sip the sky and you

Chapter 25 Chapter 25

Cheng Yin squatted for a while, and the burning pain receded, but he began to bear the burning pain deep in his heart.

Li Yu put his hand on his shoulder, "What's wrong?"

Cheng Yin looked up at him, feeling at a loss as to what to do.

It seems that hope and despair will always come together.It is only when people are desperate that they long for hope, and once they miss it, despair really shows its depth here.

Cheng Yin stared at Li Yu's eyes, trying to see himself in them.

Could it be that Li Yu also likes him?

In this way, it is not wishful thinking, but just like what he hoped at the beginning, it is logical to sit back and enjoy the natural result.

Cheng Yin looked at Li Yu, and suddenly smiled childishly, "You can help me buy water, brother Xiao Yu."

Li Yu's eyes moved very quickly, and then he smiled and said to him: "Are you learning from Xiaoyun?"

"Yes," Cheng Yin lowered his head, "I suddenly... lost strength."

He was almost desperate to say I love you.The words changed again, the timing was wrong, not to mention, Cheng Yin didn't know Li Yu's mood.

"I'll carry you." Li Yu said, then squatted down and extended a hand to him, "Come up."

Cheng Yin looked at Li Yu's unwavering eyes, Li Yu's words were so natural that Cheng Yin suspected that Li Yu would never have such charming feelings like him.

Li Yu is a very simple person.

This kind of cognition made Cheng Yin almost fall into a predicament. He had never been in such a state of mind, and he was not such a mother-in-law in his impression.

But there was a strange sense of awe in his heart, Cheng Yin looked at his feet in confusion, feeling that he was very strange.

Strange flesh, strange gestures.

His soul seemed to be stripped from his body at this moment, and he calmly watched his own series of reactions.He was indifferent to Li Yu's outstretched hand. The thought of licking this hand just now disappeared, and his heart was so empty that he couldn't leave anything. Cheng Yin didn't know what he wanted to do at this moment.

For a long time, the passionate emotion for Li Yu occupied his heart and filled him up, at this moment he felt that he had nothing left.

Not long ago, Cheng Yin who was lamenting that Fang Yuan would never learn to love in his heart was extremely confused at this moment.

What if his feelings for Li Yu can't be exchanged for anything in the end?

There will be no kisses, there will be no everything between lovers, and if you put it bluntly, you may not even be able to walk together, so what kind of meaning does his relationship have?

What is it like?

What is the end point of liking?

If the end of liking is love, will the end of love send him and his loved one to eternal land?

He felt a great sense of awe at the future.

At this time, Cheng Yin is afraid of everything the future means.The end of it all may create downright painful memories, and it may not make sense.

Li Yu's hand was still stretched out towards him.

Cheng Yin held Li Yu's hand tremblingly, and closed his eyes slightly. Philosophical analysis was useless to his mind, and now this hand filled his mind again.

I don't care what the end of the relationship is, Cheng Yin grabbed the rope in his heart and thought like this, as long as he doesn't care about the ending, he will be able to defeat the ending.

"Li Yu," Cheng Yin looked into his eyes, "Isn't it a victory not to accept the ending?"

Li Yu didn't know what he was thinking, and his expression was so sad that it made people feel sad.Li Yu held his hand tightly and pulled him onto his back, "Resistance is victory."

Cheng Yin wrapped his arms around his neck, "Then I will declare war to the finish line."

Li Yu carried him to a small stall to buy a bottle of mineral water, and Cheng Yinfu gave him the money on his back.

The boss stared at the two boys strangely.

Li Yu was too lazy to explain, and Cheng Yin had no desire to speak.

Li Yu simply noticed that Cheng Yin was in a low mood. He didn't have the talent to comfort or enlighten others, but he was willing to accompany him.

Xiao Yun jumped up and threw herself at Li Yu's leg, "Brother Xiao Yu! I want it, I want it too."

Cheng Yin jumped off Li Yu's back, "Okay, okay. I'll carry you. His leg is hurt, don't let him carry it."

Xiaoyun didn't realize that he was much lighter than Cheng Yin, so he happily climbed onto Cheng Yin's back.

After returning home in the afternoon, Li Yu ran into Lan Lan downstairs.

Of course Li Yu didn't expect to meet her here, so he froze in place while holding Xiao Yun's hand.

Cheng Yin looked at him suspiciously, and Li Yu slowly called "Mother".

Lan Lan was about to go upstairs, looked at Cheng Yin and Xiaoyun, smiled and said, "Your classmate?"

"Well," Li Yu said, "this is Cheng Yin, my classmate. This is Xiaoyun, a child from our community."

Lan Lan bent slightly and patted Xiaoyun's head, "Hello, little friend."

Xiao Yun smiled at her, "Hello, Auntie, you are so beautiful."

Lan Lan smiled, then looked at Cheng Yin, Cheng Yin hurriedly called out, "Hello, Auntie."

