Dear Chen Jiu

Chapter 62

I lay on the bed, jumped to the end of the bed and curled up in a ball to sleep.

Just click on the circle of friends and see the news that was posted half a month ago.

Then I was surprised to find that there was Lao Xiao in the list of likes. At that time, I was busy buying air tickets, refunding leases and returning home, so I didn't notice it at all.

Unexpectedly, we have reached the point where we will be surprised by a like.

Lao Xiao and I went to school together wearing crotch pants from the beginning of kindergarten. At that time, my weak younger brother seldom went out. I often felt that Lao Xiao and I were more like brothers.

We have had many disagreements and conflicts since we were young, but he has a big heart and does not hold grudges.

After the quarrel the day before, the next day will be Pidiandian waiting for me to go to school together at my door...

We haven't been in touch in these years, but Lao Xiao's move seems to be an opportunity.

My mother said that he is already in charge of his father's company, and he has matured a lot in the past few years.

Lao Xiao is getting married too, it seems that everyone has let go of the past, only I am stuck in the same place.

--Gu Zong, are you coming over tomorrow?

I received a message from Yan Xu on my phone, with a questioning tone.

See, adults have their measure.

All expressions of love should be based on the premise of not hurting others, so whether to go or not has become a problem.

-- don't go.

After sending this sentence, I threw the phone aside, closed my eyes and let myself go.

But in the middle of the night because of insomnia, I got up in embarrassment and turned on the computer to modify the work form.

***

"So who had the backbone to say yesterday?"

"Oh? Who is it?" I looked around.

"Oh, the words are false."

Yan Xu said contemptuously.

"Oh."

Standing downstairs in Yan Xu's new house, we had a series of boring conversations, which felt distant and familiar, and made people want to laugh unconsciously.

"What happened to you?"

"Think of a little boy."

Yan Xu didn't ask any more questions, "Let's go upstairs first, the appointment is at three o'clock, how can there be any reason to wait here at two o'clock?"

"Go up, I'll smoke a cigarette."

I leaned next to the streetlight in the community. Actually, I am not good at waiting for people, but I am very good at waiting for Chen Jiu.

I took out cigarettes and a lighter from my pocket. Cigarettes are too expensive in foreign countries, so it is difficult to smoke them. I am still used to smoking domestic brands.

Chen Jiu used to smoke a lot of this brand of cigarettes. It was very strong, hard, and choking.

For almost an hour, I thought a lot, and finally I spit out all my thoughts along the smoke ring.

I glanced at my watch, it was 45:[-].

I threw the cigarette butt into the trash can next to me, turned and went upstairs.

"Come?" Yan Xu sat on the cement bucket and played with his mobile phone.

"No, he likes to step on the spot."

Yan Xu put his phone in his pocket, and when he looked up at me, he hesitated to speak.

"Speak up if you have something to say."

I closed the door behind me.

"Gu Zong, you don't have to give up.

He was not married after all, so maybe he still had a chance.

Uh, I don't mean to ask you to destroy other people's feelings, I just think that everything is not a foregone conclusion, even if you don't move, there may be room for... Hey, forget it, just treat me as a fart. "

Yan Xu scratched his hair, and his tone was a little depressed.

"It's okay, I'm here today just as your friend, to help you see the design of the house."

"Okay," Yan Xu's tone became more relaxed, "You can also go to their house for design later, their designers are quite high-level.

The main reason is that I am too picky, as you know, after all, home is a place where you will live with the person you like for a lifetime..."

'Knock knock knock-'

"Let me go."

Yan Xu got up and went to open the door.

That's okay, I'm sitting on that cement bucket instead.

Chen Jiu brought his assistant over today, and after taking a rough look at the house, he asked Yan Xu about his thoughts and requirements.

Chen Jiu is very charming when he is serious about his work. I think some relationships are preordained.

Even if it is not an old acquaintance, this person in front of me can always easily disturb my mind.

Since entering the house, his eyes have been focused on this house, and I am like a piece of dispensable air.

