you are so bright

Chapter 12 12

Ruoning still had a stomachache, his clothes were soaked in cold sweat, and goose bumps appeared all over his body as soon as the wind blew. However, the most painful thing for Ruoning at this time was that he had nowhere to go, and Xu Jingyang would never step into it again. One step, and now I don't want to go home, I don't want to see Zinan, I don't want to see Ruoxuan.

"Hey, Xiaoyu..." Ruoning wanted to ask Xiaoyu for help, but she didn't have many friends, so Xiaoyu was the only one who could help her.

"Hey, Ruoning, why do you sound so weak." Xiaoyu heard Ruoning's voice was very weak from the other end of the phone.

"I'm not feeling well, can I trouble you to pick me up?"

"Where are you? I'll find you right away."

Ruoning told Xiaoyu her location, and when Xiaoyu arrived, Ruoning was sitting on a step by the side of the road, her face was pale, even her lips had lost color.

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Ruoning slowly opened her eyes, and found that Xiaoyu was sitting by the bed with her. "Xiaoyu, thank you."

"Are you feeling better?"

"Well, it's much better, my stomach doesn't hurt anymore."

"Then I'll make some porridge, it should be good for the stomach."

"Xiaoyu, that, can I stay in your dormitory for a while?"

"People in our dormitory are not very talkative..."

"Then... hey..."

"However, would you like to live in my house for a while? Anyway, I will be alone at home for a month or two."

"Of course I would, thank you Xiaoyu. Are your parents not at home?"

"Yeah. You lie down for a while, I'll make some food."

"Don't lie down anymore, I'm much better now, let me cook with you." Ruoning was embarrassed to let Xiaoyu cook for herself, and struggled to get up and went to the kitchen with Xiaoyu.

"Xiaoyu, your house is so beautiful." Xiaoyu's house is decorated extremely luxuriously, and this is the first time Ruoning has seen such a high-end house.

"En." Xiaoyu just responded politely, without saying anything.

“It's a pleasure to live here!”

"Maybe."

After a while, the two prepared a table of light meals.Having not eaten anything for several days, Ruoning finally has some appetite now, but it is probably because her body is still relatively weak, and she can't eat after drinking half a bowl of porridge.

"Are you full?" Seeing that Ruoning hadn't eaten anything, Xiaoyu drank a few mouthfuls of porridge and stopped moving her chopsticks.

"Well, maybe my body hasn't fully recovered yet, so I eat less."

"Ruoning, can I ask why you want to live with me like this?" Xiaoyu couldn't help asking the question that she had held back for a long time and dared not ask.

"Hey……"

"It's okay if you don't want to say it."

"No, Xiaoyu, it's not that I don't want to say it. In fact, I really want to tell people. I feel very painful in my heart. I just don't know where to start."

"What happened? Ruoxuan and the others know?"

"Don't tell them yet."

"Well, I won't tell them, but you can tell me if you feel uncomfortable."

"I...my boyfriend cheated..." When she said the word "cheating", Ruoning still couldn't help crying.

"Could it be a misunderstanding?"

"No, it's not a misunderstanding. You don't know. I've seen everything, the photos, and..." Ruoning really didn't know how to say it. She also saw Xu Jingyang and Zi Nan's bed after Yunyu.

Xiaoyu didn't speak, but silently patted Ruoning on the shoulder, and then handed Ruoning some papers.

"If someone or he himself told me that he had cheated, I might not have been in such pain. But I had to see the photos and see... I will never forget those scenes. When I close my eyes, I will see their unbearable pain. The picture, I... I'm really really sad... really sad." Ruoning cried a little incoherently.

"Stop thinking about those painful things, let it go."

"I really can't help it, I think it's impossible to pass, and I... I... I'm really stupid to believe him." Ruoning regrets that she fell in love with Xu Jingyang all the time, and still so Foolishly and naively, she offered her body to him, but Ruoning couldn't say these words to Xiaoyu or to anyone.

