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Chapter 39 – Acknowledge Your Mistakes

"It hurts, it hurts..." Chen Chen frowned and complained, retracted his arms and hugged him, looked at Tang Xiaozheng and blinked, and suddenly smiled a little rascally, "Actually, I regretted it just after I cut it, why not?" Will there be a next time?"

"Oh." Tang Xiaozheng twitched the corners of his mouth cooperatively, and there was no ripple at the corners of his eyes, with a standard smile on the surface, "It's best like this."

The awkward smile was reflected in the shiny dark brown pupils, and the room quietly fell silent. Chen Chen curled his lips and clicked his tongue. His thoughts were complicated for a moment, and he thought a lot. Xiao Zheng, you are a liar..."

Tang Xiaozheng was taken aback for a moment, not knowing what he was referring to, he put his hands in his trouser pockets hesitantly, he stepped back a few steps, leaning against the wall with a guilty conscience, "Change your shoes and leave, hurry up."

"What are you talking about not being nice to me? I'll wait until I find someone I like..." Chen Chen sat on the edge of the bed, kicked off the half-hanging slippers with his ankles, and groped on the ground with bare feet. All the girls are gone, who else can I like?"

"When did it happen?" Tang Xiaozheng touched his nose, as if it was stuck to the wall, "I don't remember."

"The girl who always asks me to give lectures in junior high, the one with big eyes, called...whatever, don't care, anyway, it's that girl, always sneaks at me during class exercises, touches me when handing things arm, she should like me, everyone said so." Thinking of this, Chen Chen was filled with righteous indignation,

"But why didn't you take the initiative to give her a lecture at that time, neither sooner nor later? You never meddle in other business, so why didn't you get used to her stupidity at that time? You ruined my first love, just one On Sunday, she never came to see me again!"

"You are all too young in junior high school." Tang Xiaozheng pouted, "Puppy love affects your studies."

"Well, what about high school? I brought breakfast for Ding Wei, bought exercises, tried every means to go to the cafeteria early to occupy a seat, and finally waited until she was willing to talk to me." Chen Chen patted the quilt, "It turned out to be you again, adding her If you ask for her QQ, you obviously have eaten breakfast, and you still insist on eating the breakfast she brought, you have ulterior motives, you pry my corner!"

"Ding Wei is quite capricious." An unfamiliar name came out of Chen Chen's mouth. Tang Xiaozheng frowned, and his guilty conscience became righteous, "Your ears are too soft, you will be bullied."

"Nonsense! The sophomore school girl asked you for my WeChat, why did you say that I have someone I like?" Chen Chen almost jumped up, "I was 19 that year, and I was already an adult, and the school girl looked shy and introverted. It’s very good, why did you still refuse me?”

"That's - love at first sight is not reliable at all." Tang Xiaozheng stammered, "Is she liking your face that suits you, or the outfit that just suits your taste that day? She didn't even talk to you, What can I like you? She just imagined a false you, but one day she will see the truth, and sooner or later she will break up, so it's better not to waste feelings!"

"You're making unreasonable words!" Chen Chen's heart beat faster, and the corners of his mouth trembled, "Then I'm still willing to waste my feelings!"

"Heh..." Tang Xiaozheng took a few steps closer, and a large shadow was cast, showing a bit of oppression, "Can someone who really likes you be distracted by a few words? If you are really unwilling, why not?" How about continuing to chase? I just dealt with a few people who were sincere on the surface and didn't take you seriously, what did I do wrong?"

"Tang Xiaozheng!" Chen Chen stood up with bare feet, eyes wide open, his fingertips were trembling, and he was completely on the verge of exploding, but probably the physiological system did not install the werewolf configuration for him, the more he It's anger, the eye circles are getting redder, and the uncontrollable anger has turned into grievance, "You are always like this, always like this, always like this...you are so annoying..."

He didn't pay attention, and he didn't realize it himself. In fact, the reason for his anger was not the love affairs that ended without a disease, but the accusation against Tang Xiaozheng's domineering and domineering.

The voice was sobbing and the tone was choked, Chen Chen quickly raised his arm and wiped his eyes fiercely, but he still couldn't hide the fact.

He cried.

"You..." Tang Xiaozheng was stunned when he saw the water dripping from his chin, he shuddered, and all the paranoia that had gathered suddenly disappeared, "Why are you crying?"

In a hurry, he took out a tissue and moved it to Chen Chen's side, poking in through the gap between his concealed arms, trying to wipe Chen Chen's eyes, but without any accident, he was pushed away, "Don't touch me!"

The palm was slapped on the bare forearm, and there was a loud and clear sound. Even though he was in a fit of anger, Chen Chen's ears twitched, but he couldn't help being startled.

