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Chapter 14 Showdown

Zhong Lin arrived at the agreed place before his mother.

When Zhou Jing arrived, he had just finished ordering, and almost all of the dishes he ordered were Zhou Jing's favorites.

"Son, why did you choose to be here?"

Zhou Jing thought that Zhong Lin would choose a western restaurant or a hot pot restaurant, but he didn't expect him to choose a private kitchen.

The taste is good, but the price is too expensive.

Zhong Lin smiled at her: "Don't you like their perch in golden soup very much? It's been a long time since I've been here. Let's try it later and the taste hasn't changed."

"I can also eat at your Auntie Ye, why waste this money..."

"Mom." Zhong Lin interrupted her softly, coaxing, "I'm here now, don't worry about the money, okay? I gave you a bonus two days ago, and I just want to treat you to a delicious meal."

"Well, I know you are filial." Zhou Jing is not a nagging mother. Zhong Lin has said so, and she no longer struggles. Thinking of the aunt who called that day, she asked, "You sent me a message the other day saying I have already settled the account of Aunt Li's family, are you borrowing money from my colleagues?"

"Well, I borrowed it from a friend." Yan Zhengming settled the account for him that day, and then Zhong Lin borrowed 8 from Zhou Yijin and transferred it to him.

"I'll transfer the more than 3 yuan in my card to you later, and you will pay back part of it first."

"I don't want it, you keep it." Zhong Lin comforted her, "My recent part-time income is not bad, and I can pay it back to him in a few months, so don't worry."

Zhou Jing wanted to say something, but was interrupted by the waiter who came in with a tray.

Fragrant delicate dishes were served one after another, and Zhong Lin said softly, "I'm hungry, let's eat first."

Seeing that the dishes on the table were all her favorites, Zhou Jing felt even more distressed, and forced a smile: "Okay."

She didn't like to talk much when eating, so Zhong Lin seldom talked to her, and only occasionally chatted with her about her parents and commented on the dishes.

He waited until he was almost finished eating before opening the conversation box again, and tentatively asked: "Mom, do you want to change your life?"

"Why do you need to change the environment? I live quite well at your Aunt Ye's house." Zhou Jing didn't understand why he asked this suddenly.

"I feel embarrassed that I have troubled people for so many years. I want to rent a house outside and take you to live with me."

His mother worked as a nanny over there, earning a higher salary than the housekeeper, and did the least work, and the boss never showed her face.

Zhong Lin always felt that Aunt Ye Lan took in the homeless mother, and every time he thought of this, he felt sad and guilty.

Zhou Jing didn't take it seriously: "There's nothing to be ashamed of, I also work there, and you and Auntie Ye are friends, and our family has helped them before, isn't it that friends help each other? Common topic, I like to stay with her. If you go out to rent a house alone, it will cost thousands of dollars a month, I can’t live in it all the time, and you can’t always be with me, why bother?”

"I think we are alone in the same place all year round. We have no fixed place. Every time we want to chat with you alone, we can only make an appointment outside. We can only meet outside or go back to my aunt's place during the holidays. It's too inconvenient. .”

Zhong Lin had done mental preparation for this day a long time ago, and he had rehearsed it in his heart many times from last night to today, but now in front of his mother, he still couldn't help being nervous, and he talked about it for a long time. Not to the point.

"That's why I want you to have a girlfriend. If you get married, at least the two of us won't be the only ones staring at each other during the holidays..." Zhou Jing was a little puzzled when he saw his expression changed, "Son, what are you doing today?" What's the matter? Why are you suddenly so emotional? Do you have something to tell me?"

"I..." Zhong Lin felt his throat tighten. He took a sip of water from his water glass and said as calmly as possible, "I've always wanted to tell you something, but I never knew how to say it."

"Is it about your relationship?"

After all, it is his own son. Zhou Jing can easily catch the strangeness from Zhong Lin's micro-expressions when he was a child, and Zhong Lin's behavior today is really abnormal.

Apart from avoiding every time when talking about feelings, Zhong Lin has almost no other secrets in front of her.

They were all experienced, and Zhou Jing could guess some of them. She never asked, because she felt that Zhong Lin was more mature and rational than her peers since she was a child, and she always did things with restraint. She respected him very much.

It's just that she didn't understand why Zhong Lin was so hard to say at this time, could it be that he fell in love with someone he shouldn't?

Zhong Lin didn't expect his mother to see through his thoughts at a glance, and felt that there was no way out, and his heart was panicked.

He swallowed, trying to make his voice sound gentle and calm.

