mousepad-d2 Chapter 19 chapter 19
Chapter 19 chapter 19
Qi Lin stopped at the bottom of the apartment building and looked up at the mottled outer wall.
Half of the small advertisements on the wall were peeled off, hanging there listlessly.A gust of wind blew by, shaking it flutteringly.The old wall paint is also peeling off.
Lu Xiumu lives here.
In fact, Qi Lin came here the last time he sent Lu Xiumu home.
But he just took a quick look, then turned and left.
Qi Lin stood in the empty corridor, with some unknown panic in his heart.
What kind of expression should he face Lu Xiumu later?
Will Lu Xiumu resent him?
He finally made up his mind, grabbed the old but not a trace of dust wooden handle, and walked up the steps.
As he walked, the lights in the corridor lit up layer by layer.
Only then did he realize that it was already evening.
Lu Xiumu's home is located in the rightmost room on the fourth floor.
Qi Lin's footsteps echoed in the empty floors, clear and firm.
Qi Lin stood at the door, clutching Lu Xiumu's jacket tightly.
When he was worrying about whether he should knock on the door because he didn't have the key to Lu Xiumu's house, he found that the door was actually closed, revealing a gap.
Qi Lin hesitated for a while, then opened the door and walked in.
It was very quiet, so quiet that only his own heartbeat was left.
With the light coming in from the door, Qi Lin can roughly distinguish the position of the furniture.
The room is arranged in an orderly manner, but there is only a little bit of life missing.It is doubtful whether anyone lives here.
"Lu Xiumu?" Qi Lin stood at the door and called in a low voice.
His voice echoed in the room, but there was no echo.
Qi Lin had no choice but to walk a few more steps in, and he put Lu Xiumu's coat on the sofa in the living room.
To be honest, the deathly silence overwhelmed him too.He didn't know what to do next.
Should I just leave quietly like this, or...?
At this moment, Qi Lin heard a little movement from the kitchen.
He listened intently for a moment, but couldn't hear anything again.
Qi Lin had no choice but to walk towards the kitchen lightly.
A figure was sitting at the kitchen table.
After careful identification, Qi Lin recognized that it was Lu Xiumu, and immediately heaved a sigh of relief.
It's just that Lu Xiumu's hands kept moving, and there was an inexplicable sound, and he didn't know what he was doing.
Lu Xiumu didn't seem to be aware of Qi Lin's existence yet.
Qi Lin fumbled for the switch on the wall and turned on the light.
And at the same moment, his eyes widened in horror.
He finally saw clearly what Lu Xiumu was doing.
The flash of light that rushed into his eyes was so dazzling that he wondered if it was an illusion.
Qi Lin rubbed his sore eyes and found that the scene in front of him was still the same.
Lu Xiumu, he... is he cutting his wrists?
With a kitchen knife, he tirelessly cut open the intact skin on his arm.
Blood continuously overflowed from the split opening, winding along the wrist, as if trying to swallow everything.
Lu Xiumu's expression was numb, as if he didn't feel any pain, he repeated the movements of his hands.
Hand up, knife down.
Not only his hands, but even his face and the entire floor were spattered with blood.
As if intoxicated, Lu Xiumu let out a creepy laugh while doing something that hurt himself.
His expression was fanatical, as if he was controlled by something else.
Qi Lin felt that although the person in front of him had the same face as Lu Xiumu, it was very different from the Lu Xiumu he knew.
Qi Lin involuntarily took a step back.
He was too shocked by the strange scene in front of him to say anything.
Only then did Lu Xiumu raise his head unresponsively, and looked towards Qi Lin.
Those were a pair of cold eyes without any emotion.
But it is clean and pure, which makes people see through.
Qi Lin felt goose bumps all over his body.
The moment he saw Qi Lin, Lu Xiumu seemed to wake up suddenly, and all his emotions gradually recovered.
The kitchen knife in his hand fell to the ground with a clear sound.
He looked at his bloody arm and the blood all over the ground, and fell into a long silence.
His eyes widened in disbelief.
For a long time, as if he wanted to grasp the last ray of hope, he cast a look of help to Qi Lin: "Qi Lin... listen to me..."
And Qi Lin backed away again and again, his eyes terrified.
Lu Xiumu wanted to stand up, but because he lost too much blood, he really had no strength, so he fell back to the ground again.
"Pervert..." Qi Lin murmured, stepping back step by step.
"You pervert!"
Qi Lin's words kept echoing in Lu Xiumu's mind.
"No, Qi Lin..." Lu Xiumu desperately shook his head, the tears and blood on his face mixed together.
After retreating to the living room, Qi Lin gradually calmed down.
But Lu Xiumu didn't realize until now that he was not afraid that Qi Lin would hate him, but that Qi Lin would be afraid of him.
He was afraid that Qi Lin would treat him as a monster, so he kept this secret all the time.
He never dared to hope that anyone could bear this pain with him.
"Enough, don't let me see you again."
After finishing speaking, Qi Lin rushed out the door.The door was slammed shut.
There was silence again in the room.
As if sinking into a deep pool in an instant, Lu Xiumu couldn't make any sound, and no matter how hard he struggled, it was useless.
Deathly silence.
Qi Lin felt that he had never run so fast in his entire life.
He almost rushed downstairs all the way, sometimes even stepping five steps with one foot.
The wind was whistling in his ears, and his mind was also buzzing.
The scenery in front of him was blurred, and there was only one command left in his mind: escape from here as soon as possible.
On the way, he seemed to have knocked over someone, and the powerful impact forced him to stop.
Sweat soaked his shirt, and he took time to catch his breath.
The girl who fell down on the side of the road in embarrassment rubbed her waist and stood up: "Why are you running so fast? Are you rushing to reincarnate?"