He moved his arms down, released a pair of wet and red eyes, looked over carefully, and met the other pair of eyes full of embarrassment and self-blame.

"Don't cry." Tang Xiaozheng has never dealt with such a situation, because Chen Chen's tears have never flowed because of him in the past ten years, "Don't cry..."

He stretched out his hand to get closer, Chen Chen stepped back awkwardly and wanted to stay away, but he forgot to stand against the edge of the bed.

So the moment Tang Xiaozheng's palm touched Chen Chen's arm, both of them fell into the soft bed behind them.

"Ouch—" Chen Chen frowned and shouted, his chest was full, filled with Tang Xiaozheng who fell in unpreparedly, "Heavy..."

Tang Xiaozheng got up, propped his palms under the quilt behind his head, and the shadow cast by his body tightly surrounded Chen Chen.

If he was in a good mood and still rational, Chen Chen would probably hold Tang Xiaozheng to prevent him from leaving, but unfortunately, they were having an awkward fight at this moment, and the two of them completely reversed their positions.

"Go away." Chen Chen rubbed his eyes, pursed his mouth, "I want to wear shoes."

"...I don't." After hesitating for a moment, Tang Xiaozheng held on, "Don't cry, please."

"You don't care about me, I just cry, I just cry, I want to cry!" Chen Chen put down his hands when he heard the words, and the water beads slipped out, but his mouth was still stern, "Get up, I will get angry when I see you, leave me Stay away!"

"Chenchen..." Tang Xiaozheng had never heard such repulsive words before, he felt depressed and seemed to be holding his breath, "I won't go to the restaurant anymore, I'll buy you what you want to eat, I'll accompany you wherever you want to go ,think--"

"Tang Xiaozheng!" Chen Chen shouted, "Can't you apologize honestly? Do you have to do this? Go away, you are the one I hate the most in my life!"

The lingering sound dissipated, and the room was silent for a few seconds, except for Chen Chen's sobs, there was no more movement.

The frowning and crying face in front of him is superimposed on the face that said "I like you" shyly and timidly not long ago, and it looks more and more ironic.

"I..." Tang Xiaozheng was stunned, "I'm sorry, Chen Chen, I'm sorry."

He thought that he had heard Zhang Jishu's bad words when he was insane, and he had long been used to them and even immune to them. He didn't think about a sentence that was really not unpleasant, but because the speaker was Chen Chen, it seemed particularly sharp. He felt that His chest was tight and he couldn't breathe.

"Don't cry." He twisted a corner of the white sheet and pulled another pleat on the bed, "Don't...hate me either."

Tang Xiaozheng's hand softened, and his voice was getting closer and closer to the shadow that was taking an urgent breath.

The sporadic water stains brought out by the scorching breath, the slightly salty breath wrapped in intermittent sobbing, and the fluffy hairline seemed to be tossed with a thin layer of sweat...

The field of view slowly zooms in, zooms in, zooms in again.

The action of wanting to get close to and comfort Chen Chen is like the instinct to eat and walk, one step earlier than the control ability evolved by creatures, pulling Tang Xiaozheng to lower his head, or maybe it is himself, who does not want to always control desire.

Hearing Tang Xiaozheng's serious apology for the first time, Chen Chen's eyes widened, his clear pupils reflected the reflection from above, and he forgot to refuse.

So the corners of his eyes were hot and humid, and his cheeks were slightly warm. Tang Xiaozheng murmured an apology, and kissed the remaining tears on Chen Chen's eyelids drop by drop with a gesture of extreme cherishment and piety.

"You..." The warmth of his nose hit the delicate skin under his eyes, Chen Chen felt that he should be blushing, his remaining anger gradually disappeared, his five senses came back, and the roots of his ears became hotter and uncomfortable, "Don't you think it's dirty?"

Tang Xiaozheng's lips rested on his eyelids, without saying a word.

After a while, he brushed his knuckles across Chen Chen's cheeks, and brushed away the dry tears, which were a little bit astringent, and finally scratched the bridge of his nose, like dealing with an ignorant child, "Stop crying."

"Will you wash your face again? I'll help you." He had a smile on his face, a little ingratiating, and he was a bit unfamiliar with being cautious and humble, which made Chen Chen feel distressed for a while, almost unprincipled right now and wanted to stop thinking about it .

Fortunately, the mind forgot about his situation, but the body still remembered it, and Chen Chen's rationality was pulled back by a burst of sobbing like inertia. He stretched out his hand to push Tang Xiaozheng away, "Is it wrong?"

"En." Tang Xiaozheng looked at him, put his hand on the back of his hand, completely covered Chen Chen's, as if making a solemn oath, "I know I was wrong."

"A man has to keep his promises. Remember it yourself." Chen Chen's eyes were still red, which made his awe-inspiring aura slightly weakened, but the words he blurted out did not make him weak. He said, "If there is another Once again, if you're so unreasonable again, I'll...I don't want you anymore."