"Mom, if possible, I also want to find a gentle and amiable girl to fall in love with, get married and have children as you expect." He paused, then took a deep breath, "But I can't like girls, The person I like...is a man."

Zhou Jing's expression froze, and the curiosity and doubt in her eyes were replaced by astonishment.

She didn't speak, but just looked at Zhong Lin in disbelief, and her eyes slowly turned red after a while.

"how so……"

"Mom, I'm sorry." Zhong Lin was frightened by her expression and became more nervous than ever.

Tears welled up in Zhou Jing's eyes, and she couldn't accept it: "How did it become like this? Did your dad and I mislead in the past? You look so normal, why do you like men? Zhong Lin, how can you I like men..."

The more Zhou Jing talked, the more she broke down, and tears fell down her face.

Seeing Zhong Lin's hesitation at first, she was worried about whether he meddled in other people's feelings, but after thinking about Zhong Lin's character, she thought it was impossible.

Did not expect the real situation to be like this.

Zhong Lin was in a hurry, got up and sat in front of her, wanted to hug her, but didn't dare to reach out, just said apologetically: "Mom, I'm sorry, don't blame yourself, I was born like this, I seem to be born only It's not your and dad's fault that you like men, and I don't think it's wrong to like men."

Zhou Jing covered her face and began to cry.

She knows that love is gender-neutral, as long as it doesn't hurt others, Zhong Lin is free to choose whomever he likes, and she has no position to ask Zhong Lin to carry on the family line for the Zhong family. up.

She was just afraid, just distressed.

Zhong Lin is still young, and has not really seen the lethality of gossip, nor has he really seen the feelings that gradually disintegrate in the life of oil, salt and firewood. No matter how strong and hot love is, there is a shelf life. With children and responsibilities as fetters, what is there between the same sex?

She's also met a lot of gay people, and none of the couples are the last ones.

She knows her son too well, they taught him to be too upright and kind, he is born with a strong personality and accepts death, and he is very emotional. People who care have a tolerance that is almost bottomless.

When he was young and affectionate, the death of a dog could make him feel sad for half a year, and make him swear that he would never keep a pet again in his life.

Let alone people.

She is not optimistic about the relationship between the same sex, she is afraid that Zhong Lin will get hurt.

"I know that there is nothing wrong with liking the same sex, but with the mainstream society like this, there is a price to pay for going against the current. Same-sex marriages are not allowed, and you have no guarantee. What people think of you You? Zhong Lin, you will be hurt."

Zhong Lin was heartbroken by her crying, and took out a tissue to wipe her tears: "Mom, you have been here before, and you should know that marriage can't guarantee a person's happiness. There are so many married and divorced people of the opposite sex. There are also those who are married and widowed. Relationship is a matter between two people, and only we know whether we are happy or not. You have experienced more than me, and you know better than me. It’s so hard to love someone, I’ve met them now, and I don’t want to give up.”

Zhou Jing was so confused that she couldn't find a reason to refute him.

Zhong Lin continued to work hard and comforted her in a firm tone: "I am not afraid of gossip. For me, the most embarrassing period has passed, and no one will hurt me with words in the future. I only care about you from the beginning to the end. Feeling, I don't want you to worry, and I don't want you to be sad because of me, so I don't know how to talk to you, Mom, I'm sorry, if you are angry, you can hit me, don't cry, okay? "

Zhou Jing was not willing to beat him, she was not angry, what she cared about was whether Zhong Lin would get hurt and whether he could be happy.

"Just...do you like it that much?" She was surprised at the firmness in Zhong Lin's tone.

In her eyes, Zhong Lin has always been rational and has a plan for doing things. She has never seen Zhong Lin so "impulsive", and he seems to have identified that person in both words and deeds.

Seeing her slowly stop crying, Zhong Lin secretly breathed a sigh of relief, and did not answer her question directly, but said: "I haven't told you who he is yet, you met Yan Zhengming. We read We were together when we were in college, but we separated for a long time. It was I who broke up because I was afraid that you would be sad and disagree, so I was afraid to tell you my sexual orientation. He was very insecure At that time, we always quarreled and I always made him sad. I was under too much pressure when my father had an accident, so I broke up with him. He has been abroad for several years He said that he came back because of me, and now we are working in a company. I thought I had let him go, but after meeting, I found that I still like him very much."

Zhou Jing met Yan Zhengming a few times before, and in his impression he was a tall, handsome and very sunny boy. His family seemed to be rich, and he drove a different sports car every time he went to their house.

