Greedy.

Chapter 32 Sunken

This tangled side makes you suddenly lose the desire to explore and explain.You hastily explained the cause and effect to Qiao Qing, omitted the details, and said three abnormal coincidences, without telling your guess.

You thought he'd ask why you doubted him, that sounded like a wild fantasy.Because it is obviously not humanly possible, and he has no memory of it, and there is no actual evidence to support this conclusion. It is a normal reaction to question and justify after being accused.

You crave this too.You long to get him off the hook.

But you are afraid that if he presses you, you will have to give more details, and that will hurt him.It is different for a person with amnesia to be told that he has committed a crime and to deduce that he has committed a crime step by step. It is like Ling Chi, cutting off hope with a knife.You think "no reason" and "no evidence" will protect him, even briefly.

You are even more afraid of his confession.If the questioning ends in embarrassing silence, why are you holding on to the word "impossible"?

You think, even if he just said that he is not capable of doing this, you will take it as a model.you are too tired.

But he didn't even defend himself, not a word.

Qiao Qing: "The dream you told me about..."

He stopped, as if it was difficult: "That...irresponsible light..."

"It's you." You said.

He fell silent again, and said for a while, "I'm sorry."

"You have no obligation to lead me out of the darkness. In fact, if you can leave me a thought, it's the most benevolent." You said, "I didn't blame you for what I said, but I just wanted to act like a spoiled child."

"Don't just listen to me saying you're annoying," you laughed, "I also said you're pretty."

Qiao Qing just shook his head.

"And you... can't help it. Who can give a stranger his heart and soul?"

"I know." He whispered, "I just can't accept it... I used to be by your side, but I watched you step by step to the end."

"I actually... actually told you to 'lie down' without shame, after you finally walked out."

He finally slowly let go of the hands you have been holding.You lowered your eyes to look at his bloodless palm, thinking, now that things have happened, don’t you have the confidence to continue holding it?

Silence is like a silently spreading net, and the net is full of ashes from the past.

You suddenly feel very boring.So you nodded slightly, which was a hasty terminator, and wanted to get up.

Qiao Qing suddenly made a sound.

He looked at you, with half of his face hidden in the shadows, and said, "Can I give you a hug?"

...it's like stepping back in time.

In the shade of the midsummer, you were desperate and told him everything, but in the end you didn't even know what you wanted.You were dazed for a long time, then you stretched out your hand to the silhouette-like person like a maniac, and said, "Can I hug you?"

It's just a very quick moment, so short that the memory has long been blurred.For just a moment, the man's warm breath seemed to be still in his ears.

It was the tenderness that ended in that summer.

Now, the time is staggered, the roles are reversed, he slightly raised his face, waiting for your answer.

He doesn't know this.You didn't tell him such details - and if he did, he'd be tempted to say "sorry" again, and you don't want to see him like that.But it seems that there is always a magnetic field between the right people, and they can fit together perfectly.

You smile slightly.

"It's been a long time." You said.

Obviously you told him everything, and finally found someone to share the secret with, but loneliness is like a crazy vine, tightening the shackles day after day.

Different attitudes towards your surroundings stand like a wall between you.You can't even tell him why you're lonely.

"Two people", which was considered to be very common, suddenly became unbearable after this battle.Like a thorn that cannot be removed, even when you are most relaxed, it still hurts slightly.

"Let's go camping tonight." You said, "Let's go in the afternoon, and for dinner, pack a lunch box from the automatic robot, and then take it with you while keeping it warm?"

"Tonight? The tents and backpacks I used last time are still in good condition, and there are some fire and lighting tools left, so I can go after packing them up." Qiao Qing thought for a while, and his eyes lit up, "You don't need to pack it, it's not good to take it with you. Eat. How about a picnic?"

"No way," your palms were slightly damp, and your shell got stuck for a moment, "We...our cooking utensils haven't been prepared yet. It's too troublesome to go to the suburbs to build a shelf... Let's eat a ready-made one."

Qiao Qing was a little surprised, but he always asks for you, and this time is no exception.

You watched him start to pack the utensils, motionless.You got what you wanted, and he didn’t seem to notice it. You should breathe a sigh of relief at this moment, but you are stiff all over, and the breath keeps falling in your flesh and blood, as if you want to tear your soul to the ground.It gradually becomes cold in the endless fall, freezing the bloody truth like a layer of frost, but it looks white and flawless.

Qiao Qing has always known that you don't like eating meals made by robots.That's why he specifically proposed a picnic just now, it's okay to spend a little more time, and you can't be wronged——he should think so.

He does it all the time.

Qiao Qing turned around and asked, "Are we only staying for one night?"

You nod wildly.Qiao Qing then took out some things from the packed backpack and put two Doves into the side pocket.There were some snacks in the side pocket, but you just glimpsed something that seemed to be shiny.

You want to stop him, tell him it's just a poor excuse, you don't want to go camping, you're not interested.

You just...don't want to eat his cooking anymore.

Simply because you want to try a new flavor.Joe Qing's craft—and even your own craft—isn't bad, you're just a little tired.For this reason, you even tried every means to get close to the existence that you could not avoid.

