Just like a dream

Chapter 36

When Li Musheng woke up the next day, Han Shuang had already come back from the outside and brought him breakfast.Li Musheng thanked him, and Han Shuang smiled indifferently: "I have something to do at work early this morning, and I just went back to finish my business, and I bought some things for you by the way, so you don't mind it."

Han Shuang's work is much harder than Li Musheng imagined. Although weekends are nominally off, the company has to go there whenever the company needs. Han Shuang worked overtime last night until the early morning, and has to work again early this morning.

Li Musheng felt that it would be too much trouble for Han Shuang to go out with him to get a phone card. He is not a teenage high school student, so he needs friends to accompany him wherever he goes.

Han Shuang shook her head and said that she had agreed yesterday, and she couldn't be free anyway.Then he explained to Li Musheng that he had to finish his work immediately when he was in a hurry, but when he was free, he was really free. He was fishing for four hours at work, so he didn't have to worry about himself.

Li Musheng found it unbelievable. He worked overtime non-stop until nine o'clock in the evening to saddle Qin Fu. He couldn't imagine that there were people in the world who could spend half of their working hours fishing.

Originally, getting a new phone card was Li Musheng's sudden impulse last night, but after waking up in the morning, he thought about it carefully and thought it was a good opportunity to say goodbye to the past.The new calling card seemed to give him a brand new identity, so that those old people who wanted to contact or didn't want to contact him could no longer find him.

After getting a new phone card, Li Musheng thought about it, decided to cancel the previous one, and then registered a brand new social account, planning to start a new life.

Han Shuang became friends with him, and then pushed Xia Jingjing's business card to Li Musheng.Li Musheng had been busy for a long time, and after realizing that he had given up on Qin Fu's life, Han Shuang and Xia Jingjing were the only people in his social circle.During the period from university to graduate school, there is not even a friend who can continue to contact after the unavoidable intersection has passed.

After everything was over, Li Musheng found a restaurant to treat Han Shuang to dinner, and then took a taxi back to his residence.

The community was too old, and Li Musheng was a little embarrassed. Han Shuang saw the other party's crampedness, and told him that it was much better than the place he borrowed in high school.

Li Musheng took advantage of the opportunity to ask him about his affairs after graduating from high school, and Han Shuang briefly talked about it.

Han Shuang went back to the capital to take the college entrance examination. She got into a good school and studied engineering. After that, she took the postgraduate entrance examination for two years and was admitted to a leading state-owned enterprise. She entered the headquarters through her family connections. After that, her career went smoothly. , has now achieved the position of deputy director.

Han Shuang then asked about Li Musheng's situation.

Li Musheng shook his head and said, "It's not as good as Mr. Han. I studied computer science, and I didn't continue to engage in professional-related work after finishing my graduate studies. I worked as a life assistant for my ex-boyfriend in Sheng'an for several years, and I was fired two days ago."

Li Musheng thought, in Han Shuang's eyes, he must be no different from those wives who rely on their husbands to marry into wealthy families. They only know how to revolve around their husbands and children, and they have completely forgotten about their life pursuits.

Not everyone in this world is lucky enough to meet an irreplaceable other half. Li Musheng met but soon had to lose it. There was no room for redemption. He could only keep immersing himself in memories and was unwilling to look forward.

It wasn't until recently that he realized that he was really ridiculous. Qin Fu's untimely devotion not only disgusted Qin Fu, but also sacrificed himself.Li Musheng also had ideals and pursuits before. He wanted to stay in school to teach and educate people, do some research, and engage in some projects, so as to become a person who can speak with strength in the field.But then there was nothing left, he was only fantasizing and praying that he and Qin Fu could go back to the past.

He also thought about what his current life would be like without Cui Yuming's escape.I have probably finished my graduate studies and stayed in school to be a teacher. Qin Fu will be his CEO during the day and his 24-hour good husband at night.Happiness and security are so far away that it sounds like a fairy tale.

But fairy tales are always only half told, and no one will tell fairy tales to the end.

He realized in a daze that the fairy tale he wanted to save could actually come to an abrupt end right now.

Li Musheng took Han Shuang into the room, introduced the layout of the house to him, then opened the refrigerator and let Han Shuang choose drinks by himself, and went into the bedroom to pack clothes by himself.

After opening the closet, Li Musheng's eyes fell on the photos hidden in the closet.

He touched the papers that were beginning to be worn out at the edges, thought for a while, and stuffed them back into the depths of the closet. He only took out a photo frame with a photo of himself and Qin Fu, and placed it on the bedside. I looked at it again and found it unnecessary, so I turned it upside down again.

Han Shuang followed in with a can of Sprite, saw the group photo upside down on the bed, and asked Li Musheng: "We have already broken up, can you still not let him go?" He could guess without looking at the content of the photo. What will happen in the photo.After all these years, Li Musheng is still the same as when he was a teenager, a blank sheet of paper with emotions written all over his face.

Li Musheng shook his head, he didn't know whether he wanted to express that he couldn't let go, or he didn't care anymore.

"Can you tell me what happened in these years?" Han Shuang asked.

