sip the sky and you

Chapter 31 Chapter 31

For several days, Cheng Yin was devastated.He didn't reveal anything on the surface, for fear that Li Yu would ask him.

When asked, he would not know how to answer.

He has never been in a relationship, only knows his own sexual orientation, and has never encountered a wall in this regard, so he used to be unscrupulous.

Once you really have someone you like and have tasted the love, you will shrink back.

Worried that Li Yu would be pointed at by others, worried that Li Yu would be looked down upon by others, worried that Li Yu really liked him.

Confused and startled.

The feeling of love is increasing day by day, and it does not decrease at all. On the contrary, I feel that Li Yu is lovable everywhere.

It seems that from the heartbeat at the beginning, to the obsession later, it gradually settled into the appreciation and cherishment of this person.

Cheng Yin felt more and more sentimental, mother-in-law.

Some hate themselves like this, but they are powerless. Just imagining that others might say to them lightly and not without malice: "Disgusting." He trembled all over.

He doesn't care about other people's eyes, but Li Yu is sensitive and suspicious, so he will definitely feel sad.

Cheng Yin thought, he must be reluctant.

Guessing Li Yu's possible feelings for him, Cheng Yin was both happy and troubled.I'm afraid that he doesn't like me, and I'm even more afraid that he likes me.

Suppressing the complicated emotions deep in her heart, Cheng Yin was suffering a lot, going in and out with Li Yu every day.

One day between classes, Cheng Yin was dizzy after finishing the paper. Looking up from the desk, he found that Li Yu was reading a novel.

Cheng Yin leaned over curiously and asked him what he was looking at.

Li Yu showed him the cover, and the words "Farewell My Concubine" made Cheng Yin's heart ache.

He jumped up and grabbed Li Yu's arm, and asked him eagerly, "Farewell My Concubine about the King of Chu and Concubine Yu?"

Li Yu was baffled by him, and told him clearly: "Li Bihua's "Farewell My Concubine" is the one that was adapted into a movie."

Cheng Yin's mind was frozen, and at that time he was anxious and couldn't choose what to say: "What do you think this is for?"

Li Yu thought that he was under too much pressure from studying, so he came over to enlighten him: "Don't be too tired when the exam comes, just relax. I will slow down the pace before each exam, and the exam effect will be better. Or I will bring "Zibuyu" "Come to show you?"

"No need." Cheng Yin realized that he had overreacted, and apologized to Li Yu.

He realized that he was a little out of control.

Until the end of the final exam, Cheng Yin deliberately controlled herself, not to provoke Li Yu too much, and strictly kept the distance between friends.

Li Yu faintly felt that Cheng Yin's words were a little evasive and absent-minded recently, but he only thought that he was under too much pressure from studying, so he didn't ask too much.

At the beginning of the winter vacation, Cheng Yin stayed at home every day, never going out to see Li Yu.The results of the final exam were not bad, but Cheng Yin threw away the report card and ignored it.Li Yu was still the first in the grade, and maintained his usual level of academic mastery. Lao Yang couldn't be happier.

More than ten days passed in a flash, and the two of them never went out to play together.Occasionally chatting on WeChat and making noise in the class, Cheng Yin never went to Li Yu's house in another way.

As the year approached, Li Yu found himself a little bored.I can't read books, and I can't listen to English.

It's New Year's Eve soon, the streets are getting more and more noisy, and there are more and more people in the supermarket.

Lan Lan probably won't come back after going to the United States, even her grandparents went there.As for where to go for the New Year, Li Yu has no idea.

When his father died that year, his grandfather was so distraught that he almost went with his youngest son.Grandma was gone by then.

Grandpa hated Lan Lan, and he resented the hard-hearted behavior of this daughter-in-law whom he had always disapproved of.Even at Professor Li's funeral, the grandfather almost had a big fight with the ex-daughter-in-law.

In the past few years, Li Yu had been with Lan Lan during the Chinese New Year. Grandpa hated Lan Lan. Whenever he saw Li Yu, he would think of his poor little son and bring tears to his eyes.

Grandpa has been living in the town again, celebrating the New Year with the eldest son and the second son, which was quite lively.As soon as Li Yu left, it spoiled the atmosphere and brought bad luck.Therefore, Li Yu has not been to the old man's house for several years, and only often calls and texts to express his condolences.

He is as introverted as his father, he doesn't go around much with his relatives, and he doesn't know how to act coquettishly to make adults happy. He is the one who receives the least attention among the younger generation.

Li Yu reluctantly admitted that without his mother, he was truly alone.

29 On this day, Li Yu left the house before six o'clock.

Before ten o'clock, Cheng Yin was also dug out of the bed by Fang Yuan who came home, "Why?" Cheng Yin asked weakly with sleepy eyes.

"Let's play." Fang Yuan pulled him out, "Go to the cat cafe and pet the cat."

Cheng Yin hugged the pillow without letting go, and said impatiently: "I'm fucking/I'm not in the mood."

Fang Yuan was dumbfounded, "Your words and demeanor are very outrageous recently."

