Dear Chen Jiu

Chapter 14

But the next day I saw the pencil sharpener returned as it was in my desk belly, and I felt very angry at the moment.

I don't understand what can't be accepted for a birthday gift. I also gave two return gifts on the pretext of various festivals before, although they were all returned.

But this time, this gift is a high-end essential sketch tool for art students that I found on the Internet after I specially asked a friend who studies art. I asked my uncle to send it back from the city.

Small places like our county-level city can't buy it. I think I have prepared this gift with enough care, so Chen Jiu's refusal to enter made me feel discouraged for the first time.

I want to rush to Chen Jiu's class to find him directly. Is it so difficult to accept a gift?Is it okay to accept it as a friend?

There has always been a force supporting me to pay attention to this person.

So even in the days when I didn't have direct communication with Chen Jiu during the first semester of high school, I would subconsciously look for traces of his existence in my life.

But suddenly, he was exhausted by this returned gift.

I have never run into a wall like this since I was a child. I have always been chased by others to please me. There is no such thing as my hot face to stick to other people's cold ass.

I stopped for a long time. During this time of doing nothing, I realized that most of my freshman career in the past was almost centered around Chen Jiu. Except for this person, my life suddenly became empty.

In physical education class, Lao Xiao scratched his leg, and I accompanied him to the infirmary for a little treatment.

It was a bit boring to stay indoors, so I went to the spacious platform outside the second floor to breathe. When I looked down, I happened to see Chen Jiu who was in physical education class. I lay on the railing and watched for a while.

Until Lao Xiao limped out to look for me.

"I thought you couldn't think about it?"

"Let's go."

Old Xiao glanced at the stadium and then at me, probably not expecting me to leave so readily, but he didn't ask any more questions.

Lao Xiao is such a very careful person, I did not share my recent thoughts with him.

But during this time, I ate with him in the cafeteria, and I also took the driver's car to school together in the morning.

He guessed I gave up.

"Are you hungry, let me go to the canteen to buy something to eat?"

Old Xiao turned his head to look at me again in shock, "Okay, I... I'll go with you."

"Is your leg comfortable?"

"Let's go, it's rare that you have such a conscience."

It’s really not that I’ve changed my sex, maybe it’s because I have less focus in life, so I have to subconsciously allocate some energy to this issue.

It’s still chicken legs and instant noodles, something that you would never think of eating at home, but it becomes delicacies at school.

As soon as I took the 'one card' to swipe the card, I heard a girl's voice behind me.

"Gu Zong, this is for you."

I looked back at the source of the voice, and it was a girl with a very ordinary appearance.

He was not tall, wore a pair of glasses, and handed over a pink envelope in his hand.

I should have rejected it decisively. I had received many love letters. I didn't even open the love letter written by Xiao Wei, who was the only one with whom I had an 'ambiguous' relationship in junior high school.

Not to mention the current situation, if it were before I met Chen Jiu, I might have accepted it. After all, I am a high school student now, so it is not too much to accept love letters and fall in love.

I was about to say no when I caught a glimpse of the 'Fatty' group coming in from the other side.

There are such a group of people in every school, with broken mouths, poor character, and judging people by their appearance.

Relying on a little money at home, they do whatever they want and act high-profile everywhere. They take gossip about girls for fun. One day they say this girl has big breasts, the next day they say that girl is definitely not a virgin. In short, they pick and choose the girls around them 360 degrees. I don't know where I heard the little information.

He is the kind of person Lao Xiao and I look down on the most.

And at this moment, this girl is standing in front of me so lonely, if I reject her directly, I don't need to wait until tomorrow, it will spread throughout the whole freshman year.

So I reached out and took the love letter out of nowhere and said 'thank you' to her.

The girl ran away with a blushing face, and I thought of myself who had been rejected countless times.

It turned out that I just accepted a love letter, and the person who conveyed my heart would be so happy, regardless of whether I accepted the heart in the end.

Fatty was watching the show, he was probably sure that I would refuse, so he was a little shocked by my acceptance of the love letter.

"Brother Zong, so you like this kind of girl? This girl is really..." The fat man held back for a long time, but didn't spit out the insulting words. He didn't dare to talk too much with me, and he knew how to judge people.

So I have to accept this love letter, otherwise this girl will become the next laughing stock in their eyes.

Just be a good person and do it to the end, "What's wrong with her, isn't she cute?" I deliberately pissed off the fat man.

The fat man saw that I didn't seem to be joking at all, so he shut up in embarrassment.

It's interesting to see him deflated, I'm going to accompany Lao Xiao into the cafeteria to fetch water and eat instant noodles.

Today's canteen was really lively, because when Lao Xiao and I turned around to enter the cafeteria, we saw 'Gossip Girl', Chen Jiu standing beside her, and all the boys from the art class who had watched my confession.

How long has it been since Chen Jiu and I met face to face? We are obviously in the same school, but why does it feel like we are separated by thousands of miles.

It seems that I will always stand behind to see the clear or blurred figure.

I subconsciously wondered if Chen Jiu heard something, but it didn't matter if he could hear it or not, he didn't care.

My heart seemed to be blocked by something, and I couldn't breathe.

Until he entered the cafeteria with Lao Xiao, he finished soaking the noodles, then carefully tore off the outer packaging of the chicken drumsticks and began to chew, without making a sound during the whole process, as if he was afraid of breaking some kind of calm.

It's class time now, and the cafeteria is very quiet, so it's more obvious that he deliberately lowered his voice, and then I rushed out of the cafeteria.

I caught up with Chen Jiu who was walking towards the teaching building. I stopped just looking at this figure, and watched him get farther and farther away from me.

What I want is all legitimate and reasonable face-to-face encounters without affecting his life.

"Chen Jiu."

I stood behind him and called him.

The wind blew the hair on my forehead into a mess, but I was still running forward and caught up with Chen Jiu who had separated from Lu Yuan and was walking in two different directions.

He just paused when he heard my voice, but he didn't stop or look back.

But I don't need him to look back, I know he can hear.

I said, "I won't give up, I'll find a way, I'll never give up."

After saying these words, the feeling of oppression in my heart finally disappeared.

I finally understood what made my heart stop at the entrance of the cafeteria. It wasn't that I thought I had given up, nor that I cared what people around me thought about my attitude towards Chen Jiu, even Lao Xiao.

I was afraid that Chen Jiu would think I had given up.

But dear Chen Jiu, how could I give up?