Just like a dream

Chapter 15

The sports meeting ended at three o'clock in the afternoon, and the teacher announced that school was over after finishing the weekend homework. It was the first time that Qin Fu did not wait for Li Musheng after school, and walked out of the school directly, avoiding the butler who was waiting to pick them up at the school gate, and took a taxi. up the city center.

On the 23rd floor of Yuxin Plaza, there is a gay bar called Yizhan Deng, which is open all night. Qin Fu heard the girls in his class talk about it. He wanted to know what homosexuality is, and the fastest and most direct way was to go there.

Qin Fu's instinctive aversion to homosexuality, if possible, he would rather not get to know that group for the rest of his life, but Li Musheng said he was, and Qin Fu wanted to figure out what kind of person would be.

A lamp is different from its elegant name. The music inside is very loud and the lights are very dim. The scattered lights of the whole bar may not be able to spell out a lamp.

The darkness gave enough charm, and the young men took off the masks they were forced to wear in order to integrate into society, and hid in it.

Some people kissed at night, some dressed as the opposite sex, and sang in the center of the stage, and more people raised their glasses and swayed and cheered to the singing.

Qin Fu didn't like this kind of environment, and even more hated the feeling of physical contact with strangers anytime, anywhere on the dance floor. He hid in the corner of the bar, ordered a glass of wine as a decoration and placed it in front of him, looking at the strange man who hit it off not far away.

This is not where I should be.

Qin Fu thought.

This is not the place for that person to come.

Qin Fu touched the rim of the wine glass, pursed his lips into a straight line, and looked sternly at the couple who had just exchanged a kiss. They seemed to love each other very much. One of them put his arm around the other's waist and whispered.

In this kind of place, there seems to be no difference between kissing and exchanging business cards. They are both common etiquette after strangers meet for the first time.

"Han Shuang..." Qin Fu wanted to chew the name of the person being embraced between his teeth.

24 hours ago, this person was still at school tenderly confessing to Li Musheng, and 24 hours later, he appeared in a messy bar, behaving intimately with a man he just met.

Han Shuang didn't seem to like being hugged at the waist very much, and the intimacy disappeared in an instant. Han Shuang angrily pushed the other party away, sank into the dance floor, and soon disappeared.

"It's like this in this circle. One moment you're in bed, and the next moment you're old and dead."

Qin Fu turned around and saw a seductive man sitting next to him at some point, which gave him a chill.

"You can call me Buck, number 0," the man said.This is of course a false name, and those who only dare to be active in the dark night naturally dare not use their real names.

"A person lives up to his name." Although Qin Fu didn't understand what the man meant by number 0, in order to understand the people hiding in this bar, he still maintained basic politeness, got up and left immediately without following his heart open.

Buck stroked his blond hair, smiled at Qin Fu and said, "Then would you like to buy me a drink?"

Qin Fu didn't understand what Buck meant, and pushed the wine glass in front of him: "This glass is for you. I'm still a high school student, and this glass has never been touched."

Buck approached, and didn't dislike Qin Fu, took the wine glass in his hand, but didn't really drink it: "It doesn't matter if you are a high school student, do you want to be together tonight?"

Qin Fu has fair skin and looks very sunny, like a sports student in a white T-shirt in a youth novel. Buck thought he had earned it.

Qin Fu shook his head: "I'm not here for pleasure."

Buck nodded. In the circle, what you like is what you want. When Qin Fu refused, he no longer insisted. Looking around at those of his kind who had already searched for the place tonight, he said to Qin Fu, "You look very confused."

"I was just thinking, what kind of people are you?" Qin Fu asked.

Buck's expression froze for a while, and he smiled after a while: "People in this circle are one kind of people during the day and another kind of people at night. People here may be teachers, executives, students, and workers during the day, and they are other people. Sons, subordinates... maybe even fathers, husbands, but at night, they become the people you see now..."

Qin Fu gradually clenched his fists.

Is this what homosexuality looks like?Selfish, cowardly, unbearable, like a mouse in the gutter, who can't even see the light?

Li Musheng will also become like this in the future, pretending to be a gentleman during the day, and wandering around in sensual places and following different men home at night?

Thinking of this, Qin Fu's hands clenched into fists couldn't stop shaking, and he slammed hard at the bar table.

The singing in the bar is too loud, it can cover the hustle and bustle of the world, and naturally it can also cover the melancholy of a teenager.No one else noticed the movement of the bar except Buck.

Buck stretched out his hand to cover Qin Fu's slightly red fist because it hit the table. After all, he couldn't bear it, and said to him: "The circle is the circle, but not everyone is in the circle. There are gods who have been in love for more than ten years Couples, there are bystanders who have come out but are unwilling to contact with the same kind and choose to be alone, and there are also guides who tear off their masks and are active in various public welfare and rights organizations. It is not the society or the circle that determines who you are. yourself."

Qin Fu looked up silently, took his hand away from Buck, and put it in his pocket.

Soon a man came over, stood next to Buck and whispered a few words, Buck immediately got up and waved to Qin Fu, and left with a smile on his arm.

There are so many great principles to talk about. When it's my turn, don't I muddle along and go with the flow?Qin Fu felt bored, so he got up and walked out the door.

When he got to the door, a large crowd of people suddenly poured in outside the bar. Qin Fu went out against the crowd, feeling someone touched him. Qin Fu turned his head in displeasure, and saw a man winking at him.