You stop looking at him.Just say "I'll order food", and you leave in a hurry.Behind you, Qiao Qing didn't turn around, as if he continued to tidy up without distraction.

It seems.

You ordered Sichuan cuisine for yourself, and you chose spicy food without hesitation, and then you ordered beef with cold melon for Qiao Qing.Both you and him are not used to spicy food, and you hardly try it on weekdays, and therefore, they are unknown to you.

You haven't had time to get bored yet.

And even if you really can't eat it, there are chocolates specially brought by Qiao Qing - you know it's for you.

But that night, when Qiao Qing saw the red and oily spicy shrimp in your box, his eyebrows still couldn't help but get higher and higher.

"you are not--"

Don't you like spicy food?

You are choking, as if someone tapped your forehead twice, and a string of firecrackers exploded, and you cough until tears come out.

But you are smiling.

Even though your throat feels like it's on fire, you're still digging a freshness out of that burning discomfort.

You savor it like a treasure.

"Zhou Huai? Zhou Huai—"

You shook your head, and looked at him suddenly.

"Are you distracted again?" Qiao Qing was a little helpless, "I have called you many times."

You answered nonchalantly, "Why?"

The voice was a little hoarse, and Qiao frowned lightly.

"I asked you if your throat is uncomfortable." He sighed slightly, "You can't get used to eating yesterday, forget it. I have something else to prepare, and I have to finish everything. The voice is rustling again. , it’s not easy.”

You leaned your head back against the cushion and said casually: "It's delicious. Just try it."

Joe glanced at you lightly and disapprovingly.But since I'm driving, I don't have time to teach you a lesson.

You laugh nonchalantly.You glanced out of the window, and couldn't help checking your surroundings.

examine.Ever since you realized that someone suspected of being constantly monitoring and manipulating you, you can't help but observe your surroundings.You can't tell if you want to find anomalies, or if you don't.

The feeling of being monitored is like a shadow, and you know in your heart that this is just an illusion, even if it really exists, you will not be able to find it, but you can't restrain yourself.

The scenery outside the window flew by, and the straw lay quietly.Suddenly, a piece of straw moved like an insect's antennae.

You suddenly grabbed Qiao Qing's arm: "Stop! Reverse, go back!"

Qiao Qing reversed the car according to her words, but after such a flash, you can no longer tell which field you just saw.For a moment, it seemed that the straw in the field was flicking together, and the rustling sound was endless, as if someone was whispering in the ear.

But in the blink of an eye, the straw was still drooping solemnly, as if it had never moved.

You roll down the car window and stare at the piece of straw in a daze.

Just the wind.

It could also be crazy.

Whenever you look downstairs, you keep imagining what it would be like if there were people coming and going on the path.Several times, you suspected that you heard the voices of people, you heard a few old people gathering together to play Pai Gow and an old lady hoisted softly, you heard the sound of water caused by a few teenagers playing by the lake, Even heard a few distant barks from upstairs.

Then, in a flash, they all disappeared again.

You think you're going crazy.Just a matter of time.

Joe looks down on you with lingering concern, but you don't think he can guess why this time.

Qiao Qing once told you that there is nothing difficult for the two of you to go together.This is said with the heart of being with each other and being able to face any difficulties without fear.

But he never thought about it, what if the difficulty is yourselves?

At first you thought you hated the gangrene-like sense of being designed, but now you are willing to admit that you are just tired of it.At first you thought you were tired of him, then you thought you were tired of your peers, and finally found out that you were tired of yourself.

After all no one can ever serve as another's world.

Previous experiences make you morbidly obsessed with novelty.Maybe he's still too late, you think.

You led Qiao Qing to that mountain again.The last time you talked nonsense on the top of the mountain, this time you just want to watch the sunrise and sunset quietly with him.Before you go completely insane.

The grandeur of nature can briefly overwhelm time.

But it didn't work out.It was a sticky cloudy day, and even the sun rose with a lingering languor, diluted by the clouds, making it even paler.

You and Qiao Qing came here last night and set up a tent on the mountain to wait for the sunrise. Seeing this, you are very disappointed.But you try not to show it. Recently, "forbearance" and "pretending" have almost become your subconscious behaviors.

Instead, it was Qiao Qing who said, "The sun seems to be absent today."

You glance at him.Originally, he wanted to say something to ease the atmosphere, but when the words came to his lips, he suddenly swallowed them again.

"It's all right," you say, "the night is never late anyway."

There was a heavy rain at noon and the tents were flooded.You and Qiao Qing are soaked, but you insist on not leaving.Because the sun is so bright after the rain, you have a hunch that there will be a beautiful sunset.

It turns out, really beautiful.

The silhouettes of the rolling mountains in the distance are a gentle black color, but the edges burn into a bright red, and the red becomes lighter and lighter as it goes up, and becomes a brilliant golden color, which is smudged in large areas in the sky.The nearby sky is still a silent dark blue without clouds, and the place where the blue meets gold turns into a blazing white, and that ray of sky light seems to never dim.

You watch it.The boiling red brand is imprinted in the bottom of your eyes.

You say softly:

"The sun is setting, and the mountains are very beautiful."

In your gaze, the sun suddenly sank.