longevity dream

Chapter 37

Standing up, the tone was flat: "Yutang, I'm not at home for dinner, I'll come back to get something, and I'll be leaving in a while."

The two brothers of the Bai family have called each other by their full names since they were young. Bai Yutang has known since he was ten years old that there are only three times when Bai Jintang will call him "Yutang".

First, he was sick, second, he made a mistake, and third, Bai Jintang was sad.

So Bai Yutang suddenly felt that he couldn't say anything, so he took half a step back.Bai Jintang finally turned around to look at him, and the two brothers looked at each other for a while, staring at each other's all too familiar face, those eyes that were exactly the same as his own.Bai Yutang discovered that Bai Jintang hadn't shaved.

He took another half step back, and his heartbeat lost its original rhythm in an instant.No, it can't be like this, you can't lose without speaking.He swallowed with difficulty, and just about to speak, Bai Jintang stretched out his hand worriedly to touch his forehead carefully: "Are you sick? You look so bad."

Bai Yutang shook his head, so Bai Jintang turned back and walked up the stairs, just when his back was about to disappear at the bend of the stairs, Bai Yutang closed his eyes and said clearly: "Zhan Zhao and I, together .”

After saying these words, he himself felt a little dizzy, stretched out his hand to support the wall, and did not open his eyes.The footsteps stopped for a while and then continued, followed by the sound of Bai Jintang gently closing the bedroom door.

Time seemed to have completely stopped, Bai Yutang kept his eyes closed and listened, but the room was eerily quiet.He raised his left hand, pressed his thumb and middle finger against his temple and rubbed gently.For the first time, I felt such an asshole.I'm sorry, Bai Jintang.But there is nothing I can do about it.

Bai Jintang sat by the bed, raised his left hand like Bai Yutang, and gently rubbed his temple with his thumb and middle finger.This won't work, absolutely not, but how is this going to end?He vaguely recalled the scene when he saw Zhan Zhao for the first time. The boy with a pale face, his hair wet with cold sweat was sticking to his forehead, his eyelashes swelled up with some moisture, and he smiled sincerely in such pain. Said - sorry for the trouble, thank you, Dr. Bai.

How could it be that day, Yutang forgot to bring the keys to the house?

Is it because I am too late to realize?Gradually, many small details that had been overlooked were gradually remembered. That night, Yutang delivered supper to himself who was working overtime for the first time. After returning home, he fell ill and asked himself when he fell asleep with a high fever——Did your operation go well today?

Everything started so early?Why on earth did Yutang insist on giving up B University and coming to K University?

He raised his head in aimless thoughts and memories, and wanted to lock the door behind him. He didn't want to see Bai Yutang now, so he needed to think about it clearly.But he gave up before standing up, Bai Yutang wouldn't come in at all.They knew each other too well, Bai Yutang would just stand there, waiting for an answer from him.If he hides in the room tonight and doesn't go out, he will stand there all night.

So what should I say?

What else can I say!There is absolutely no room for this thing!Let them break up!Bai Jintang stood up irritably, and retracted his hand before touching the doorknob.How could it be possible to speak? !Say Yutang will agree to break up? !

He had a premonition at first, but he chose to avoid it, as if that sentence would become false if Bai Yutang didn't say it.That afternoon, he almost escaped from his old residence and returned to the office. Multi-party arrangements were made to schedule surgeries on the weekend, and these things could be ignored on the operating table.At night, I lay down and fell asleep when I was tired.Today he finally had to come back, he had a premonition that Bai Yutang might be waiting for him at home, but he wanted to try to avoid the past.

Obviously, Bai Yutang was determined to tell himself this matter.

It makes no sense at all!Although Yutang was disobedient since he was a child, but he was always excellent, why would he make such a ridiculous choice on the biggest thing in his life?He's crazy, he's impulsive, he doesn't know what he's doing!asshole!Forget it if he doesn't know!It's okay if he's ignorant!Zhan Zhao, you don't know either? !Zhan Zhao, you are not sensible? !Why do you rely on him for everything? !Bai Jintang fumbled in his pocket irritably, trying to smoke a cigarette for the first time.

Of course, he didn't touch a cigarette, and there were only two things in his pocket, a driver's license and a wallet.

He suddenly felt that his thoughts just now were ridiculous, why should Zhan Zhao be more sensible than Yutang?Just because he is less than a year older than Yutang?He suddenly realized that he had always liked Zhan Zhao, even at this very moment, he did not reject Zhan Zhao at all because of this matter.

Yes, Zhan Zhao is very good, very good, anyone will like him just by looking at him.But... Bai Jintang looked up at the ceiling, Yutang, you must be crazy, you don't understand what it means.

So, what the hell should we do now?