"Brother, the bar is not fun. I'll take you to something interesting." Seeing Qin Fu noticing him, the man immediately clung to him, separated from his companions who came in together, and followed Qin Fu.

"No." Qin Fu quickened his pace, pressed the button on the first floor of the elevator, trying to get rid of the man, but the man completely ignored Qin Fu's resistance, and followed Qin Fu into the elevator.

The elevator door closed, forming a small secret room. The man quickly moved over, trying to grab Qin Fu's hand.

Qin Fu glanced at the surveillance camera on the elevator, held back his temper and broke free.But the man didn't appreciate it, and asked with a smile on his face: "It seems that you are still a baby, and you don't know what it's like."

With a beep, the elevator reached the first floor, and Qin Fu walked out quickly, followed by the man, looking like he was chasing after him.Qin Fu couldn't bear it anymore, and greeted the man with a punch in the face.

Qin Fu was just 19 years old, and he was still a strong high school student who had learned self-defense since elementary school.The man wandered around in circles, his insides had already been hollowed out by wine, and he had almost no strength to fight back in front of Qin Fu, and fell to the ground after a few punches.

"Fucking gay, you fucking dare to touch me, dare to touch me!" Qin Fu was suffocated by the whole circle he saw tonight. Qin Fu was already terrified, afraid that Li Musheng would become the Han Shuang that he saw tonight Or what that guy named Buck looked like.At this moment, the man who was chasing Qin Fu shattered Qin Fu's last trace of reason. He rode on the opponent, waved his fists wildly, and hit the opponent's face.

A group of people quickly gathered on the street in the downtown area, who did not know who called the police, and soon the police arrived and brought Qin Fu.

Li Musheng was Qin Fu who met at the police station.

The butler received the call and immediately drove Li Musheng to pick up Qin Fu.Because of Qin Yehua's relationship, the police did not detain Qin Fu, but only asked him to write a self-criticism.Hearing that Qin Fu was only a high school student with a good family background, the man himself had ghosts in his heart, afraid of being retaliated in the future, so he didn't dare to take the compensation, Li Musheng had disappeared without a trace before arriving at the police station.

When Li Musheng arrived, Qin Fu sat on the bench with his elbows propped on his knees. He lowered his head and didn't know what he was thinking. Why are you fighting with someone all of a sudden?"

Qin Fu didn't say a word, Li Musheng grabbed Qin Fu's hand and pulled it into his arms: "Brother, are you injured? Your hand is broken."

"The one who hit someone didn't control the force well." Qin Fu finally spoke, still keeping his head down and not going to Li Musheng.

Li Musheng looked at the back of Qin Fu's bloody hand, and put aside the quarrel with Qin Fu the day before yesterday. He felt so distressed that he blew on Qin Fu's broken joint: "Brother, you are so good, you can't miss it Hitting someone for no reason, what happened?"

Qin Fu fell into silence, and asked after a long time, "Xiao Sheng, do you like brother?"

Li Musheng's face turned red immediately when his thoughts were exposed without warning, but Qin Fu still kept his head down and couldn't see his expression.

"Brother, where did you come to this conclusion?" Li Musheng asked.

"Didn't you secretly write me a...love letter before?"

"Love letter? What love letter?" Li Musheng was taken aback, how could he have the guts.

Qin Fu felt that something was wrong, and said after deliberation: "It's the one in your textbook during the Chinese New Year..."

"Eh?" Li Musheng recalled carefully, and suddenly became enlightened as if he was struck by lightning, but he didn't dare to speak out directly about his selfishness in hiding Xia Jingjing's love letter, so he only excused, "You are talking about Xia Jingjing asking me to The love letter for you? She asked me to pass it on to you, but I forgot...Brother, why do you think I wrote it to you?"

Qin Fu was stunned. Under normal circumstances, he should really think that it was Li Musheng who handed it over for others. How could he think so hard that it was Li Musheng who gave it to him?

"She didn't write a signature, I thought..." Xia Jingjing's character is reckless, it should be no surprise to her that she forgets to sign a love letter, Qin Fu rubbed the tip of her nose, "Xiao Sheng, I'm sorry, brother misunderstood. "

Li Musheng heaved a sigh of relief, feeling as if he had escaped from the sky.

Fortunately, Qin Fu didn't suspect that he liked him, otherwise wouldn't even his family be able to do it?

The doubts that had plagued him for a long time were finally resolved. Qin Fu felt that he should be happy, but his heart was still blocked.Maybe it's because, whether Li Musheng likes him or not, he still likes boys. What Qin Fu saw and heard in the gay bar tonight has completely disappointed him to the extreme.If Li Musheng will definitely like others, then he might as well like himself, at least he will not hurt him.

"Little Sheng, promise me something..." Qin Fu finally raised his head and looked at Li Musheng. Under the light of the lights in the corridor of the police station, Li Musheng realized that Qin Fu's face was full of tears.

"Don't be gay, okay?"

Li Musheng reached out to wipe away Qin Fu's tears, gritted his teeth and shook his head.

"Brother, I can't do it."

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The 19-year-old Qin Fu thought, I will never hurt Xiaosheng, and I will protect him, but he never thought that the 31-year-old himself would hurt Li Musheng to the point of utter disfigurement.

Buck means playboy, so Qin Fu said that Buck lived up to his name.