Xi Yin

Chapter 1

The cafeteria of the university is always overcrowded at every meal time. Although most of the students who have passed their first year go out to open up new territories, every year there is a steady stream of ignorant freshmen who still go straight to the cafeteria in the first year, grabbing food on time. seat

Chen Huai squeezed through the crowded crowd with the dinner plate in his hand, moved to the seat occupied by his roommates with dexterity, and heaved a sigh of relief when he put down the plate steadily

Sheng Mingjie glanced at his dinner plate, the rice pile was almost overflowing, almost twice as much as theirs

"Why do you want so much food again, be careful it's not good for your stomach."

Chen Huai smiled and took a bite of the rice

It was Shen Xutian who answered for him.

"I guess I won't eat at night. What you see now are two meals."

Chen Huai nodded, it was a recognition

Sheng Mingjie hesitated, but said

"Although you are in this situation now, you must not save money in this province. How can you save money from your teeth. What if you fall ill now, there is no one to take care of—"

Shen Xutian kicked him under the table, a line of words appeared in his eyes

——Which pot is not opened and which pot is lifted?Only you have a mouth!

Sheng Mingjie knew he had said something wrong, so he closed his mouth

But I saw Chen Huai typing on the phone for a while, and raised the screen at the two of them.

"It'll be fine. I didn't save money, I just went back to the dormitory and didn't want to go out."

Sheng Mingjie hummed and waved at him

"Then you can figure it out yourself."

He also regretted that he had exposed other people's scars on the spur of the moment

During the vacation internship last semester, Chen Huai received a call from the police unprepared and was told that his parents died in a car accident.Of course, they didn't know what happened at that time, they only saw Chen Huai hang up the phone politely, and left the classroom without saying a word.They didn't know until after class that Chen Huai and the counselor had taken leave of absence to catch the flight home that night.They harassed on QQ and WeChat for a long time without getting a reply, and finally learned the truth from the counselor, and finally stopped, thinking that long-distance comfort is useless, so it is better to find a way when they can see each other when school starts.But I didn't expect Chen Huai to be dumb after school started.

There is no problem with the body, but no matter what, Sheng Mingjie checked on the Internet, but only found a similar case. Indeed, some people lost their voice temporarily after encountering a major accident, but I don't know how long this lasted for a while. I don't know if it was cured after all.Chen Huai refuses to go to the hospital by himself, they have nothing to do with him

Zhou Nan, who had been scrolling through Weibo without speaking, suddenly exclaimed, wearing earphones and didn't notice how loud his volume was, which startled a young couple sitting next to him

"Damn it, Shen Zhaogui and Jiang Bowang are married!"

Shen Xutian smiled at him, and said fiercely

"You're so ignorant, same-sex marriage has been allowed for how many years, what are you talking about here?"

"My poor Shen Zhaogui, I found a scumbag, look at this second generation, except for that face, only money, what else does he have? My idol is blind."

The other two laughed

"That's not enough, what else do you want?"

Chen Huai also smiled silently. The girl next to her was blushing when she watched secretly.

"The senior in the architecture department is really nice."

Roommate asked

"Which one do you say?"

"The one who can't talk."

"Oh, Chen Huai, he is very famous in Jianyuan."

Girls are curious and ask

"why?"

"You don't have to ask. He is good-looking and sad. I heard that his parents died not long ago. He is the only one left in the family, and he can't speak because of the shock. Is the configuration of the male second in this idol drama not famous?"

The girl is frowning, showing some sympathy

"Then, since his parents are gone, who will pay for him to study, will he be nervous?"

Roommates don't know too much, just say

"Who knows, there may be other relatives sponsoring it."

The outsiders' discussions are only limited to this level. There may be sympathy and pity, but more of it is nothing to do with him as a talking point, but these are meaningless to Chen Huai

He walked unsteadily towards the dormitory, and threw himself on the bed first when he entered the door, so that he had a real sense of being alive

He is in his late 20s and has no possessions. Two months ago, he naively thought that he had a lot of time to squander. He clearly remembered the last video call with his mother. That night coincided with the beginning of the month. As usual, he was asking for living expenses, and so was his mother as usual. Pass it to him, muttering

"When will I be able to spend your money?"

He joked with a hippie face and replied

"It's still early, at least I have to wait until I graduate. If I go to graduate school, it will take a few years. Or I can keep studying and let my dad keep supporting me."