Bai Yutang didn't know how long he stood there, his legs were numb, he adjusted his center of gravity a little, and leaned against the wall.Putting his hand into his trouser pocket, he touched the phone stuffed inside.For more than two days, Zhan Zhao has not called or sent him a text message.Zhan Xiaomao, don't worry, don't be afraid, you have always been more patient than me.

Bai Jintang, how long are you going to hide in the house?

Bai Jintang, I'm sorry.I know it's useless to say it, but you're the person I'm most sorry for, the only person I'm sorry for, and I know you don't care, but I owe you so much and it's never going to be repaid.Bai Jintang, please don't tell me that you want me to use Zhan Zhao to repay... only this I won't promise you.

Finally, there was the sound of the door opening upstairs, he opened his eyes, and Bai Jintang walked downstairs slowly, carrying a small suitcase in his hand.

The moment Bai Yutang saw the box, his face turned white, and the moment the two of them made eye contact, Bai Jintang turned his gaze away.He couldn't look any further.I'm sorry, Yutang, since I was a child, I will do whatever you want, but this time, I'm sorry.You have never thought about what you will encounter if you go down this road.

He went to the entrance to change his shoes, and explained with difficulty: "Yutang, I'm going to a meeting, and I have an early flight tomorrow morning."

Bai Yutang's voice was ethereal: "I'll see you off tomorrow morning."

Bai Jintang shook his head: "The hospital sent a car, and the flight was scheduled too early, leaving for the airport at five o'clock in the morning. I'll sleep in the office tonight." He reached out to open the door, and when he was about to step out, he heard Bai Yutang say in a low voice: "Brother, don't go."

His whole back stiffened, Bai Jintang stopped for a while holding the box, not daring to look back at Bai Yutang.No, I can't stay at home, I'm afraid I'll lose my mind and say things that hurt you and make demands that you can't accept.Let's all think, at least, let me think.He took a step forward and closed the door behind him.

Bai Yutang stood there for a long time, until the room was completely engulfed by darkness, before he moved in a daze.Holding one position for too long, his legs became sore and numb, he staggered and almost fell.He reached out to support the wall, turned on the light in the entrance, and saw the car keys on the shoe cabinet.Subconsciously picked it up, stretched my legs a little bit, walked out the door after feeling better, found the car in the underground garage, and drove towards the First Municipal Hospital.

When I went out, I found that it was snowing again. Due to the weather, the evening peak traffic was still going on.He moved forward slowly in the crowded traffic, countless red, yellow and yellow car taillights smudged the world in front of him into a dazzling halo, and it took a full hour and a half before he arrived at the gate of the hospital.

He parked the car on the side of the road and got out of the car to buy a pack of cigarettes, when he suddenly realized that he was not wearing a coat or wallet when he came out.Bai Jintang would keep some change in a fixed place in the car for emergencies, he found it out, bought cigarettes and a lighter, and sat in the car to smoke slowly.The hospital's new ward building is just across the road, much taller than the emergency complex at the front. Looking over from his angle, he could just see the window of Bai Jintang's office.

The lights are really on.

He put out the cigarette butt in the ashtray in the car, opened the door and went out.Bai Jintang, I forgot to bring my house keys when I ran out, no matter what I did, you wouldn't have the heart to let me freeze outside all night, would you...

After crossing the road and just entering the gate of the hospital, he turned around and came back.Bai Jintang must really not want to see him, otherwise he wouldn't be so determined to go out.He felt a little wronged, I just fell in love with Zhan Zhao, and I didn't do anything wrong!Leaning against the car door, he lit another cigarette.If he lost the bet, he probably really went too far this time, completely crossing Bai Jintang's bottom line.He thought about all kinds of possibilities, Bai Jintang might directly ask him to separate from Zhan Zhao, he might be silent for a long time, he could even accept being slapped by Bai Jintang.However, no matter what, he didn't expect this result, Bai Jintang actually packed his suitcase and went out without even turning his head.

Bai Jintang, when will you be willing to see me again?

I'm sorry, but I won't break up with Zhan Zhao.I can promise you anything but this.As long as it makes you feel better.

He extinguished the cigarette butt that was almost burned to his finger on the trash can, really forgot to bring the keys, and had nothing on him except the mobile phone, and the mobile phone had only one battery left, and the charger was also at home.I counted the change in the car just now, and there are only a little over 200 in total.He even forgot to bring his driver's license, and if he was caught by the police, he would die.

He stood there blankly for a while. There was a public phone in the shop where he bought cigarettes just now. He went in again and picked up the receiver to dial.Soon someone answered, and Zhan Zhao's voice came over with a little eagerness: "Hello?"

He held the microphone and didn't speak, what should he say?I can't say anything.Originally, I was afraid that Zhan Zhao would wait impatiently for his news, almost subconsciously.