Li Musheng continued to shake his head, Han Shuang stopped asking in time, and said that if he wanted to confide in himself in the future, he would listen to it anytime.

It's not that Li Musheng didn't want to tell Han Shuang, but he was afraid that he would shed tears when he talked about it. He couldn't afford to lose this man at his age.

He has been wronged these years, but as long as he thinks of Qin Fu's hardships in running around for the livelihood of the two of them, Li Musheng really has no way to resent Qin Fu.

The days of staring at the meter and turning on the air conditioner did not finally start to improve until Qin Fu started a business with Cui Yuming after graduating from graduate school and earned his first sum of money.

The company was not easy to start. No one in the business circle in City A knew Qin Fu. The two young people with no rights and no money could hardly move a single step. In order to get a sponsorship, they had to go all out to drink every night.

Li Musheng remembered that Qin Fu came back drunk every day for a while, and several times when Qin Fu vomited while holding the toilet, Li Musheng felt that he saw blood in it.

Qin Fu always told him not to worry, study hard, and envision a bright future for Li Musheng.

Li Musheng hid in Qin Fu's arms, crying and said that it is really impossible to bow to Qin Yehua, they are not together anymore.

Qin Fu buried his head in Li Musheng's neck, took a few deep breaths, and said to him, "As long as you're here, there's nothing you can't get over."

Later, the company got a big sponsorship. On the same day, Qin Fu went to school to pick up Li Musheng home, showed him the accounts, and said excitedly: "In the future, you can study hard at ease, and I will also do a good job in the company and fight hard. Qin Yehua's face."

Then Qin Fu took out a small box from his arms, handed it to Li Musheng, and said, "Little Sheng, although the company is starting to make money now, it still needs a lot of capital investment. I don't have much money in my hand. I want to propose to you. You can buy it." I can’t afford a good ring. After thinking about it, I went to the studio and made a pair myself. It’s not precious metal, so I owe it first.” In Qin Fu’s eyes, there is no difference between a ring worth tens of dollars or thousands of dollars. I want to give Li Musheng the best. If I can't give it, I will give it to the most caring one first. It's better than taking a few thousand yuan of cheap goods to make do with.

"Will you give me a chance to be with me forever?"

Li Musheng's face was covered with tears, and he stretched out his hand to ask Qin Fu to put it on for him.

"After I put it on, I won't take it off, even if you ask me to take it off." Li Musheng kept wiping his tears with his other hand, his eyes were blocked by tears, and he could hardly see Qin Fu's expression clearly.

"In the future, I will find a top international designer to redesign and use the best materials to remake one for you."

Qin Fu put the ring on for him, put the other one in the box into Li Musheng's hand, and said, "Now it's your turn to wear it for me."

Li Musheng cried so much that his hands were shaking, and he tried several times before putting the ring on Qin Fu's finger.Qin Fu kissed Li Musheng and told him not to cry, but Li Musheng found that Qin Fu also had tears in his eyes.

"But brother, I really feel so happy now, but also so scared that one day you will regret it."

"What do I regret?"

"I'm afraid you will regret that you gave up your original life because you were with me."

"Then will you regret it?" Qin Fu asked Li Musheng.

Li Musheng shook his head: "Being with you is something I can't even imagine."

"Me too." Qin Fu said, "Being with you is something I can't even imagine. Without you, I can't even imagine how I would come here in the past ten years."

Li Musheng thought for a while, and put Qin Fu's ring from his pocket on the bedside table, next to the upside-down photo frame.

"If you had chosen me back then, you might have been happier than you are now," Han Shuang said.

Li Musheng laughed and said, "Will you come out at home?"

Han Shuang hesitated for a moment: "My dad won't accept it. Not marrying a third party during the relationship is the only promise I can make to my partner." He is no longer a teenager. If it was ten years ago, Han Shuang might really make a big fuss with his family because of someone, but now he has too many scruples, he can't bear his future, he can't let go of his status, and he can't accept being the object of criticism.

"So if we were together back then, I wouldn't be happier than I am now."

Han Shuang said: "I mean, we will break up after being together for about a year or two, and the relationship will not last until now. You will date many people, and you will not hang yourself on a tree like now. Qin Fu and You will always be a brother, and he will go through fire and water for you, just like in high school, whoever bullies you, he will fight to the death, and whoever fails you, he will punish the other person to death. But he must be the only one in your life exist, so you go your separate ways..."

"Stop talking." Li Musheng became sad.

What Han Shuang said was not unreasonable. If Qin Fu hadn't crossed the line at the beginning, he would have secretly kept his crush on Qin Fu in his heart, and maybe he would agree to try it with Han Shuang.Master Han Shuang has a temper and loves to play, the two will soon have conflicts, and they will break up after a few years.I will also talk about different love affairs later, Qin Fu will always be there, blessing my love, and I will always stand where I am, also silently blessing Qin Fu's love.

But that would only weaken and lengthen his pain, and put it into a long period of time - he would always torture himself in the pain of not getting Qin Fu.

"I don't regret it." Li Musheng said, "I will never be able to love anyone the way I love him, and I will never meet anyone who loves me like he once did."