"I've known you for so many years and I haven't noticed that you like cats so much. You're pretending to be a shit-shoveling officer." Cheng Yin complained.

Fang Yuan laughed twice, "Fang Ting likes it."

"Fuck." Cheng Yin raised his eyes to look at him now, "You don't have to be in such a hurry to show off now that you've left our single organization, right? Why call me, I'm not a light bulb."

Fang Yuan pulled him up, "It didn't work, I plan to confess my love on Lantern Festival. Let's play together today, let's meet more friends."

"Fuck you," Cheng Yin kicked the quilt away, "It's not like she doesn't know me, how long has it been since the first year of high school?"

"The nature is different!" Fang Yuan roared.

"Aren't you alone in the vest?" Cheng Yin was annoyed.

"No! I've called you several times and you don't go out. Are you raising a baby at home? You have to go out with me. Auntie told me just now that you sleep in all day and stay at home and don't move around, because you are afraid that you will get sick."

"Alright, let's go!" Cheng Yin frowned and began to put on his clothes.

Fang Yuan smiled openly, "Brother Cheng Yin is so kind."

"Pass me that pair of pants." Cheng Yin immediately started ordering Fang Yuan's younger brother.

Fang Yuan took off the hanging pants and threw them on Cheng Yin's head, "Hurry up, I'll wait for you outside."

Cheng Yin pulled his pants off his head and cursed, "Fuck."

After dawdling for a long time and going out, Cheng Yin still looked like he lacked yang energy.

Fang Yuan put his arm on his shoulder, "What's the matter? You've been frowning all day long, I think you've been depressed for a short time."

Cheng Yin glanced at him, smiled and said, "I only know Fang Ting all day long, so why don't you have time to pay attention to me?"

Fang Yuan was serious, "A poet with delicate emotions, paying attention to every detail of life."

Cheng Yin ignored his stupid remark, and pulled his arm off, "I'm so short that I want to hug someone else, are you tired?"

Fang Yuan asked clearly: "Did Li Yu reject you?"

Cheng Yin paused, unable to cheer up, "No."

"What's the matter?"

There were few people on the road, Cheng Yin lowered his head and said slowly: "I am gay."

Fang Yuan rolled his eyes, "You are not gay, why do you like Li Yu?"

Cheng Yin looked at him, "But you know, homosexuality is disgusting." Cheng Yin sighed, "I'm still afraid of Li Yu."

Fang Yuan was stunned, "You think about this?"

Cheng Yin kicked the small stone beside his feet, "I don't want to do anything. I have to face it."

Fang Yuan looked directly at him, "Cheng Yin, homosexuality is nothing to be afraid of. You are not a scourge, others are afraid of you, other men are glad that they have no rivals."

Cheng Yin looked at his serious look and couldn't help laughing, "I told you that I was gay before, but you still held me back from coming out to my family."

Cheng Yin laughed bitterly again, "I know I'm afraid now."

Unexpectedly, Fang Yuan said: "There is no need to be afraid. It is different now."

"Huh?" Cheng Yin was a little puzzled.

"I believe that all love can appeal to the light and be blessed." Fang Yuan's words were a bit naive, but his serious and firm tone made Cheng Yin's heart tremble.

Fang Yuan pressed Cheng Yin's shoulder hard, "I stand by your side and support you."

Fang Yuan went on to say: "'The love that dare not speak its name' should not be hidden deep in the ground in this century. It should not be sentenced to lifelong darkness if it is kept in darkness for a long time, and it is not worthy of being branded with a scarlet letter. See the roses by the prison gate."

Cheng Yin suddenly wanted to cry.The tip of his nose was sore, and the love that made him suffer was originally called "the love that dare not speak the name".

"Cheng Yin," Fang Yuan's tone has never been so sure, "Go to resist. Go to fight for more light."

Cheng Yin said: "I..."

Fang Yuan interrupted him, "You are my brother, you can."

Fang Yuan put his arms around his shoulders again, Cheng Yin arched his back, Fang Yuan said with a smile: "You let me understand true love."

Cheng Yin glared at him indiscriminately, "Who the hell gave you love."

Fang Yuan smiled hippie, "It's you who let people know that true love is not impulsive and conquering."

Cheng Yin felt numb all over, "Fuck, don't do this."

Fang Yuan smiled, "The only thing you have to face is family resistance. Don't think about anything else. As long as Li Yu likes you, no one has the right to criticize you."

"Regardless of men and women, no one can control what you like and what you want."

Cheng Yin pursed her lips, "Yuan'er, you are very attractive when you speak human language."

Fang Yuan didn't deal with him, and smiled calmly, "Tell Fang Ting later, she is very rotten, let her tell you what's going on now."

Cheng Yin was a little nervous, "Can you say that?"

"It's no big deal." Fang Yuan said indifferently, "You like men, she also likes men, she also likes men with men, what's the matter."

Cheng Yin gritted his teeth, "Okay."

"You must fight for the rights you deserve for this forbidden zone." Fang Yuan said emotionally.

