Capgras delusional syndrome

Chapter 66 How to conquer the fortress named Suqian

At that time, when Yang Shaojun received the case and came out and saw Su Qian sitting in the office of the police station, he really didn't know how to describe his feelings.

Is this the first time he has seen Su Qian?When he was young, when he left Shanghai to serve as a soldier, he thought he would never see Su Qian again; later, when Su Wei went abroad to study psychology, he thought that his fate with the Su brothers was over; later, when Su Wei returned to China, He took rhubarb to Greece again. He thought that he and the Su family would never have anything to do in this life, but Su Qian sat there without looking at him. He lowered his head and stared at his fingers solemnly. .

Then, Yang Shaojun moved into the Su family's mansion.It has to be said that he had selfish intentions. In order to protect the safety of the client and facilitate the investigation, it was not necessary to do so, but at that time he made this request obsessively.There are many reasons. One is that he wants to live in the place where Su Wei used to live, which can be regarded as a kind of compensation and memorial for his lost love; the other is that he also has a strong interest in Su Qian.It's hard to explain the feeling, hate him, but also want to get close to him, want to spy on him, to increase motivation to continue hating him. ——Scientific research shows that love and hate operate in the same area of ​​the cerebral cortex. Generally speaking, both are "sentient beings".

However, after living in the Su family, Yang Shaojun realized that life was not so easy.There are so many rules set by Su Qian. If a family rule is written, it can be used as a brick to hit people.Smoking alone puts Yang Shaojun in a bad position and requires indoor smoking to be prohibited; immediately after smoking, you must rinse your mouth with mouthwash and spray breath freshener, otherwise you are not allowed to talk to people; you must wash your hands immediately after smoking, it smells of smoke Fingers are not allowed to touch any furniture... blah, blah, blah, blah.For the first two days, Yang Shaojun complied, but then he quit—not to mention that he was here to protect Su Qian's personal safety and investigate cases, even in a feudal society, Zhou Papi was not so harsh on workers!What's more, he is very addicted to smoking, sometimes he will smoke a pack of cigarettes a day, how can he bear such a toss?In such a big house, if you open the windows to ventilate the air, it will disperse completely, and it won’t reach your house. How could it be so hypocritical?And it's just about smoking, other demands of washing hands and changing clothes also made him feel uncomfortable, he felt as if his whole body was covered with germs, he was especially disgusted by others, and he didn't have to do anything except tidy himself up every day.Even so, Su Qian still looked down upon him. Every time Su Qian saw him, it was as if he had seen the SARS virus. His disgust was not concealed.

Then Yang Shaojun figured it out.Why are you, Su Qian, who is so rich?Can you look down on people if you have money?Back then, I was a gangster and you looked down upon me, but now I am a glorious people's policeman, the size of a criminal police captain, and a department-level cadre, and there are hundreds of people under him, pretending to be a grandson in front of me There are so many guys, you were crazy when you were a teenager, and you were still crazy when you were in your thirties, why?Doesn't it just depend on your fate, being born in a wealthy family?

So Yang Shaojun began to obey and obey.Later, he found out that Su Qian couldn't do anything to him, so he just ignored him openly.

However, what really made Yang Shaojun explode was because he realized that Su Qian was "special" to him.

When Yang Shaojun ate at Su’s house, the Su’s family ate in a Western style, that is, everyone’s food was served on separate plates, instead of the traditional Chinese style where everyone put food on the same big plate, and everyone The tableware used is fixed.For example, to eat braised pork, burn a pot of meat, each person has a small special bowl to hold two pieces, if there is not enough, add more to the pot.At first, Yang Shaojun thought that Su Qian had developed this pretentious habit after living abroad for several years. He obviously ate Chinese food and acted like a foreigner, but he just complained in his heart and didn't have much opinion.Until one day, he went out to perform official duties and came back three days later. When he came back, it happened to be meal time. As soon as he entered the door, he saw Su Qian and Lao Meng eating around the table. There were big bowls and pots on the table. That's right, they eat whatever normal people eat.Seeing Yang Shaojun's return, Su Qian was stunned for a moment, and ordered a servant to prepare meals for him. In the end, several small bowls were served, which made it clear that he was separated from the big table to share.This is blatant discrimination.

It wasn't until one day that Yang Shaojun overheard a conversation between two maids outside the laundry room that he suddenly realized.

Maid A said: "That policeman surnamed Yang is quite handsome. It's a pity. Why do you think all the better men are gay now?"