Listening to Yan Xu talking about words like 'warm colors' and 'warmth', Chen Jiu seldom speaks, and only occasionally summarizes Yan Xu's thoughts in short words, and the assistant is responsible for recording.

Finally, after the assistant measured the dimensions of several rooms and took pictures, it was almost over.

"I'll send you the floor plan tomorrow night, and we'll communicate if you're not satisfied."

"Can I add your contact information?" Yan Xu asked.

"phone number."

Yan Xu immersed himself in the operation, and finally raised his head, "Mr. Chen, it's past time for dinner. It's really hard for you today. Let's have a meal together."

When did Yan Xu become so smart?

Chen Jiu did not refuse the meal.

That's right, only someone like me who hides shady thoughts thinks about restraining and avoiding.

Want to see but dare not see, not see but feel uncomfortable.

It's nothing more than an ordinary client inviting a designer to have a meal.

"Let's go then, my friend is also there, don't mind if we all come together."

We followed Yan Xu to a nearby restaurant with good taste.

The atmosphere of the meal was basically driven by Yan Xu. Chen Jiu's assistant was as silent as him, but Yan Xu suddenly showed his familiar skills and chatted with him about home decoration design while toasting. The two chatted for a while I had a great time.

I looked at Chen Jiu who was opposite, he hardly moved his chopsticks all night.

Although it was well concealed, it could be seen that he was not feeling well.

It's already past the normal meal time, and it looks like his stomach hurts again.

"Are you all right?" I sat opposite, deliberately pretending to be a little casual and asked.

Chen Jiu took a sip of water, "It's okay."

I pinched my thigh, forget it, what else can I do if he doesn't tell me, should I rush out to buy stomach medicine for him now?

"To trouble you today."

I toasted him with a glass.

"You're welcome."

Chen Jiu wanted to pick up the wine bottle on the table and pour himself some wine, but I quickly held it down.

The moment I touched the back of his hand, I was still shocked, his hand was very cold.

"You drink hot water."

I hurriedly took my hand away and said.

"Ah."

He didn't insist anymore.

After this meal, I felt that Chen Jiu and his assistant were relieved.

We exchanged a few pleasantries, and parted at the door.

"Hey, are you not angry with me?" Yan Xu pushed my arm.

"Not really."

"I didn't mean to match you up, it's indeed time for dinner.

And he's really professional. Without your relationship, I wouldn't be able to invite him. "

"Thank you, I'll treat you to dinner later."

I hailed a taxi on the side of the road and waved goodbye to Yan Xu.

"See you later then."

See you later, I haven't been able to fulfill this sentence for two months. The investment bank internship is really busy.

Yan Xu approached me a few times on the way, and I happened to have something on hand at the time, so I pushed it away.

I know Yan Xu's good intentions. On the one hand, the company is really too busy, and on the other hand, I really don't know how to face Chen Jiu.

I'm like a piece of dead wood, floating hopelessly on the seashore, I can't find a foothold in the ups and downs, and I might drown one day.

In fact, I really want to meet this person, but I am afraid that I will lose my sense of proportion when I meet alone.

It was almost nine o'clock after overtime work on Saturday, and Alex invited our department to Jiangjing Mansion for dinner, which is a very high-end restaurant in Jiangzhou.

I spent my 20th birthday there.

At this time, it is easy to bring back not-so-good memories, but during the internship period, I have to be social.

Strange to say, I seem to have become more and more lonely over the years, and I prefer to be alone most of the time.

"Xiao Gu, do you have a girlfriend?"

I followed a group of people, and an older sister in the department asked me.

I shook my head.

"Hi, I have a younger sister who is also studying abroad and will return to China after graduating at the end of the year. You—"

"Thank you, sister," I pretended to look at her in great pain, "I just experienced a failed relationship, and I haven't come out yet."

Seeing my expression, the elder sister of the department immediately showed sympathy, and patted my shoulder, "Everything will be fine."

Over the years, I have used this trick to deal with enthusiastic people around me, and I have tried it all.

