i know i'm sick

Chapter 37

Zhang Qian healed his body, and it can even be said that his madness can be cured, and Zhang Qian also played a great role in promoting it; but he was a little bit resistant to seeing Zhang Qian again, except for Ling Ran and himself, Zhang Qian is the only one who knows all their emotional entanglements, and Yang Anning always feels very uncomfortable with Zhang Qian.

Zhang Qian was very happy to see Yang Anning. He greeted Yang Anning excitedly: "Anning, I heard that your heart disease has recovered. This is the happiest news for me this year."

Yang Anning could only smile at him.

After breakfast, Yang Anning and Zhang Qian went into the room to check their bodies, Fan Yu stopped Ling Ran from talking about things in the yard.

Fan Yu said: "The martial arts conference I told you about before may not be held."

Ling Ran sneered and said, "I think so, that old man Zhang Guiyang thought it was 20 years ago."

Fan Yu said: "The main reason is that not many sects are willing to join the Cangyuan sect."

Ling Ran said: "They are not stupid. They will re-elect the leader of the martial arts in two years, right? Zhang Guiyang has been the leader of the martial arts for more than ten years. Now that he is old, there are many rising stars in the world. Let's come out to block the knife. Hmph, does he think others can't see his plan?"

Fan Yu chuckled lightly and said, "After all, you haven't done anything outrageous in these years."

Ling Ran said: "We haven't done it before. It's those famous and decent people who say 'If you are not of my race, your heart must be different'."

Fan Yu rubbed his nose, he can be regarded as one of the decent families, he felt that he had suffered an unwarranted disaster.

Fan Yu said: "Let's not talk about this. Are you really planning to quit the arena and just stay with him and stop meddling in the arena?"

Mentioning Yang Anning, Ling Ran's expression softened a bit: "Yes, from now on, there will be no such person as Ling Ran in the Jianghu. From now on, I will be where An Ning is."

Fan Yu said "tsk tut" twice, and said: "When I first met, I really didn't see that you were still a fool. Okay, you don't care about that huge family business yourself, and I, as a friend, don't have much to say. But don't forget about the competition between you and me, don't think that you can fool yourself by quitting the arena."

Ling Ran said: "When An Ning and I return to the north, you come to Zheliu Villa to find me."

Fan Yu felt that she had a tendency to be abused, so she ran all the way to the north to find Ling Ran and beat her up. Could it be that this is the legendary "send a thousand miles away"?

While Ling Ran was talking with Fan Yu, Yang Anning and Zhang Qian were also talking.

After carefully examining and inquiring about Yang Anning's physical condition, Zhang Qian said to him: "Your body is fine, just continue to take care of it according to the prescription I gave you earlier."

Yang Anning felt relieved, and said, "I've got a miracle doctor."

Zhang Qian said: "You still call me Miracle Doctor, I told you before, just call me Zhang Qian. I am older than you, if you don't like to call me by my first name, you can also call me Brother Zhang."

Yang Anning took advantage of the situation and called out: "Brother Zhang."

Zhang Qian put away his medicine box, sat at the table with Yang Anning, and said, "The physical problem is solved, An Ning, do you want to tell me about your heart disease?"

Yang Anning showed a troubled expression.

Zhang Qian said: "An Ning, if you have someone else to talk about besides me, then I won't ask any more today. But if you want to keep it in your heart, then tell me, after all, I heard it once before, and once I was born It’s not too difficult to talk to me after the second time.”

Yang Anning lowered her head.It's not that he doesn't want to tell Zhang Qian, it's just that Zhang Qian is Ling Ran's friend. Last time he didn't know about it, he only regarded Zhang Qian as a miracle doctor, so he can tell him without any scruples, but now he knows that Zhang Qian is Ling Ran's Friend, he couldn't speak anymore.

Zhang Qian seemed to see Yang Anning's concerns, and said: "My relationship with Ling Ran is not as close as you think. I was willing to visit you at Zheliu Villa before because Ling Ran promised me many benefits, and your symptoms I've never seen it before, and I'm curious, but my friendship with Ling Ran didn't help. I can promise you, I won't reveal a single word you said to me today to Ling Ran."

Yang Anning was persuaded, and said with some hesitation: "Actually, I don't know if I'm better or not, but Aning is indeed gone."

Zhang Qian asked: "Does Aning's disappearance hinder you?"

"What is obstruction?" Yang Anning's mouth was a bit bitter, "I just realized that Ah Ning and Ling Ran are the same person."

Zhang Qian then asked: "Then what are you doing to Ling Ran now?"

Yang Anning's eyes were a little blank, and he said: "I don't know. I should let him go, the farther away from him the better. But..." Yang Anning sighed, "I can't do it."

"Why? Because he pestered you?"