Mom scolded with a smile

"You're going to kill your dad, silly boy. You think it's easy to make money—"

"I know, just kidding. Mom, when I make money in the future, I will make up my mind and hand it in on time."

He knew his mother's soft-spoken and nagging nature, so he followed her with experience.Of course, this is not empty talk, he really thinks so in his heart, and feels that he will be able to do it one day.

But the most unreliable thing in the world is that one day

It was a very ordinary day, the sky was cloudless and the sun was shining, the teacher was explaining the safety instructions in the classroom, the students were full of interest, and they regarded the next art outing practice as a group trip, and planned on twitter.But when the phone rang suddenly, he seemed to have some kind of strange premonition, so he picked it up without paying attention to the teacher.The moment the voice from the opposite side sounded, there was a soft sound in my heart, the sound of something breaking, clear and hollow

"Is it Chen Huai? This is the police station of Binhe District, City L. Your parents died in a car accident early this morning—"

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"Yeah. I see, thanks."

There was also a light sound when the screen was turned off, and he understood what was broken. It was the blood vessels connecting him and his parents, and they have been broken since then.

He was unexpectedly calm, flew home overnight, and drove the last airport bus straight to the police station. It was the first time in his life that he rode in a police car. The policemen who accompanied him were about the same age as his father, and even in the same shape. They all have shrinking beer bellies and broad and solid backs, so that when he looked over from the back seat, he still felt that all this was an illusion, until he entered the morgue and saw the two cold corpses with his own eyes.

Their faces were serene, apart from the scary white faces, they really seemed to be asleep, but he knew it was not, if they were really asleep, his father would never be so quiet, there was no loud snoring, no great movement turning over, not to mention the ups and downs of the chest

Someone asked him to choose a shroud, and he chose two solid-colored ones. His parents were safe and decent when they were alive, and they shouldn't be too fancy when they're dead.When the freezer was opened, there was a burst of cold air, he stroked his parents' cheeks, thinking

——It’s really cold, my parents are lying here, sleeping peacefully

After a long time, maybe not too long, the police officer handed him a kraft paper file bag, which contained the death certificates of his parents and the canceled household registration book. On it, the head of the household became himself

He took it and stood on his feet but refused to leave. The police officer could only let him go.

That night, he sat with his parents all night. Usually, he felt that the night was long. When studying, drawing, and making models, he wished that the time would run out in the blink of an eye, but that day, for the first time, he felt that the time was too short Come

It seems that the two faces were pushed into the stove after not looking at them for a long time, and they were completely burned by the fire.

The belated relatives and friends gathered at home for a long time, and the contacts accumulated by Dad half his life came in handy at this time. The adults knew that he was uncomfortable, and they skipped him to hold a funeral for the two of them, filled a new grave, and the house was full of guests. Go, burn two sticks of incense in a hurry, add some money to the book of favors, and say a few words of useless comfort to him, and leave with the utmost benevolence. opened mouth

It wasn't that he didn't say anything on purpose, it was just that he suddenly lost the desire to speak.hope, feel more tired than ever

After everyone cleared up, he closed the doors and windows and slept for a whole day and night

After waking up again, the protective shell was smashed by the tedious reality, turning to various government agencies, signing various certificates and procedures, transferring the ownership of the parents’ house, receiving accident insurance compensation, handling inheritance... and then going The property shut down the water and electricity after two months, stopped the parking space,

These matters that he had never been involved in for 20 years suddenly flooded into his life, and he grew up at that moment, realizing that he already had an adult status in society as early as his 18th birthday. It's just that my parents have been relying on me before and after, and I never noticed it.

He has a considerable sum of money in his card, but he is not at ease in his heart. The string of numbers in his card seems to carry the weight and temperature of his parents' lives. Seeing that the traces they left in this world also faded, it made him flustered for no reason.

But when he lived alone, he realized that in this city, money is like sand in his hands. The tighter he squeezes, the faster the flow. He feels helpless and panic all over his body, and is almost overwhelmed by these emotions

Uncle Wang knocked on his door when he was most desperate, and supported him forcefully and considerately.

"Xiaohuai, I went out a few days ago, and I missed your parents' funeral. Don't take offense."

Chen Huai nodded first, then shook his head, trying to say that he was not to blame, but found that he was speechless

Uncle Wang saw that his face was flushed from the suffocation, but he only opened his mouth but did not move at all, so he felt that something was wrong, so he stretched out his hand to touch his forehead

"What's the matter? Have you caught a cold recently?"