Maid B said: "Yes. Mr. Su, don't hate homosexuals too much. Last time I saw that policeman touched him, turned around and immediately washed him with disinfectant. Oh, I heard that there are many AIDS in homosexuals. Yes, does Police Officer Yang have AIDS? You see, Mr. Su guards against him, throws away everything he touches, and separates him from eating. Oh, he is going to die, if he really has it Isn’t AIDS fatal! I also help him wash his clothes, so it won’t be contagious!”

Maid A said: "Don't make a fuss, it's not so easy to contagious. If he really has AIDS, how could Mr. Su let him live in it. I think Mr. Su himself hates homosexuality so much, you know, he and the two My younger brother seems to like men, didn't he bring him over to have dinner with him last time, you didn't see Mr. Su's face, he was livid, and they got angry for two days after they left."

After Yang Shaojun listened, he felt angry and sad.So that's the reason, that's the reason, you regard me as a scourge and avoid me like a snake, just because the person I like is more than the person you like?For so many years, I have worked hard and desperately, and I have finally come out on top and achieved something, but you can still easily use this ridiculous reason to discriminate against me, to show your sense of superiority!

Yang Shaojun rushed into Su Qian's room, and Su Qian was sitting at his desk looking through the documents, when he saw Yang Shaojun coming in, he frowned displeasedly: "Officer Yang, do you need me to teach you the basic etiquette of knocking on the door before entering? "

Yang Shaojun approached him carelessly, Su Qian was taken aback, and asked politely and distantly: "What's the matter with you?"

Yang Shaojun walked to the desk, stretched out his arms, trapped him in the narrow space formed by his body and the desk, and smiled casually at him.Su Qian was shocked by his abnormality and angry at his unreasonableness, so he pushed his arm in displeasure: "Yang Shaojun, what do you want to do?"

Yang Shaojun smiled lightly, bent down, and said ambiguously in his ear: "By the way, call me Yang Shaojun, don't call me Police Officer Yang. Young Master Su, are you afraid of me?"

Su Qian frowned enough to kill a fly, and turned his head and neck in displeasure: "Afraid of you? Please get out of the way!"

Yang Shaojun held his hand firmly, and said with a smile, "Are you afraid that I will be sick, or what? Why, will you be infected if you touch me?"

Su Qian pulled out his hand vigorously, but Yang Shaojun's strength was great, he was pinched in pain, but he couldn't get out - Yang Shaojun was indeed different from the boy who was beaten to the ground and cried.

Yang Shaojun continued: "You think homosexuality is a disease, so why do you hide? Is it an infectious disease, and you will be infected too?"

Su Qian said angrily: "Yang Shaojun, if you don't let me go, I will call someone!"

Yang Shaojun smiled indifferently: "Who are you calling? Your bodyguard? Are you planning to assault the police?"

"You!" Su Qian stared angrily.

Yang Shaojun pushed closer, his lips had already touched the skin behind his ears, making him shiver.Yang Shaojun said: "Su Qian, homophobia is a disease, and it needs to be cured." His lips swept across his cheeks, and he said with a smirk, "I'm so sorry, you have been infected by my germs. How about you change it quickly?" Shameless, maybe there is still salvation."

Su Qian pushed him away violently, desperately wiping his face with his sleeve.Yang Shaojun laughed loudly, and walked away proudly.

For the next period of time, when Su Qian saw Yang Shaojun, it was as if he had seen the killing of his father and enemy, and he felt cold all over his body.Yang Shaojun didn't care at all, instead he asked him how he was.He has an extremely thick skin, and if he wanted to destroy Su Qian's sense of superiority, it would be useless to discriminate against him with his nostrils turned upside down. It would be more interesting if his nose was not his nose or eyes when he was angry.

After two days, Su Qian finally couldn't bear it anymore and decided to get Yang Shaojun away.But that afternoon, something happened again.

Su Qian went to a university to give a speech, and Yang Shaojun followed him to listen.Because at school, Su Qian's vigilance was relatively relaxed, and he brought two security guards with him to wait outside instead of following him.Before the speech started, Su Qian went to the bathroom, and as soon as he unzipped his trousers, Yang Shaojun wandered in foolishly, and when he saw him, he smiled shamelessly at him: "Oh, what a coincidence, it turns out that Young Master Su is also going to the bathroom. "

Su Qian didn't bother to talk to him.

Yang Shaojun walked to a stand next to him, still staring at him, and said with a smile: "Yo, although the method used is different, but it looks the same as mine." Unzip yourself.

Su Qian's head was swollen with anger, and he even suppressed the urge to urinate. He tied up his pants and went to wash his hands.