Yang Anning smiled wryly: "It's fine if that's the case. It's true that he pesters me, but if it's just because of his pestering, I can beat him, scold him for neglecting him and alienate him, but I can't. Ning, I can’t…”

Zhang Qian somewhat understood: "A-Ning is special to you, so even if you are afraid and resent Ling Ran, as long as you think that Ling Ran is also A-Ning, you can't be cruel to him, right?"

"Yes." Yang Anning nodded, "I should hate him. He lied to my feelings, he almost killed me, he made me a lunatic... But Aning is so good, and Aning is mine emotional sustenance..."

Yang Anning suddenly looked at Zhang Qian and asked, "Should I forgive him?"

Zhang Qian already understood Yang Anning's thoughts, he said: "You shouldn't ask me 'should I forgive him', you should ask yourself 'can you forgive him'."

Yang Anning immediately said: "I can't, I will never forgive him in my life."

Zhang Qian couldn't help but sigh, and said, "An Ning, besides Ling Ran, would you fall in love with anyone else?"

Yang Anning said: "I can't fall in love with others. I may not have the ability to love others now. I am afraid that if I fall in love with another person, that person will tell me that he is playing a very interesting game with me."

Zhang Qian said secretly, "Creating evil", and asked: "An Ning, what do you think Ling Ran is doing now—seeking me to treat your illness, quitting the rivers and lakes for you, and going back to Zheliu Villa with you—all these things he has done. , all to harm you one day in the future?"

Yang Anning fell silent.

After a long time, Yang Anning said, "Maybe."

Zhang Qian didn't know what to say, so he could only say: "An Ning, Ling Ran will not leave your side."

Yang Anning said, "I know."

Zhang Qian asked: "Do you know that if Ling Ran doesn't let go, you will always be tied to him from now on?"

Yang Anning still said, "I know."

Zhang Qian had the urge to beat up Ling Ran, he thought and thought, and finally said: "Since you can no longer accept others, and Ling Ran can't let you go, why don't you just live with him like this. Although you will live in the fear that Ling Ran may change his face at any time, you can think about it from another angle, before Ling Ran changes his face, you can always live with Aning. An Ning, will I make you feel better by saying this?"

Yang Anning slowly showed a smiling face, and said, "Brother Zhang, thank you. Thinking about it this way, the days to come don't seem so sad..."

Zhang Qian patted him on the shoulder and said, "It's not wrong for you to love Aning, and it's not wrong for you not to forgive Ling Ran. An Ning, don't get into a dead end."

Yang Anning said, "I understand."

Zhang Qian left after seeing Yang Anning's condition. Before leaving, he asked Ling Ran: "Do you know what you lost?"

Ling Ran replied: "I know."

The tranquility that loved him and trusted him before will never come back.

Ling Ran doesn't know if there will be a day when Yang Anning can say "I believe in you" to him with a smile, maybe it will never happen, he can only stay by Yang Anning's side, always in Yang Anning's ear Repeat "I love you."

One day, two days, three days... until the day when Yang Anning closes his eyes forever, and he is still by his side, maybe Yang Anning will believe in him at that time.

Ling Ran and Yang Anning stayed in Yicheng for five days, and then went north all the way. Along the way, they saw the cherry blossoms flying all over the sky in spring, the glowing peach blossoms in summer, and the chrysanthemums in full bloom in autumn. In the winter, the plum blossoms with faint fragrance and sparse shadows.Before another new year came, they finally returned to Zheliu Villa on a snowy day.

73.

Liu Sanzhe and Qiao Dalou were ecstatic about Yang Anning's return. Although they had already received the news of Yang Anning's safety and knew that his illness was cured, they still couldn't hide their excitement when they saw Yang Anning healed with their own eyes. Emotions.

Liu Sanzhe hugged Yang Anning and cried loudly, tears and snot all over Yang Anning's body; although Qiao Loudou didn't shed tears, his eyes were still red.

Yang Anning patted Liu Sanzhe's back, smiled and said to them: "It's all over, and I will never leave again."

Liu Sanzhe and Qiao accepted Ling Ran loudly and silently.They didn't know what twists and turns Yang Anning went through to cure her madness, but they all saw Ling Ran's care and love for Yang Anning this year.Yang Anning didn't drive Ling Ran away, he let Ling Ran stay by his side. Although Ling Ran had done many things to Yang Anning that were worse than beasts, since Yang Anning accepted him, Liu Sanzhe and Qiao Loudao would not raise the issue. Dissenting opinion.

Yang Anning and Ling Ran never shared a room, even if there was only one room left in the inn on the way back, Yang Anning slept in the guest room and Ling Ran slept in the carriage.Neither of them ever mentioned sleeping together.

Sometimes Ling Ran would sneak into Yang Anning's room when he was asleep, just like this all night quietly looking at his sleeping face, and then