i know i'm sick

Chapter 9

I don't think you're disgusting. "

Ling Ran suddenly laughed and said, "Brother An Ning, you also have me in your heart. You see, you didn't get angry when I confessed to you, and you didn't even blame me. If it were someone else, would you be the same?"

Yang Anning quickly walked out of the room, not wanting to entangle with Ling Ran anymore, but he grabbed his arm.

Ling Ran said: "Brother An Ning, isn't it good to be with me? Didn't we get along very happily before? Today I let you go, but starting tomorrow, don't try to avoid me."

Yang Anning took a deep look at him, he felt that Ling Ran in front of him was very strange.In his heart, Ling Ran was a child who would act coquettishly in front of him, but the person in front of him was a man full of aggression, looking for a target and ready to kill him.

Yang Anning pushed the door out and said, "No matter what, it's impossible for us."

23.

Yang Anning found that no matter how he avoided, he couldn't escape Ling Ran.Ling Ran was like a vine, which had tightly surrounded him when he was unprepared.

Yang Anning tried to swear at him, tried to turn a blind eye to him, and even drove him away mercilessly, but no matter what she did, as long as Yang Anning turned her head, she could see Ling Ran standing behind him.

On Ling Ran's face, he has seen injuries, grievances, anger, and forbearance, but he has never seen the slightest wavering or retreat.Ling Ran endured all his accusations and difficulties, but treated him with care and consideration as usual.Later, Yang Anning even felt that he had done too much. When he turned his head inadvertently, seeing the sadness and loss that Ling Ran didn't want to show him, Yang Anning felt a dull pain in his heart.He knew very well that even though he treated Ling Ran so roughly, he never had any dislike for him in his heart. On the contrary, he liked Ling Ran a little, although in his opinion, this kind of love was only for his younger brother .Yang Anning always believed that Ling Ran had gone astray, and after they parted, Ling Ran would naturally return to the right path.

Yang Anning no longer deliberately avoided Ling Ran, except for physical contact, he even started to be as gentle and tolerant as when they first met.

As the inspection schedule draws to a close, Ling Ran's gaze on him becomes increasingly dim.

On the day of parting, Ling Ran looked at him with no expression on his young face, and Ling Ran said, "Brother An Ning, I will not give up."

After speaking, Ling Ran turned and left.

Yang Anning stood where he was, looking at his back, feeling pain like needle pricks in his heart.

Yang Anning covered her chest, and did not leave until she could no longer see Ling Ran.Yang Anning closed her eyes, and laughed at herself secretly: "After all, I have moved my mind. If we say goodbye today, I'm afraid it will be difficult to see each other in the future. I hope you will marry a beautiful wife and beautiful family in the future, and forget about my brother who is far away as soon as possible."

Yang Anning received letters from Ling Ran one after another, at first almost one letter a day, filled with Ling Ran's longing and affection for him, Yang Anning finished reading the letters, sealed them and put them in a wooden box, and kept them in his bookshelf.

But he never wrote back.

Afterwards, the letters gradually decreased, until half a month later, Yang Anning did not receive any more letters.

Yang Anning thought, probably he finally gave up.After all, no one can last long without paying in response.

But his heart seemed to be hollowed out, numb and almost without any feeling.

Yang Anning was running around for the villa as usual, so busy that she didn't have time to think about other things.Yang Anning felt that he seemed to have lost the expectation of a certain relationship. In the past, he could play and laugh with other people, but now he had no idea at all. Once, when a firework girl approached him, he actually put The person pushed away.Yang Anning refused to think about the reason, he told himself that it would get better after a while.

When Yang Anning walked out of Fireworks and Willow Alley again, he was shivered by the autumn wind.

The shopkeeper who was drunk next to him was still rambling: "Master Yang...he's been too pure-hearted lately...a true gentleman..."

Yang Anning asked the boy to send the shopkeeper away, and walked slowly in the alley alone.

The moon overhead was covered by clouds, flickering.

Yang Anning felt as if someone was following him, he turned around and saw Ling Ran hiding in the shadows.

Yang Anning almost thought that she was hallucinating.

Yang Anning's lips moved, her voice was hoarse: "You... Ah Ran?"

Ling Ranfei threw himself into Yang Anning's arms, just like every time before.

Ling Ran's nasal voice was very heavy, as if he was about to cry: "Brother An Ning, why didn't you reply to my letter? I wrote you so many, so many, but you didn't reply to any of them. You really hate me ?"

Yang Anning raised her arm, hesitated, and finally put her hand on top of Ling Ran's head.He looked up at the sky, where the moon reappeared.Yang Anning sighed and said, "I didn't. Why do you come again?"