At this time, a man who looked like a cleaner walked in from the outside and walked to the sink next to Su Qian to wash his hands.Yang Shaojun has been a policeman for so many years, and he has an innate intuition. From the moment the man walked in, his eyes have been fixed on him. Suddenly seeing the man move, he shouted: "Be careful!" He rushed over to block Su Qian. Su Qian glanced sideways and saw a gleaming silver dagger stabbing towards his abdomen. Before he could react, Yang Shaojun had already blocked him behind him, Looking over from his position, the dagger stabbed into Yang Shaojun's stomach.

Yang Shaojun lifted his foot and kicked, and the man staggered back immediately.Yang Shaojun waved his hand immediately, and Su Qian saw a blood-stained dagger fall to the ground, and his eyes widened in shock.Yang Shaojun rushed forward and wrestled with the man, subduing him in just two strokes.

After a while, the guards who heard the sound escorted the prisoner away. Su Qian saw that Yang Shaojun's clothes were covered with blood, and he didn't know how injured he was. Standing beside him looked helpless.Yang Shaojun smiled at him, still with the same casual smile, gently shook his hand with his good hand, and comforted him: "I'm fine, but my hand was hurt a little. Don't give a speech, put your bodyguard Call in, and take you back quickly."

This was the first time that Su Qian felt that his signature smile was not so flattering, but rather... pleasing to the eye.He stared at his bloody hand: "Then you..."

Yang Shaojun said: "I'll just go to the hospital by myself, it's a minor injury. You go back, don't think too much, leave this matter to our police, and you will definitely not get into trouble."

Later, Su Qian was escorted home by bodyguards. Just after arriving home, Yang Shaojun called again asking if he had arrived safely. When Su Qian asked about his own injuries, he took them lightly.Fortunately, Yang Shaojun grabbed the blade with his hand at the critical moment, and the knife did not penetrate his abdomen, but the wound on his hand was deep enough to see the bones. Su Qian saw it with his own eyes, but Yang Shaojun didn't even frown, holding his seriously injured Ask him about his safety and comfort him not to be afraid...

After this incident, when Yang Shaojun returned to the Su family, Su Qian's attitude towards him changed subtly.Although he still looked like he didn't want to see each other, but the prejudice and disgust had disappeared, and he only held up a seemingly arrogant air as his final bottom line.When Yang Shaojun touched him, he no longer immediately flushed with disgust like Xie Chong upper body, and occasionally saw Yang Shaojun smoking in front of him, he would pretend not to see it.

The relationship between them became more and more strange.Yang Shaojun's attitude became more and more ambiguous day by day. Since that incident, he would call him twice every day at noon and afternoon to care about his personal safety. Yang Shaojun intentionally or unintentionally increased his physical contact. When Su Qian objected to this, Yang Shaojun would plausibly say that it was to help him get rid of his homophobia. His thick skin always made Su Qian helpless.

For Su Qian, he has been with almost all the same elites as himself since he was a child. There has never been a person like Yang Shaojun around him. He enjoys annoying himself; he is obscene, shameless, and like a hero; he has no bottom line, he doesn't care about anything, he is always there when you need him, and he won't leave when you hate him... Su Qian and Yang Shaojun are not from the same world at all, and because of this, he hates Yang Shaojun extremely, and is strongly - undeniably, strongly attracted to him.Since childhood, until now, when he felt guilty and curious about Yang Shaojun, but he didn't want to admit it, he used more disgust and arrogance to cover it up.

Until one day, Yang Shaojun had something to say again, so he leaned into Su Qian's ear with a playful smile and whispered ambiguously. Su Qian finally pushed him away and asked, "Officer Yang, what are you trying to do? Your behavior has already caused me a lot of trouble. Troubled!"

Yang Shaojun raised his eyebrows, smiled so hard that he couldn't see his teeth, and said every word: "I'm pursuing you." The result of this sentence was Su Qian's angry punch and bruised eye sockets for a whole week.

Su Qian wanted to kick him out, but felt that he was too sensitive.He really couldn't tell the truth from what Yang Shaojun said.At this time, the group of unyielding gangsters helped again.They frequently mailed horrible pictures to Su Qian, even people's severed fingers, and even Su Yi received it.Su Yi was almost kidnapped, but thanks to Li Yaoyao and his two brothers who were quick-witted at the time, they helped him escape.

During that time, Su Qian's nerves were tense to the extreme.Not only was his life threatened, even his beloved younger brother was almost implicated.He hurriedly bought two air tickets for Su Yi and Li Yaoyao to send them abroad for vacation and refuge, but he himself stayed in Shanghai because he was tired from business.At this time, Su Qian’s wife and children had already left him, his parents and brothers were not around, and even the servants at home came to resign if they heard the news, so Yang Shaojun at this time undoubtedly became his to some extent. emotional support.

