i know i'm sick

Chapter 22

Qian: "Speak clearly."

Zhang Qian looked at Yang Anning who seemed to be in a trance in the room, sighed and said: "Ling Ran, it depends on what you did before. If you and I are not old acquaintances, I really don't want to help you at all. Mrs. An Ning Innocent. You always think that he resents you in his heart, but if he is full of resentment towards you, how can there be Aning? Aning is you, the one who was good to him before. He can't bear Aning , naturally I can't let you go. If you can take the place of 'A Ning' in his heart, his illness will naturally be healed."

Ling Ran was still puzzled, he asked: "Of course I know that Aning has disappeared and his illness is cured, but what should I do?"

Zhang Qian said: "You have to ask yourself. Why did Aning appear? What does his existence mean to An Ning? In fact, in my opinion, it is not uncommon for An Ning to be like this now, but he has had a rough half of his life. I also hope that he Get rid of the past and find happiness. Only you can solve his heart disease. This is his misfortune and your luck. That's all I've said, you can figure it out yourself."

After speaking, Zhang Qian turned and left.

When Ling Ran returned to the room, Yang Anning had already sat down at the table, covering her eyes with one hand and supporting her forehead.Ling Ran looked at Yang Anning, thinking about Zhang Qian's words, thoughtfully.

PS:

Zhang Qian has something to say:

At first, I thought I was an internist, and I could guarantee a cure for colds, fevers, vomiting, and headaches;

Later, I felt that I was a surgeon, and I could take care of any poisoning, insect bites, fractures, and knife wounds;

In the end, I found out that I am a psychiatrist, and I don’t charge extra for consultation fees to solve emotional entanglements and relieve emotional discomfort!

I really lived up to the name of a miracle doctor.

48.

Yang Anning felt his head was heavy, feeling like he was about to fall into the center of the earth without supporting it with his hands; his chest was tight, his stomach was churning faintly, and he wanted to vomit but couldn't.

Yang Anning sat at the table for a long time, so long that he thought it was a long time.Looking up again, he saw Ling Ran standing by the table.There are worries and worries on this person's face, and what's more, he is reckless and firm.

Yang Anning still supported his forehead with one hand, put the other hand on the table, tapped the table with his index finger and middle finger, Yang Anning said, "Let's talk. We can't go on like this forever."

Ling Ran felt his heart contract violently, he sat down and said in a low voice, "I've always wanted to have a good talk with you."

Yang Anning closed her eyes not to look at him, and said, "I hope this time... everything you said is true."

Yang Anning paused for a moment, then continued: "Of course, if you want to lie to me, there's nothing I can do."

Ling Ran pulled the corner of his mouth with difficulty: "I will never lie to you again."

Yang Anning was noncommittal, and asked, "Why did you come to Zheliu Villa?"

Ling Ran said: "For you, I came only for you."

Yang Anning let out a long breath and said, "Let's just assume what you said is true...then what do you want me to do?"

Ling Ran smiled wryly: "I don't want you to do anything, I just want to save... you, An Ning, I've said it so many times, you never believed me, did you?"

Yang Anning also smiled, but that smile was full of sarcasm.Yang Anning said, "Do you think there is still a chance to make things up between us?"

Ling Ran's hand covered Yang Anning's hand on the table, Yang Anning struggled a bit, but Ling Ran's grip was tighter, Yang Anning finally gave up struggling and let Ling Ran grab his hand.

Ling Ran said: "An Ning, before... I did something wrong. I fell in love with you a long time ago, but I dare not admit it. The death of my parents is a thorn in my heart. Before I met you, I only had revenge in my heart. I still hate Miao Shanshan now, but I shouldn't equate you with her. You are you, she is her, even if you are his son...but I didn't understand at that time, An Ning, I knew Miao Shanshan was dead I have no way to vent my hatred, and I transfer all this hatred to you. I said to myself, even if Miao Shanshan dies, his son will pay for what she owes; her son dies If so, let her grandson pay back... her grandchildren and grandchildren will always pay back what she owes."

Yang Anning didn't make a sound, Ling Ran continued: "The encounter between me and you was a deception created by me; but the time we spent together after that was not all deceit. Change. An Ning, you are so kind, I feel more relaxed and peaceful than ever when I get along with you, you are as broad and tolerant as the sky to me, it is you who let me know what it means to love someone... I am tempted, I fell in love with you. I dare not admit it, I think falling in love with you is a betrayal of my parents, I have no choice..."

Ling Ran's voice was a bit choked up, but Yang Anning didn't seem to hear it, he asked: "You come to me now, isn't it a betrayal of your parents?"