"Ruoning, listen to me." Xiaoyu tried to calm Ruoning down. "It's not your fault. Don't punish yourself with other people's mistakes. Don't change your evaluation of yourself because of other people's wrong behavior."

"I...Xiaoyu, thank you for comforting me, but this incident really made me feel very uncomfortable. You really can't understand it if you haven't experienced it." Ruoning was crying until her eyes were red and swollen.

"Ruoning, you... would you like to hear what I have to say?"

"Huh?" Xiaoyu said so suddenly, somewhat beyond Ruoning's expectation.

"Ruoning, in fact, this world is not as perfect as you imagined."

"What do you mean?"

"Everyone in this world is not perfect, everyone is selfish and weak."

Ruoning wiped away her tears and listened intently.

"Men are always unavoidable to cheat, and women are always unavoidable to rely on men, and finally immersed in pain and unable to extricate themselves."

"Not everyone is like this, there are always more good people in this world."

"I'm afraid the kind of good people you mentioned are pitifully rare." Xiaoyu looked ahead coldly.

"Why do you think so?" Ruoning was very surprised by Xiaoyu's thoughts.

Xiaoyu said slowly, "Ruoning, I've never been in a relationship, but..."

"Ok?"

"Do you know why I'm the only one in the house?"

Ruoning shook her head.

"My parents divorced after I was born. I have lived for nearly 20 years and have almost never seen my father. He has never cared about us except for giving me and my mother some living expenses every month."

"Isn't your father too irresponsible?"

"Actually, if you think about it carefully, is it fair for him to let him guard his mother every day?"

"Huh? Then... where is your mother now?"

"She is ill and is being treated in the hospital."

"Ah? What's wrong?"

"Dad cheated on my mother when she was pregnant with me, and my mother found out, and my mother suffered from depression. Since I can remember, my mother has committed suicide countless times in front of me. What I remember most now is hitting my mother 120 times every time. Send it to the ambulance, and then... stand alone at the door of the operating room, wondering if I will have a mother after the door is opened."

"Why...how could it be so serious?"

"Probably because mom loves dad so much, she regards dad as the only meaning of life."

Ruoning didn't know what to say, and Xiaoyu was silent for a long time without speaking.

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Ruoning stayed at Xiaoyu's house until the end of the semester.After thinking for so long, Ruoning finally had the courage to face herself and the past.People can't avoid it all the time, no matter how you avoid or procrastinate, there will always be a day that you have to face, not to mention that you still have many important things to do and many responsibilities to bear.

Ruoning contacted Xu Jingyang, ready to pick up Little Putao.Ruoning knew very well that Little Putao was a life he saved, and it was his responsibility to take care of it for the rest of its life. No matter what happened, no matter how difficult it was, he couldn't just throw it away.Xu Jingyang was afraid that seeing Ruoning again would embarrass the two of them, so he left the room early.

Ruoning returned home with Xiao Putao, and saw Ruoxuan standing downstairs from afar.

"Brother." Ruoning hadn't been home for almost two months, and hadn't seen Ruoxuan. When I saw him again, I realized how warm it is to have a relative by my side in this world.

"Let's go." Ruoxuan naturally took the large and small bags from Ruoning's hand.

"Little Putao has no place to go now, can I raise it at home for a while? I will think of other ways later."

"Well, let's keep it first. I'll also ask if anyone wants it."

Hearing Ruoxuan's words, Ruoning's warm heart just felt cold again. Ruoning was extremely looking forward to Ruoxuan's complete acceptance of Xiaoputao this time, but Ruoxuan still wanted to send Xiaoputao away.

"Is Xiao Nan at home?" Before entering the door, Ruoning asked.

"Uh, he hasn't lived at home recently."

"Has he moved?"

"Not yet, but he asked me to tell you that he will move out as soon as possible. He knows that he is very sorry for you and has always wanted to apologize to you in person, but he doesn't know if you would like to see him."

