Bending and running?no way!

Chapter 39

Qi Yuan never went into that room again.

Liang He'an was the same as before, even if Qi Yuan observed carefully, he still couldn't see any anti-human traits from that person.

Qi Yuan always tried to persuade himself to just muddle through, not to think about these messy things.However, he began to be plagued by nightmares.

Dreams are mostly similar.

He was in a pool of deep blue water, and the light of stars like fireflies could be faintly seen in the distance.There is a powerful force urging him to catch them.He tried to swim, and the muscles in his arms and thighs became sore, but the harder he tried, the colder the water became, and finally it became ice-like. The temperature became more and more viscous, so he could only watch the firefly-like The starlight is getting farther and farther away, but he is trapped in place and cannot move.

In his dreams, he was often surprised that he could breathe in such a space.Although the lungs are squeezed and the breath is very weak, it still breeds a small wave of gratitude.

Embarrassment, powerlessness, a little bit of hope, and boundless confusion...

At the end of the dream, without exception, it ends with all kinds of Liang Hean.

Liang He'an's sunny smile, Liang He'an's slender fingers, Liang He'an's gentle eyes... and Liang He'an's standing in that horrible wardrobe, holding scissors, scratching deeply on the wall.

What he can't stand the most is that he can occasionally hear Liang He'an curse in his dream. Although he knows that the object of the curse will definitely not be himself, it is still very frightening.

After waking up, Qi Yuan would involuntarily touch Liang He'an, seeing that the man was sleeping peacefully beside him, which made him feel at ease and felt compassionate.

He didn't know how long this kind of life would last.The only thing that is certain is that he has fallen deeply in love with this person now, probably no matter what the other person's true face is, he can accept it.

All he had to do was prepare for the worst, and behave calmly when everything broke out.

Therefore, Qi Yuan borrowed a lot of materials related to psychology from the hospital library in his spare time.He had no way to ask Liang He'an for a diagnosis, so he could only observe more patiently and carefully.

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As the New Year approached, the hospital issued supermarket shopping benefits.Only then did he realize that it seemed that the two of them hadn't gone out together for a week or two.

After get off work that day, Qi Yuan called Liang He'an, he thought, if possible, the two of them would eat out together and visit the supermarket by the way.He always thought Liang He'an was very handsome when he carefully selected the ingredients in the supermarket.

However, the other party's phone has been turned off.

At first, he thought it was Liang He'an who was in class and it was inconvenient to answer the phone.He heard from Liang He'an that the school has regulations that prohibit the use of mobile phones, so teachers and students often use them secretly.

However, until the end of the afternoon, Liang He'an's phone call was still not connected, which made Qi Yuan feel a little wrong.

Qi Yuan thought, he might as well go directly to the gate of Liang Hean's school and give him a surprise.Unexpectedly, a young child who was in a car accident suddenly came.

The child was covered in blood, had multiple fractures and soft tissue abrasions, and cried heart-rendingly.

Although it was determined after taking the film that the child's injury was not serious, and the doctor on duty, Corey, was able to do it, the child's parents kept chasing after Qi Yuan, begging him to perform the operation so that they could feel at ease.

In Qi Yuan's heart, Liang He'an was hung on one end, and the other end was caught uncomfortably by the crying of the little patient.

He thought, it's not a major operation, so hurry up and do it.

This overtime work lasted until ten o'clock in the evening.

When Qi Yuan came out of the operating room, it was already dark.

Qi Yuan looked at his phone, but Liang Hean didn't return a single call, but an unfamiliar number called him more than a dozen times in a row.

Qi Yuan took the elevator downstairs, went to the parking lot to pick up the car, and saw the strange number with his heart beating wildly.He vaguely felt that this number might be related to Liang He'an.

Sitting in the car, Qi Yuan finally pressed his finger and dialed the number.

The car hadn't bothered to turn on the heater, and it was very cold. This feeling was exactly the same as the feeling of being imprisoned by sticky and cold pool water in a dream.

Qi Yuan listened to the "beep" sound on the phone and waited patiently.

"Hello? Hello." After a long time, the call was finally connected.

"Hi, may I ask if you are..."

"Liang Heping."

When Qi Yuan heard this name, his heart tightened even more.

He started the car and drove in the direction of home. His mouth suddenly became sore and his stomach throbbed. The coldness lingered all over his body. He felt that his heart ached and he was about to die.

"It's Liang He'an, did something happen to him?" Qi Yuan's teeth chattered, and he heard his own voice trembling.

"I'm sorry, I was impatient and missed many calls." Liang Heping was as humble and polite as before, but his voice was obviously tired.

"It's him, He'an. He's probably having a mental illness again. I haven't contacted him for seven or eight hours. The school said that he suddenly felt unwell in the afternoon and asked for leave to go home. I went home, the combination lock was changed, fingerprints The password can't be opened, so I want you to..."

