give you a bullet

Chapter 47

Nie Yangfan was extremely pale, and he lay there quietly, unable to speak, laugh, or open his eyes to look at him.Ning Yi leaned on the window in a daze, watching Nie Yangsheng walk up to Nie Yangfan, with an expression on the verge of crying, and gently touched his cheek.

I really want to touch him, to know if he is really still alive, if he really hasn't left him.Suddenly, Nie Yangsheng raised his head and took a deep look at Ning Yi. There was a shocking meaning in that look, it seemed to be blame, it seemed to be helpless.

Ning Yi didn't dare to look at him, and cowardly lowered his eyes, he was so guilty that he was about to die.

In the next few days, the nurses in the hospital wondered why there was a young man with a bruised nose and a swollen face standing by the door of the intensive care unit, as if he never left.He has been wearing the gray and torn shirt with dark stains, and he is frail and thin.

Bai Chenglin advised Ning Yi to go back and take a shower and change his clothes, and to eat the meal on time, if he didn't bring the meal, he wouldn't eat it, or he would starve to death.

Nie Yangsheng pretended not to have Ning Yi. He ran between the hospital and the house every day, taking good care of his comatose brother. He had already said hello to his work and postponed it.Every time he came to the hospital with food, he would see Ning Yi standing blankly in front of the glass window looking at his brother, seeing him coming, he would step aside humbly, waiting for him to pass by.Every time I want to hand over the lunch box in my hand to Ning Yi, but after thinking about it, I still take it out and eat it myself.

He didn't dare to tell his parents about Nie Yangfan's situation, for fear that they would be worried, but Nie Yangfan's delay in waking up always worried him.Every time I sit in front of the hospital bed and look at my brother, I think of my childhood.

"Brother, will you still like him when you wake up?"

Nie Yangsheng raised his head and looked out the glass window. It was 09:30 in the evening, and there was no one in the corridor. Ning Yi curled up on a few uneven plastic chairs, trying to catch up on his sleep.He really looked like a little beggar, dirty and pathetic.

"Brother..." Nie Yangsheng murmured, his heart was shaken.

"Hmm..." The person on the hospital bed murmured hoarsely. Nie Yangsheng was taken aback for a moment, and said in surprise, "Brother? Brother?"

Nie Yangfan didn't know where he was, he opened his eyes with difficulty, but he could only vaguely see his younger brother's face, "Brother..."

"It's me, I'm Yang Sheng, brother, brother?" Nie Yangsheng held his hand, "Brother, can you hear me?"

"Ning... Yi..." Nie Yangfan struggled to call out the name, and shook his head lightly with a look of embarrassment on his face.

What does it mean?Don't see Ning Yi?Nie Yangsheng speculated, "Brother, are you looking for Ning Yi?"

Nie Yangfan's consciousness became more and more blurred, he still wanted to fall asleep, shook his head persistently, and fell into a coma again.

Nie Yangsheng was in a hurry, and ran out of the ward, shouting: "Doctor! Doctor! My brother is awake!"

The sudden roar made Ning Yi fall down in fright. He heard Nie Yangfan wake up, got up in a hurry and hit the glass window, but he didn't see Nie Yangfan open his eyes.

After Nie Yangsheng called the doctor, he saw Ning Yi lying on the glass window, and said, "My brother said he didn't want to see you."

what……?

Ning Yi turned his head in disbelief and looked at Nie Yangsheng.

"My brother just woke up for a while, and he said he didn't want to see you."

This sentence was sharper than Bing Leng, piercing Ning Yi's heart in an instant, dripping with blood.

Well, now there is no need to wait anymore, the answer has just been announced, and he failed the exam.Even though 1 were unwilling, he was kicked out of the game.

It seemed that it was time for him to leave.

Ning Yi lowered his head, smiled desolately, turned around slowly, dragged his heavy body, and left with his last breath.

Nie Yangsheng greeted the doctor, turned around again, and found that Ning Yi was gone.

This night was the night of farewell. He returned to Nie Yangfan's house and packed up his belongings, which were still as small as when he came here. He never expected to spread out his things and occupy the entire room. Always prepared to leave.

He changed his almost stinking clothes, took a hot bath, and found himself bruised all over his body, which was terrible.

After taking a bath, he cooked some porridge himself, and ate some with the leftovers in the refrigerator.

Picking up the suitcase, he put the house key on the dining table, this brand new table.

The night was so dark, Ning Yi walked out of the old-fashioned community, just like walking back, he walked back to the hospital, hoping to see Nie Yangfan again, and then left.

Nie Yangsheng was lying on the small bed beside him, drowsy. The doctor had already come and said that since his brother woke up, there would be no problem, as long as he was allowed to sleep for a while.

"Second Brother Nie..." Ning Yi stood at the door and called out hesitantly.

Nie Yangsheng was confused for a moment, and saw Ning Yi, "What are you doing?"

"I...I'm leaving." Ning Yi said shyly, as if it was something embarrassing, "Can I, talk to Big Brother Nie?"

Nie Yangsheng shook himself up, no sleepiness at all. When he saw the suitcase, he suddenly understood something.

"You...going?"

"Yes……"

Since his brother doesn't want to see him again, it's okay to let him go, anyway, sooner or later.

"Oh, then I'll avoid it for a while." After all, he was embarrassed to hear what he was about to say.

Ning Yi smiled gratefully at him, but that smile seemed to be nothingness, and it disappeared in an instant.

Nie Yangfan passed the dangerous period, he fell asleep peacefully, Ning Yi walked to him, gently took his warm hand, and said softly: "Brother Nie, I am a time bomb, sooner or later I will explode, It will blow you up, but I stayed by your side recklessly. It is my fault that you became like this. You may not forgive me again, and I will not blame you. People like me are suitable Be alone for the rest of your life. You will definitely find someone who is [-] times better than me to be with you, I believe. And..." Ning Yi said, and took out a small object from his pocket, flashing Silvery luster, "I give you back the bullet, it should bless you, not me. I'm not entitled to wear it."

It was quiet, there was no sound in the ward.

Ning Yi paused, knowing that he was talking to himself.He stuffed the bullet into Nie Yangfan's palm, closed his eyes trembling slightly, and turned around to leave.

However, the hand was suddenly held.

Ning Yi's hand was suddenly grasped by a hand that would not move, causing Ning Yi to look back in surprise.

Nie Yangfan's eyes were slightly open, but he could actually see and hear.He stared deeply at Ning Yi, holding his hands tighter and tighter.

"Nie...Brother..." Ning Yi's tears rolled down his face, and he was caught off guard.

"I...do I allow you to leave..." Nie Yangfan struggled, but with anger, "I never blamed you! Why did you leave...you want me...to become the second Tao, Tao Yuanming?"

Tao Yuanming... Ning Yi's eyes widened suddenly. He thought of Yuanming's torment and insomnia every night. After losing Lu Xing, he seemed to have lost the whole world. He kept holding on until he destroyed himself.

"I don't want you to become Yuanming, Brother Nie...I don't want to!"

Nie Yangfan held his hand, "Then stay here... I can only live if you accompany me!"

"But I-"

"You didn't fire the gun, so why do you blame yourself? I went to redeem you because I love you, do you understand?" Nie Yangfan was so angry that his wound ached.

Ning Yi replied subconsciously: "I, I love you too, Brother Nie."

"In this case, don't go, stay with me, for the rest of your life..."

"I...I..." Ning Yi was both happy and afraid, he thought about it, knowing that this step would be forever, "I'll stay..."

With one foot on the ground, he finally stepped into Nie Yangfan's heart bravely.

——the end——