would send one every day until she agreed to date him."

Pei Shanqing listened silently, and the sound of wipers scraping the glass sounded from time to time, but Jiang Yubai didn't hear it, and looked ahead with a calm demeanor.

"This habit has been going on for a long time, even until I was a child, I could see a fresh red rose in a vase on the dining table every day."

"After moving to the UK, I planted all kinds of roses in the flower garden, so I stopped buying them. Instead, my dad would go around the backyard every day and water them with a kettle."

Jiang Yubai took a deep breath and let it out slowly, trying to keep his tone as calm as possible.

"So I've been thinking about a question, they would rather spend their spare time on the roses in the flower garden, why would they not spend 10 minutes to ask me what I did at school today and did I hand in my time? Friends, have you eaten the bento you brought?"

"I don't understand." Jiang Yubai said, "Brother, do you understand?"

The car stopped at the entrance of the cemetery, Pei Shanqing tightened the handbrake, sat on the seat and looked at him, Jiang Yubai did not shed any more tears, but his eyes were a little confused.

Pei Shanqing put his hands on his shoulders, kissed his forehead lightly, tied his hair loosely with the rubber band between his wrists, and said, "Let's go."

In the cemetery, there is a photo on each small stone tablet. The people on it may be sad or happy, but without exception, they are all relatives lost by the living people.

Few people choose to come at this time. It seems that in everyone's mind, this place is filled with the silence of death, which represents misfortune and the end.But why do people not only look forward to the return of the dead to their side, but also fear the existence of the dead?

With their fingers intertwined, they passed by the homes of the deceased and came to the monument of Jiang Yubai's parents.

"Uncle and aunt, I brought him here." Pei Shanqing said without letting go of Jiang Yubai's hand, "I told you two elders that I love him very much, very much."

"I did something wrong before and hurt Yue Bai. I'm very sorry. Please forgive me."

He bowed deeply to the two smiling warmly in the photo, and said in a deep voice, "I will definitely take good care of him in the future."

There was only the sound of the wind blowing around. Jiang Yubai stared at the photo for a while, and finally moved his stiff body. He squatted down and placed the rose in front of the tomb.

"It's my fault, don't blame him." Jiang Yubai whispered, "I never had the courage to tell you about my liking for him, and I didn't dare to come out until..."

"Until you're all gone."

Speaking of this, he smiled bitterly, "You two are really annoying. You usually have a deep relationship and ignore your children. Do you want to hold hands even after death and reincarnation?"

Pei Shanqing stood behind him silently, blocking most of the wind. Jiang Yubai touched the scar on his wrist, and said, "I wanted to find you, but I didn't die."

"After thinking about it, forget it." He paused and pointed at Pei Shanqing, "You all ignore me, only my brother treats me well."

"So, can you agree to us being together?"

Naturally, there would be no reply to these words. Jiang Yubai lowered his head and stared at the cracks in the marble. After a long while, when his legs became numb and his body temperature gradually dropped in the cold wind, he suddenly frowned and began to scratch. Opened the gap under the photo.

Pei Shanqing was terrified, and quickly squatted down to grab his hand, "What are you doing?"

"Huh?" Jiang Yubai sniffed and stared at the gap suspiciously, "Do you think there is something caught in there?"

Pei Shanqing followed his line of sight, and really found a smear of white in the dark gap, the two looked at each other, Pei Shanqing asked: "Did you have this when you went to the funeral?"

Jiang Yubai shook his head like a rattle. Pei Shanqing took a deep breath and took out his bank card and key to get the thing. Jiang Yubai squatted beside him and watched for a while, then pushed his hand away and took out the key from his key chain. Picking out the earpick, "You can't do that, get up and let me do it."

Fortunately, the janitor of the park didn't come in, otherwise he would have been lucky enough to see two young men squatting in the cemetery at night, digging the cracks of the tombstone with ear picks in their hands.

Jiang Yu spent a long time in vain to get the thing out. He held it in his hand and looked at it over and over for a long time. He found that it was a letter that had been waterproofed. He unfolded it, and there was a ginkgo leaf bookmark inside.

The rain gradually became heavier, and the two had no choice but to go back to the car first, and read the above words word by word under the night light in the car.

"Dear child:

When you read this letter, your father and I must have separated from you.I don't know what you look like now, whether you are tall or thin. "

On a rainy night in London, England, after finishing work with great difficulty and going to school to solve the fight, the parents who returned home did not find the young child in the bedroom, and searched every corner in a panic, and finally went to the attic to find him.

There were tears on his immature face, and he held a doll tightly in his arms. The unfinished letter was spread out on the ground, and he wrote "I miss you so much" more than a hundred times indiscriminately.

After getting clues, they found dozens of letters hidden behind the desk, looked at the names marked in neat handwriting on each one, and logically deduced a terrible conjecture.

"Mom wants to say sorry to you. I sent those letters for you that you dare not make public. I think that as long as it is something you want to express, no matter how the other party thinks it, you should bravely send it to him. "

On the streets of a foreign country, she put the pasted envelope into the mailbox, and the bells rang in the attic in the distance, and the white pigeons flapped their wings and flew into the air.

"You were still young at that time, and we didn't dare to speculate about your future appearance, personality, thoughts and even sexual orientation. But the only certainty is that we will not be the shackles of your pursuit of freedom."

It was a time when his career was on the rise, but they still brought him back to the city he was familiar with.

The desk has been tidied, the floor is spotless, the milk is always warm in the kitchen on cold winter nights, the cut fruits are placed on the coffee table in midsummer... and the words drawn in the palm of the hand before the hospital bed.

They don't say a word about love, but they are full of love.

"It's mom and dad who are sorry for you. They have been ignoring everything you have experienced all the time, and they didn't really understand your feelings from your perspective. We are wrong. Please forgive me."

Jiang Yubai's fingertips trembled, and he even breathed slowly and lightly.

"Yue Bai, all the pain a person has endured in this life comes from different ideas, not real differences. We don't want to see you breaking through this meaningless cage all your life, so no matter what decision you make , Mom and Dad support you."

With tears in Pei Shanqing's eyes, he looked away, held Jiang Yubai in his arms, and tremblingly kissed his forehead.

Jiang Yubai covered his face with one hand, controlled himself not to sob, and read the last paragraph silently with difficulty.

"Whether you succeed or not, don't lose hope. Every sincere feeling you send out will one day bypass thousands of mountains and ravines, cross the vicissitudes of life, and return to your side, becoming an eternal existence."

He turned to the back of the letter paper, which was completely different from it. It was written by his father, a line of flamboyant words——

"Don't give up the inevitable for the sake of chance."

In the years that Jiang Yubai didn't know, they had already expressed their attitudes and secretly encouraged him to pursue the freedom he wanted.

And Pei Yi, who was far away overseas, looked up at the rainy sky from time to time, would think of the letter he had stuffed into the gap with his own hands, and would be dazed, then smiled relieved.

There is a kinship relationship between a pair of lovers, which is accidental.

And it is inevitable that they fall in love with each other.

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The author has something to say:

After Jiang Shan meets his parents, he will marry me on the spot! T_T