"Sorry, I had an emergency just now, and I'm rushing home now. You mean, he, mental illness?"

When Qi Yuan asked this sentence, he couldn't help but think of the tomes of psychological information hidden in the office that he had read during this period, and thought, it seems that it finally broke out.

"You don't know yet?" Liang Heping seemed a little surprised, but then he began to confess as if he had accepted it, "He'an has been receiving psychological treatment for a long time, and he has been very stable in the past six months, and has gradually reduced the number of visits to the psychiatrist. The number of times. Around the beginning of winter, he said that he might be gay. Both his psychiatrist and I felt that being able to correctly understand our own sexuality and accept the new self might be beneficial to the condition. Therefore, he said that he When I fell in love with you and wanted to move to live in your house, especially since you are also a doctor, we didn't stop us, but were happy for him. But recently... probably because he doesn't want you to see my family very much, But I have repeatedly asked to meet you and your family as a chef in Graceland. This kind of thing has stimulated him. He seems to be depressed for a while. "

"depressed?"

"You live with him every day, don't you feel it?"

"No."

"Hey," Liang Heping sighed, "It seems that he really hasn't told you about his illness. He looks sunny and optimistic on the surface, but in places you can't see, he must be carefully hiding his sadness. Self-blame, depression, anger, dissatisfaction... Once such emotions accumulate to a certain extent, they cannot help but explode once."

"You mean he has 'bipolar disorder'?" The book he read recently made Qi Yuan report the name of the disease based on his feeling.

"Yes," Liang Heping replied, "save him, he has had a hard life these years. After meeting you, I almost thought he was going to be saved. Save him."

"Huh..." Qi Yuan let out a long breath and accelerated the speed of the car. He felt that his heart was hanging in his chest, swinging back and forth, which was very difficult.

On the way home from the hospital, Qi Yuan tried his best to regain his sanity, and with the professionalism of a doctor, he patiently and carefully dug out all the medical history about Liang Hean from Liang Heping.

The car arrived at the community and entered the underground garage. Qi Yuan sat in the driver's seat, hung up the phone and turned off the engine.It was only then that I realized that there was no warm wind on the way, and I was already sweating profusely.

Qi Yuan narrowed his eyes, leaned on the backrest and settled down for a while.

Hearing Liang Heping talk all the way, he actually blamed himself a little bit.In normal life, I only think that the other party is a tired and meticulous optimist, but I ignore that such a person is the one who needs nourishment the most and is the most vulnerable person.

Qi Yuan went upstairs, pressed his fingerprints, and took a deep breath.

Liang He'an stood behind him in his most difficult time, now it's his turn, and he can't be cowardly.

When the elevator arrived at the door of the house, Qi Yuan raised his hand and rubbed his stiff cheeks, put on his usual breezy smile, and entered his fingerprint to unlock the lock.

Now, even if the whole house is turned into a large wardrobe by Liang Hean, he feels that he has to face it with a smile.

The door opened, and the situation was much better than what Qi Yuan encountered.

Curtains, sofas, coffee tables, treadmills... everything is clean as far as the eye can see.

Qi Yuan withdrew his gaze little by little. In the open kitchen, the flour was scattered all over the floor, and all kinds of utensils for making cakes were scattered all over the place. sound.

"What?" Qi Yuan changed his shoes, walked into the side of Liang Hean who was lying on the ground, squatted down, and rubbed his hair.

He saw that the corners of Liang Hean's eyes were wet, but he pretended not to see anything.

He got up and turned off the faucet, and quietly cleaned up the tools Liang Hean threw everywhere.

Small rolling pin, biscuit mold, sliced ​​almonds... Qi Yuan kept silent, didn't ask questions, didn't complain.Clean up little by little at your own pace.

Liang He'an just continued lying on the floor, motionless.

Qi Yuan knew that the so-called "bipolar affective disorder" had both a manic side and a depressed side. Judging from Liang Hean's performance, it was usually very stable in most cases, but this stability was probably the result of drug suppression.

Once the disease breaks out, either it goes to extreme excitement or extreme depression, or the mood switches back and forth between the two.Qi Yuan thought that if he paid enough attention, he could actually perceive Liang Hean's emotions, but he never thought that the other party was a "patient".

For example, he is always very energetic in bed, often tossing for several hours in a row; another example is that he, who has always cooked delicious food, has always been impatient to finish the dishes according to the steps; he will suddenly be silent for a long time, silent Laughing again... When it became more obvious, he had a hidden wardrobe of horrors.

Liang Hean's sensitivity to small things, his strong observation ability, his persistence in one thing... As long as he thinks of Liang Hean's advantages, there seems to be a fatal danger of burning him behind them.

Qi Yuan patiently cleaned up everything, took his mobile phone, and ordered two takeaways.