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Chapter 22 Don't be afraid.

Jiang Nanhui smiled at Cen Hanluo, with a calm and frank look on his face, nodded and said, "It's fine."

Half of his brows were raised, and Cen Hanluo's expression was a little joyful, and he replied: "Yo—"

Jiang Nanhui covered his mouth with the back of his hand, and asked with a suppressed smile, "What are you doing?"

"It's nothing." Raising his hand to press Jiang Nanhui's shoulder, Cen Han said in a relieved voice, "The rest is not important, let's continue with our work."

The third floor of the shopping mall sells women's clothing and handbags, and the fifth floor sells bedding. Jiang Nanhui first accompanied Cen Hanluo to choose bags for An Ran. The two big men were dazzled by the selection.

Cen Hanluo suffered from difficulty in choosing again: "This bag is very suitable for Miss An Ran, but I am a little unsure whether it looks better in haze blue or mint green?"

The staff enthusiastically said: "If you like it, you can buy both."

One is three thousand and six, two are seven thousand and two. These are not bath towels that cost more than ten yuan a piece. Seeing that Cen Hanluo seemed to have this intention, Jiang Nanhui quickly dispelled his thoughts and helped him make a choice: "Smog blue color."

Cen Hanluo asked: "Are you sure?"

"Sure." Jiang Nanhui said uncertainly, "There is no such blue bag in her bag."

Jiang Nanhui felt sorry for Cen Hanluo when he swiped his card for more than 3000 yuan, and asked, "How much is your monthly salary?"

Cen Hanluo replied: "More than 7000 points, I don't know the exact number, the credit card will be automatically repaid when the account arrives, and I haven't paid much attention to it."

Jiang Nanhui said: "This time, half a month's salary is gone, what if it is not enough for life in the future?"

"What else can I do." Cen Hanluo said confidently, "Didn't Sister An Ran tell you? "My brother should take care of my younger brother." If you have nothing to eat, I will rub you against you. "

Jiang Nanhui: "..."

After buying the bag, he went up to the fifth floor, carefully visited each store, and made countless comparisons. Under the guidance and advice of Cen Hanluo, Jiang Nanhui made up his mind, selected a pair of latex pillows, and then transferred to import The nutritional products section bought two boxes of protein///powder.

The task was completed, and the two ordered two ramen noodles in the food court, one meat and one vegetarian.Cen Hanluo didn't eat much at night, so when the meal was ready, he took the noodles from his own bowl into a small bowl, added a vegetable leaf, added some soup, and brought it warm to Jiang Nanhui's hand.

Taking a sip of the noodles, Cen Hanluo said in satisfaction, "It's so delicious, you should try mine."

Jiang Nanhui asked worriedly: "Do you really have enough to eat?"

"Enough." Cen Hanluo said, "It is very happy to be able to eat delicious food, and the happiest thing is to have someone to share delicious food with."

When Jiang Nanhui heard this, he immediately put a large piece of beef into Cen Hanluo's bowl, and he also wanted to be the happiest person.

Carrying big and small bags home, sweating all over from exhaustion, Jiang Nanhui felt satisfied, inexplicably at ease in his heart, thinking that he had finally done the right thing.There were gifts bought for his parents on the coffee table, and the mobile phone was twirling between his fingers. Jiang Nanhui hesitated for a long time, thinking about it, but still didn't dare to dial the number at home.

What do you say after dialing it?Should I apologize first, or explain first?Jiang Nanhui supported his forehead, if his parents' attitude was too cold, would he retreat?

From the day after buying the presents, Jiang Nanhui became more and more anxious as time went by.This kind of uneasiness is difficult to control. He even practiced his facial expressions, tone, and attitude when communicating with his parents in front of the mirror, telling himself to be calm and patient, and not to be as paranoid as he was when he came out of the closet.

Soon, the Mid-Autumn Festival is here.

NO.19 Early in the morning, Jiang Nanhui packed the presents into a suitcase, and carried the ones that couldn't fit in his hands, and brought two changes of clothes with him.Since Cen Hanluo had to go on a business trip on the 21st, and had to return to Pennsylvania tomorrow night, Cen Hanluo went out lightly, carrying a canvas bag, no different from going to work.

Both of them looked relaxed, but in fact, Jiang Nanhui's heart was not relaxed, and every step he took was a little heavy.Arriving at the Penn State High-Speed ​​Railway Station by taxi, he pulled the suitcase through the ticket hall, and sat in the waiting room after the security check. Jiang Nanhui held the lever, puffed out his cheeks and exhaled deeply.

Cen Hanluo asked: "Are you nervous?"

Jiang Nanhui answered honestly: "Nervous."

"Being nervous is because you care." Cen Hanluo said, "Since you care, you should be more attentive and diligent, and try to make up for the ignorance in the past."