Ling Ran said: "You don't know anything, you're innocent. I'm paranoid. An Ning, that's the worst thing I've ever done to you. If I can, I'm willing to give everything, just to stop that There is no way to stop what happened in the past, I just want to be by your side in the future and make up for everything I have done... An Ning, give me another chance."

Yang Anning opened his eyes, and Ling Ran's remorse and self-blame were fully revealed in front of him, but he didn't feel the slightest, heartache, sadness, sadness, nothing, not even a little touch.Yang Anning looked at Ling Ran. It was an all-too-familiar face. For more than ten years, whether he was awake or asleep, this face would always appear in front of him from time to time.Yang Anning looked away, and asked: "If it were you, after being treated like this by me, would you still give me a chance?"

Ling Ran showed a dazed expression for a moment, and squeezed Yang Anning's hand a little harder. He shook his head bitterly and said, "I won't."

Yang Anning said: "Then why do you think I will give you another chance?"

Ling Ran's other hand also came up, wrapping Yang Anning's hand in the center of the palm with both hands.Ling Ran said: "Whether you give me a chance or not, I will fight for it. An Ning, if I want to deal with someone, I won't leave him any way out; but you are different from me, no matter how cruel you are, But it won’t kill them all. We still have a long time, and I can always wait for the day when you soften your heart and forgive me.”

Yang Anning laughed softly, this laughter made Ling Ran feel a chill from the bottom of his heart.Yang Anning's laughter gradually stopped, he looked at Ling Ran squarely, with a look of desolation in his eyes, Yang Anning said: "You are right. But, it is too late."

Ling Ran asked anxiously, "Why?"

Yang Anning said: "Only the living can forgive, and the dead can't do anything. Here—" Yang Anning poked his chest, "I'm already dead, 12 years ago, in the [-] mountains. Why can Aning accompany me So many years? Because Aning, like me, belongs to the past, and Aning and I are just ghosts in this world. The Yang Anning you wanted is no longer there, and what is in front of you is a dead man A monster that is still alive. Ling Ran, Master Ling, if Yang Anning is still alive, more than ten years is enough for him to get out of the past and live a new life. Now is your turn to look for him? I can't give you a chance, There is no way to give you a chance, you will be disappointed."

Ling Ran's body surged with genuine energy, and a taste of rust rose in his throat.Ling Ran held Yang Anning's hand to his face, and said, "Don't say that, An Ning, you're still alive, you're just... sick."

Ling Ran was full of panic, Yang Anning's death was the deepest fear in his heart, and it was also the most unacceptable thing for him.Yang Anning's death meant despair and endless torture to him, he could bear anything but Yang Anning's death.

Yang Anning withdrew her hand, this time without much effort, she easily withdrew her hand from Ling Ran's palm.Yang Anning smiled and said, "The distance between life and death is too far, and not all mistakes can be made up for. I'm sorry, Ah Ran, I really have nothing to do."

Ling Ran burst into tears, he hugged Yang Anning tightly, and said: "Don't say sorry to me... Brother An Ning, it's my fault, please forgive me... I know... I was wrong, I will cure you... ..."

Yang Anning asked: "How to cure a dead person?"

Ling Ran's tears wet Yang Anning's shoulders, he was stunned for a while, and said: "Come back to Shiwan Dashan with me. Everything started there, whether it is good or bad, come with me Finished."

Yang Anning froze.The Hundred Thousand Mountains was a place he never dared to recall, where his happiness ended, where he almost lost everything, and he was extremely resistant to it.But now, where did Ling Ran ask him to go back?Yang Anning instinctively shook her head and refused.He didn't want to go there, never would.

Ling Ran whispered in his ear: "An Ning, I don't believe you said you died there. Come back with me, we will get your future back..."

Yang Anning refused without saying a word.

Ling Ran hugged him tightly and repeated in a low voice: "An Ning, follow me back."

Yang Anning didn't respond, he looked up at the door, and Aning pushed the door open and walked in.Aning walked up to them, looked at him and said, "An Ning, I hope you are well."

Yang Anning reached out to him and held Aning's hand together.

Ling Ran felt Yang Anning's movements, he let go of Yang Anning, and watched Yang Anning speak to the void.

Yang Anning said: "I'm fine, Aning, don't worry."

Aning said: "He's right, there must be a conclusion. No matter what the result is, it's better than procrastinating day by day. After all these years, are you tired? I'm tired too."

Yang Anning was a little panicked, he held Aning's shoulders with both hands, and said, "Ah Ning, are you leaving me?