Cheng Yin looked at him and smiled, Fang Yuan is still the same, hero plot.

Nothing bad either.

Originally, Fang Ting and Cheng Yin didn't have much friendship in the first year of high school, but she didn't expect Fang Ting to be on fire when she heard about this.

Cheng Yin felt that the other party's eyes were full of love and protection, and Cheng Yin faintly felt that he was treated like a son.

Fang Ting is very excited and very restrained, the output of the concept is: liking a man is fine.She told Cheng Yin: "Men understand men, but it is difficult to understand women. So many times, the relationship between men and women is attraction or curiosity, the collision and exchange of differences between the two genders. There is impulsiveness and passion. Men and men are different. Like this. Two men's attraction to each other is harder, more intellectual, even more depressing."

Fang Ting's eyes were burning, "I'm not a man, nor a homosexual. These are all my reasonable speculations. But I believe that the love between a man and a woman and the love between a man and a man are pure and beautiful feelings. And the love between men and women is pure and beautiful. The love between people is more profound because it encounters more thorns. Those who can persevere are very powerful."

After chatting for a long time, Cheng Yin relaxed a little bit, and a cat jumped onto his lap.Cheng Yin followed the fat cat's hair, and finally said softly: "As long as he is the same, I will work hard."

At the same time, Li Yu also went to the town where his grandfather lived.Getting on the bus from the bus station at seven o'clock in the morning, the five-hour drive made Li Yu feel flustered.

The town still hasn't changed much, the clean and leisurely town in his mind overlaps with the one in front of him, and Li Yu easily recalls how to get to his grandfather's house.

The road is narrow, go up the slope, turn right and you will find the elementary school in the town. My grandfather lives under the elementary school.

Li Yu glanced at the narrow uphill road. There were few residents and pedestrians on this road.Going up, you can see that the building on the right is gone, the road is suspended on the mountain, and you can see the river from the gap.

The water in the river was still very shallow. He remembered that when he was a child, his cousin took him to play by the river when he came back for the Chinese New Year, and his clothes got wet.My cousin was beaten up and cried until he didn't eat dinner. It was Li Yu who took a large box of chocolates to coax him to start laughing again.

It’s almost elementary school, and the slope is even steeper. There are one or two dusty milk tea shops standing on the slope. On the counter, there is a Hsu Fu Ji plastic box filled with sugar, filled with colorful straws.

Grandpa's house is just ahead.

Going up again, the mountain is flat instead.Li Yu stood under a tall sycamore tree, looking at a self-built house opposite.A small flower bed was built with cement at the entrance, and a lot of green onions were planted, and there was also a redbud flower.

The rolling shutter door on one side was rolled up high, and an old man was sitting on a wooden chair made by the farmer himself, holding a very old book in his hand.A few chickens walked back and forth in front, pecking at the ground from time to time, and a dog was tied to the door, sticking out its long tongue to look around.

Li Yu's eyes turned red all of a sudden.

Fortunately, grandpa looked healthy.

A few children ran over noisily, waving an exercise book in their hands.They ran to grandpa in a group, yelling: "Grandpa, I have finished my homework for winter vacation! The fastest! I won!" The children next to me were not convinced, and they quarreled: "My correct rate is higher! Grandpa rewarded me!" I!"

Grandpa smiled and hugged the children into his arms. Wrinkles covered his entire face. "Reward everyone. I'll drink chicken soup tonight and kill that fat hen. It's a headache all day long."

The children laughed and jumped to catch the big yellow chicken, "Oh! Little Huang, you are miserable!"

An aunt wearing a yellow apron came out, handed a thick blanket to Grandpa to cover his lap, and scolded: "Dad! You have severe rheumatism, why are you sitting outside to blow dry? It's such a cold day." Li Yu admitted She came out, she is an aunt, I haven't seen her for a few years, but she looks younger, maybe because her living standard has improved.

Grandpa said cheerfully: "Read a book for a while, the sun is outside, so it's not cold."

Several men came out of the door, chatting enthusiastically, and the children looked for their fathers, hugging their legs and acting like a baby.Li Yu found that he almost didn't know these people anymore. Their faces were familiar, but they couldn't call them by their names at all.

Touching the old tree bark with his left hand, Li Yu turned around and asked softly: "Tree, do you remember me?" "I used to hug you before, although I couldn't hold you with two hands."

Li Yu also put his right hand on it, and Li Yu found that he still couldn't hold it, but he felt mottled marks.Li Yu turned around to look at it, and there was writing on it: Xiao or's tree.

Li Yu was stunned for a long time looking at these four words.He secretly carved this with a knife when he was a child. At that time, he could not write Yu characters, and he was criticized by his father for destroying trees.

As he grew, the tree grew stronger.The words that were originally engraved compactly are now pulled apart and deformed.

Li Yu walked slowly downhill.

Yes, it has been deformed.

The author has something to say: I am the one in the second grade, wow, the part in the middle is too much in the second grade, I really like my second grader.Hey.