Yang Shaojun was extremely unreliable in private affairs, frivolous and wretched; but in official affairs, he was very reliable, and he stepped forward time and time again to protect Su Qian's safety.Su Qian is emotionally slow and passive, it is difficult for him to develop a strong love-hate, but he cannot resist subtle changes. If Yang Shaojun was a woman, he might just half-pull and half-accept.However, although he couldn't let go of accepting homosexuality, his attitude was not as clear as it was at the beginning, but turned into passive resistance.

Yang Shaojun's definition of this relationship is that as long as Su Qian can be brought to bed, then everything is OK, otherwise the current state has reached its limit, and Su Qian will never go any further.He originally thought that there would be a long way to go to break through the last line of defense, and he was even prepared for a long-term war of resistance, but things went so smoothly that even he himself did not expect it.

——On this day, Su Qian was drunk.

The drunk Su Qian was beyond Yang Shaojun's expectation.Su Qian sat on the sofa expressionlessly. Yang Shaojun thought he was in a trance, but when he got closer, he realized that he seemed to be a completely different person. His face was still the same, without any momentum, as if he had switched to a hidden second. Personality, the sharp and hard shell is broken into slag, and it becomes soft and waxy, which can bully people and animals and is harmless.

Yang Shaojun touched Su Qian's forehead, Su Qian looked up at him blankly, and said softly, "Yang Shaojun."

Yang Shaojun bent down and poked Su Qian's face. For the first time, Su Qian didn't even frown, and still looked confused.Yang Shaojun couldn't help laughing: "You're drunk."

Su Qian shook his head slowly: "I'm not drunk."

Yang Shaojun pulled him up from the sofa and dragged him back to his room: "You are absolutely drunk."

After entering the room, Su Qian sat down on the big bed, stared at Yang Shaojun who was squatting in front of him, and asked slowly, "Why do you like men?"

Yang Shaojun thought for a while, then shrugged: "I don't know either. By the time I find out, I already like men."

Su Qian asked again: "What does it feel like when a man kisses a man?"

Yang Shaojun was stunned for a moment, met his eyes, and slowly leaned forward as if being bewitched, "You...do you want to try..."

Su Qian didn't speak.

Yang Shaojun kissed him.It was a very gentle kiss. At first, there was tossing and turning friction between the lips, and gradually deepened. The tongue broke through the teeth, and the tongue was entangled softly and greasy.He heard his own heartbeat, a strong heartbeat that he hadn't experienced in many years. He attributed this throbbing to shock, because in the last second of the kiss, he couldn't imagine that such a strong and cold person like Su Qian would be like this Accept his kiss meekly.

After a long time, Yang Shaojun let go of him panting heavily, put his forehead against his forehead, and returned his previous question to him: "What's it like for a man to kiss a man?"

Su Qian closed his eyes and said nothing, his eyelashes trembling slightly, stretched out his hands to him, and said silently: Give me a hug.

Yang Shaojun hugged him tightly, threw him down like crazy, different from the previous step-by-step kiss, he kissed Su Qian frantically like a hungry wolf rushing for food, untied his clothes, rubbed his body, and finally, gently and firmly into his body.From the beginning to the end, Su Qian did not resist. He only desperately asked for a hug when he was in pain, and murmured countless names: "Dad...Mom...Sister...Xiaowei...Young Master, I am in pain."

Yang Shaojun intertwined his fingers with his hands, squeezed them tightly, and said through gritted teeth: "You are not afraid of pain, you are only afraid of being alone, and you are afraid that no one will hear you say that you are in pain. Tell me, I will accompany you in the future, and I will protect you. We Together." Then she blocked his lips, forcing him to swallow the pain.

After a night of madness, Su Qian and Yang Shaojun woke up almost at the same time the next morning.They opened their eyes and looked at each other blankly. Yang Shaojun lifted the quilt and realized instantly - last night, Su Qian was drunk, but he was sober.

Su Qian looked at the messy bed with a dull expression.Yang Shaojun was so guilty that he was ready to be beaten, but he didn't dare to say a word.To his surprise, Su Qian didn't get angry, let alone make a move. Instead, he lifted the quilt and got out of bed. The moment he stepped on the ground, his waist and hips tightened, and his whole body became stiff.

Yang Shaojun reached out his hand to his back, wanting to help him, but he didn't dare to touch it.

Su Qian limped two steps towards the bathroom, stopped suddenly, turned his head and asked Yang Shaojun expressionlessly, "Are you serious?"

Yang Shaojun froze for a moment, then nodded in embarrassment: "I'm... serious."

"Oh." Su Qian nodded, turned and went into the bathroom.

After this morning, he acquiesced in his relationship with Yang Shaojun.

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