The skin under the palm was cold, and there was nothing wrong with it, but the child had lost a lot of weight after not seeing him for a few days, and he looked tired and haggard with blue and black eyes. He was worried, and immediately dragged him to the hospital

After some examinations, it was confirmed that there was no physical problem. The doctor attributed the inability to speak to psychological reasons

Uncle Wang frowned, and said for a while

"You can take a leave of absence next semester, and I will help you tell the counselor. Let's get well first and then go to school."

Chen Huai shook his head and typed on his mobile phone to show him

"No, I don't need to speak in class and exams, I'm fine."

The high-heeled shoes in the aisle rang from far to near. It was Uncle Wang's wife who came in a hurry. This woman who has always been exquisite didn't even have makeup on today. She grabbed Chen Huai and blamed her as soon as she came

"Why didn't you tell me when you couldn't bear it? Auntie always thought that there should be some relatives to accompany you. Why did they all run away and rely on you these days? It's too shameful!"

Chen Huai typed and held up the phone

"It's okay, I can handle it myself."

Auntie frowned even tighter, and her tone softened unconsciously.

"You really can't talk anymore?"

Uncle Wang answered from the side

"Well. It's a psychological problem. Tell him not to go to school, and stay with us for a while, and he will go after heals up."

When Uncle Wang saw him shaking his head, his tone became more severe.

"Based on the friendship between me and your dad for so many years, I can't let you go back! If your dad is still alive, can you let me do this?"

Chen Huai couldn't stop shaking his head, his hands were busy typing, his eyes turned red at some point, and he almost burst into tears when he was shocked by these words

"I have already paid my tuition fees, so I have to go. I can't waste my dad's money. Thank you, Uncle Wang, but I really can't stay"

Looking at this stubborn child, Uncle Wang understood somewhat. The money left by the parents is a fixed number, and the child must be flustered. He softened his tone.

"I know, you don't want to waste money and have the same temperament as your mother. But you are still young, and your body is important. How about this, Uncle Wang will pay you the tuition and treatment expenses for the past few years, calculate the interest, and you will pay it back to me later. OK no?"

Auntie nodded hurriedly at the side. With their family background, they don't really care about the little money, and with their parents' friendship, they can't abandon him.

"That's right, don't worry about these things, I'll leave them all to you, Uncle Wang."

Chen Huai was a little distracted at that moment, how many times he had said the familiar words

"In the future, when I make money, I will definitely save money every morning and evening, and hand it in on time!"

how many times have you heard

"You just need to study, and Dad will take care of the rest."

However, an ordinary rise and fall in the past, this will never come again, he feels that this word has no credibility in him, he can't trust others, let alone himself

he typed a line

"Uncle Wang, I'm an adult, and I should solve these things by myself. If my dad knows that I have caused you trouble like this, he will definitely blame me. Don't worry, if I have any questions, I will contact you first, and I won't force myself hold on."

Auntie stroked his hair, but didn't say anything

They are all children who grew up carefree since childhood. She has matured a lot due to sudden changes. She is very pleased, but more distressed

Uncle Wang looked at the stubborn light in those eyes for a long time, knowing that he had the same temper as his father and could only be defeated

"Fine. Up to you."

When we parted at the airport a few days later, Uncle Wang sent him a number

"Do you still remember Uncle Qin in City C? He is also one of our comrades-in-arms. We had the best relationship when we were young. We have been far apart these years but we are not alienated. You children may not be clear. I asked him to take care of you for a while, you After arriving in City C, I went to Uncle Qin’s house for two days every weekend, and he arranged for a doctor to show you. I’ve already told him, so I must remember to go.”

Before entering the security check, Chen Huai turned around and took a deep look

There are so many people coming and going, staggering, high-spirited, with lowered eyebrows and narrowed eyes, but this figure alone seems to be plated with gold, and the eyebrows cannot be seen clearly, but it is like an upright pole, which is the same as that of the father , the bearing of an adult, that is the sense of responsibility that he has not yet possessed, but is extremely enviable, attracting his attention in the afterglow of the setting sun

The author has something to say: Before writing this article, I want to give you an anime called Honey and Clover

This anime expresses the illusory things like the confusion and secret love in college very well, and it is super beautiful

This article is to imitate that anime to express these things, not just love, it will be a bit slow

Please support me a lot, thank you——