Ling Ran buried his head on Yang Anning's shoulder and said: "If I don't come, you will cut off contact with me. How can I not come? Brother An Ning, you are so cruel. You clearly have feelings for me, but you treat me like this. Me, do you think my heart is made of iron, so I won't be sad?"

Yang Anning said, "Ah Ran, this is wrong."

Ling Ran raised his head, his eyes were bright, and seemed to be shining in the dark night, he said: "There is nothing wrong, Brother An Ning, An Ning, I love you, what is wrong? Just because we are all men? Love in this world , is nothing more than never forgetting what you see, and thinking like crazy. Tranquility, let your words be worthy of virtue, and join hands with each other; don’t let me fly, and let me perish.”

Yang Anning's pupils shrank suddenly, deeply shocked by Ling Ran's words.The suppressed emotions in my heart rolled up, clamoring and roaring.

Yang Anning could have gradually forgotten this relationship as he imagined, as long as there is enough time.But when Ling Ran came, he had no time or space to forget.Ling Ran intervened forcefully in his feelings, pressed him step by step, and finally pushed him to the point where he had nowhere to retreat.

Yang Anning pushed him away, took two steps back, and opened the distance between them.Yang Anning said: "Ah Ran, this is a road of no return, you have to think about it."

Ling Ran said, "An Ning, I will never regret it."

Yang Anning closed her eyes and said, "If that's the case, then do as you wish."

Ling Ran stepped forward and hugged Yang Anning tightly, trembling with excitement, his lips pressed against Yang Anning's forehead, as if kissing or whispering, he called Anning's name softly, as if to An Ning's name was engraved on his heart.

Yang Anning hugged him backhand and smiled.Yang Anning thought: "If you pay with your true feelings, I will definitely live up to your feelings."

PS: May words be worthy of virtue, and join hands.If you can't fly, I will perish. ——Sima Xiangru in "Phoenix Seeking the Phoenix"

24.

Yang Anning's expression was gentle, and even the tone of his speech rose unconsciously. Yang Anning said: "The days after that were the best days of my life. I took him around the three northern provinces, and there were only the two of us. In those six months, I hardly ever went back to the village. He asked me to call him Aning, and he said it was the baby name his parents gave him, hoping to bless him with a peaceful life. Ah Ning, I like this name, I think of this name It was like eating honey in my heart. I said to myself, this is our fate, even the names are the same.

Later, it was the Chinese New Year, and Ah Ning wanted to go back to the south.I asked him to go back to the village with me, but he didn't agree. He said that he had been away for so long, and his father had been urging him to go back. If he didn't go back, his father would be so angry that he would cut off the father-son relationship with him.

Ah Ning is reluctant to part with me, so why should I be reluctant to part with him.

Aning asked me to go to the south with him. There are also many specialties in the south. Both of us are merchants. Why don't we join forces and build a north-south trade route, which will definitely make more money.

I think what he said is very reasonable, and I also want to go to his house to see.I don't know if he told the family about us, but I believe him.Even if his family disagrees, I can carry it for him. I will hold up the sky for him and protect him from any harm. "

Yang Anning smiled lightly: "At that time I was so determined, I felt that there was no hurdle that I couldn't overcome.

I left a letter for San'er and Brother Qiao, and then followed Ah Ning.

The scenery in the south is quite different from that in the north. We toured the mountains and rivers all the way, stopping and stopping, and it took us a month to drag the new year.I asked Ah Ning, wouldn't his father want to beat him to death as a traitor now?Aning said, no matter how much it is, the big deal is to go home and shed a layer of skin.

During the year we spent in Yangcheng, Aning said that his family had a Zhuangzi in Yangcheng, so we went.

It was my first time to celebrate the New Year outside, and I used to be with San'er and Brother Qiao.

I am very happy to celebrate the New Year with Aning.

We all drank too much that day. "

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Yang Anning just drank too much, not drunk.Ling Ran was lying on the table unconscious.

Yang Anning rubbed her forehead, trying to wake herself up.He picked up Ling Ran, and the two stumbled back to the room.

Yang Anning helped him take off his coat, shoes and socks, covered him with the quilt, and let out a long sigh of relief.

The body is a little tired, but the spirit is very excited.

Ah Ning was very rowdy tonight. It was the first time to celebrate the New Year with the one he loves, and he must be very happy. The row was too loud and he got drunk.

Yang Anning sat down at the table and poured a cup of tea.The tea was already cold and tasted a bit bitter, but Yang Anning felt it was sweet.Yang Anning couldn't help but smirk.His parents have lived in harmony and love, and Yang Anning has some longing and longing for this kind of affection for his parents.Now he also has such a feeling.

Yang Anning put down the teacup, looked back, Ling Ran sat up at some point, staring at him blankly.

Yang Anning sat on the edge of the bed, stretched out her index finger and poked it