Lan Lan nodded, "I have never met Xiao Yu's friends."

Lan Lan then walked up, "Come and play at home."

Cheng Yin glanced at Li Yu and felt that the situation was inconvenient, so she said, "Thank you, Auntie, we went hiking together in the morning. I'm going home now, so I won't trouble you."

Lan Lan smiled and said, "I always thought that Xiao Yu didn't like going out very much. Mountain climbing is also very good."

Cheng Yin patted Li Yu's arm lightly, and said to Lan Lan: "Then I'll go home first, and see you again, auntie." He shook his hand at Li Yu, walked a few steps and then pointed at his knee, " Go back and treat the wound yourself."

Li Yu smiled at him, "Okay, goodbye."

"Xiaoyun, can you go home first?" Li Yu said to Xiaoyun again, "Aunt Liu should be back now, I'll take you back to play with mother, okay?"

Xiao Yun glanced at Lan Lan with big eyes, and nodded to Li Yu.

"You go up first." Li Yu said to Lan Lan, "I'll take Xiaoyun home first, they are not in the same building as us."

Lan Lan nodded and went up first.

When Li Yu walked back to the door, he was a little hesitant, he didn't want to open the door with the key, and he always felt that he had no energy.

Lan Lan hadn't contacted him after the concert, and Li Yu was not very happy to come over suddenly today, but had a bad feeling.

After standing for a long time, Li Yu went in, changed his shoes and went in to make a pot of black tea.

In fact, he had never enjoyed maternal love much, and Lan Lan had never loved or paid much attention to him.

Professor Li cared for him in every possible way, and Lan Lan occasionally blamed Professor Li for pampering him too much.

The relationship between their husband and wife began with Professor Li's passionate pursuit, but in the end they fell apart because of Lan Lan's insistence on going her own way.

Professor Li's love for his wife is not equal to his wife's love for him.

After the divorce, Lan Lan walked calmly, and Professor Li was so depressed that it made people sad.But the father and son never blamed her, and they loved her in the same strain.

Sometimes Li Yu couldn't help asking himself, why didn't he hate her?She was shockingly indifferent, but whether it was a husband who was not loved by his wife or a son who was not loved by his mother, the two never hated her.

When she got divorced, she didn't want anything, she packed her luggage and left.All the keys were placed on the table, and he left quietly and decently.He didn't show up for a long time after that.

It was not until after Professor Li passed away that she realized that her son should not be orphaned, so she accepted a key to this house.

Later, she found that Zaohui's son could live without her guidance, study hard, and think positively and healthy.So the indifferent temperament in her nature revived again. She didn't like this family, so she faded out little by little.

She hired a nanny for Li Yu to take care of his food and daily life, and then she returned to her own life and did her own things.

I came to see this son occasionally and found that he had grown upright and excellent, so he left with satisfaction.

Not all mothers have the nature to take care of others, at least Lan Lan is not.Family is not the most important thing in her mind, even dispensable.

When Li Yu went to high school, she told her that she didn't need a nanny and could live independently, and she let the underage children live by themselves without any doubt.

"Xiao Yu," Lan Lan called out to him.

Li Yu sat on the sofa next to her and looked at her.

"I'm going abroad. My teacher recommended me to teach in a music school in the United States." Lan Lan said.

Li Yu shifted his position on the sofa, licked his lips again, stood up and said, "I'll go get a cup of tea first."

Putting the cup in front of Lan Lan, Li Yu picked up his own and took a sip, "So it's already decided?"

"Yes." Lan Lan smiled, "Working there, the atmosphere will be much better than in China, and it will be more conducive to my career."

Lan Lan looked at him, "Xiao Yu, I hope you will apply to American universities after the college entrance examination. You are excellent."

Li Yu's mind was extremely clear at this time, and he didn't feel that he couldn't bear the current situation.He was even a little surprised to find that his mood was so different after he vented and told about it last time.

Li Yu shook his head, "I don't plan to go abroad in my university plan. I wish you the best of luck, and I may not send you off by then."

Lan Lan clutched the cup and stared at him for a long time.

Li Yu accepted her gaze calmly and did not speak again.

Lan Lan sighed, put the cup on the tea table, and said slowly: "I did not fulfill my mother's responsibility to you. At first, I didn't plan to have children. Finally, I have you, and I have never cared much about it. you."

Li Yu nodded, and said in a calm voice, "I know. What you love is music."

Lan Lan looked at him with a look of embarrassment, "Yes. I can't argue with that." Lan Lan lowered her head, "Li Yu, I'm sorry, I can't say that I love my son deeply."

Li Yu looked at the few hairs scattered on the nape of her neck, which was revealed by her lowered head, and one of them was already white.

In fact, after recognizing the facts, I felt nothing.He couldn't get maternal love, and never got it.There is no way to talk about the word nostalgia, but I am a little envious of the warmth of others.

What he wanted was his mother's love, not Lan Lan's.It's not so specific, it's just love, and the object is not that important.