"I'm fine, let him come back to live. If he wants, he doesn't have much income now, and it's hard to find another place to live." Ruoning's tone was calm, without any emotional fluctuations.

"Huh?" Ruoning's calm surprised Ruoxuan.

"I don't want this matter to affect me anymore, let's pass it all. Let's not talk about this matter, it's all over. God is very good to me, let me learn a lesson, otherwise I will still I don't know how stupid I am."

"Hmm..." Ruoxuan could tell that Ruoning must be feeling uncomfortable when she said this.

"By the way, I didn't even ask about you. Have you got a letter? It's been almost two months. Is there any company interested in you?"

"There is no letter at all. Old Su asked us to wait, saying that the company will not reply so quickly."

"Then wait and see."

"Hey, I've been waiting for so long, I'm so anxious. You're going to start school soon, and you still have to pay the tuition..."

"It's okay, there will be a way. Isn't it two months away, I will find a part-time job."

"You rest at home, I'll find a way."

"It's boring for me to be idle at home. It's great to work part-time, where I can learn something and make money at the same time."

"Hey..." Ruoxuan looked sad.

"Do those management companies have public contact information? Can you try sending your songs directly to others, maybe there is hope."

"That doesn't work at all. I tried it a long time ago, but there is no reply. No one can push this kind of thing. I guess people can't see it."

"Then..." Ruoning couldn't think of a solution for the time being.

"Don't worry about it, just study hard and find a good job in the future, so you won't have to suffer so much."

Ruoning went back to the house and started tidying up the room. There was a layer of dust everywhere in the room that had been unoccupied for two months, and there were several pieces of unwashed clothes on the chair beside the bed.Let’s start with the clothes. Ruoning has already planned how to clean up the house. Cleaning the inside and outside of the house can be regarded as a new start for the next stage of life.

As soon as Ruoning picked up the laundry, Mu Shan's business card fell out of her pocket. "Leiner Entertainment Co., Ltd.", Ruoning picked up the business card and saw the company name printed on it.

Ruoning rushed out of the room with her business card, "Brother, do you still remember my senior sister? Look." After speaking, Ruoning stuffed Mu Shan's business card into Ruoxuan's hand.

"Leiner Entertainment!" The moment Ruoxuan saw the business card, he couldn't believe his eyes. "This company is amazing!"

"It should be. Even I have heard of it. It should be a big company! Do you want to ask her?"

"Try it!" Although Ruoxuan recalled Mu Shan's eyes looking at Ruoning last time, there was something wrong, but the excitement of getting a relationship with a big company still overwhelmed everything.

"How do I tell people?"

"I sent you the introduction of our band, you forward it to others to see, and do you still keep the four songs I sent you before?"

"Well, here it is."

"You send it to others together."

"Okay, send it right away."

Before sending the message, Ruoning went back and forth more than ten times to confirm that there was no problem with any punctuation before she dared to click send.After posting, I felt even more uneasy.Mu Shan sent herself a lot of messages before and she didn't respond to any of them, but now people are very angry in all likelihood, and if she asks for help at such a time, she feels that she doesn't respond.

Unexpectedly, only a few seconds after the message was sent, Ruoning received Mu Shan's reply. "In person?"

Ruoning hurriedly read the message to Ruoxuan.

"It's better to say it face to face!" Ruoxuan said eagerly.

Ruoning replied to Mu Shan as Ruoxuan said, and Mu Shan asked Ruoning to meet at a restaurant tomorrow night.

The author has something to say:

I don't know which character you will like now. Sometimes, due to the needs of plot development, some characters will be added with more "crimes", or some characters will be beautified beyond life.

However, no one in the real world or in the novel world is absolutely good or evil, and the characters selected in the novel are not representatives of good and evil, but these characters have their own charms.

I found that there are still many, many people who are insisting on writing. Even if no one sees that there is no popularity and no benefit, they are still persisting seriously. I am really really touched. For such things as hard work, dedication and persistence regardless of gains and losses , I have never been able to resist, and I am here to manually like everyone here.