Qi Lin's gaze focused on the girl's face, but he couldn't recognize who she was for a while.
And the girl looked at him strangely.
Half a minute later, a name popped up in my mind: Yu Zixuan.
Beads of sweat fell into Qi Lin's eyes, making him unable to open his eyes for a while.
Yu Zixuan crossed his hips and looked at him: "Qi Lin, you won't apologize for bumping into someone?"
Only then did Qi Lin open his mouth in a daze: "I'm sorry."
Yu Zixuan was so angry.
Is this the attitude that an apology should have! ?
She asked, "Why are you here? Isn't this nearby Mujia?"
Qi Lin lowered his eyes and didn't intend to answer.
Yu Zixuan saw that he didn't want to speak, and he didn't want to ask any more questions. When he was about to leave, Qi Lin called to stop him.
"What... are you here for?"
Yu Zixuan shook the plastic bag in his hand: "I have an appointment with Xiao Mu, I'll come and drink with him."
Then he said regretfully: "But a few bottles of wine were broken just now, and all of them leaked out."
Qi Lin paused for a moment, and asked, "Lu Xiumu...has it always been like that?"
Yu Zixuan was confused by his question: "What is that? Which?"
Qi Lin's voice was erratic: "Use a knife...to self-mutilate..."
The expression on Yu Zixuan's face froze instantly.She took a big step forward, grabbed Qi Lin's collar, and asked eagerly, "How do you know? Did you see it? You just came out of Mujia?"
A series of questions bombarded Qi Lin's mind, and he couldn't answer anything for a while.
Yu Zixuan's hands trembled uncontrollably: "Did you... say anything to him?"
But her eyes were shining with anticipation, as if she hoped that Qi Lin would give a negative answer.
Qi Lin pursed his dry lips, with a self-blaming expression on his face.
Yu Zixuan slammed him hard on the chest: "What did you say to him!?"
"I... said he was a pervert, and also said that I should not see him again." While saying these words, Qi Lin felt his chest throbbing.
Yu Zixuan was stunned, and the tears overflowing from her eyes fell to the ground.
"Qi Lin, what qualifications do you have to comment on him like this? You are clearly the culprit who caused all this! But every time you just stand by and watch, you keep hurting Xiao Mu over and over again!" Yu Zixuan accused .
"I... am the culprit?"
Yu Zixuan's words came to Qi Lin's ears clearly and were clearly received by his brain, but he couldn't understand anything at this moment.
The culprit?What does it mean?
But Yu Zixuan ignored him, put the plastic bag aside, and ran towards Lu Xiumu's house.
Qi Lin asked loudly, "Where are you going?"
"If you don't go, Xiao Mu will bleed to death!" Yu Zixuan hurriedly replied.
After hesitating for a moment, Qi Lin ran after him.
They rushed into Lu Xiumu's house together.
Yu Zixuan ran into the kitchen like a gust of wind, looked at the shocking amount of blood on the ground, and said worriedly: "So much blood...Xiao Mu is in danger now, I have to send him to the hospital quickly..."
She turned to look at Qi Lin: "Where is Xiao Mu?"
"I don't know...he was in the kitchen just now."
Yu Zixuan said decisively: "Look! I'll go to the bedroom and bathroom, and you go to the balcony to see if there is any blood or anything."
After that, she opened the doors one by one.
Qi Lin also went to check the balcony, but found no trace.
Lu Xiumu was obviously not at home.
Yu Zixuan just felt upset: "There is no blood anywhere except the kitchen, where would he go? No, he looks like that, where can he go?"
She shifted her gaze to the wide open door, and guessed: "He won't walk out by himself, right? That's more dangerous!"
Qi Lin tried his best to search his memory, and affirmed: "When I just went out, the door was closed."
Just as Yu Zixuan was running around in a hurry, the phone rang.
She answered the phone in a hurry, and the caller ID was Qiao Lianjian.
"Hi, see you brother?"
The voice on the other end was low, as if trying to suppress some emotion.
"Xiao Mu is with me. I just went to his house to find him, and found him lying in a pool of blood, so I rushed him to the hospital."
"That's good..." Yu Zixuan immediately felt relieved.
"Why did this happen?" Qiao Lianjian's voice was hoarse, "I've never seen Xiao Mu hurt himself like that...he even thought of committing suicide..."
Yu Zixuan glanced at Qi Lin, but said: "Let's talk about it in the hospital, I'll rush there now."
Yu Zixuan hung up the phone.
Qi Lin approached her step by step: "Lu Xiumu became like this because of me, what does this mean?"
He must understand this matter, and his intuition tells him that it is very important.
The tears that Yu Zixuan had suppressed with all her strength just now welled up again: "If it wasn't because you hurt him like that before...he wouldn't have left a psychological shadow...but he, he never blamed you..."
She squatted on the ground, crying: "Do you know how much energy we spent trying to restore Xiao Mu? Do you know how distressed we are every time we see Xiao Mu hurting himself! Do you know how much we feel when we see Xiao Mu happy?" Are you moved! Why do you always beat him back to his original form?"
Yu Zixuan yelled at him hoarsely: "Do you know how dark he was before? It's all because of you that he made so many changes! Because he didn't want you to see him like that, so he put everything on his mind Hiding, just smiling in front of you. But if even you mock him, what do you ask him to do...? What can he do...?"
Qi Lin clenched his fist tightly.
He really wanted to punch himself hard now.
Did he hurt Lu Xiumu like this from the beginning to the end?
What an asshole...
He, Qi Lin, is simply a heinous bastard.
Yu Zixuan continued, "Come with me to the hospital to see Xiaomu."
Qi Lin was stunned, and looked at Yu Zixuan in surprise.
She stood up and wiped away all her tears: "then it's over. As you said just now, don't appear in front of him again. This is the best choice for you and him. "