Michael knew me for five years, and at one point thought I had really experienced a heart-wrenching relationship.

But in fact, unrequited love can be regarded as a grand love.

It's just that when the song ends, all emotions are only borne by me.

So why do I want to come back? Is it because I know I can’t do it, or I don’t hit the south wall and don’t look back...

...

Jiangjing Mansion is where I went to college. When I was in the car and looked out the window, I felt that there was not much change on both sides of the street, but some familiar shops were gone.

"Today, you're all open to eat. I've worked hard for you all recently."

Alex sat in the co-pilot and said that the atmosphere in the car became lively because of this sentence.

In fact, it's just a meal, but I don't know why organizing this kind of meal can mobilize the enthusiasm of employees very well.

While sitting in the box, Alex asked everyone to order.

Five years ago, Jiangjing Mansion was far from having such a great reputation, and it should have been hardcovered in the past few years.

I glanced at the menu, the signs are still the same as before, but the menu is obviously more refined.

The lively box made people put aside their troubles for a while. I haven't drank liquor for a long time, and my memory was skillfully mobilized again after going around.

Old Xiao and Lu Yuan wobbled in front of me, I looked to the left, hey, why isn’t Chen Jiu sitting next to me?

"Little Gu, are you drunk?" someone shouted to this side with a smile.

I shook my head trying to wake myself up a bit, how can I drink so badly?

I said hello and got up to go to the bathroom to wash my face and smoke a cigarette to wake up.

I haven't drank baijiu for a long time, and it's really a bit aggressive to pour it into beer.

Each room in Jiangjing Mansion has its own bathroom, so the public bathroom on this floor should not be used by anyone.

I was about to open the door when I heard the sound of running water from the bathroom sink. I paused and opened the door again.

"So you are here."

I looked at the familiar side face in front of me and blurted out, Chen Jiu stood in front of the mirror without looking back.

I boldly took a few steps forward, but I also smelled a strong smell of alcohol from a short distance away.

"It's okay not to drink. Drinking hurts your stomach."

I touch my pocket, where is the hangover candy I bought?

Chen Jiu turned off the tap.

"Are you okay?" I walked up to him and took his hand, "Are you drunk?"

He just turned to look at me, with big drops of water still hanging on his face.

It's strange, why did he wear such a formal suit on my birthday, with a neat suit.

"Drink too much?" I heard him ask in a very sober tone.

"Oh? You drank too much, then I will tell Lao Xiao and take you home first."

"It's because you drank too much."

Suddenly someone pushed the door in, and Chen Jiu withdrew his hand calmly.

It's the cleaning staff, took a mop and left.

After they left, I wrapped my arms around Chen Jiu's arm and played a rogue, "Yes, I drank too much, then let's go home together."

After I made this request, Chen Jiu hesitated for a moment, then took out his mobile phone and made a call.

After a brief exchange with the other end, he looked at me and said, go downstairs and wait.

"Let's go together."

I took advantage of the situation and said.

He stared at me as if to make sure I was really drunk.

"I... don't know which car you called."

Chen Jiu gave me a license plate number.

Then he took out a pen from the inner pocket of his suit, took my hand, and wrote the license plate number in my palm.

My hands felt numb from such an intimate touch, but I wasn't awake enough after all.

"Let's go back together."

I burped lightly on my side.

"I'm talking about work."

Chen Jiu frowned, then took a tissue aside and wet it, and gently wiped my face, "I won't drink less."

"I didn't drink much."

I quibble.

"Gu Zong," Chen Jiu looked at me without stopping, "today is not your birthday."

Oh, is it so?Then why am I here?I thought about it, and my mind turned for a long time. What kind of day is that?I seem to... Am I here for a dinner at work?

"Oh."

I gradually regained my composure, and along with the embarrassment of belated awareness, a sense of loss slowly came to my heart. It turned out that things had changed, "Then I'll go and say hello to my colleagues before leaving."

"Graduated?" He threw away the tissue and asked casually.

"Not yet, in practice."

"Ah."