Zhong Lin deliberately concealed the other party's family background, probably because he was afraid that she would have more worries about it.

It can be seen that besides the pressure from her here, Zhong Lin is actually under other pressures.

Zhou Jing remembered Zhong Lin's illness three years ago, and tentatively asked, "Did you get sick because of him?"

Zhong Lin's face froze, and he didn't admit it: "It's all over, I'm fine now."

Zhou Jing suddenly felt very distressed, but she also couldn't bear to embarrass Zhong Lin.

She forced herself to calm down, calmed down secretly, and asked with red eyes after a long time: "Is he treating you well? Do his parents know that you are together?"

"He treated me very well. He confessed his sexual orientation to his family very early on, and he also mentioned me to his parents. They didn't object."

There are some lies in Zhong Lin's truth.

Zhou Jing didn't know what was going on. Hearing what Zhong Lin said, he felt a little relieved, and said in a proud tone, "What do they have to object to? My son is so good."

Zhong Lin saw that her attitude was gradually softening, and her nerves were gradually relaxing, and deliberately teased her: "Most mothers in the world think that their son is a dragon and a tiger. In your eyes, I am a treasure, but in the eyes of others, I may be a fake of."

"My son just stands out."

"Yes, it's because your son is so charming, he's a natural charmer, and he's hard to find with a lantern."

"It was."

Zhong Lin stretched out his arms and hugged her: "Mom, I'm sorry for keeping you in the dark for so long."

Zhou Jing froze for a moment, hugged him back and patted him lightly, and said, "It's okay, son, I'm just afraid that you will be wronged."

"No, I'm very happy now." Zhong Lin let go of her and asked, "Do you want to see him?"

Zhou Jing's expression tightened: "Is he here today?"

"No, he's on a business trip. If you agree, I'll take him to see you sometime."

Zhou Jing looked a little embarrassed, and said tactfully: "He should be very busy at ordinary times, right? Take it easy first, okay?"

"Okay." Zhong Lin didn't force it, his mother's reaction was much better than he expected, and he didn't want to make her feel so uncomfortable.

The two chatted for a while later, Zhong Lin didn't want to irritate his mother anymore, so he picked up a lighter topic to talk about.

At eight o'clock in the evening, Zhong Lin sent his mother back to Song Yaju, and then returned home.

When the lights came on, Zhong Lin sat in the taxi and watched the neon lights flickering outside the car window, and the traffic flowed like weaving, suddenly felt a little sad.

He actually lied to his mother.

He wasn't born to like men. Before he met Yan Zhengming, he knew that he would marry and have children in the future. He didn't reject girls. Of course, he didn't think there was anything wrong with liking men. He had never been moved by anyone before.

It was Yan Zhengming who led him to open this door.

Now he can't imagine living with anyone other than Yan Zhengming.

He thought, if one day Yan Zhengming didn't want him anymore, he would really have to die alone.

In the past, Yan Zhengming always said that he had no sense of security, that he was giving himself a way out, but now that he has cut off this so-called way out, can Yan Zhengming feel at ease?

Zhong Lin glanced at his phone, Yan Zhengming was probably still busy and hadn't called or sent him a message all day.

After arriving home, Zhong Lin was bored and sat on the sofa for a while, holding his mobile phone and wanted to send a message to Yan Zhengming. He made up a lot of words over and over again, and finally deleted them all.

I only sent him one sentence: [I came out with my mother. 】

After waiting for a long time, no one came back.

Zhong Lin was so angry that he couldn't concentrate on playing games.

When it was ten o'clock, Zhong Lin angrily crawled to sleep thinking about going to work tomorrow.

I lay in bed for a long time, unable to fall asleep.

Tossing and turning until twelve o'clock, he couldn't help getting up and eating the leftover zopiclone, and finally fell asleep 10 minutes later.

In the middle of the night, I was woken up again by the ringing of the phone.

Zhong Lin was furious, picked it up and yelled over there: "Yan Zhengming, why are you crazy in the middle of the night?!"

Yan Zhengming panted a little, lowered his voice and said, "Honey, open the door for me."

Zhong Lin turned over and sat up.

After being stunned for two seconds, he got out of bed and ran to open the door without even having time to put on his shoes.

Outside the door is Yan Zhengming who has rushed back from the world.

Judging by his attire, he should have attended some banquet at night. His clothes are neat and his hair has been styled.

"You... woo!"

Yan Zhengming squeezed into the room and kicked the door with one foot, threw himself on the man, hugged him, and kissed him, the movements were done in one go.