Li Yu gently pressed her shoulder, "It's okay. Mother and son are just two identities. In essence, we are all independent people, and there is no reason why one must love the other. Kinship does not necessarily mean You have to maintain it like what people usually do. You have no maternal love for me, and you can't change the fact that you are my mother. But you have no responsibility for me, don't worry about it. "

Lan Lan seemed a little surprised. After all, as an adult, it is not easy to accept the comfort and reasoning of an underage son.

Lan Lan admitted her indifference and ruthlessness.But she also felt that it was too much for Li Yu to accept this fact calmly and not care about it deep down.

The condemnation of her conscience made her feel a little bit embarrassed at this time, and she also really realized that this son who grew up without her mother's love to accompany him naturally has no feelings for her.

Lan Lan could only keep apologizing with difficulty: "I'm sorry."

At this time, Li Yu accepted everything maturely, but some of the resentment in his heart still leaked a little at the end, Li Yu said: "Father gave me all the love that was missing for you."

This sentence is of course punishment for Lan Lan.

Lan Lan's body stiffened. Thinking of her late ex-husband who tolerated her in every possible way, her heart must be in pain.

Li Yu stood up and said to her sincerely, "May your happiness be as happy as yours. Mother."

After saying this sentence, the ending of everything is self-evident.

Lan Lan couldn't help crying.

"May your happiness be like this." It was exactly what Professor Li wrote to her.Professor Li has a deep affection for her. Even though he pursues passionately, he never surpasses it.Lan Lan's dedication to music has always been appreciated by Professor Li.

When Li Yu was still lying on Professor Li's lap and listening to him tell a story, he knew the love story between them.

Professor Li is personable, but his pursuit of girls is not without a literati sourness. He sent out countless letters and always posted a sentence at the end, "May your happiness be like this."

Later, when the two got together, Professor Li always called her "Yiru" in private, which is the best nickname.When asked why by his youngest son, this thin-skinned gentleman blushed.When Li Yu grows up, he understands that these are the words of love from his father to his mother.

Just because Professor Li's full name is Li Qiuru.

Now the gentle and handsome Professor Li is as gorgeous as the fireworks that night, and he has turned into dust.

As soon as this sentence was uttered, it lingered in the hearts of both mother and son, and it also exploded like fireworks, and when it burned out, there was nothing.

The only affection has come to an end.

Li Yu quietly waited for her to finish crying before bringing her a clean towel.

After Lan Lan came out of the bathroom, she had already tidied up, but her eyes were bloodshot.

Li Yu smiled at her, "I'll treat you to dinner and use my manuscript fee. I won't send you off after that."

Lan Lan smiled with complicated emotions.After all, Li Yu has indeed grown up, and after all, she is really not worthy of being a mother.

Finally having dinner with Lan Lan, Li Yu almost briskly returned home.

Maybe what Cheng Yin said to him before, "Face yourself" has worked, and Li Yu almost realizes that the part of himself that he lacked before is being found little by little.

While pitying his own loneliness, he constantly denies himself and separates himself from the crowd.It was not others that caused his loneliness, but himself.

In fact, his feelings for his mother were not that deep.From the very beginning, the warmth Lan Lan gave him was limited, and his childhood was actually spent under the eyes of his father.

It's just that as he got older, after his father left him irretrievably, his desire for companionship was forced on Lan Lan.That's why he fell into sadness and loneliness.The father who led him to know the world is gone, can he think that the mother who has never carried out this undertaking should take the responsibility as a matter of course?

Now Li Yu understands.He picked the wrong one.It should not be Lan Lan who accompanied him, and it has been confirmed that it will not be her.Maybe someone else.

What Li Yu thought of at this moment was that people are, after all, independent individuals.He can't expect his mother to accompany him and love him as common in the world.

Because that kind of judgment is only based on a moral standard that has been formed for a long time, but it is not a truth that has to be practiced.

A sensible child will not deny the corrupt behaviors of his greedy and depraved mother just because the world makes him love his mother.

He loves his mother, but admits that her mother's nature is bad.Not contradictory.It would be sad to blind one's own eyes in the name of love.Of course he can choose not to love his mother, which is understandable.

Mother and son are two people, two people with close blood relationship.

A mother can abandon her son because of his heinous crimes of murder and arson, or she can use her love to teach her closest people to make him repent.Both options are justified, but the latter is more noble, and the former should not be reprimanded.

Li Yu calmly accepted the fact that Lan Lan didn't love him, and sincerely hoped that she could find what she really wanted in music.This is just out of respect for her artistic talent and the love for Lan Lan inherited from her father.

The author has something to say: "The extreme of splendor returns to mediocrity." This sentence describes Professor Li, and it only takes the literal meaning.Obviously inappropriate, but I really like this sentence.This is good for Lengwen. I can write whatever I want, and I feel elated and self-indulgent when I look at my own bugs.Tsk tsk tsk, very perverted.