Jiang Nanhui looked into Cen Hanluo's eyes, nodded and said, "Okay, I will."

The broadcast reminded passengers going to Jingnan City that they were about to check their tickets and enter the station. The two followed the flow of people through the ticket gate, boarded the platform and entered the carriage.After storing the luggage and sitting side by side, Jiang Nanhui looked at the bustling crowd outside the car window, leaning on the back of the chair uneasily.

Not long after, the train started slowly, the platform gradually withdrew from view, and the scenery outside was replaced by tall buildings in the city.Jiang Nanhui silently admired the scenery, and stroked his palm with retracted fingertips. At this moment, someone poked the back of his hand lightly.

Jiang Nanhui turned his head, Cen Hanluo raised the earphones and asked, "Listen?"

Jiang Nanhui responded: "Listen."

Cen Hanluo asked again: "Do you want to listen to music, or listen to my storytelling?"

Jiang Nanhui replied simply: "Listen to your story."

The body leaned towards Cen Hanluo, and Cen Hanluo leaned towards Jiang Nanhui, both of them saw each other's face.Cen Hanluo slightly bent his eyes, and his pure and clean smile reminded Jiang Nanhui of the bouquet of daisies and baby's breath he received on his birthday.

"Do you still remember that I told you that I was in a very bad mood on the day of the seventh cram school?" Cen Hanluo said softly, "On that day, you bought me my favorite green tea drink .”

"Remember." Jiang Nanhui didn't dare to forget, and he didn't want to forget again, "Why were you in a bad mood that day? Mind telling me?"

Cen Han turned his head back, closed his eyes and fell into memories.After a while, he opened his eyes and said calmly: "My biological father died when I was 14 years old. He suffered from pancreatic cancer."

Jiang Nanhui frowned slightly, and Cen Hanluo paused for a few seconds: "When he was first diagnosed, he had a chance to have an operation, but my father hid his illness from us. The family has no money, and he is unwilling to sell the house for medical treatment. My mother and I had no place to live, and the house in the country couldn’t be sold for much money, so he kept carrying it until he was in so much pain that he couldn’t hold on any longer.”

Cen Han lowered his eyelids and looked peaceful, but Jiang Nanhui could feel the sadness in his heart, even though his father had left him for a long time.Cen Hanluo pursed his lips and continued: "I love my father very much. Although he is from the countryside, his family is poor, he has no education, and his education level is not high, but he always leaves the best for me and my father. Mom, we haven't been wronged at all."

"My father's greatest expectation for me is that I can grow up happily, start a family, marry a wife and have children, and live to old age in health and safety." Cen Hanluo said, "Until he died of illness, he still only had this A wish."

"I was in a bad mood that day, because during that time I began to realize that I was different from other boys." Cen Hanluo said, "I don't know why I don't like girls, even if they are girls I admire. In front of me, I don’t feel anything at all.”

"And that day was also the anniversary of my father's death. Before dawn, my mother and I went to visit his grave. I knelt in front of his tombstone, and suddenly felt that I could no longer face him calmly."

"I'm the only one left in the Cen family." Cen Hanluo sighed slightly, "My childhood was very happy. My dad treated me so well that he didn't even bother me. He never asked me for anything, but, "Get married and start a business." , Marry a wife and have children", things that most people can do...but I can't. "

"I was surrounded by a huge sense of guilt and guilt, and I got along with my classmates carefully, for fear that everyone would find out that I was a "different". "Cen Hanluo said, "But what I fear most is that my mother will disappoint me. She always said that I am her pride and confidence, and can make her stronger and stronger. "

"If my mother doesn't understand and accept me, I..." Cen Hanluo frowned, "She is the person I love the most. No matter what, I can't lose her. I can't bear this kind of result."

"That's why when the cram school is about to end, I will ask you in desperation, "If I feel that I have done something wrong to my family, I dare not face them, and I am afraid that they will never forgive me, what should I do?" "

Eyebrows stretched, Cen Hanluo turned his head to look at Jiang Nanhui, and said, "I got an answer from you, an answer that allows me to make up my mind, no longer struggle, be confused, stop, and take this step bravely."

Jiang Nanhui stared at Cen Hanluo motionlessly, reluctant to look away.

"After I finished the cram school, I mustered up the courage to tell my mother the fact that I am gay." Cen Hanluo said, "It took her more than a month to digest this matter, she was stunned and flustered, but It was more of worry and distress, and in the end, she chose to accept and agree."

"You're right, Nan Hui." Cen Hanluo said with a smile, "It's true."

"So don't be afraid, uncles and aunts will also accept and agree with you."

Cen Hanluo told the other party verbatim the words Jiang Nanhui told him when he was 16 years old, and said firmly: "Because the person who truly loves you will tolerate everything about you."

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