"En." Tang Xiaozheng lowered his head, his dull answer was like the reverberation of some kind of musical instrument cavity.

"Whether you say it is water that is thrown out. I am also a man, Xiao Zheng." Chen Chen softened his attitude, "I can't say it, I can't fight it, I won't fight with you, but I said I want to chase you , I want to chase you, regardless of those messy reasons."

A pair of eyes that were still moist, the eyelashes were moist, and the blackness seemed to melt the eyeliner, which made the round and big pupils even more attractive. He hugged Tang Xiaozheng's neck and kissed carefully, without hesitation. up.

18 years, 18 years of acquaintance, this is their first kiss.

The lips were wet and soft, and the tip of his tongue was hot to lick. Chen Chen only touched his lips lightly, like a kitten carefully testing, and soon let go. When he fell back on the bed, strands of hair Shu Zhan, his eyes were flustered and had nowhere to rest, he inadvertently probed his eyes from the end of his bright red eyes, with a little teasing without knowing it.

Tang Xiaozheng's breathing was stagnant, his hands were fisted, and his breath suddenly became heavy. After a while, before Chen Chen could react, he got up and squatted at the end of the bed.

"What's the matter?" Chen Chen got up and stretched out his hand beside him, a little at a loss, "Are you uncomfortable?"

"It's okay, I'll just squat for a while." Tang Xiaozheng's face blushed suspiciously, and he waved at Chen Chen, "Just lie down, and you'll be fine in a while."

Chen Chen blinked, hesitated, moved his eyes down, and finally realized when he moved to a certain height. He lay on his back and went back to sleep, laughing out loud, "Brother, you are really good."

Tang Xiaozheng leaned against the edge of the bed for about 10 minutes. When he looked back at him again, he smiled helplessly. He turned over and took the shoes that had been kicked under the bed, and put them on Chen Chen's feet one by one.

Chen Chen shook his ankles, sat on the edge of the bed, looked down at Tang Xiaozheng tying his shoelaces, held up a section of lace with two dexterous fingers, pinched each other, and when he let go, it was a beautiful and neat bow.

This is a little habit that Tang Xiaozheng has never changed. Whether it is the back belt of Zhang Jishu's dress when he was very young, or the sneakers that are always loose for little Chen Chen when he is a little older, it has always been the same method.

At noon, the dazzling transparent beam of light slanted in, and Chen Chen seemed to see again that stubborn and withdrawn little boy many years ago, who refused to say a single good word with a stubborn mouth, but took most of the blame for himself with a soft heart.

Now the rounded cheeks are gradually forming edges and corners, showing a sharp and handsome look, but he is still the same person, duplicity, willful and arrogant, often unreasonable.

Chen Chen stretched out his hand to touch Tang Xiaozheng's hair, and his heart suddenly softened under the prickly touch, "Scumbag!"

"Huh?" Tang Xiaozheng raised his head, squinting his eyes under the sunlight, "What?"

"Si Jian sent me a WeChat message, telling me you're a scumbag!" Chen Chen raised his voice, repeating the words in a serious manner, and even improvised, "He said you played with my feelings, blind dick Sultry, yet unwilling to take responsibility. Scum—man—”

"Oh." Tang Xiaozheng was embarrassed for a moment, then quickly calmed down, "Then what do you say?"

"What can I say?" Chen Chen moved his legs and kicked Tang Xiaozheng's calf with his toes, "I affirmed it."

"I'm sorry." Tang Xiaozheng laughed. He never cared about other people's comments. He only looked at Chen Chen's mysterious little expression and thought it was cute. He said, "I know I was wrong."

Apologizing for such things seems to be familiar with each other once, especially when facing Chen Chen, Tang Xiaozheng has no intention of putting on a straight face.

"Why don't you care about your own reputation..." On the contrary, Chen Chen squinted at him, put aside his playfulness, was silent for a while, and said, "I told him no, you just don't believe in yourself, and you don't feel safe. "

The smile on Tang Xiaozheng's face froze, he lowered his head and said nothing.

"He has never met Zhang Jishu, and he has never lived in your house, but I understand." Chen Chen fiddled with his forehead hair, and in the shadow of the backlight, he rarely showed maturity, "I'm not Zhang Jishu, I don't know how to speak I say I love you, but my actions always hurt you..."

"Never."

That day, Chen Chen's kiss fell on his forehead, and his warm palm rested behind his head. The scenery outside the window was beautiful and infinitely bright. Tang Xiaozheng half-kneeled on the footstool, and murmured hello, with a bit of choking and a bit of relief.

He stretched out his hand to Chen Chen. On that day, sincerely and passionately, he really looked forward to the future of the two of them.